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[23 Jul 2003|02:46pm] Well! ^^; Hate to do this, but I think I'm going to say "goodbye" to my blurty. I'm planning on deleting EVERYONE from my friends list: I rarely update this anymore. Feel free to remove me from your friends list: it's not fair for me to take up room on it, especially if you have a free account. Also! If you have a livejournal, that's pretty much what I'm switching back to. You can find it here. No hard feelings or anything, but I just simply enjoy using Livejournal more. ^^ <3, Charlene fly me to the moon?

Eh. [24 May 2003|12:25pm] You are Beauty. You are beautiful, whether it be on the inside, the outside, or both. People are drawn to you as strongly as you are drawn to the beauty in the world around you. What Emotion Are You? brought to you by Quizilla fly me to the moon?

While everyone else is at it... [12 May 2003|05:14pm] (Things I think are true are bolded. :D) Your first name of Charlene has given you a quick-minded, sensitive nature. It gives you a creative ability in art, music, singing, or fancywork and an appreciation for refined surroundings. Your sociable nature expresses affection, kindness, and thoughtfulness to the extent that it is difficult for you not to be affected by others and governed by your emotions, rather than by logic and reason. As you respond to love and encouragement from others, your romantic and dreamy nature can easily lead you into love affairs. Your desire for peace at any price can result in going out of your way to avoid arguments and confrontation or hurting the feelings of others. Also, budgeting can be a problem as you enjoy spending money and can easily ignore being practical. Any health weaknesses would show in skin conditions, and also fluid problems affecting the glandular system and kidneys. ---from here fly me to the moon?

[11 May 2003|01:13pm] [ mood | optimistic ] [ music | "Gotta Knock A Little Harder" - Mai Yamane ] Hehe. ^^; I looked at this and realized that it's been almost a week since I last updated. So where to start.. Grandma's okay. I'm so glad she's okay. I think that in itself sums a lot of things up. Moving on.. I complain. I complain A LOT. I'm going to just stop it. It irks everyone, and I really have nothing to complain that much about. I don't have anything much to complain about: I'm so much better off than so many people, I suppose. I have most things that I could want at this point ((with the exclusion of a few things, but that's really for another time)) and I don't have any potentially world-shattering decisions to make for other people. Things are good now, for me, anyway. I have no right to complain, IMO, and from now on, I'm going to try to keep it to a minimum. Why fret over things that could be a heck of a lot worse than they are? ((Mind you, that doesn't really apply to everything, but it works for me..)) The otherday when I was taking a shower, I just sort of though.. Everything that one person does or says has some sort of effect on someone else. Which starts a domino effect, really, because one simple thing you do or say can cause someone you don't even know to do something. ((Hn.. that probally didn't come out as well as it did in my head.. but whatever.)) The actions of the entire human race are really one big domino effect, I think, and even the smallest thing can change how things go. I mean.. isn't it amazing that every SINGLE person has that sort of power? I don't know. I think something like that is pretty intresting. Maybe it's just me. ((You know, anyone reading this is most likely thing.. "..what's with Charlene and all the deep stuff?". To tell you the truth, I don't know, either. :D But that's the fun part, isn't it?)) I'm done with my rambling about that sort of stuff for now.. so anyway.. Other than what happened with Grandma, not much else this week. On Friday, though, I remeber Mark hitting me in the arse with a rubberband, and I went to go and hit him in the sholder because well.. a) That hurt and b) I didn't want him near that part of me. >.>; No offence, but.. meh. Don't want anything like that from him. At all. ((Though, I doubt the possibility of that ever happening VERY, very much.)) But, you know, instead of hitting his shoulder, I wound up smacking him in the face. Whoops. What else? Uhm.. Christina and her poor ear. ;-; The one piercing became infected and I think I made however she felt worse by mentioning that my grandfather had cancer in his ear and wound up getting part of it cut off. ;-; MEEH! <333 you, Christina! Sorry!!! ;-; Oh! And yesterday I went to go and see Senses Fail with Meagan, Lori, Christina, Sha, and Jen C. It was okay. It was loud. The band seemed nice, but I didn't stay to get autographs and meet them and everything. Yeah. Before the show, I felt bad because Meg and Lori were waiting there for me for about an hour. (( ;-; Sheesh.. I'm getting as bad as my one aunt with the whole "being on time" thing. )) We got my mother's Mother's Day gift. It's a little Precious Moments fairy ((that's SUPER cute. xD)) with a little pot that says "Dew Drops" on it with a little bee sitting on it. ((I gave it to her last night. She liked it.)) I also ((finally)) picked up DDR Max. Last night when I went to play it, though, it turned out that my DDR Pad was busted up. o.o The down arrow is gone: it doesn't work AT ALL. Oh well.. Yesterday I didn't go dress shopping, nor will I be doing so today, either. My mom didn't want to take me so I'm not going to be a pain and bug her about it. It is Mother's Day, so yeah. I'm just going to sit and keep my mouth shut, thus making me a good girl. :D ...I'm going to be the moron that I am and go play DDR without a down arrow now. XDDDD Bai. 7 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

