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I'm SOOOOOOOOOo bored... I'm annoyed and I want to be high... I hate Sundays.
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| I hate the 20th century |
[05 Oct 2003|08:32am] |
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Wellllllllllllllllllllll.... Me and Erikha have been laughed at more in the past 2 days then we have been in a while I think. On Friday we had our homecoming parade and we were with the thesbians. We were supposed to wear a costume or drama shirt. Me and Erikah wore costumes she was a pretty princess and I was a 1920's gal.. Well some black people thought we looked awful. We were the first ones in costume to get there but once everyone else got there things were fine. Nest on Saturday we had homecoming. We took pictures I will be posting soon but we had really cute dresses but they were different from everyone else... Once again it was the black people laughing at us. I am not a racist but I am seriously starting to fucking hate black people.. They have shown me NO reason to like them. Some of them are just fine and I have no problem with them but about 90% are fuckin assholes. I hate them because they hate me. So there ya have it. Regardless of everything kind of sucking and are school being a ghetto peice of shit I have fun freak dancing with erikah
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| It hurts |
[30 Sep 2003|08:09pm] |
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Wow wow wow I am annoyed... It seems like being a Sophmore in highschool and everything I shouldn't have to do fuckin crosswords puzzles but I dooooo... I have to do 2 of em not just one but two! So, all together I have to find 47 words. Blah... I hate it when I see Ross Palmer because I want him so bad and can't have him but I love to see him because a girl can dream, yes? In Acting, Mike always flirts with me and I kind of slirt back but Ian is in that class and I am falling for him... NEVER thought that would happen. I feel like I am not good enough for anyone and that everyone has such high standars and I can't meet them or maybe it's just that my standards are too high. 12 words left! I an't decide if I want to take a bubblebath or not... Grrr.. What to do.. Balcony smokin is gonna be SOOOOO cold tonight. My brother came over tonight and for some reason he was being an asshole. Makes me feel bad when he does that.
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| Here comes the Hook! |
[29 Sep 2003|05:15pm] |
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Ross Palmer, MIKE Zelenski, Ian Rice.... The boys I fancy. I gues Arron too. Let's talk a little about each shall we? Today Ross came into the room and I kind of gave him this " really happy to see you look" and said Hi and I think that scared him because he kind of just walked off... Then this one girl Valerie gets to hang all over Mike in the baseball scene if the play and he looked over at me and we smiled at eacjother then he mouthed the words HELP ME... Ian is just sweet as hell and funny as can be and I love his smile. sooo there you have it. My dad shall be here in about 40 min. and I am gonna go eat.
P.S. I got pictures back today and... They fuckin suck.
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| Can we be friends now that you know whats in my freezer? |
[28 Sep 2003|10:10pm] |
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I feel so lonely tonight.. I feel like Erikah and my mom are the only people who love me. Geeze, notice how they are both girls? WOuld it be THAT hard to have some love from a male... ? Tonight is one of those nights where you just need to cry. My mom just got home and it's so hard to try and act like everything is OK.. I have so many little things on my mind I just want to go somewhere else where these burdens don't linger in my mind. I want to be somewhere whereI don't have to worry so much. Blah, I hate this... I have a little bit of stuff to smoke which I will do shortyly then I am gonna lie down, maybe watch some TV or something and try to forget about the current life I live and hate.
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| May is so cute |
[28 Sep 2003|04:49pm] |
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Yesterday was so much fun. ME and Erikah hung out and had great times. We couldn't find Erikah a good homecoming dress so we decided we needed to got o Savers and get her one because that's wheer I got mine and they have really good ones. Thjeonly problem is we don't have a way to get there... Oh yes yesterday was ALSO my 16th Birthday and sooooo me and Erikah devised a plan! We decided thatw hen my mom went out with her boyfriend we were gonna take the car and go to Savers. That's out attempt at being rebels. So yeah I drove us to Savers then we drove around and found a taco bell.. Erikah got the GREATEST stuff for her homecoming dress and it excites me. :) Then we watched this movie called May and wow.. It was great. Sucha fantastic movie it was! Very good! We had such good times..
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[27 Sep 2003|06:32pm] |
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Erikah is at my house and she is brutally killing hookers.
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[25 Sep 2003|11:14pm] |
Hm.. I can't do ANYTHING right can I?
I MEANT to say Mike Zelenski.
Erikah pointed out that I said Ian.
Why I said Iean? I have no idea...
