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Blurty for Faith.
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| Saturday, October 2nd, 2004 |
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| Hi clint..... | ||||||
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| Wednesday, May 26th, 2004 |
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| i am still alive...i miss clint.. | ||||
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| Monday, April 19th, 2004 |
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| MY GODDAMN TOE HURTS!!! i fucked it up moving a recliner and OMG it sux. Jared was nice bout it tho....this weekend had good parts to it, but Daniel fucked it all up. SO bah.... the rummage sale at church was ok, but there was more drama. Jared came and on sat we went to the drive-in w/ skyla and her B/f whose name is Jared which was fun but we were sooooo tired after it all. But it was fun nonetheless.....i dont feel like typing more and i may not have many more entries in this.. | ||||
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| MY GODDAMN TOE HURTS!!! i fucked it up moving a recliner and OMG it sux. Jared was nice bout it tho....this weekend had good parts to it, but Daniel fucked it all up. SO bah.... the rummage sale at church was ok, but there was more drama. Jared came and on sat we went to the drive-in w/ skyla and her B/f whose name is Jared which was fun but we were sooooo tired after it all. But it was fun nonetheless.....i dont feel like typing more and i may not have many more entries in this.. | ||||
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| Thursday, April 15th, 2004 |
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| OK i filled all this out but when i was done b4 i clicked "update" my comp fucked up... so here we go! I havent written in a long time and i need ot more often...ANYWAYS! Eric vivistinf was AWESOME!!! I MISSED HIM SOOO MUCH! 1 day wasnt enuff after 2 yrs of not seeing someone.. We went to the mall and i got to see him do what i made fun of him for when we first met,,, eat w/ chopsticks. But this time it was chinese food and not salad..lol. Then we went to the drive-in and saw Dawn of The Dead and Hellboy, but we didnt watch much...we were too buzy goofing off and catching up...his car is awesome, it is red and fits him perfectly...we didnt crash (sleep ) tiill 4 am..lol..but i wouldnt change much. He got kinda lost when he was finding my house and his car overheated a few streets away but he showed up decked out in his army stuff and he looked so CUTE!!! but it made me sad too, cuz him in the army was even more real. I will bawl my eyes out if he dies but i dont even wanna think of it! So for the rest of Spring break i went to Jared's which was nice... i like getting away from here..and his mom was real sweet again.. i dyed my bangs red...lol. Jared's spikes match! hehehe.. i like it, i get a lot of compliments. i also got some new shirts and LIPGLOSS! But i want a car, prolly the next time i see Eric i will drive up there to see him... welp there ya go for now.. | ||||||||
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| Wednesday, April 14th, 2004 |
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| HEY I AM AT SCHOOL RIGHT NOW SO THIS WILL BE SHORT! but anyways i had a very good spring break and seeing eric was soooooooooooooooo awesome!!! and then i spent the rest with Jared and i an glad to be able to get out of missouri those times but i gotta go and put Lilith up so i will see ya later!!! | ||||||
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| Sunday, April 4th, 2004 |
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| ok lemme try this again....we got rid of the dogs which is good cuz then the house smells better, we got a new com which is fun, we wiped out like all of michael's toys in his room so it is clean now..THANK GOD!! and my friend Eric that is in the army is visiting this Thurs. which is fucking awesome, i havent seen him for like 2 yrs, so i cant wait!!!!! I am also going to the YellowCard concer this tues. w/ daniel which will be fun, i almost wasnt allowed to go...but i can now. YAY!!! and my b-day is in a month...i played D&D for like 10 hrs yesterday, all night long..it was fun...we spent $30 on jelly bellies..lol. I am also going to jareds for spring break. I think i have more shit to talk about when i feel like bitchin..lol. but i am tired and smell good... | ||||||
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| Monday, March 22nd, 2004 |
