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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
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2:49 pm
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I was reading the indiefucks community over at LJ... I stumbled across this insane clip of this Canadian show called "Kid Show"... I nearly pissed myself laughing.
Oh yeah. I have mono. Yay! Not. It hurts.
Good bye.
current mood:  discontent
current music: Brand New - Soco Amaretto Lime
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| Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
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6:59 pm
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3:29 am
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It's snowing! I went outside to check it out, and it was friggin' beautiful!
There was a warm(ish) breeze. The snowflakes were huge. It was really neat because I could see the way the wind was blowing them around the lights.
I'm kinda hungry, but all I have is some powdered iced tea, so I made some. I know it has caffeine, so I took some Benadryl. I hope it works this time.
Sickness Update: The entire right side of my neck and head fucking hurts. I can feel the pressure building. Definitely going to the doctor tomorrow. It's strange that I was just thinking this morning about how I don't really seem to be vulnerable to getting sick as I usually am.
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: Strangers with Candy on Comedy Central
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| Saturday, November 1st, 2003
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5:05 pm - These past few days...
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...have been really fun!
Granted, I have been stressed out over school and stuff, but I had a great weekend so far.
Thursday: Slept all day. Woke up at noon, went to the bank, ate lunch, went to class. Talked to my mom for like an hour in the hall outside of my graph comm class, it was funny, considering the subject matter and how loud I was speaking. Oh well. Went to Tom's, had a beer, Ben came over, had a few more beers, we went across the street... this is where things get blurry (fun). We played this insane game called "connections". I don't feel like explaining it on here, if anyone wants to play it some weekend, I'll show ya, it's really fun. Anyway, the game got me messed up. Then I bonged a beer, it was crazy, I was really good at it. Then, I started drinking some gin. Yuck.
Friday: Needless to say, I got back home around three-ish Friday afternoon. Had a lot of bite marks from the girl in the bathroom (I'm assuming). Tom tells me she has a lot of bad ones, too... if that's the girl I'm thinking of. Oh well. *L* I ate lunch at the Den, thought I was going to puke all over, took some Pepto and Rolaids and went to bed. I woke up at around seven, got showered, went out to dinner. We went to the UpFront. I had a lot of fun, all the people were in costumes and they were getting wasted. We got this soup, it was some kind of wild rice stuff, except it tasted really funny. So I kept eating. Then, we figured out it was pork. Gross. Next came the entree. I got some citrus chicken and steamed broccoli. It was good, but it kind of made my stomach jumpy, probably because of the acid. Finally, for desert, I got this fuckin' amazing chocolate fudge cake. Oh, my God, was it good. So we left just before the band started (from the looks of the band members, it was probably for the best) and rented some flicks. Long story short, ended up staying up all night watching movies and staying sober. Yay for me!
Saturday: Slept all day (what a surprise!). Pretty funny. I still haven't smoked a cigarette. Good job, me! My dad and some other people called, but I was too tired to do anything about it. Tom wants me to go to this kegger tonight that their friend is putting on. I was all for it at first, now, I'm feeling sketchy about where it is and who's going to be there. I still have a lot of homework to do, so if it is close, I will have to leave around two or so and walk home. I need to start a better sleeping schedule.
Overall, my life is slowly even-ing out. I am enjoying myself thoroughly. It's getting clearer who I should and shouldn't worry about, and I'm starting to not care about what people think. I'm going places, I don't have time for stupid drama... granted, I'm moving at a slower pace than I would like, but slow and steady wins the race, right? *LOL* Karma will catch up with people in the end... Now that karma has left me alone, for the time being *knock on wood*, it seems as though she's moved on to the next in line. ;)
You know what? I don't think I'm going to buy smokes for this party tonight (if I go). It's been damn near twenty four hours.. If I do get smokes, I'll get something cheap and nasty. Well, with only $15.80 in my account and $2 in my pocket, cheap and nasty is about all I can afford. *L*
Let's just hope I don't dance again tonight. ;)
current mood:  mischievous
current music: muffled rap (I love the dorms LOL)
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| Thursday, October 30th, 2003
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4:59 am - can't sleep.
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You are Fresh Mint.