[06 May 2003|07:30pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | "Moment" - DJ Nagureo ] Daririram dariram dariram Darirarirariram Dariraram dam Dariri Ram dariram dariram Darirarirariram Dariraram dam ...-blinks- I can't get Dam Dariram out of my head. And it's -just- that part of the song, too. Don't mind me? But I love "Moment" so much more than "Damdariram". Yupyup. If anyone has a translation of "Moment" let me know. Kthx. Uhhhm.. today we had that math testing. Cramming last night didn't really help, though, because I had a killer headache this morning. ^^; Oh well. It figured that for the begining of Part II of the test, a sheet with all the trig formulas was included. -dies- It figures that when I put my entire heart into studying something for once, it's given on a handout. Meeeh. Oh well? I have to work on my French, because exams for that are coming up, too. Social Studies as well. (Though, I'm not all that worried about Social Studies, because I've heard this test is pretty easy and you can pass it as long as you do well on [SCORE!] essay questions) Toddis came into school to take the Math exams this morning, and I didn't see him. ;-; And I wanted to draw something pretty and compltely girly on his cast, too. XP Today seemed really short. Maybe it was because every period was shortened to 28 minutes long? Yeah. I think that was moreso it than anything else. Today gave me further reason to not like my gym period. We wound up staying in and playing kickball. I don't get why people get so freaking competitive over KICKBALL. I mean, you're not going to be thirty something years old one day, and think back to that one day you lost a game of kickball in 8th grade. (Unless you have nothing better to think about, but you know, by that point in time, everyone [well, most people, anyway. Nothing's all out impossible, right?] has at least one better thing to think about than kickball, IMO, anyway.) And yeah, it seems like some people take it THAT seriously. It scares me just a bit. The day went on, and nothing really came up. Except somebody mentioned this in Computers Class. ..intresting, to say the least. In Science, Mark and Tim were bugging me about my bracelets. ;-; So what. I like my bracelets. THENNNNN, after school, I hung out with Sharon and Eva and there were some messed up IMs to people. Sorry if anybody got anything that was incomprehensible. ^^; Blame me. We did all this fun sort of stuff today. Yeah. But I got into a ton of trouble when my mom got home. Merhph. But I still <3 both of you. :P Yup! LOL. o.o; I listened to a voicemail I left on my dad's phone. Cod, is my voice obnoxious. ^^; I don't think I have much of a Long Island accent, though. Because if I do have a heavy accent, I'd.. I don't know. o.o I just don't really want an accent. Yeah. More math testing tomorrow. I think I might go and watch Buffy for once. Take a shower. All that kind of good stuff. Baibai. ( a purity test and a couple quizzes ) 1 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