I know the fellas name is Mike
but for some reason I called him Ian
::kills self::
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| Sam will kill him if he tries anything |
[25 Sep 2003|09:13pm] |
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The very Secret Diaries by Cassandra Claire are hilarious. If you aren't a Lord of the RIngs fan they are probably stpid and boring but I love them and I am bored so I am gonna go my favorite lines from them..
( Enter The Very Secret Diaries of The Fellowship )
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| Light the fake meat on fire! |
[25 Sep 2003|09:05pm] |
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Some people like me should not be allowd to try and " cook" My mom gave me a simple job. To heat up my boca in the microwave boca is a veggie burger... So.....me and my mom are running some lines for drama when I see a bunch of smoke! I look over at the microave and smoke is just pouring out.. So Needless to say I guess I put it in the microwave for too long.
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| He is here |
[25 Sep 2003|05:41pm] |
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only went to my first two periods today because I wasn't really " feelin" school today. Around 2ish Erikah came over and we smoked and talked I love it when we do that. My birthday is on Saturday. :) I shall be 16. I walked Erikah to rehersal today and ended up hanging around for a while.It was so great to watch some of Hook but it made me sad because well... Let's not go into it again everyone knows I want to be a part of it. But I am looking forward to woprking on costumes for Hook. It will be great! I got to stare at Ross Palmer a lot today and ZI loved every second of it.. I confessed I had a crush on him and he still acts like I am invisable. Ian Zelenski is so much fun. He said Hi to me and the excites me. I love Ian Rice as well. I love him a lot. Arron is a goon I think he is just a goon... But a sexy goon. He took a sit out of erikahs soda and then I did and he was like " you put your whole mouth on that." I said " wonder why?" it was my attempt at flirting and like always it didn't go well. This guy asked this girl to homecoming today in such a sweet way I wanted to just I don't know but it was sweet. Well I am done
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| I <3 Elliott |
[24 Sep 2003|10:48pm] |
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I fell asleep all extra early and my mom came home around 9:30 and informed me I have been asleep the whole time she was gone and that I need to do homework and such. SO now everything that nees to be done is and I am kind of awake and ot really in the mood to go back tto sleep. Ross has been on but his way messege is on and now he is gone. I want to talk to him. He is just soooo there isn't even a word o descibe what he is! I haven't even talked to Erikah all night.. :( Wow and now I have a wicked craving for barbeque chips.. DOes that happen to anyone else? When all of a sudden they just want a certain food they migth no have eevn had it for years but still.... Like when I became a vegetarian I missed fried fish and I haven't had fried fish in YEARS AND YEARS but that was years ago and I am rambling.. If I haven't alreadyu missed Hot Hot Heat I think I will.. :( I know they are here soon or they migth have already came. That saddens me.:(
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| Ian is great |
[24 Sep 2003|05:01pm] |
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Well, it is 5 0'clock... I just got out of the shower. I am at home. If my life went any way I wanted it to I would be in rehersal. I wish I was there so bad. That is where I belong. It just feels wrong! My tummy has kind of been aching all day too.. Crazyness! I need some caffinie. I am about to just fall into a slumber! I am sitting here in nothing but a towel.. Maybe I will get motivated to put on clothe sand walk over to get a soda? RP... ::faints:: AF.. ::drools::
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| Nothings gonna change my world |
[23 Sep 2003|05:08pm] |
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Well today was intresting... Mostly just because I did something really stupid.... After school me and Erikah decided we were very lonely and we were gonna go to school to get a peice of ass. We both really like a certain someone ... It really sucks to like the same guys your best friend likes... :( I wuv her though.. but dbgecdg ah :( Yeah so I marched over to this certain someone today and I said INSERT HIS NAME HERE I have a crush on you.. He kind of just sat there.. Yeah, so obviously THAT didn't go well...
( Here are a few Tests )
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| Esthetic bitch |
[21 Sep 2003|09:51pm] |
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Today was eventful. I went shopping with my cousins and got a few things. Right now I am about to go crazy with frustration. This essay work is ridiculous! The friggin book barley talks about the Nile and it taks very much about Mesopotamia..BUT we have to compare and contrast them UMJM>.dcmsdkv gfgtz1!@ DQFweg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| I tried so hard to tell myself |
[20 Sep 2003|10:31am] |
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How come all of a sudden I get a million junk mail and pop up ads? It's rather annoying. But I am in a good mood today. I am gonna go see Pirates of the Carribean for my 3rd time... I will be going with my mum this time. I am sitting here in my jeans and a bra... I have no shirts that I like much so therefor until I have to actually put one on I will just sit here in my bra.. I am gonna smoke a lot tonight and try and write some poetry. It's amazing how you can think so much of a person and love them a lot and thens lowly that all changes.. Erikah, I think you know who I am talking about.. It's sad but he has changed.
