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[17 Mar 2005|08:56pm] Video code provided by MusicVideoCodes.com I Walk This Empty Street

stupid mofo... [17 Mar 2005|06:16pm] [ music | christie road ~ green day ~ kerplunk! ] i dont even know if anyone updates anymore. i havent in like 2 weeks! well heres whats been happin... last saturday was DI competition and we took home 3rd place, the spirt of DI award and the renansance award. yeah so were all pretty proud about that. the boys are goin to states and im very proud of them. your guys are goin all the way this time! i found that scott doesnt want a girlfriend right now. so fuck it. ive stopped trying. but im not too upset about it. i think cause i still like shawn. i dont want to anymore cause i dont think he likes me but i cant help it. im so confused about our relationship. i feel liek im getting mixed signals and i dont knwo what to do. but i said fuck it. im gonna just go on with life. boyfriend less. but i do need one before u know when so u know whats not a date. lol. i dont knwo whats wrong with me lately, but ive been getting jelous when matt flurts with other girls. like katie melo. its not like i like matt that way, but idk. i guess ill just see where things go. i got my permit on tuesday. fun fun! i drove home from shaws taht day with katie and ashley in the back. they were kinda pissin me off thou cause they were actin all scared. and it was makin me uncomfortable which made me drive worse. i could haev done alot better. but i still did pretty good for my first time. they keep saying things that make me soudn like i did horrible. and it hurts cause i feel pretty confident yeah obviously i need work on it, but im not so so bad. they are supposed to be my best friends, and my best friends are supposed to support me. nad i just was hurt when they acted that way. but in other news, me, katie and jake are goin to teh charlie horse tomarrow nite. yeah boy! its gonna be so much fun! matt might go. adn excited about that too. okay im gonan go buh byes... o yeah i have a myspace now so here it is http://profiles.myspace.com/users/22169853 I Walk This Empty Street

blah blah blah [05 Mar 2005|08:01pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | pop rocks and coke ~ green day ~ international superhits ] well ive had a pretty eventful week. it was fun... monday... DI- the competition is next saturday and were not ready! im scared. hold me! but i think well pull it togeher in time. tuesday... basically nothing. wednsday... i finished my stupid poster in shop. it sucked but o well. thursday... DI- kayla saw the set for the first time. she loved it. she was in a magazine! hahaha! we got alot done but were stll not ready. im still scared. hold me! friday... pretty much boring mourning but lunch was fun. theres a kid named scott hes a sophmore and hes really cute! he has a lip ring. woot woot. ashleys gonna give me his sn. im excited! i got in trouble for not doing my homework and not cleaning my room and not doing the dishes so i couldnt go to laurens benifit. sorry about that love. ill make it up to you i swear! today... i went over katies and painted her room with jake, ashley, and nate. theyre fun to hang out with. all four of them seem really happy and im glad to see that. katie and jake are like perfict for each other they just seem so great. and ashley and nate are like a match made in heaven. lol. i wish i had a boyfriend so i wouldnt feel so out of teh pile. i mean boyfriend or no boyfriend, i still have ALOT of fun. i mean ill follow them on double dates and not feel like the 5th wheel. cause im comfortable enough around them that i can be myself and have a blast. maybe thats what i need someone who i feel comfortable around so i can act like me without being a dumbass. okay im gonna go do my english homework. that way ill have it done tomarow... YEAH RIGHT! i sit alone in my bedroom staing at the walls. ive been up all damn night long, my heart is racing my love is yearning. I Walk This Empty Street

an entry cha cha cha [21 Feb 2005|08:32am] [ music | minority ~ green day ~ warning ] well today is my birthay party with my family. and im so excited. the other day was caties and i had so much friggan fun! it was the first time i had ever danced in public! lol. so know ou all know how much i love you and feel comfortable with you. hehehe. it was fun thou. and after when we slept over. it was me michelle, kara, lauren, and courtney. i effin love that girl! courtney is so fun to hangout with. i just didnt like it when her and michelle smoked. it bothered me but i didnt want to say anything. :/ i was ofcourse the first one to fall alseep but i woke up around 530 and lauren and michelle were still awake! catie was too but not so much. lol. it was so funny (singles!) haha. lmao. and the monkey who was takin the bananna. i gawd. i was the ocean cause catie was a storm commin in. and kara was kansas or something like that. when i went to sit next to her, i turend into a sunmi. hahahaha. u had to be there. (singles!) but yesterday ws sammys christening. she is so damn cute! and guess what guys.... she likes care bears! i made her hehe. but it wa sokay kinda boring. o well. i accidently left all of my cds over caties! and all i have here is warning. o welll its still green day<3 so catie if you read this please bring my cds to my party on thursday! thank you. okay i gotta go clean for the paaaartay! TTFN! 3 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

