: Wow... still busy as sin at work
I'm trying so hard to stay on top of the old desk, and learn the new job..... It's not working!!! AUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! lol. Copy requests aren't getting done for either job. The fees aren't being applied to fines, the CWS isn't being converted to credit. But the warrants and summons and R&O's are still flowing through. And Cyndi gave me a hug today, she was so delighted with my log notes. That made a really good feeling in me.
Told Jess I couldn't talk to him when he called at 5ish and it hurt his feelings. Instead of telling me he needed me to stop and listen cause he had a bad day, he felt hurt and wounded and unimportant to me. When he called later, he said he wanted to compromise to just calling at bedtime. So we talked and it seemed to be getting nasty. I told him to hold, took a few deep breaths, visualized him being a friend that had called to talk and feel better, and then sat up straighter and listened to him. He felt much better after that and we were able to talk about what could have been done better, such as telling me he needed to talk, such as me not reacting (BIG problem of mine), etc. I'm trying to be so much more aware of gut reactions towards him and toning them down. Like he keeps saying, he's not my dad. If he says something that offends me or that I take as to mean that I'm not good enough, I'm probably wrong. And it has been requiring him to slow down and explain to me what he means as opposed to how I took it and that can be taxing. Educating for both of us, but taxing nonetheless.
Boo and Sean P are wrestling in her room. He's been spending a lot of time here the last couple of days.
Kitty comforted me last night. Then it's funny to hear from Jess what a horrible day he had today missing us and Troy all day long.
I'm trying so hard to stay on top of the old desk, and learn the new job..... It's not working!!! AUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Told Jess I couldn't talk to him when he called at 5ish and it hurt his feelings. Instead of telling me he needed me to stop and listen cause he had a bad day, he felt hurt and wounded and unimportant to me. When he called later, he said he wanted to compromise to just calling at bedtime. So we talked and it seemed to be getting nasty. I told him to hold, took a few deep breaths, visualized him being a friend that had called to talk and feel better, and then sat up straighter and listened to him. He felt much better after that and we were able to talk about what could have been done better, such as telling me he needed to talk, such as me not reacting (BIG problem of mine), etc. I'm trying to be so much more aware of gut reactions towards him and toning them down. Like he keeps saying, he's not my dad. If he says something that offends me or that I take as to mean that I'm not good enough, I'm probably wrong. And it has been requiring him to slow down and explain to me what he means as opposed to how I took it and that can be taxing. Educating for both of us, but taxing nonetheless.
Boo and Sean P are wrestling in her room. He's been spending a lot of time here the last couple of days.
Kitty comforted me last night. Then it's funny to hear from Jess what a horrible day he had today missing us and Troy all day long.