[05 May 2003|10:34pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | "Ghosts [VDM mix]" - Tenth Planet ] Hmm.. my mind's so frazzled to a point where I'm seeing things that aren't there. ^^; That's never good. So yup. :X Hopefully whatever's mentally off with me right now'll just go away soon enough. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that I had this killer pain on the right side of my head today? -shrug- But today was a series of mental bitchslaps reminding me of what's real and what's not, and that I don't have the mental power to exaggerate things simply to get the right kinds of attention that I want. Nothing much in school today. My actual highpoint in school was drawing on Mark with my eyeliner pencil. haha. ^^; That must sound pretty sad, but it was fun. After school, Christina, Eva, and Sharon came over. hehe. It was so random and fun. I alway have fun when I'm with them. It makes me happy. Some of the things we do are utterly immature for people our age, sure, but you know, having fun everyonce in a while is good, and needed. Hnn.. I feel the burnout. I feel complete, total, burnout right now. And cod, it's only Monday, too. Not good. Math testing tomorrow. I should be sleeping. But I crammed so much to a point where my brain's still running. >.<; It's not a good feeling. Heh. I think I'd just like to have someone just to sort of poke me and remind me of my obligations.. keep me on the right track. Keep me doing what I have to do, when I have to do it. All that sort of fun stuff. It's lightly raining outside. I like weather like this, but it makes me feel dependant on other people. It seems that.. as each day passes, I hate being by myself more and more. That I feel the CONSTANT need to be around people, no matter who they are. Is this weird at all? -ponders- Maybe it's just me. This is the first time I've felt like this, you know. Looking back on my LJ entries even from the past six months.. Cod, I've changed. I don't know if for better or for worse, but something's different. I'm disgusted when I look at older things I've written.. o.o; -blinks- Going to sleep now. Or trying to, anyway. 'night. fly me to the moon?

[04 May 2003|09:00pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | "Stella By Moor" - CBB ] Heh. ^^; Today was good, if you exclude the fact that my mother's on the phone right now complaining to Voicestream about our one phone. Oh well. I don't like seeing my mother aggrivated, but you know, sometimes she just.. meh. o.o I'm stopping myself *right* there. Eva came over today. Whee. It was only for like an hour or so, but we talked and had fun. ((BTW, Yesterday I saw X-2 with her, Franky, and Franky's cousin. Jeebus, it was spiff. ^^)) And we played The Sims for a while and tried to get Santa to come. ;-; Too bad everything went wrong. The house went on fire twice, my sim died another time, and then a burglar came. Then we were going to rent a movie but that didn't really work out. I came up with the bright idea of showing her my report card. This is one of those times when I just should have kept my mouth shut. e.e; I asked my mom where it was, and -POOF!- my dad walks in the door. ((He didn't know of my grades: because I knew he'd want to go and straighten them out. Oi vey, that's asking for something to go wrong.)) Ehehe? It was pretty strange because he finally figured out I was hiding it from him. Don't get me wrong, I felt bad, but I got scolded for having a 91 average, because everyone, including myself, knows that I can do better. But.. I don't know. I was afraid of what would be said to me. That I'm stupid for doing that bad or something. ((It was selfish on my part to being with to hide this in the first place, really.)) But anyway? This weekend was pretty good. This week is math exams. Meeeh. ;-; I hope I do OK. I'm going to study all this week. ((I know. Me? Study? HAH! But I have to for math or else the results are going to be pretty painful. ^^; )) Homework should be pretty light this week because of the testing, so that's good, too. You know, it's already May. Graduation is soon. I'm wearing the dress I sewed to it. I think I look really nice in it, but that could just be me. I'm probally going to wind up going to that one dance, too. ((:PPP What would a dance be without an appearance of the girl who was voted "Most Artistic"? You *know* it would be dull. Oh yeah.)) And then there's the matter of the party I'm being thrown. But? That means June is coming soon, and that means summer. Sitting home, and doing most nothing but sleeping late, working occasionally, going to a few conventions, and hanging out with people that I <3. Summer should be great. But I'm not going to think that far ahead or else I'll jinx it or something. :X I don't want that to happen. At all. -nodnod- I'm really looking foward to going to highschool, because that means that I'm going to start moving on with my life, and moving on to bigger, better things. -siiiigh- That'll be greatness. fly me to the moon?

[01 May 2003|02:17pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | TV in the other room ] Meh. >.<; Home sick from school today. I don't feel well.. at all. I hate it. I'm completely cramped up, and I'm feeling pukeish every few minutes. y.y; So.. not fair. -sigh- I need a new layout for my fanlisting, but I can't seem to find any good ideas for it. >.<; Someone help? ( quizzes. ) 1 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

[30 Apr 2003|09:01pm] The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo! Here is how you matched up against all the levels: Level Score Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Moderate Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) High Level 2 (Lustful) Low Level 3 (Gluttonous) Very Low Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Low Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Low Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Very Low Level 7 (Violent) Low Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) Moderate Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) Low Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test fly me to the moon?

