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    Friday, September 5th, 2003
    9:27 pm
    The Always Entertaining Library
    The library sounds like it would be an incredibly boring place to study for two hours, but that is not always the case. I have heard many unique things while in there. For instance one time last semester I had overheard a fight between two students, sadly I didn't know what it was over because they spoke Spanish. The other day I heard a girl breaking up with someone (in Russian) or something like that, then she proceeded to cry and sniffle for over an hour, calling this person back now and then. Today there was an annoying cricket making noice everytime I attemped to read my book. Who knows what else I will hear while at the library.

    Anyway, I am having a bit of a ruff time adjusting to being back to classes. I think that over the summer I didn't notice my social skills problem as much because I was busy working. Now I have to attempt to change some of my old habits. For instance sitting by myself in the library rather than going to the cafeteria to find people I know, or trying to join a club. I wanted to go to this club meeting today, but I chickened out. I can't meet people sitting in the library. Grr, this is frustrating. I think this will be quite a challenge, but I need some new friends.

    Current Mood: aggravated
    Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
    10:41 am
    Not the Phone!!
    It's funny but as the summer has gone on I have learned to fear the phone ringing more and more. Especially in the early morning. It has happened more than enough that the phone rings before 8:00 am. I am awakened to find that it is work, trying to call me in on my day off. I'm usually to asleep to find a valid excuse, so I have to wake up and rush around to get into work. A few times I managed to "miss" the phone ringing, which gives me a chance to call back and sound sincere enough that I really can't make it in.
    That is why when I woke up this morning at 8:00 to the phone ringing, and my mom answering it I was terrified. They had one more chance to steal my freedom before I was done working for the summer. Well they missed it. It wasn't them. But my heart jumped just the same, and I also mumbled in my sleeping stupor, "No, don't answer."
    I should make it clear that I don't mind work, and once I get there after being called in it's not bad. It's just the idea that I should have had that day off the bothers me. That's something I should work on. Realizing that what happens, happens, and I can't think about what would have happened.

    The other day I went to the library by our new house for the first time. It is a lot smaller than the one I usually go to, yet I still managed to get three intersting books. One is a field guide for birdwatching. I am going on a birdwatch soon, and so that is helpful. The other is a book by the Dalai Lama, those are alway's interesting. The third is a book on tai chi, that should be fun to read if I get around to it.
    I used to dread library's and book stores. My mom would drag me in, and make me wait around forever while she looked. Now though I get excited to go. There are so many great things to find. I can explore my interests further. I'm alway's happy to leave with a few books I want to read.

    Current Mood: lethargic
    Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
    7:58 pm
    Would You Like Ketchup with That?
    I had an interesting day, some may call it "bad", but I was in good enough spirits that I didn't let it get to me. First of all after less than an hour at work I ended up spilling ketchup all over my shirt, what a mess. I had just enough time to run to the sink and splash it off with some water, than dry it with a paper towel. Then it was back to work. If that wasn't bad enough the poor grill person was so behind due to the grill being screwed up, which caused all of us to be behind. Still nothing phased me.
    Next the drive home from work caused more disaster. It started off just fine. Then the rain came. I should mention here that that would be no problem for most other drivers, exept that my car's winshield wipers are broken, and therefore only run on slow speed. The rain got worse, and I was forced to park for a while. Later I found out that my mom had followed me part way home from work, and I could have ended up getting a ride with her had things worked out right.
    I guess the point of this entry is that recurring theme in here, that attitude is everything. Yes I became somewhat frusterated today. I did not however let everything get to me. I let things take there course, and all is well. Of course I have days where I want to crawl under my covers, and never come out just like everyone else. I just think that my attitude adjustment has helped me have fewer days like that.

    Current Mood: chipper
    Monday, August 25th, 2003
    10:30 am
    Lot's About Food
    So the other day I was typing madly here, updating my journal just the way I wanted it, when the computer froze!! I lost the whole thing. I started writing some on paper quickly, which I will transfer to here shortly though. Not quite the same as the off the top of my head version.

    Also I work today, and I have heard that now that college is back in session near the restaurant lunch will be absolutely a mad house. Sounds fun.

