| Dear Jesus! |
[23 Sep 2004|11:16am] |
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LUX!!!! I HAVE MISSED YOU!!! I got a new Blurty.. It's incaseyoudie.. BUT, I am having a hard time getting them to validate my new e-mail.. The hookers. Anyways.. I gots me a new boyfriend. His name is Levi Benjamin Pace, and he's wonderful. I will tell you more about him later after I get home tonght.. As for now. I must go. I have missed you all.. Especially you my Luxy!
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| Oh my God.. |
[09 Sep 2004|04:43am] |
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brad paisley // little moments |
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I am angry.. Angry and sick of being lied to. "Oh, he wants to see you.. I sware." Then he comes over here and doesn't say a word to me.. And then I get told he didn't want to be out here in the first freaking place.. How queer. But I guess it's my fault that things are messed up like they are. Oh well.. I just need to do like Lauren said I should.. *chants* --COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE!! I can't wait..
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| Stole this from Lauren.. |
[09 Sep 2004|04:36am] |
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YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (name of 1st pet + street you grew up on)
Gus Herbermont
YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (name of your favorite snack food + grandfathers 1st name)
Ho ho's Clem
YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (1st word you see on your left + fav. restaurant)
Kentucky Chi Chi's
EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last/Ideal Foreign Vacation Spot)
Nutmeg Paris
SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You Were Born)
Gretta Indianapolis
"FLY GIRL" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)
G. Le
DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School)
Panda Martinsville
BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Drink)
Cheese puffs Fanta
SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived)
Michelle Herbermont
YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (FIRST NAME: 1st 3 letters of your last name + 1st 2 letters of your first name; LAST NAME: 1st 2 letters of your mother's maiden name + 1st 3 letters of the city you were born in)
Leagr Beher
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| Whatever. My life has gone to shit.. |
[05 Sep 2004|03:16pm] |
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shedaisy // come home soon |
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Everyone has screwed me over. It was nice thinking there for a while I had my sister who wouldn't screw me over. Pshh, that's the understatement of the year. She's done nothing but lie to me, and betray me for the past week. I feel like I have no one now.. Oh well. I am soo sick of this bullshit. I'll like a guy, then she will mess around with them. It's gay to the max. I hate it.. And one of these days, she is going to need me and I am not going to be there. Maybe then she will realize what she's done. Maybe not..
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| Fuck you, you big bitch! I have gigantic titties!! |
[01 Sep 2004|04:37pm] |
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eisley // laughing city |
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Okay, that subject was a little weird.. I was just putting down random things. I said bad words too.. I am so disappointed in myself. Damn you, Gretchen. Anyways.. I had an interesting day at school. I was gone for the last 3 school days.. And I have a huge test in Government tomorrow. I asked Mr. Brown if I could have an extra day, and the old fart said no. What a crock.. Oh well.
I have to get off the computer.. Like 6 billion people are talking to me and I am confused. lol
I'll update later..
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| Hah ha! |
[25 Aug 2004|04:53pm] |
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From now on, my Blurty is
FRIENDS ONLY
Comment and I might add you.
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| Sigh.. |
[23 Aug 2004|06:34pm] |
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Once again.. I was used. I am boyfriendless..
I am nothing, and my life has no meaning. I am giving up on boys.. For good.
..............Maybe I really did make a mistake.
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| Good morning.. |
[23 Aug 2004|05:30am] |
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I just wanted to say hello to everyone before I go to school!
Byyee!!
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| This is the cuteness!! |
[22 Aug 2004|04:13pm] |
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This is soo cute.
( cute )
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| Sigh.. |
[21 Aug 2004|06:52pm] |
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big & rich // save a horse (ride a cowboy) |
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Okay.. Here is what's happened the past few days...
*I met Jay afterschool.. He kissed me. I went home, got on the net and he told me he DOSEN'T like me. (It's all good. I don't care.. It's his loss anyways.)
*I started talking to this guy named J.K. Sanders.
*I went places with J.K. and Danny Crone afterschool Friday.
*I spent the night with J.K. and got to know him a lot better.
*Now J.K. and I are "going out" or dating. lol
Yeah, at first I was pretty shitty about Jay, because he lead me on.. But now, I figured why waste my time on someone who doesn't care? I should just move on to someone who does, which is J.K. He's awesome. I <33 him. He's such a hick though, which I love.. Because as much as I deny it.. I am a hick too. I just pretend not to be. lmao..
Well, I am going to go for now..
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| First day of school.. |
[18 Aug 2004|03:44pm] |
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I had a good day, I suppose. Government is by far my favorite class. Mr. Brown in cool. I have B lunch.. Joe is in there. Good God.. But, Sarah.. My old friend, is in there. We ate together. I <333 her, she rocks. We have the same Dickies purse, only her's is red and black. Mine is pink and black. Did I mention I saw Jay? lol.. He's so hot. His younger sister Kera (She is a Freshman), says I am ugly. lol.. Oh well.
I am getting ready to go buy more school supplies.. And tan. When I get home, I am calling Jay.. And asking him to meet me somewhere in the morning. I want to see him more than once a day, ya know? lol
Well, I'm off..
