Okay, I'm exhiling Blurty from my life.

I'm on greatestjournal.com...my name's still glasscandie.

Come find me.

Just curious...http://www.presidentmatch.com/Guide.jsp2

Do the survey. I got Kucinish first, Kerry second, Sharpton third. Haha. Dmitry got Bush 100%. Match made in heaven. lol

Blah.

Everything seems to be going as it should. Dave and Shannon (finally) worked things out so we can hang out without me being a huge secret or burden. Dmitry (the best person on the face of this plaaaaaaaaaaaanet) and I are engaged...sort of...even though SOMEONE won't give me the ring...lol. I have a great job, a decent school schedule, no problems on the homefront (until I talk to my dad, but more than likely, I'll be dead after that, so it won't matter much).

I don't know. I just got really upset tonight. Mostly because I was functioning in a drunken stupor, but mainly because I just can't stand the thought of Dmitry leaving in April. I have no fucking clue what the fuck I'm going to do. I know I have great friends like Shannon and Em and Sedges, and even my mom to an extent, that I can talk to, and I know I can write letters and all that, but it's just not going to be the same. It's just typical D'Elia luck that I've found someone truly awesome, and who loves me just the same, but will be gone in a little over two months. Maybe when I take Dmitry's name my luck'll change haha. I guess I'm just a little past worried, because these two months are gonna fly by.

Oh, I'm just sad about the whole thing...

Today has been a day of pain.

When I was little, like, 6 or 7, my dad took my sister and I to a driving range at a golf course. My sister, being the moron that she is, slammed me in the face with a metal golf club - gave me a pretty bad concussion and chipped my front tooth. Fun fun fun. Anyway, so I had the tooth fixed awhile ago, but the filling started chipping, so I had to go get it re-done today. On top of the horrible novacaine shot ON THE ROOF OF MY MOTHERFUCKING MOUTH (ow), my dentist had to drill away the old filling and that hurt like a mother. Jesus. Now I have a fixed tooth, but it's really sore. Grr. It's like, throbbing.

Also went and got my eyebrows waxed for the first time in, oh...three or four months. lol. That wasn't too much fun, either. Who knew eyebrows could grow so much so quickly. :)

Started telling people that Dmitry and I were engaged. Let's see...

Mom - supportive surprisingly, trusted that I was capable of making the decision
Dad - oh FUCK no...we're not telling HIM until like, the morning of the wedding lol
Caitlin - supportive, but more excited that we could get stationed in Guam and she could go surfing
Em - sort of supportive, but she's a feminist, so i don't think she'll ever support marriage
Shannon - not quite sure if she supports us or not, but i guess so
Uncle Billy - can't wait to get drunk at the reception
my dentist - just said congratulations...i don't really think he gives a flying fuck, though
Dmitry's recruiter - all excited about the kids aspect...blah :)

It's also nice to know that we have the support of the Galaxy diner staff haha

Can't remember if we told anyone else, I guess everyone will know when I finally get the ring...AHEM. :)

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god.

No one knows what it's like to be the bad man,
to be the sad man behind blue eyes.
No one knows what it's like to be hated,
to be fated to telling only lies.

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
as my conscious seems to be.
I have hours - only lonely.
My love is vengeance that's never free.

No one knows what it's like to feel these feelings like I do -
and I blame you.
No one bites back as hard on their anger.
None of my pain, woe, can show through

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
as my conscious seems to be.
I have hours - only lonely.
My love is vengeance that's never free.

No one knows what it's like to be mistreated,
to be defeated behind blue eyes.
No one knows how to say that they're sorry -
and don't worry, I'm not telling lies.
No one knows what it's like to be the bad man,
to be the sad man behind blue eyes.

sometimes i feel like i don't have a partner.
sometimes i feel like my only friend is the city i live in -
the city of angels.
lonely as i am, together we cry.

i drive on the streets because she's my companion.
i walk through the hills because she knows who i am.
she sees my good deeds, and kisses the winded.
that i never wanted - now that is a lie.

i don't ever want to feel like i did that day.
take me to the place i love - take me all the way.
i don't ever want to feel like i did that day.
take me to the place i love - take me all the way.

it's hard to believe that there's nobody out there.
it's hard to believe that i'm all alone.
at least i have her love - the city, she loves me.
lonely as i am, together we cry.

i don't ever want to feel like i did that day.
take me to the place i love - take me all the way.
i don't ever want to feel like i did that day.
take me to the place i love - take me all the way.

one time.

my foot really really itches. i thought i'd update that. can i get a mosquito bite in november?

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words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup.
they slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
pools of sorrow, waves of joy, are drifting through my open mind -
possessing and caressing me.

nothing's gonna change my world.

images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes -
they call me on and on across the universe.
thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box.
they tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.

nothing's gonna change my world.

sounds of laughter, shades of earth, are ringing through my open ears,
insighting and inviting me.
weightless and undying love which shines around me like a million suns -
and calls me on and on across the universe.

nothing's gonna change my world.