[30 Apr 2003|08:18pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | "Wo Qui Non Coin" - CBB ] Went and saw an IMax movie today with my computers class. "Ghosts of the Abyss". Eh. I thought it was sort of boring, and it made me dizy, but for anyone really into things about the Titanic? I would reccomend it to you but really no one else. ^^; Sorry. We watched Batman Forever on the way back, and Lori and I were talking about how Rivers from Weezer is cuter than Batman. That's.. very true, to me, anyway. :PPPP -nodnod- I am weird like that, btw. Today was so blah. Hehe. Sha smells like Benji. Sha came to my house after school. I started work on a Benji vector for her. We played The Sims and took funny pictures. hee. That's really it. I'm probally going to start working next weekend. -sigh- o.o I have a killer stomach ache, I don't know if I have it because of PMS or because I'm extremely nervous about reportcards coming this weekend. Maybe it's both. Could be something else. I don't know. I stress myself out about so much. >.<; I need to stop doing things like this to myself. Getting myself nervous and wound up over nothing... I'm pretty bored now. e.e; So I'm going to type up my MP3 list. ( Click if you want to take a look see. ) 1 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

o.o; Heh. [30 Apr 2003|03:20pm] [ mood | embarrassed ] You're angry, though not necessarily depressed. You're probably very violent, and you might like to throw things and hurt other people.You might have Antisocial personality disorder and believe that your needs are above everyone elses, or maybe you're just sadistic. Or..you could be PMSing right now.If you don't get help at Charter, get help somewhere. How Depressed are You? brought to you by Quizilla fly me to the moon?

[29 Apr 2003|05:38pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | "Seven Nation Army" - The White Stripes ] Heh. :P I've been told to update, so I am. I have to work on my Ramen fanlistings. MEEEEH. Applications are backed to the hilt now. ^^; I'm working on a new, better form and a new, better layout. So that's what's taking so long. (That, and me being just a tad lazy with that and having my mind elsewhere, but there's more to that than I really want to explain right now so PSSHAW. I need to finish customizing stuff for this layout too. -cough- Like make an icon that matches. Yeeeeah.) Sunday my family was here. Meh.. I saw my Uncle Jim for the first time since Confirmation last year. It was nice to see him, but he really didn't talk to me all that much. Whatever. He's thinking of buying an old firetruck to take to musters and things like that. That would be neat, but I wouldn't be able to go because I have no fire fighting skills. I saw my Aunt Denise and "Uncle" Joe, but.. yeah. That's something that I'm not going to explain, for the greater good of everyone involved. ^-~ Later on, I went to get coffee with my cousin and some moron guy hit on me. "hey shortay, i lyke doze bootz ur wurking" -SLAP!- I hate people like that. I really, really do. At least.. BLAH. aslkd. >.>; That comment wasn't appreciated. And just ew, honestly. Yesterday.. nothing much. Nothing too out of the ordinary. Hung out with Eva, Franky, Jenn C. and Sha. It was pretty fun. We went to my house after school. Normal stuff. Yeah. Poor Toddy broke a bunch of bones in his leg. o.o Something about playing Frisbee and someone falling on him. Ouch. ;-; Breaking bones hurts. I think he has to get surgery. Meeeh. Something about breaking a growth plate? -shrug- ...And many huggles for Mallory, if you're reading this. ^^ I hope your mom gets better and better until she's at uber spiff point. Toooooooday.. not much. :X Not very suprising. School was school. School is always school. So not much happened. I got a 100 on my Science test (whee.) but I didn't do so good on today's French quiz. (I know I got "to say" and something else confused. e.e; I studied, but it just slipped my mind completely when it was time for the quiz.) I walked home with Eva, but it was sorta-raining, and I walked around with my hoodie up, because I wanted to keep my hair dry. :PP (Didn't work very well, though.) ;-; Chris was playing with the bear ears on my hoodie, and violated the bear ears. I don't know what else to say about that. Anyway, talked to Eva about so much on the way home. Just about things that have been happening to both of us and everything. It's nice to just talk to people while you're walking somewhere. On the way home, we passed a cherry blossom tree and took a couple small branches from it. They smell really, really nice. -nodnod- The little branch is in a tiny vase in my room now. Speaking of which.. I'm supposed to be cleaning right now. And doing laundry. Ehehehe. XD I'm good at actually cleaning, but when it comes to washing things.. count me out. heh. ^^; Everything almost always shrinks or comes out a different color when I do the laundry. Meeeeeeeh. o.o; Next week is my dad's birthday. Next Thursday. He's 47. :D HEE! I need to get him a gift. :X fly me to the moon?

