Gio just left. God, im depressed. We both cried while we said our good byes. Of course, i cried more lol. He is so sweet, i dont know what I would do without him. We talked about marriage again this weekend. He said "You are going to be Aja Banares." (Banares is his last name)Today we went out for lunch (YUCK) and we had subs. I had 1/2 one, and lots of water. I felt disgusting. Then we went shopping, and looked for bras for me. My white one broke last night ;] hehe. But I couldn't find any that I liked, so we went to Dairy Queen, and ate icecream! Then Me and Gio came home, and relaxed, and i was starting to think how much i ate today, and getting so pissed off and disapointed in myself, that I went and had a shower by myself, and threw up 1/2 of it. I couldn't get it all. Then I crawled into my bed. Gio came in, and he knew something was wrong. We talked, and I told him. He kept telling me that I HAD to stop doing that. We both cried. He said that I have to get help. I'm getting help on Thursday, but until then i'm going to diet and do whatever it takes to lose more weight. I know he cares so much about me, and is just concerned, he just doesn't completly understand how all this shit works. I can't just turn it off. Gio made me chicken broth, and I had to drink it. But i checked the can, and it was only 50 calories. I just have to remember, tomorrow is a new day, and I will do better. Aw Gio just called ♥ and we talked for an hour, while he is on the ferry. He said he misses me already. I'm going over to his house on Friday to stay the weekend. Three weekends in a row! YAY. I haven't gone over to Vancouver in...a month! Tonight i'm just going to relax and hang out here. Because I'm so exhausted, and sick. I just need to chill.I will write what me and Gio did this weekend in my next posty! Bye bye
hey! Gio is sleeping so i thought i would sneak in an entry!! I promise to read everyone journals when Gio leaves back home :[I was doing soooo good!! On friday I didn't eat ANYTHING, i had 1 glass of herb tea to keep warm. But i'm sure that didn't have any calories in it. And then yesterday i pigged out!! I had chocolate, and chips, and 1 panacaka. Gio always makes me eat so much. And i drank last night...A LOT. so im sure i've gained a couple pounds. But i worked out yesterday. Today I will do better, Gio can NOT make me eat. I know alcohol has a lot of calories, so I really gotta work my ass off, and lose those pounds. I'm so hungover, i feel like shit. Last night was a lot of fun though ;] hehe, drunk times. I was going to write in my journal when i was drunk last night, but i have done that before, and i sound like a retard!! LOL. Rachel's friends came over, and they where pretty cool. Except John kept hiting on me, while Gio was sitting right beside me. it was funny though. I think John was bi, because he was hiting on Gio too!! LOL Good times. I'm having an awesome time with Gio :] I'll write more later. Gotta keep strong!! Why are weekends always so hard? I think i've gained 2 pounds because i'm getting my period tomorrow or the next day. shit, im just making excuses for myself
Last night:can't write a long entry because i'm so upset and i can't type because i can't see threw my tears. im not aloud to see Gio anymore. My mom hates me, she fucking hates me. I dont know what I did to deserve this all. But Gio is no longer aloud to come over to my house. I dont know why...she thinks I use her, and she doesn't like gio over any more. I will never ever see him!! i dont know what to do. Gio is my life, he...is what i look forward to. He is what i live for. And if I can no longer see him...what's the point? Why is all this shit coming down on me? Am i that horrible of a person that I dont deserve anything in my life? Why does my mom have to take the only thing away from me that i love? I haven't never ever felt this shitty in my whole life. I want to die. my mom loves my other sisters, why can't she love me the same? I have to go. i can't take this...i will update later if i canToday:I cried...a lot last night, for 4-5 hours. Then Gio called and we talked for 3 hours. We are both so frustrated, and stressed!! But we've figured that my mom is NOT going to stop us from seeing each other. He is still coming over tonight around 10pm. He is going to sneak into my window. And on Saturday we are going to stay in a hotel. I'm excited. I love staying in a hotel with Gio, we haven't done that in so long. I miss him so much, and I need him more then ever right now. I'm going crazy living here. I dont know what's wrong with my mom. she has gone insane.I have LOTS to do to get ready to see Gio good bye
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All About Him...-His/Her Name: Giovanni Bananres-Nicknames: Gio-Age: 26 (in 7 days)-Birthday: February 17 1977-Height: 5'8-Weight: 165-Hair Color: darnk brown/black-Eye Color: brown-Glasses/Contacts: contacts-Freckles/Dimples: A couple freckles, only 1 or 2. No dimplesCouple Stuff...-What were your first impressions: that he smelt good, lol that he was shy, and had a really sexy voice/great smile-Who asked out who: He asked me out first-Who made the first move: He did-Where was your first kiss: On my couch-Where was the first place you had sex: His bed-When did you first say I love you: we where going out for 3 months, and we rented a hotel and he made it very romantic :)-When was you first real fight: hm cant remember. Probably going out for 5-6 months we had a fightOn a scale of 1-10...-sense of Humor: 10-looks: 15-intelligence: 20-attitude: 10-style: 11-kissing: 100000-in the sack: 100000000-friends: 10-Do they want to get married: Yes -Have kids: yes-Be their own boss:ya i think so-Save The World: not really-Travel: YesFaves-Color: blue-Car: He wants a motorbike-Band: he doesnt have one fav. band, he likes a lot of kinds of music-Song: See above-CD: See above one more time-Movie: Moulin rouge, Grease, anything to do with War -Sport: basketball-Game: Counter strike-Past Time: hanging out with friends, being with me ;] playing on the computer, -Holiday: Christmas and V-day-Sexual Position: hm he likes me on top-Nickname for you: Baby, babe, honey, sweetie-Subject: dunno, he hasn't been in school for 8 years-Family Member: his mother, but she died when he was young :( so his sister
wow, im actually updating in this journal 2 times in a row. yay me. I'm going shopping in a about 30 minutes. I got buy the rest of Gio's V-day/B-day present. And I am going to buy my sister and mom something small (chocolates) for v-day, and I'm going to buy my friend in Ontario a V-day card to send her. I love Valentines day, I know it's a "hallmark holiday"...blah blah blah, but i still love it!This weekend sorta blew. But I needed a break from my friends and school. So it was ok. Next weekend is going to be sooo much fun. Only 4 more days until i get to see him ♥ I have 2 big tests tomorrow that i gotta study my ass off for!Gio is calling me, bye for now!