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| Stick with you baby for a thousand years |
[19 Sep 2003|01:06pm] |
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I don't want to be me but someone has to do it... ......... Arron has a g/f and doesn't like me anyways so I guess all hat is out of the question... I still feel so terrible about Hook...and NO ONE ot a single soul understands. I am missing out on so much.. Last night I was talking to my dad and just started crying. So in one night I had both of my parents do the whole :: looks concerned:: I'm really worried about you.. I do't want them to have to worry.. ZEven though I think my parents can be stupid as fuck I still love em.. WHY does a pretty cute preppy lookin guy who listens to 50 cent like ME!?!? I find that really starnge.. Micheal was flirting with me in acting as I was trying to flirt with Arron... And now I am starting to sound pathetthetic so I will pretend like I am happy... Since everytime i call Erikah's she can't come to the phone and I think it might even still be broken but I am too lazy to walk over there so I think I will just go wth my dad and bro to get my dads check and some lunch.. Maybe I will get some weed out of it. I am starting to think maybe I should get a private journal too and write about all the things that are bothering me in there because I am always afraid to write down certain things because I don't want certain people to be like " shut the fuck up bitch !" so..... Maybe this journal will become happier???????????????????
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| I happen to like his eyebrows |
[17 Sep 2003|07:51pm] |
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Lonely again...............................I don't understand myself... When I have a boyfriend I complain and want to get rid of him but when I don't have one I long for one so bad. I like someone....a lot. Someone else likes him too. It is weird... I'm not mad but it is just weird and hard. I'm in a lonely mood. A lot of people at this age claim to be in love... I'm so jealous of the people who have actually fallen in love.. I think I start to dislike relationships I am in because guys are incapable of opening up. Boys are so hard to figure out.... I miss how it feels when a guy puts his arms around you.... I miss it sooo much./...dnkg chyg!@ blajghw2d fwehy!
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[16 Sep 2003|10:19pm] |
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BUMPERSTICKERS I WANT.
1.You're such a MUGGLE!
2.I wonder what it's like to be a slice of cheese
3. SIlence Mortal!
4. Your jedi mind-tricks do not work on me
5.I'll not stop
6. WHat would gandalf do?
7.I party with the mirkwood elfs.
8. I brake for hobbits
9.you're all sheep
10. aim for my head
11. I don't want to be here
12. WHat would Harry do?
13.Frodo lives!
14. I respect your opinion, I just think it's stupid
15. Go lick a screen door
AtPictures.Com Guys I like most in alphabetical order
1.Collin Ferrell( Mm.. sexy irish man)
2.Elijah Wood( so cute.. Always has been)
3. Ewan McGregor( good fuckin god he is sexy!)
4.Hayden Christensen( so hot in the tortured soul roles!)
5.Joaquin Phoinex( incredibly sexy.)
6.Johhny Depp( also just incredibly sexy)
7. Jude Law( mmmm)
8.Orlando Bloom( I want him... bad)
9. Ryan Phillipe( eh.. He was desirable in cruel intentions)
At Pictures.com Girls I like most . In alaphabetical order by first name
1.Amanda Detmer( she is just cute as can be!)
2.Angelina Jolie( wow, who wouldn't like her?)
3.Anna Faris( She is the sindey girl from Scary movie.. She is really cute... LOve her.)
4.Christins Ricci( omg... omg.. That's all I can say.)
5.Clea Duvall( hehe... In the faculty. wow)
6.Fairuza Balk( she is just sexy)
7.Mia Kirshner(yum?)
8.Natalie Portman)( wowowowowo beauty)
9.Natasha Lyonne have you SEEN but i'm a cheerleader? Then ok... Nuf said.)
10. Amy Jo Johnson( Pink power ranger, baby.)
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| I don't know what to do with myself |
[16 Sep 2003|09:00pm] |
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I'm really starting to think Erikah likes Emrod.... Hmm, for all I care he can kill himself but she just acts like she might like him... Erikah? Well, this wek hasn't been AWFUL. It has been pretty illiterate though!!!
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