[25 Apr 2003|12:35pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | "Finale" - The Nightmare Before Christmas [midi] ] You know.. I really adore The Nightmare Before Christmas. The music from it.. whee. I like it so much. I should really pick up the DVD when I get a chance.. Yesterday, I went to the movies with Sharon, Kaitlin and Eva. We saw "Malibu's Most Wanted". It was okay, but I think I would have rather seen "Anger Managment". xP Sha came to my house to pick me up and I wasn't even ready yet. (So me, being the normal klutz I am, ran around the house looking for everything at the last possible minute. o.o) Before the movie, when Sha and Kaitlin were going to get snacks, Eva and I ran off to the movie because we didn't want to wait in that long line with them. Then, about twenty minutes later, we're sitting there wondering where the heck Kaitlin and Sha are and they were sitting somewhere else. The movie was funny in some parts.. but I just didn't really understand most of it. ^^; Whoops. I thought I lost my cellphone maybe three or four times during the movie, and I think the lady who was sitting behind me got sorta annoyed. I apoligized, so there. Towards the end, this little girl came running down the aisle and moved into the seats in front of us. She started jumping up and down.. and then she starting running in the row in front of us. I poked Sha and told her that the little people were coming to get us and she started to laugh, again annoying the lady sitting in back of us. After the movie, we went to Starbucks and I got a doughnut (yum. ^^) and this really, really good Plum-Green Tea combo. We sat there and talked about all this stuff and this old lady kept on giving me dirty looks. Why is it that older people ALWAYS give me dirty looks? Is there something about me that's hate-a-ble to older people? Really? Someone TELL ME WHAT IT IS! -cough- Heh. Then, Sha's grandpa came to pick us up, and we all went to Sha's for a while. It was funny, because we were going to play Cranium but we couldn't figure out how to start. x.X; Oops. So then all this other stuff happened (i.e: Sha and Eva having fun lighting things on fire) and then I had to go home. When I did get home, I cleaned as fast as I possibly could. And it actually worked. whee. Yesteday, the bakery that's been in my family for.. well, a long time (I can't put a date on it.. sorry).. was demolished. My mother and grandmother were extremely depressed yesterday about it. I can't blame them.. the bakery was started by my great-grandparents (whom I've never met) when they first immigrated here from Europe. (It's been closed since my great-uncle died sometime in the early 80's, so I really don't know all that much about how it worked, expect for the fact that it meant a lot to my family) So yeah. Yesteday wasn't really a good day for them. Last night I stayed up pretty late talking to Sha on the phone. It's good to have somebody who listens to every little thing you have to say, no matter how stupid, without much objection. (I feel fortunate of my friends, not just Sha, listen to me unconditionaly.. ^^) And today.. haha. XD I look like crap, but company is coming. This might be one of the rarer occasions where I wind up using cover-up on my face. o.o; So yup. They're here. Bai. 2 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

Hmm.. [24 Apr 2003|11:16am] Hiding. You deal with your depression by wearing a mask. No one ever knows your depressed, so no one can ever pity you. On the outside you're calm and collected. Inside, your blood boils... But that's ok, as long as everyone thinks you're normal. How do you deal with your depression? brought to you by Quizilla fly me to the moon?

[23 Apr 2003|04:57pm] [ mood | confused ] Nothing much today. Wasn't allowed to go out. Worked on a new layout. Watched Spirited Away again. School in another week. :/ Meh. ( quizzes. ) fly me to the moon?