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| hey i got back from jared's yesterday, it was good. Nothing special but still fun! i dont think i am gonna hang out w/ Daniel much this weekend except 4 a lil friday if i can. but i dunno. I am addicted to caffine, i got a caffine headache today cuz i got none. And living here gets on my nerves, another place full of empty promises. i guess it never ends, eh? i am trying to find my old friend Beth, but i doubt i will ever locate her... who knows. plus i am really tired, everytime i think i will get more sleep it fails. and a girl cant live on frozen pizzas 4 ever, ick. Skyla likes Jared now so i guess hell did freeze over..lol. who knows. i need new clothes....ramble ramble ramble | ||||||||
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| Thursday, March 18th, 2004 |
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| well a lot has happened lately and i dunno if i can record it all here but, for one daniel and i keep fighting and all i get is empty promises, i dunno if i can last much longer...Living here also kinna sux, i am still grounded but hopefully that will change asap..i finally got to talk again w/ my Eric, he is in the army, and it makes me cry, he is so beautiful and a very good person and i care soo much 4 him and hope he will be ok. Him and i made this bet when we were 14 that if we wernt married by age 25 we would to eachother. He told me he will be visiting springfield soon and he will stop by here for a day which will make me sooo happy, i havent seen him in 2 yrs. Anyways i have ceased enjoying to live here as much.. it just seems real binding, we have been cleaning the house every day this week and i kno it needed it bad!!! but anyways i am also worried bout skyla, she met a guy and they have only known eachother for 3 wks and she thinks she loves him, and she has gone a lil far w/ him, i am scared b/c i dont want her getting attached...not to mention he is 15 and she is turning 18..OMG! I am going to Jareds tomorrow 4 the weekend,,,YAY!!! he stopped by today by surprise and he got me a ring...it costed $285.00 it is white gold w/a light blue sapphire heart..hehehe pretty! He thought it was too cheap, crazy..i like it. I guess i dont get my tattoo on my b-day, that was the thing i was looking forward to the most.. :( me sad. i guess i will live tho..well i need to go put soup up so i g2g... | ||||||||
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004 |
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| I spent the weekend at Daniel's. And parts of it were fun but others made me sleepy. I got a cam this weekend so ppl got to see me...but i hate spendig $, daniel stole me lip gloss and glitter!! YAY! i did my shift at the Forighn Language Festival,( i kno i spelled it wrong) But at least i got that 150 pts ex credit and i get to see how i did on my test in Geometry. Lilith is getting soo big!!! she has been a hyper lil rat..i need to focus on training her more. but yeah...i really want new clothes..i want to get some band tees on Ebay. I met Skylas new boy-toy friday and he seems cool but he is like 15!!!!! and she is 17..odd to me but whatever. i do like guys to be older than meh. Bobbi bought new DVD's and PS2 games and clothes 4 her yet the net and phone is over due. BAH! i always was raised that the bills need to be paid 1st but whatever...i am kinda tired so i think i will crash soon...plus i dunno what else to say. Jared is off on a cunstruction job till tues or so... :( at least he is making $$..he and billy r no longer friends due to a big dispute and he still wants to move to the trailor park....ICK..o well i just want school to be over.. | ||||||||
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| Friday, March 12th, 2004 |
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| here i am no school today and i am no longer grounded on the weekends which is good but i think the phone and DSL will be shut off temporarily soon. Dunno when tho. And i thibk mike is gonna change the passcode to the comp. so i may not be able to get on right after school. I may have to wait till 5:30pm. (so clint, i may have to call instead..) But tonight i am hanging w/ dan and friends so i wont be on much tonight. I got my check recenntly. And Lilith is getting bigger, she is very ppl oriented and she went down my shirt today!!!! Damn it tickled. I gave blood at the school blood drive yesterday. it was odd. I couldnt look at it when the needle went in and they missed my vein the 1st time. but fixed it. 1/2 of my hand went NUMB!!! it was loosing blood fast! hehehe but i am fine. I do have bruising tho. O well. I am trying to raise my grades but it is taking awhile. but i g2g bye!!!!! | ||||||||
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| Monday, March 8th, 2004 |