You are caring and friendly. You have a nurturing
personality and always help out a friend in
need. You are fairly outgoing, and always show
a friendly face. You truly care for other
people, and you show it. However, you may
neglect your own responsibilites or become over
involved in your friends' personal affairs.
Most Compatible With: Orange
Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
current mood:  awake
current music: alkaline trio - old school reasons
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1:24 am - LMAO
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| Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
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5:31 pm - i don't even know
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today has just been crappy. i woke up way too late. i ended up having to run to the bank (well, i walked really fast) to get my money, then to get smokes, then to the den to eat, then i had just enough time to go back to my room and write up my dailies that i have missed for my stupid ad134 class... i popped a caffeine pill right before i left -- not a good idea. now, i feel all gross and jittery and i think i am going to throw up.
jess west told me that she has made up her mind -- she is leaving school at the end of the semester. :( i'm sad about it, but it's what she feels is best, so as long as she is happy, that's all that matters. i have no right to feel selfish about the whole thing.
i am really down today. there are a ton of things on my mind and i am too sick-feeling to deal with them. the foremost is this project i have for my ad134 class... it is an animation project, it has to be 30 seconds long, and i don't even have a basic concept figured out yet. i think i am going to use this song by future sound of london called papua new guinea as the background, but what does that accomplish? nothing. i have no idea what the visuals are going to consist of. i think that maybe i'll do some kind of shapes bouncing around that morph into a hand-drawn figure moving to the music, but like i said, i haven't a clue. i hate feeling so lost, and the fact that i feel like puking isn't making things any easier.
i have to get to work, i only have about 20 minutes to work with until i run back to my room and grab my computer for ad118.
*sigh* :(
current mood: nauseated
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| Monday, October 27th, 2003
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11:18 am - It snowed last night
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Vegetarian lasagna and jello cake is NOT safe to eat on an empty stomach... ugh
I was having this awesome (but strange) dream about being in the tropics again. We were in this huge bay and there were all these cruise ships just.. well, cruising about the bay. I was in my stateroom (or whatever it's called on a ship) and I saw my sisters Jessica and Abigail sailing a sailboat between this big ass ships and I was freaking out, because they kept getting really close to the fronts of the ships. Then, they got crashed into and stuff and I was freaking out more, because I was all the way across the bay and couldn't get there, because I couldn't swim in the dream and they had the only sailboat from our ship. Then, I heard a knock at the door.
I kind of woke up. More knocking.
It was Chuck, the maintenance man.
What a way to end a perfectly disturbing dream.
GODDAMNIT. Someone just got in our newly-repaired shower. Fuck.
[edit (12:43 PM) -- I really, REALLY should have downloaded the posting-client with the spellchecker...LOL]
current mood: sick
current music: Linkin Park - My December
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1:16 am - Can't sleep...
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...Now I know firsthand just how crappy cognitive dissonance really feels...
current mood:  embarrassed
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| Saturday, October 25th, 2003
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12:48 pm - Ho hum.
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Boo hoo. Blah blah blah blah.
I got a lot of sleep last night. I'm actually feeling rested!
A new world record was set at the speed skating thing last night.
Christin hung out for a bit. We went to Wal*Mart and then ordered a pizza. She left rather early (11:00 PM).
The sun is out today, but tomorrow it is supposed to snow. Mother Nature (along with some others) could benefit from some Lithium.
Hmm, let's see what else... Oh! I actually put in a service call for our shower. Hopefully, by Monday, we won't have a wading pool in our bathroom.
current mood:  refreshed
current music: TLC on the TV
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| Thursday, October 23rd, 2003
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4:49 pm - YES
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| Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
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10:29 pm
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by the way, I LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE COMMENT. please do so! thanks :)
current mood: grateful
current music: Less Than Jake - The science of selling yourself short
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9:31 pm - hi, my name is josh, and i am an online journal addict.