[22 Apr 2003|07:53pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | "Promise" - Utada Hikaru ] -nodnod- Just a quick update before Buffy. o.o I'm actually going to try to catch the last few episodes. (HAH! I haven't watched this entire season but oh well. ^^; A little late to start now, but this is the last season Buffy is on so..) ANYWAY, AHH! Today was so spiffing. I went to the mall with Sha, Franky and Eva. It was SO much fun. (Heck, I think it was the most actual fun that I've had in a while. WHEE! xD) We walked around for a bit, and then we went to the pet store. !!! There was this uberly cute Cogi that I just wanted to buy right there. ;-; He was $200, though, and I think I would prefer a kitty, anyway. But SERIOUSLY! xD The little Corgi looked JUSSSSST like Ein from Bebop. (^^; That's a poor reason to get a dog, I know. But.. you know.. when I see Bebop cosplayers I hardly EVER see an Ein with them. So forth, I would cosplay as.. well, e.e; someone and bring a *real* Ein along. xDDD) After that, we walked around some more. We looked in Hot Topic and I found a hat that's as *close* as I'm probally *EVER* going to get to the hat that was lost in Frost Valley. Naturally, I bought it. ^-~ So YAY! I walked around the mall wearing it, but pssh. :P People can stare all they want as long as I'm happy. ^^ After I bought the hat, I DDRed with Sha. We had to wait a while for a machiene to open, because people were hogging them. (That's not nice to do. :P) So while we were waiting, we tried to ParaPara. LMFAO. It was fun, but we failed all three times we tried. Ooooh well. It was worth it, though. Some guy came over and told us how much he thinks ParaPara is crap and a waste of money and whatnot, but you know what? It was fun. We told him that and he looked just a tad aggrivated. Too bad for him. But the people who were DDRing did so about 3 or 4 times in a row. So we went to FYE and looked. And -gasp! xD- the Spirited Away DVD was on sale so I picked it up. (It just sort of.. freaked me out a little bit that it was right near the hentai section. o.o;) And THEN we DDRed. xDDD I got a 200-something combo on "Synchromized Love" so I'm so proud of myself. Whee. ^^ (I found out later that Eva had a camera and she could have taken a picture).. So then.. we all walked to the other side of the mall. And when we were about 1/2 way there.. we got hungry. lol. So we went back to the Food Court and Sha and I ate Chinese food. (Yum.. rice and ribs. XDDDD) THEEEEN.. more DDR. :X And games. w00p. ^^ Today was so neat. When we got back to my house, we started to watch Spirited Away, but then Franky and Eva had to leave. ;-; Oh well. So I watched it. It was a very, very good movie. (hehe. e.e; I cried towards the end. The whole with Chihiro and Haku thing. ;--------; -sap-) I think it's actually one of my favorite movies now. ^^ Yay. I think I'm going to watch it in French later. (Yeah. o.o; I really do lack much else to do.) "Itsumo Nando Demo" is really pretty. I think I would want a music box with that song on it. That would be nice. -nodnod- Today was just so nice. It was what the entirity of last summer was like. I really, really liked last summer, too. Maybe this one will be better. Who knows? I do have that job now, plus Otakon *and* Big Apple Anime Fest. (Plus decent cosplay. WHEEEE! xDDDDD) And maybe I'll pick up some more Japanese. ^^ Today I'm just so happy for once. I like it. I like being happy, no matter what anyone seems to say. -shrug- And this song ("Promise")D/Led itself sometime today. Whee. ^^ I like it. ( cod, i love this song. ;-; ) fly me to the moon?