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| hey all okay...here goes, i got my rat and her name is Lilith, she is real cute and bonding well. Daniel has now revealed to me that he has been putting on a fake mask all along and I have to figure him out for the real him, like a big goddamn guessing game...fucking A. So after all that i went to Jared's on Fri and i was almost not able to cuz of my being grounded, hell i didnt kno it was 4 the weekends too. But i went and had a good time, i met his friends and actually talked to em and hung out alot which was a blast! I finally met that damn Autumn chick, we didnt speak but she was in Alps when we came in and we just looked at eachother...lol. I brought Lilith w/ me and some movies, his lil sis had some friend over that looked lie a dyke 4 real...lol. but we went to the pet place Sat and he jacked me a critter bar granola thing for Lilith and she loves it! so cute.... i swear i have OCD when it comes to cleaning her cage, hehehe i clean it constantly. Billy, Phillip and derek and Jared and i went cosmic bowling on sat night, it was fun except 4 this big ass fat perverted black guy that was harassing all sorts of girls there. fucking dick. My boys wanted to beat his ass but i talked to the girls and they sed they were okay so it was all good. Except 4 the fact of him staring at me. UGH! Also earlier that day Jared wanted to fight Donny cuz we saw him out of his house but after i got jared not to that fucker called his daddy and we drove off. But not too much later after that Billy came up to the house and sed Donny was talking shit on jared after we left, so Jared got pisssed and we went back down there, his mom told me to keep him out of trouble. So they were close to fighting but got it worked out. Donny's dad was thet one who started shit and i told him to shut the fuck up cuz if jared gets in a fight and the cops r called he goes to Jail. That isnt what anyone needs. Billy is awesome i fully trust him around Jared, i mean i kno Jared wont do any thing stupid around him.....YAY! well bye | ||||||||
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| Sunday, March 7th, 2004 |
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| ok umm i cant really type much and that is why i am giving an update tomorrow......BIG AND LONG!!!! and no it isnt a penis...lol..but yeah.. | ||||||||
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| Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004 |
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| Hey all i am at school right now and i found out i get to choose mt rat today...whoooo! so anyways that is good. We are making grape jelly in foods today but otherwise today will be a boring-as-hell-day once again. SO i guess some shit has happened since i got my modem back up, i mean it seemed like months sine i have been able to chill online..i kno it hasnt but still...aparently i am failing 2 classes: German and Geometry...ick. Bobbi now decided to put the parent hat on again and says i cant go anywhere on school days , i gotta study each day, comp. for only 1 hr, phone 1 hr., i dont think this applies to weekends so that is good. I think i am to visit Jared this weekend as well so that will be fun i want to get away from here. DUDE i cant find any of the shirts i took w/ me to rally. I cant remember if i unpacked them or not, i think i did but i searched all over the damn closet last night and cant find any of them. FUCK!!! they were my favorite ones too....now i have to go find some decent shirts i will like to repace them and spend more $$...grrrr i couldnt sleep well cuz i kept thinking of where to look...we have about 13 mins left of class.....oogy boogy...then i get to go to GERMAN!!! ick. like omg! gag me w/ a spoon! hehehe valley girl talk. I want to get a job soon, like very soon cuz this $ 125 isnt doing much. and i ahve no clue if my $ will be docked $50 cuz of my F's....i will find out next mon. well i will talk to u later... | ||||||||
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| Monday, March 1st, 2004 |
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FAIRY TALE
BRUCE could see that BEAUTIFUL DAMIEN was hungry so he reached into his FANNY PACK and give him his SMALL ITALIAN. BEAUTIFUL DAMIEN was thankful for BRUCE's ITALIAN, so he told BRUCE a very LUSHIOUS story about Queen JESSICA's daughter SHIRLY. How her mother, the GROSS Queen JESSICA, kept her locked away in a SKYSCRAPER protected by a gigantic TIGER, because SHIRLY was so SEXY. BRUCE JACKED OFF. He vowed to BEAUTIFUL DAMIEN the STRIPPER that he would save the SEXY SHIRLY. He would FUCK the TIGER, and take SHIRLY far away from her eveil mother, the GROSS Queen JESSICA, and FIGHT her. Then, all of the sudden, there was a STRONG STORM and BEAUTIFUL DAMIEN the STRIPPER began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic TIGER from his story. GROSS Queen JESSICA FLASHED HER TITS out from behind a HAIRBRUSH and struck BRUCE dead. In the far off SKYSCRAPER you could hear a SQUEEK. THE END. |