    Yesterday I was out to eat at a buffet. I am convinced buffet's are a very bad idea. I have done an excellent job eating reasonable proportions for a long time now. Something about that buffet made me want to eat over my limit though. Now I am a farely thin person, and I don't over eat the extreme, however I can see how these buffet's tempt people who tend to go really overboard around all that food. This country has a real problem with weight. Obssesion over being thin, yet obssession with poor eating habits.
    As I mentioned I don't have a weight problem, but I did have a problem with overeating. I found that the best way for me is just to eat anything I want in small portions, and to be concious of eating as many healthy things as I can. I can have desserts, or whatever, but I don't over do it. I think most people who try to have a restrictive diet fail because they can't keep it up. No wonder they never succeed. Those stupid commersials for diet pills, and all of that crap don't help either.

    Current Mood: discontent
    Friday, August 22nd, 2003
    7:27 pm
    Power Out, Light Bulb On
    We had a thunderstorm here today. It occured around 6:00, and it knocked out the power. It was out for just over one hour. I came to a realization after the power was back on; I take many things for granted. I recognize this from time to time, but having the power go out today gives me a great opportunity to write about it.
    I got angry, and moody very quickly. I frantically searched for flashlights incase the power didn't come back. I began to sweat from the intense heat! How awful. I didn't have the televison, or the internet for an entire hour. What a trajedy. I paced, and wondered when our lights would come on. I was jealous of the folks across the street who did still have power. I barely batted an eye upon hearing about New York not having power, because I wasn't there.
    It makes me think how good I really have it. Some people have none of the things I have. I dare to complain over one hour without power. I grumble over my old car, which gets me anywhere I want to go. I sleep in a cozy bed at night, but sometimes think it's too small. I have all the food I could ever eat, yet moan over a supper that's not up to my standards.
    I once was told that every night before I go to sleep I should say to myself three things that were good about my day, no matter how horrible it was. I think I will start to do this again. I should appreciate all the wonderful things I am blessed with.

    Current Mood: grateful
    Thursday, August 21st, 2003
    7:15 pm
    Random Thoughts
    This journal thing is fun, but I am already having some writers block. I don't know what to write about right now.

    Anyway I'm glad to know everything is now straightened out with my work schedule. I never thought I would say this, but I will miss the place for a little while. I will probably go back for vacations anyway though. It's funny how easy it is to get attached to a routine. I think it's good to break the routine, and try new things though, or it becomes a rut, which is really difficult to break.
    Sometimes I expect the door bell to ring, and there comes a brand new, exciting opportunity just waiting for me. It took me quite a few years to learn that's not usually the way things work. If you want something to happen you have to make it happen. I finally came to learn I am responsible for what I do, and don't do. I now know I can't just wait around, I have to make a plan and go for it.
    It's like travelling to Japan, I once would have said, "Someday I'll go." Now I have a plan of action. I worked this summer to save money, I went to the travel agency for booklets, and I picked a few trips I was interested in. Now all I have to do is set up the trip, and the tough part is finding someone to go. I also learned that I must adapt though, so if no one will go, I'll do it on my own.
    See I started writing, and it all just flowed from my keyboard.

    Also if anyone happens to read my journal you're welcome to leave a comment, I like feedback. However I realize not that many people may come across this. I intentionally limited the ways to find it. It's still available under my interests though.

    Current Mood: relieved
    Current Music: Once again, Nothing
    7:05 am
    My Morning Ritual
    I was thinking this morning while taking a shower about how specific I am about getting ready in the morning. It's to the point of somewhat obsessive. In my mind the day can't go right if I start the morning differently than usual. So here is my schedule for my morning:

    Days off: 1. wake up no later than 10:00, ( hopefully between 8:00 and 9:00)
    2. shower immediately
    3. dress
    4. dry my hair for at least 15 minutes, hopefully until completely dry
    5. breakfast, usually 2 bowls of cereal, and orange juice. Fruit, when available ( Or make something like French toast, or eggs. Brush teeth.
    6. relax

    Work/School Days

    1. wake up at 5:45 am ( no hitting th snooze button)- wonder across my room to hit the alarm.
    2. lay out clothing for the day- which have been ironed the evening before.
    3. shower
    4. hair drying for 15 or more minutes
    5. usual breakfast, brush teeth
    6. gather all the things I need for the day in one spot
    7. pace the house for a while
    8. if I have no plans until later in the morning I may sleep for a while in the "lazy boy".
    (original wake up time never changes)
    9. go to car 5 minutes early, wait to leave
    10. arrive at destination 15 minutes early

    I guess that's pretty much it. That's a little scary, I should change the routine a bit, then I'd see I wouldn't fall apart during the day just because I didn't follow my exact ritual.

