: Do I dare?
Current mood: confused
Okay, so I've been hanging out with a *gasp* nice guy and have really been enjoying his company. He asked me last night what we call this that we have going on and I asked him if it really needs a name and he just squeezed my hand and said no, it doesn't.
I deserve to have a nice guy in my life. But now I know why the 12 step programs require a 12 month waiting time between relationships. The last few days since wanting to spend time with him has increased proportionately to his wanting to spend time with me I have had so much turmoil inside of myself. And I know it stems from past relationships and distrust that I'm going to have the same results. And what is strange is that we aren't at the level of committing to each other at all. We are still finding out who each other is and what we are about. So why are all these ugly fears springing forward for me to take a good hard look at? And more importantly, do I have the strength to face them?
Current mood: confused
Okay, so I've been hanging out with a *gasp* nice guy and have really been enjoying his company. He asked me last night what we call this that we have going on and I asked him if it really needs a name and he just squeezed my hand and said no, it doesn't.
I deserve to have a nice guy in my life. But now I know why the 12 step programs require a 12 month waiting time between relationships. The last few days since wanting to spend time with him has increased proportionately to his wanting to spend time with me I have had so much turmoil inside of myself. And I know it stems from past relationships and distrust that I'm going to have the same results. And what is strange is that we aren't at the level of committing to each other at all. We are still finding out who each other is and what we are about. So why are all these ugly fears springing forward for me to take a good hard look at? And more importantly, do I have the strength to face them?