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| Tuesday, October 21st, 2003
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2:44 pm
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2:17 pm - BRR
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it is so cold today! drizzly and really windy. my hands are numb. at least the heat is working, finally.
i slept until noon-thirty, which means i got nine hours of sleep! yay! unfortunately, i'm still sleepy. i am only going to take one caffeine pill now, then one later, like in stupid graph comm class.
i stole two cheeseburgers from the den. they were nice and warm in my jacket when i was outside after lunch.
my hair is doing stupid things today.
my chapstick made my face numb. maybe i'm allergic.
food for thought: stumpy and keebler -- if they mated. think about it! LOL little leprechaun babies running all around hahaha
current mood: refreshed
current music: i woke up in a car - something corporate
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| Monday, October 20th, 2003
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11:11 pm - i hate art class
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well, ad134, to be precise.
i have spent the last several hours slaing away in this horrible computer lab. i hate this computer i have to use... it's a G3 runnin OSX, i'm using some retarded program called Cinema 4D. i hate it. i hate it. it is so slow and clumsy. i have been waiting 7 minutes for my scene to render, and there's nothing on my screen. just a black box, with "preparing scene..." in the lower left corner.
i am tired.
i am bitchy.
i am hungry.
i am h... nevermind.
i just want to get drunk and get some action. but we all know THAT isn't going to happen. me and my stupid morals.
also i would just like to say once again that i hate my body. im too skinny, and i have all sorts of extra flabby skin all over. and i hate my hair. i want to get it cut, but i am afraid it will look even stupider.
i wish wishes came true.
oh, wait. my scene is rendering. very. slowly. ARGH MORE GRINDING!!
(sorry, i fear i have finally lost my mind)
current mood:  bitchy
current music: the grinding sound of the CRAPPLE i have to use
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| Sunday, October 19th, 2003
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4:35 am - hey mercedes, "unorchestrated"
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| Saturday, October 18th, 2003
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11:17 pm - *sigh*
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i'm in that "i'm worthless" and "i'm going to be alone forever" mood again tonight.
i tried calling my parents. they didn't (wouldn't) their cells. they didn't visit me, either.
i love hey mercedes. their new cd, "loses control", is awesome. it's "everynight fireworks"-good. but better.
i downloaded itunes for windows. it's cool, i can listen to music on other computers on the network that are running itunes. i also got the newest version of mobydock. it has itunes support, among other neat little features.
im going downstairs after this song is done. i need a cig and then i am going to go to shannon's to see what's up.
*sigh* i hate feeling like this. to make things worse, i'm alert and un-hungover, so i can't sleep away this ugly emotion.
current mood:  indifferent
current music: knowing when to stop - hey mercedes
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| Thursday, October 16th, 2003
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3:06 pm - timberwolves at new jersey
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get up, get up
come on, come on, lets go
there’s just a few things
i think that you should know
those words at best
were worse than teenage poetry
fragment ideas
and too many pronouns
stop it, come on
you’re not making sense now
you can't make them want you
they're all just laughing
literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
well that's what girls dreams are made of
and that's all you need to know (and that’s all you need to know)
you have it or you don't (you have it or you)
you have it or you (don't)
you have it or you
you see how much time you're wastin?
you're coward of seperatin
stop it, come on
you know i can’t help it
i got the mic
and you got the mosh pit
what will it take
to make you admit that you were wrong?
was his demise so carefully constructed?
well let's just say i got what i wanted
cause in the end it’s always the same (you're still gone)
lets go
literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
well that's what girls dreams are made of
and that's all you need to know (and that’s all you need to know)
you have it or you don't (you have it or you)
you have it or you (don't) don't
this is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
and my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun (gun,gun)
remind me not to ever act this way again
this is you trying hard to
make sure that you're seen
with a girl on your arm
and your heart on your sleeve
remind me not to ever think of you again
this is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
and my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun
remind me not to ever act this way again (again)
again (again)
this is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
and my eye on the scope
down the barrel of a gun
i'll never act this way again
rest the weight (i know somethin that you don't know)
you've had your chance and folded
don't hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse
rest the weight (i know somethin that you don't know)
you've had your chance and folded
don't hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse
(i know somethin that you don't know)
this is me with the words
(i know somethin that you don't know)
and you sure don’t
hold your, hold your breath
(i know somethin that you don't know)
because you'll only make things worse
hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse
hold your breath
(i know somethin that you don't know)
because you'll only make things worse
don't hold your breath because you’ll only make things worse
current mood:  bored
current music: playlist: taking back sunday
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12:40 pm - LOL
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got this from helen's AIM profile. so funny.
what's not funny is that she's leaving until january. :-\
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