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| Tuesday, February 24th, 2004 |
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Dude my modem is dead i need a new one so it may be awhile till i can write on this again.... But i had a great time at jareds....so dat ist gut!!!! but nothing much is going on but i do get my rat friday.....which will be fun....my grades blow, well my geometry...oops! but yeah... i'd write more but i am atdan's andi should hang out w/ him.... love ya alll ----yeah right |
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| Thursday, February 19th, 2004 |
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| Hey all it is i once again. Sorry i havent written in awhile i just i dunno been to lazy i suppose. I am going to the school play tonight..."romeo and juliet". The girl who used to be my friend that my last ex cheated on me with is in it...lol..SO he will prolly be there...humf. Daniel is taking me..I still keep seeing Stephen (the horrid ex) stare at me and kinda check me out..odd. But i wouldnt EVER have him back..fuck that. So that is happening in like an hour and a half and i gotta finish my laundry, blow dry meh hair and clean the damn kitchen...FUN FUN! But tomorrow i am going to Jared's. Ya kno what that boy is planning? He wants to buy me a ring...a RING!!! i guess to show how much i mean to him and all and to make up for the way he has been treating me..i dont think that daniel will like that news too well. But yeah. Skyla drove me nuts but i guess it happens, too much time spent together in such a closed area like 24 HOURS IN A VAN!!!! *sigh* I have been in a real singy mood lately..o well. I am hoping to get my Geometry grade up and try to NOT switch to practical geometry b/c the real thing looks better on transcripts..grr. I got my rat cage tues and i am hoping to get my rat soon..YAY! i need more clothes i am getting so sick of my usual ones. At least i got a Dr Pepper today! But jared and i had a pretty serious talk last night and it was a good thing cuz he actually talked and didnt yell 24/7. I really enjoyed it. And today the temperature is like 60 degrees!!!! sweet! i think i am gonna wear my dress tomorrow. yippie! hehehe Daniel bought tix to metallica/ godsmack concert, which is awesome, that will rock! so anyways i need to go eat, clean, and finish my laundry...so buh-bye! | ||||||||
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| Monday, February 16th, 2004 |
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| Yep i survived all.. i am back from colorado and it was a bunch of fun. Amazingly it is warmer out there than here and they have more snow. I even ran outside in my bikini and a towel..lol. But the thing is i wasnt cold..Skyla and i made a fleece blankie 4 me after we went to wal-mart..i love it! That is also where i bought my bikini..dude it is a curse being my size and a C going to a D, i try to find a top but it doesnt fit around the rib cage but if i find one that fits around my rib cage it is too small 4 my boobies...so i wear a small bottom and a med top even tho my boobs like to play peek-a-boo! lol But it is all good. I got a cute one w/ boy shorts. But yeah i had fun. I wanted to go tubing but skyla was too scared. I was like where is ur adventure? She's like ooh i'm from cali..blah blah blah..o well. I was a family group leader as usuall and it was goofy, i mean we talked bout odd sex and dived from bed to bed..lol. I did the longest jumps..it was great. Well i also got to hang out w/ Ian which i havent seen in a year. He looks kinda like an angel but talks like a surfer dude..hehehe he told me he likes me..he's 15!!! Yeah um no an dhe lives in colorado and he just isnt my type. Not enuff in common. Plus i have a b/f. But it was fun hanging with him he is awesome. Then there was also a lil soccor retreat there, and this lil punk dude about 14-15 was flirting with me...he put up a candy heart that sed "marry me" up on the window in the dining room. cute, cute...Ian told me to go sit on his lap and i was like no way he would cream in his pants!!!! lol. I mean he's just a lil boy. Skyla got jelous cuz i had alot of guys paying attention to me so she farted!!!!!!!!!!!! ick...she told me she was jelous! but that wasnt the worst of it she did ut all the way home in the van. *gag* And i couldnt sleep worth shit on the way home..grrr But whatever..i am prolly going to jared's this weekend and daniel hates that..but i need to visit him..so yep! I am very tired...grrr..it was soooo pretty out there tho and the mountians really are purple...!!!! hehhehe well bye | ||||||