    Current Mood: distressed
    Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
    6:22 pm
    Venting on Various Subjects
    Looks like working during school is not going to work out. The fact that I had a really bad day at work will make it much easier to quite too. I will resist the temtation to whine about my job. My other entry about it being mostly positive still holds true, it's just hard to remember that after a bad day.

    I think I will complain about something else though; bad drivers. I cannot understand why some people feel the need to drive like complete maniacs. There must be a sense of power and being invincible which creates this problem. I don't even feel safe driving on these streets, with all of these nuts. Today some guy was swerving, tailgating, and freely switching lanes to get absolutely no further than the rest of us who were driving like sane people. I see these kind of drivers too much, and it's probably much worse in some areas. Endangering your own life is one thing, but endangering everyone elses, so that you can get home in time for some tv show, or whatever is quite another. Oh well, there isn't much any of us can do about it, but it is worth mentioning.

    I didn't want this journal to be just a place to complain, that's what it looks like tonight, but I'll keep it, because that's what's on my mind at the moment. I think that is the important thing, that I write about what's on my mind.

    Current Mood: aggravated
    7:04 am
    Fall semester update
    Goals for the Fall semester 2003: 1. join a club
    2. make a new friend
    3. learn something in all of my classes (seems obvious, but many
    students are never concious even when in class so you never know.)
    4. plan my trip to Japan

    I need to pick up my books today from the bookstore. That always makes the new schedule very real. Looking through those books makes me think twice about torturing my self for another semester. I was going to go after work to pick them up, but I'll be in my work clothes. I don't think I want to do that after all.

    I don't know what else to write, so how about some advice to new students. I'm sure none will read it anyway, so it'll be used to keep myself in check.
    1. Never skip any classes
    2. stay ahead of all homework
    3. read the text books! it makes things a lot easier.
    4. join a club- I should have already.
    5. do not be afraid to talk to the professor
    6. don't be ashamed to get a tutor.
    7. start projects more than one day before they are due

    Current Mood: worried
    Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
    6:44 pm
    Lesson of the Day
    I'm not sure where I'm going to go with this entry, so I'll start writing and see where I end up. I worked a whole 4 hours today. I work at a fast food chain that everyone around the world knows. You can probably guess which one. I'm fortunate that it's a temporary thing, to gain experience for my future. I'm not going to sit here and write about how horrible my job is, and complain endlessly. That can be entertaining though I guess. I have had a good attitude about work, and therefore I have been able to see the good things about it. I have been treated well by everyone, made some money, worked very good hours, and even had some fun times with my fellow employees. There are of course bad points, I won't dwell on them, but I might as well list them. It gets somewhat hot in the kitchen, lunch time is always a mad house back there, The money I'm making is somewhat pathetic, etc. Some other time I may elaborate on the fact that I am contributing to our society becoming fat, and unhealthy.
    I guess my point here is simple, even a job that seems really crappy and worthless has it's good points, and it's better to be positive, and do your best even in the worst job. In the end that will make it more worthwhile. The people at work notice that I work hard, and also I smile and try to be positive. They say that makes the place better to work at.
    The lesson for this evening in short: No matter what you have chosen to do for the time being, be positive, work hard, and enjoy yourself. You and everyone around you will feel the difference.

