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[25 Sep 2003|02:53pm] |
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i have given up on friends. why do we have friends. all they do is hurt us. they backstab and lie. everyone always thinks that they have this one person that they can always trust that is like their best friend but really there is no scuch thing they backstab u just like everyone else. there wasw a time that i thought that i had that kind of friend but wut ive come to learn is that i really dont atleast i think i dont. i dont know i am so confused. right now i just wish i was off on some deserted island so i could just sit and think about everything. sometimes i sit and think about back in elementary school when everything was perfect. i never fought with anyone nobody was ever spreading trash about me everything was great. no drama! y cant my life be like it used to be. wut have i gotten myself into. i mean come one do i really want to look back in 10 years and be like why the hell did i hang out with people that treated people like crap. i mean im not saying anything bad about u guys that i hang out with i mean cuz i know i am just like u guys. its gotten to a point where i dont know who r my friends r and who r my enemies. i dont know who to trust. i dont know who to tell my feelings to. i have no one to talk to. i feel alone. there is like one person that i trusted i mean i could tell anything to them i loved them with all my heart but i cant trust them anymore. how can i look them in the face without crying. i poured out all my thoughts and feelings to them and they went and said something aobut me which isn't true. i dont know how im gonna make it anymore without those friends that i can sit and tlak with.
...shalin...
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