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| I wrote a poem.. |
[17 Aug 2004|10:10am] |
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sorry dear // gretchen michelle
Sorry dear, I've kissed his lips and they've promised me healing. You never promised me anything, other than a shattered ego and a broken heart. I'm not up for your games today. It's boys like you that make me think I'm better off.. And I'm better off, when I'm with him.. But when it comes to you, I might as well be 6 feet under. I can't expect you to understand.. You never worry about anyone other than yourself anyways. So, with that said I'm saying goodbye as I move on down this road hand in hand, with him.
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| Yay! |
[17 Aug 2004|09:49am] |
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I had a good night last night. Jay called me 3 times! It was awesome. He asked me why I hadn't called him yet.. lol. I guess Josh called and told him that he gave me his (Jay's) number. I explained to him that I didn't want him to think I was stalking him.. So I thought I would wait until he called me.
Anyways, we had some nice conversations. He loves shopping at Goodwill! I love Goodwill!!! lol, it's the best place ever. I told him that I wanted to go to a Goodwill with him, and he said that would be fun. lol..
I really like him a lot. He's a good guy. Well kiddos.. I shall update later. I must go shopping!!
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| Oh my God.. Yes!!! |
[17 Aug 2004|12:54am] |
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JAY CALLED ME!!!!! WHOOOO!!!
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| Whoo.. |
[16 Aug 2004|04:06pm] |
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Boy, I sure do feel clean now.. And I look pretty. For once, I actually believe that I look pretty, because I feel pretty. Yay!
I am still waiting on Jay to call. I don't like waiting, I am not a very patient person as you can tell. I just can't stand the pressure of waiting on something I want really bad. lol
I think I am getting ready to drive into town for my mom. If she still needs me to that is. I don't really feel like it, but I will. I'll swing by Joe's and drive my Jeep through his living room. Hehe, evil.. Aren't I?
Well.. I am going to go do some things.. I shall update later kids.
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| Yeesh.. |
[16 Aug 2004|03:04pm] |
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I really think I need to get out of this crackpot town that I am living in. I hate the people here, well most of them.. And they know who they are.. The lillie bastards. Anyways, I am sick of living here. One more year of school and I am gone. I don't know where I am going, I guess I will find out when I get there. I just completely hate it here. Friends are the only reason I want to stay.. And school is making me at the moment. If it wasn't for those two, I would be out like an anorexic chick in an eating contest. lol
Well, I am going to take a shower now.
Byyee!!
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| Whatever.. |
[16 Aug 2004|02:34pm] |
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I've decided to just let it go.. Because if he really wants to do something with me before summer is over.. He will find a way to get to me. Too bad tonight is the only night I can do something before summer ends, because we go back to school on Wednesday, and there is NO way my dad will let me go anywhere on Tuesday night. Oh well, I guess if he wants to see me, he'll call sometime today, and we will chill. If not, oh well. That's life, and sometimes life isn't all hearts and flowers, rainbows and puppies.. And I would get sick if it was.
I am going shopping tomorrow. I am super excited to the max. I love going clothes shopping for school. I always buy stuff that no one else wears, or I usually make my own shirts. I need to go back to doing that, because it's fun being all creative and putting my special touch on my articles of clothing. It rocks.
So my sister had a few of her guy buds come over last night at like 1:30 in the morning. It was funny, they left and came back.. And then they left again, and came back one more time. lol.. Finally they left about 4:30 in the morning. lol.. I came in the house, changed into my p.j's and went sleepy-by. Boy was I beat.
So here I am now praying that Jay will call me. Part of me wants to call him, and the other part wants him to call here first. It's kind of like this little test my mind is playing out, just to see how much he really does like me. I guess we'll see. lol
I should update again today.. As for right now, I am going to eat some Ho-Ho's or Ding Dong's.. Whichever we have. lol
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| Look at me here, I am such a baby.. |
[15 Aug 2004|04:20pm] |
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I always tell EVERYONE to get over themselves, and do the things they are afraid to do.. And here I sit, the phone in my hand, and his number in my head.... NOT calling him. I am scared. lol.. I hate myself for not having the courage to dial his number.. Because I want to hear his voice. I want to hear him tell me I'm beautiful.. Because I actually believe him when he tells me it.
I am beating myself up over this. I sat on the couch last night and just thought.. "What if I don't call him? What if I don't make the move..? He might make his move, and move on." I don't like the thought of that.. But I couldn't get it out of my head last night.. And you know what.. ? I STILL haven't called him. I have been telling myself ever since I woke up, that I would call him at like 5:00 or something.. But now I am thinking 5:00 is too early.
Arg, I hate this. It just makes me more crazy.. Like I need to be crazier. Sheesh..
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| To Joe.. |
[15 Aug 2004|03:34pm] |
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Joe, if you stumble across my Blurty.. And I know you will.. Make sure you READ this..
Answering Machine // Matt Nathanson
I met a new one and he looks just like you
He gives me everything that you didn't want to
And maybe I don't need saving after all
He sticks in my ribs almost better than you did
And maybe I'm tired or maybe he glows
I wonder if you're still defending
I wonder if you're still defending
Met someone with your eyes and skin
I can convince him of anything
And baby, it's so delicious you should
Come here and see for yourself
"I'm gone", you said, "if this is all there is…"
You'll never shine alone
And I wonder if you're still defending
I wonder if you're still defending
You've been so wrong
For so long now
(I can fall alone if all
if I can fall away)
I've kissed others lips
And they promised me healing
It's easy if you try
NOTE: I changed all the "she's" to "he's"..
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