wow, it's been 4 days since i last wrote in this journal. I've been so busy. This is how my whole week was:Get up early, go to school, work my fucking ass off, come home work on my homework for 4-5 hours, relax (if I have time) and then go to bed and wake up early and go to school and start all over again. My classes are really hard, but i'm doing great in all of them. I have Biology, English, Info tech and art. I have already had 4 tests last week, and i have 2 more big ones on Monday. But i've been working my ass off, and doing very well.Gio called last night, and we talked for 3 hours. We had a wonderful talk. We had phone sex... twice ;] He is coming over on Thrusday- Sunday so we can celbrate Valentines day together. I am really excited. I bought him a DVD and chocolates and I am taking him out to see a movie on Friday, because Gio always pays and i want to take him out for once. I am doing the rest of my shopping tomorrow. I love shopping. I didn't do much yesterday (friday) i've been sorta sick, and tired. I cleaned my room, talked to Gio and went to bed early. I've lost 13 pounds in less then 2 weeks. I'm really proud of myself, I want to lose about 10-20 more pounds. Today is one of my friends Birthday's, so I will probably go to her party tonight, if I'm feeling better. I dont really want to drink tonight though. I always get the worst hang overs.I'm going to clean my room, and keep busy! Bye, i'll try to remember to update more often..
I'm finished my period! Yahoo, now i can have wild animal sex!! hehehe. We've been having oral sex, but that's just not good enough right now. I'm a BIG horn dog. Gio is leaving today at 5:45pm. I really dont want him to go. Our visit was great. Very cuddly and relaxing. Yesterday I woke Gio up by going down on him ;] and making him come. We got up, went for a great walk on the trails with the doggy, and came back and had a shower, and Gio went down on me ;] It was awesome, we had sex for only 20-30 minutes, but when Gio saw blood he got turned off. GRR!! LOL. After our shower we relaxed in bed, and thought of what we where going to do. We went to the grocerie store and bought stuff for lunch and stuff to bake a cake. We came home and ate. The cake was soo good. I eat way too much when i'm wth Gio. I will have to go on a better diet when Gio is gone. We played Nintendo together, played on the computer for a bit, cuddled on my bed, watched "fear factor" drank vodka and orange juice and i got really drunk, and wrote silly things in my paper diary and passed out on the bed lol. I will write more what we did on Friday and Saturday....;] But for now, im gonna cuddle with Gio and tell him the good news ;] ;] ;]
I gotta write a quick entry, because I want to get back in bed with Gio. We are having an awesome time together. I dont really want to write much about it, it's private ;] heheh, but i dont know any of my blurty friends in real life, so i might write more details later. I'm not sure what we are going to do today. I want to go for a walk, or a run on the trails with Gio and our doggy. Because it's soo sunny and warm out. Ok, i gotta go, im gonna go wake up Gio now ;]
Good length quiz.HAVE YOU EVER:1. Kissed your cousin: no2. Ran away: probably, when i was little3. Pictured your crush naked: yup5. Broken someone's heart: I dont think so6. Been in love: YES :)7. Cried when someone died: no8. Wanted someone: ya9. Broken a bone: Nope.11. Lied: yes12. Cried in school: yes, when i stappled my thumb WHICH IS BETTER13. Coke or Pepsi: dont drink pop14. Sprite or 7UP: see above15. Girls or Guys: guys16. Flowers or candy: flowers17. Scruff or Clean shaved: clean shaved19. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes.20. Bitchy or Slutty: bitchy21. Tall or Short: Tall.22. Pants or Shorts: pantsWITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:23: What do you notice first: voice, confidence, lips, eyes, smile24. Last person you slow danced with: Gio25. Worst Question To Ask: i dunno?THE LAST TIME:26. Showered: last night27. Had Sex: 1 week agoWHAT IS (your favorite):29. Your Good Luck Charm: dont have one30. Person You Hate Most: dont hate anyone31. Best Thing That Has Happened to You This Year: Spending time in tofino with gio;) having sex on the beach with Gio, going to a rave and doing E..i have lots of good things that happened to me last year (this year just started) but this year, spending new years with Gio and kissing for a long time at midnight32. Color: blue33. Movie: Big hit, dirty dancing, sixteen candles35. Juice: mango36. Cars: mustang, z3 bmw37. Ice Cream: moose tracks39. Season: summer40. Breakfast Food: dont like breakfast food43. Makes you laugh the most: Gio, my sisters44. Makes you smile: Gio45. Can make you feel better no matter what: Gio-of courseWHO?46. Has A Crush On You: lol some kid in my cafateria class, he is so obvious about it. lol he freaked out when i wore a ring on my wedding finger. he told me I shouldn't wear a ring on my wedding finger because i will confuse guys! he is such a retard. 47. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: hm not really, just my baby48. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: guysDO YOU EVER:50. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: ya sorta51. Save AOL conversations: No.52. Save Emails: Sure, receipts, little comments, logs, passwords, etc.53. Wish you were someone else: Sure, sometimes54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: No.BEST56. Cologne: (gios) Swiss Army 57. Perfume: (mine) ralph Lauren-Romance58. Kiss: A soft, passionate, loving kiss... and for a long time59. Romantic memory: I have lots: me and Gio crying together after making love. taking showers together. staying at Nikis all weekend. Making Thanksgiving dinner together. making love on the beach while the sun goes downHAVE YOU61. Fallen for your best friend?: no62. Made out with JUST a friend? no63. Been rejected: no.64. Been in love?: yes65. Been in lust?: yes66. Used someone?: no67. Been used: nope68. Cheated on someone?: no, and never will69. Been cheated on?: no70. Been kissed?: yes71. Done something you regret?: no, no regrets!WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...72. You touched?: hm dunno, my mom?73. You talked to?: rachel.74. You hugged?: mom75. You instant messaged?: Brynne (friend from school)76. You kissed?: Gio77. You had sex with?: Gio78. You yelled at?: dont know80. Who broke your heart?: no one81. Who told you they loved you?: GioDO YOU...82. Color your hair? i have, but not anymore83. Have tattoos? yes, one84. Have piercings below the waist? no85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? yes, boyfriend86. Own a webcam? no87. Own a thong? yes, lots88. Ever get off the damn computer? ya of course89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? nope90. Habla espanol? nope91. Quack?: ya whateverHAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...92. Stolen anything over $50? yes a lot!! i used to steal a lot. then i got cought a couple times, and now i never steal!93. Smoke? nope94. Schizophrenic? no95. Obsessive? maybe a tiny bit96. Compulsive? Not usually.98. Panic? argh sometimes99. Anxiety? Yes.100. Depressed? no.101. Suicidal? never!!
I am fighting some girl tomorrow at the skate park. I don't really know why. This girl started shit and I'm going to kick her fucking ass. She better show up. i have never fought anyone before...but im strong lol! Insecure and immature girls are stupid
I haven't updated in my journal in awhile. So i thought I would just write a quick entry....I haven't been doing much this week. Going to school, making an ugly shirt in sewing, talking to Gio, sleeping, having horrible dreams. hm thinking about what me and Gio want to do for Valentines (go to Whistler and rent a cottage for the weekend--very romantic) Me and Gio talked about our AWESOME visit that we had last weekend. He had a great time. And so did I. It was..perfect. Gio called last night, pretty late. And I was half sleeping while we where talking (I feel so bad whent that happens) and he wanted to have phone sex, and I was just way too tired. So he said well I will call you tomorrow, but I still wanted to talk. But he wanted to go because he was getting frustrated that I was half sleeping on him. So we said our good byes, but i wish I just woke up and did that with him. It's my fault. pooey.Yesterday i went for a 2 hour run with the dog. I am so outta shape, but i'm going to start running again. I gained 5 pounds and that made me very depressed, so im gonna do something about it!! Ok bye for now, i will try to update more often :)
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he just called--it's still undecided. because we are going to stay at Nikki's house, and we aren't sure if Sergio (niki's bf) wants nikki to stay at his house all weekend. They always fight, and dont like spending weekends together. he said he would call me back!! argh!! i am so nervous and anxious!!
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Hello, I'm waiting for Gio to call me to tell me if i'm coming over to Vancouver tonight, or tomorrow. I'm really anxious and nervous. I want to know NOW if i'm going over tonight. I really pray that I go tonight. I would take the 8:15pm ferry. I am slowly getting ready. I've had a bath, shaved, gave myself a facial, ironed my clothes, and started packingSchool was ok. I am sooo happy it's FRIDAY. this week has been so damn slow, and shitty. me and Gio talked a lot yesterday. Probably for 4-5 hours. it was great. And we are planning our weekend. if I go tomorrow i will stay until Monday and miss school ;) I dont mind missing school, expecially if I'm with Gio ♥I have a feeling I wont be going tonight, but i'm trying not to think of the worst. [crosses fingers, everything will work out]OK well i better finish getting beautified.bye
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