    Current Mood: optimistic
    Current Music: None
    6:25 pm
    I'm not sure where I'm going to go with this entry, so I'll start writing and see where I end up. I worked a whole 4 hours today. I work at a fast food chain that everyone around the world knows. You can probably guess which one. I'm fortunate that it's a temporary thing, to gain experience for my future. I'm not going to sit here and write about how horrible my job is, and complain endlessly. That can be entertaining though I guess. I have had a good attitude about work, and therefore I have been able to see the good things about it. I have been treated well by everyone, made some money, worked very good hours, and even had some fun times with my fellow employees. There are of course bad points, I won't dwell on them, but I might as well list them. It gets somewhat hot in the kitchen, lunch time is always a mad house back there, The money I'm making is somewhat pathetic, etc. Some other time I may elaborate on the fact that I am contributing to our society becoming fat, and unhealthy.
    I guess my point here is simple, even a job that seems really crappy and worthless has it's good points, and it's better to be positive, and do your best even in the worst job. In the end that will make it more worthwhile. The people at work notice that I work hard, and also I smile and try to be positive. They say that makes the place better to work at.
    The lesson for this evening in short: No matter what you have chosen to do for the time being, be positive, work hard, and enjoy yourself. You and everyone around you will feel the difference.

    Current Mood: optimistic
    Current Music: None
    7:01 am
    Japan, and One Thousand Paper Cranes
    What's with my user name? Yes, it's true that I have an obsession over Japan. It's not true however that I'm a 15 year old Anime/Manga fan following the crowd. I know Japan is extremely popular right now, and that's why I was unsure I wanted my journals name to read like so many others. Ok, so I don't like being just like everyone else, but I will not just give up something I love because it has become popular. I'm actually a 21 year old, who has loved Japan since I was very young. I enjoy learning about the traditional culture, and that will never change. Not even when the green tea extract, shampoo, body lotion, weight loss formula etc. products fade away, or something new replaces Anime as the new fad.

    Back to the username thing. No I did not randomly choose words identified with Japan. The "golden crane" part comes from a book I just read; "Sadako and the Thousand Paper Cranes". It's a true story about a little girl named Sadako, who got Leukemia because of the Atomic bombing on Hiroshima. It's a childrens book, but any one would enjoy it. I read it because I am always trying to better understand the horrible effects of the bombings. The real point is that the paper cranes are significant in the book. The "zen" part is because making the paper cranes is like zen to me. Just being totally involved in each fold, just making that crane from a single sheet of paper. Nothing else is important in that instant in time.

    I won't give away the story of the book, but for anyone who may stumble onto this entry I recommend you read it. Also in the back it gives instructions on folding paper cranes, give it a shot. It will take a while to learn, but with patience and determination you will succeed.

    Current Mood: peaceful
    Current Music: birds chirping outside my window
    Monday, August 18th, 2003
    11:40 am
    Seeing as this I have not recieved an e-mail to confirm my signing up for this site my journal will most likely not be working soon. I tryed twice and no e-mail. Oh well, we'll see what happens. I guess the third time could really be a charm.
    Now, what do I even want this journal for? I wish I knew, but I don't. I don't want to get to personal with it, after all I don't know who may stumble upon it, but then why write? Maybe I have something important to say, but I just don't know it yet.
    As for summer, it's almost over now, it went by so fast! So fast I forgot to look at how it went. I forgot to notice that a lot of good things actually happened. I was so busy thinking nothing was happening that I didn't see that many good things really did happen. First of all I worked for the entire three month vacation! That's an improvment for me. It also allowed me to meet new people, and gain experience for my (hopefully) bright future. I learned to be patient and try something until it was accomplished. I did this by learning origami from a book. Now I can fold cranes from tiny squares of paper with my eyes closed. Well, more on that later. I'm sure there is more, but my mind is blank at the moment. The whole point of the story is that evaluating how far I have come in three months is something I needed to do, without that time to just think things over I may have missed what accomplishments I have made. Now I start college all over again in two weeks, and I have no idea what new possibilities that will bring.

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Sunday, August 17th, 2003
    11:14 pm
    First Entry
    Well, this is my first entry. I want to give this a try, but I don't have an exact focus for my journal as of yet. Anyway, I have really enjoyed reading other people's journals from time to time because they allow me to get an idea of what others are thinking, what they really feel about things. This has given me a new perspective on what other people go through, I can see through their journals that I'm not alone. That is what has sparked my interest I guess.

    Current Mood: sleepy
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