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| Friday, February 13th, 2004 |
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Here i am at Debbie's waitignfor it to hit 2:30 am, cuz that is when Debbie awakens and we all get ready to head out of here for Colorado...Skyla is asleep. Looks as if i failed her in keeping her up..but iam still going strong! hehehe...So here i am and in a way i am stoked. I hope a lot of my lil friends will be there. I re-dyed my hair today, the black and blonde...lol. It dyed Daniel's hands purple..oops. Jared is sad bout me going to Co. I really want to go tho so i am. Last night we had another family meeting or whatever..lol. it was so gay. I mean after the 1st two i knew nothing was gonna change after we have them. Everyone is too damn lazy. But whatever i will be out soon and will be able to have my own place and only worry bout that. Dude, i have been wanting to party lately but my party buddy Matt got himself a g/f now and she wont let him party i guess, esp. w/ another girl. Which i understand but still.We used to go back to his house and crash after we drank and nothing ever happened even when he did make moves, i mean dont get me wrong he was hot as hell w/ an 8 guage toung piercing but i am just not like that. We have made out before but it was when we were sober. See, i accociate sex with love. And if i even go further than kissing w/o loving the person or knowing 4 sure that love can bloom i will feel horrible and regret it. Odd eh? i dunno it is just me i guess. But hey it does keep me outta trouble. I am getting sleepy but i gotta stay awake..i have a 8 hr drive or so to sleep thru w/ my trusty CD player. I really like the night. It is so peaceful and mysterious..i would love to make love under the stars w/ only the moon as candlelight. Corny eh? sorry. There is this guy at school named James who is my friend and i guess i am his new obsession, it kinda sux he got me a bear and a carnation for Valentines Day and i feel bad. He really wants me to go out with him and when he got me that it made me feel like i was obligated to do that, but i kno it is my decision and i kno i am not attracted to him in that way, so i wont. Plus i am involved already. And Sarah really wants to date me but she still has a girl and that is Ashlie so i told her i would be cool w/ being just friends, no sweat off my back and she sed she wanted to still kinda see me and kiss and junk behind her girl's back. I dunno if i could do that tho. I would feel bad. I mean her girl already knows that she and i have kissed and she sees me as a real threat to the relationship. I can see where she is coming from tho. I mean i would feel the same i bet. Who knows tho. I need to exercise more, i am such a slacker sometimes. OH guess what? when i was dying my hair i put a streak of black on ozzy's head...hehe. Oscar looks so cute. I hope he doesnt get sick from it tho. I dont think he will since he cannot lick the top of his head..lalalala. i feel like i am on a tightrope at times. |
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| Tuesday, February 10th, 2004 |
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LAKE WARAMANG track 5 Laid awake throughout the night. Today the school so loud. Now it's all so quiet. I plan to pack light. 'cause tomorrow we'll fly. Taking off to a place, a land that's not so far away. The boat 'bove our heads for the walk to shore. As feelings of dread soak the length of the oar. Conneticut hillsides surround, the clouds soar. Dazed to the signs, i think back to the times when gender crossed me Miss all those christmas', and the once careless Autumns. Through there's space betwixt us which dissolves here, 'round when fog clears. As we crept through the race, old friends would line the banks. Cheering on, as they played, screaming all the lovely names. Then they'd start to file away, come dusk the time to rage. The boat 'bove our heads for the walk to the van. As luncheon awaits us, while all the girls tan. And social engagements commence by the sand. Now our days comeplete, we faced defeat but felt the cool breeze. Follow our dreams and hold the Lake in such dear regard. Against the best we've thrusted, but the justice came when the bow touched. |
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Blurty for Faith.
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frustrated.
happy.
listless.
crappy.
contemplative.
busy.
nce upon a time there has a young HOOKER named BRUCE. He was LOUD SLEEPING in the SLIMEY forest when he met BEAUTIFUL DAMIEN, a run-away STRIPPER from the GROSS Queen JESSICA.
awake.
drained.
artistic.