[21 Apr 2003|09:17pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | "Fly Me To The Moon" - Frank Sinatra ] You know.. I would like to people-rant for just a mini second here. I know noboday wants to hear it.. but -shrug-. If you don't like somebody? Leave them the hell alone. It's that simple. It really, really is. Don't talk to them, don't think about them. Save yourself and everyone else the trouble, please. For your own sake, if not everyone else's. I'm not mentioning any names, it's not needed at all. The world would be a much, much better place if everyone just avoided who they didn't get along with. But that's just my two cents, really. Yesterday was Easter. I don't know how I ever really believed in the Easter Bunny because the idea of a giant, walking rabbit leaving eggs and baskets is well.. a little.. I don't know how to say it. All out strange? I have no clue how I'm going to do anything like this when I have children. o.o; Or when I have to babysit anyone's kids, for that matter. Anyway.. last night my Uncle Gary, Aunt Debbie, Cousin Gary, Cousin Chrissy, and her boyfriend John came over. We ate dinner and everything. It was okay. My uncle thinks it's intresting that I'm begining to learn Japanese. Hee. He offered to learn with me. Whee. xDDD I lent him a few tapes of CBB, but he can't return them because my aunt used them to tape One Life To Live. >.>;; Oh well. After dinner, we played Outburst. It was pretty fun.. but.. well.. haha. Gary cheats at Outburst. (YES, that IS possible. x.x;) He doesn't check things off on the little checkoff thing. e.e; Last night, though, there was a catagory "Parts of a Taco" and my Aunt Debbie shouted out "BURRITO! XD". Yeeah. Haha. I think I'm going to start inviting a friend over for holidays so everyone can experience being around my family at least once. hehe. Somebody's going to come over sometime during Christmas if they like it or not. :PP Other than that, we went to a car crash scene, because my Uncle got a call for it over his fireband. (Yup yup. o.o Almost every guy on my dad's side of the family has been part of [some sort of] fire department...) So yeah. I really didn't understand much of what was being talked about. After that, we came home and they left. I went upstairs and talked to Jane online. She brought up a good many points about a lot of things that have been bothering me. I made a little list of things that I have to bring up to different people about little, unresolved things and feelings that make me feel the way I do now. Some of it is going to hurt when I bring it up. :/ And I know it. But stalling on it is just a sad attempt to aviod the unavoidable. :/ I need to figure out where my feelings are, where they need to be, and what I need to do to be happy. I can't say that I really know right now. I feel like I don't know certain people anymore.. like some things that were between them and I just aren't the same anymore. Maybe it's just me. I don't know. But a failure in any friendship.. well, it requires two people. So I can't be the only one to blame. Such is life? But neeeeeeh... xD I'm happy right now. I'm going to the mall tomorrow with Franky and Eva, and that makes me happy. Southshore Mall, which means.. DDR! WHEEEEEEE! XDDDDDD Now.. e.e; Just to find a way to get there... Bus, probablly.. I don't know anyone who can drive, (or would drive me.. us, rather, there.) and walking is out. It's supposed to rain tomorrow. But rainy days are nice. I've always liked rainy days. -shrug- 1 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

[20 Apr 2003|01:14pm] [ mood | awake ] Here's the "Happy Easter/Sping Religous Holiday" post. -nod- You know, sometimes I really don't like my house at any given holiday. o.o Things get crazy, and my mom becomes moreso of a perfectionist than she normally is. Thus, I loose any given sanity whatsoever. And my dad decided to go play a game of golf, so I'm stuck here with her. I took it upon myself to take the job of cleaning upstairs, because any of my cousins that come over decide to hang out in my room. Little does my mother know that I spent a whole day this week cleaning. MWHAHa..ha. -cough- Yes. Yes indeed. So now, I'm sitting here and typing this. And did you know its 1:23 right now? heh. ^^; Wow, I am really easily amused. I don't need anyone else to remind me of that. -ponder- That's really it. fly me to the moon?

[19 Apr 2003|06:54pm] You know.. I should really dye my hair black. And soon. It's getting that.. bleh look. The dye is almost completely faded out, leaving half of my head a bit two toned. y.y; 2 let me play among the stars * fly me to the moon?

[19 Apr 2003|11:15am] [ mood | morose ] Hn.. over the last few days, a few aspect of my personal life have withered down and pretty much died due to my lack of control when I'm upset. great. -sigh- Should apoligize and explain why I acted how I did. Tomorow is Easter. Yeah. I haven't actually been to church since my Confirmation. o.o; And I ate meat on a Friday during Lent. meeeeh. ><; According to my one grandmother, I'm probally going to go to hell about now. Heh? -shrug- Maybe what's happened to me in the past few days has been payback for not.. Oh well. Probally just me worrying again. ^^; That's me, I'm such a worrier sometimes. But nothing right now it really stable, so to say. Well, I am, but a good majority of other things just.. aren't, you know? -think- Thinks should turn out okay, though. Everything will be okay in the end, even if things don't really go the way that I want. (Which, with one thing, is most certinally the truth. y.y; And I'm mostly at fault for it, too.) Oh well. Put on a smile and hope for the best. Really, it's all that I can do. ( survey much? ) fly me to the moon?

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