woweee [17 Feb 2005|08:45pm] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | she ~ green day ~ dookie ] ------------well today the sexiest man alive turns the big 3-3. thats right, billie joe armstong's birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILLIE! -------------- well i thought nothing could ruin this beautiful day. the day of my god's birth. the day billie graced this earth. but by the end of the day i only felt alone. all day long i was running up and down the halls yelling "its billie joe's birthday to day" i told everyone i knew and then some. i was so hyper and happy this morning that i couldnt even think about anything else. the whole day was going smoothly and i had alot of fun. gym was a blast. we played volleyball and as usual matt nd shawn made fun of my height and stuff. but im used to it. i love them. matt cant go to party wich sucks cause i reall really wanted him there. and shawn cant go either so the party wont be as good as i planned. but o well. anyways, it wasnt until last period when my whole day shifted... i dont know what it is, but lately ive just been having these moments where i cant stop thinkin about derek, or hjow much i scred up. i hate it so much. i hate him so much. i dont like this feeling of being alone. and i just cry sometimes. its so ramdom and stupid. i hate to cry and its very hard to make me cry. i just get so mad about him and whats happened and just being alone, i get so overwhelmed and pist that i lose it. i just get this feeling in the pit of my stomach and my hands start shaking. i try not to cry and most of teh time im successful. but last friday at teh dance, when i played my immortal by evanences, i lost it. i just balled. that was the first time i had really cried over him. and i really didnt want to. i didnt want to cry. i dont want to still love him I DONT I DONT I DONT! but i do i hate this so much. whay does everything have to go the way i dont want them to. i mean, this is the first time i ever felt like i loved someone and would be with them for a long time and now, yepp. now im crying. ugh! this just sucks! i hate this state im in. i feel like my world is caving in. i feel like im goin into a depression and it sucks caue im not the type. im happy-go-lucky jessy. always hyper and crazy. but ive been covering up my feelings and thoughts and its all getting lock up inside me. im talkin to shawn right now and its probaly the most serious conversation weve had. im tellin him everything. and i hvaent gotten one single insult. i love him so much. he means everything to me. and hes here at at tme when i need someone most. i love him so much. i ahte the fact that my mom has never met him and matt only once. and those are he two people that i escape to when i need something other than a womas opinion. i love them like you wuldnt believe. and everytime i talk about them its either "jessy love matt" or "jessy likes shawn" and im sick of it. i dont like them. yeah, maybe i have a slight crush but its been goin on since freshman year. ive gotten over it. i hate these people who believe that i spend so much time with them that means i like them. ugh! i hate this so much. BUT ITS OKAY CAUSE ITS BILLIE JOES BIRTHDAY!! all my problems just lift up and go away after DI my whole day turned around. i got to escpe to my grouo wehere they didnt know what was goin on and we just laughed and told jokes. i love DI. its so much fun. and well after that i came home and im here now typing. yepp that my day. but i figured this is the only Febuary 17th, 2005 of my life so i had better live it right. right? i mean how often does the sexiest man alive turn 33. just once! lol. okay so ill update more often in the future... layder! "i thought i knew what love was. what did i know. those day are gone forever. i should just let em' go..." HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG! 3 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

[11 Feb 2005|07:56am] 6 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

heres the low down... [10 Feb 2005|08:44pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | no one knows ~ green day ~ kerplunk! ] well i just got home from DI and it was fun. nichole didnt show up agaian. i want her to quit so wicked bad. she doesnt even do anything when shes there. ugh! i cant stand her. but oon a lighter note... in shop today we had to find a picture of a person and make silloute (i didnt spell trhat right) but then we had to turn that into an ad. i made 3 of billie joe playing the guitar. the guitar had to be white so it could stand out. then i put at the top "billie joe armstrong of green day uses gibson... why dont you?" then at the bottom it says "gibson the worlds best guitar." i love it! its so kick ass! ill post it tomarrow when were in shop agian. but everyone has to see it. im still on my new found glory fix. im so excited for the concert. im just worried about how combra thinks of it. its not a date. i mean, i love the kid to death, but just not that way at all. hes such a sweet guy and a kick ass friend. but hes a keyword FRIEND i dont like him that way. o well. exactly one week to day untill billie joes birthday! his birthday is on national cabbage day. isnt that weird? lol. but its aslo two weeks until my birthday. im excited for that too cuz im havin my friend party that day. woop woop! dator came over and fixed the computer so now i dont have dial up any more! yay! thanx john! lol. i never call him john. dator! haha. alrighty. i think im gonna go buh byes. ill see you suckers later.... i have only one word to discribe this picture... SEXY I Walk This Empty Street

[06 Feb 2005|02:49pm] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | 10,000 light years away ~ green day ~ kerplunk ] o cheese, i havent updated in quite sometime. well ive been sick since thursday, and its sunday now. im feeling alot better. i just got home from the marriot, lowes, staples, the mall, and rachel's. yeah rachel has been spending this weekend with us cuz auntie tep, uncle paul, ben, and ryan went skiing and rachel didnt wanna go. so shes staying with us. but this morning we went to the marriot for breakfast, i still didnt feel good. but ashley was workin so it was okay. there was aguy that came in that was really big adn his stomach was hangin out of his shirt, it was really gross. but i wasnt hungry really cuz i didnt feel good. i tried eatin a wafful but that made me feel like blowin chunks. so then i tried makin toast in that thing-a-ma-bobber, and it only cooked one side. but then after that we said good bye to ashley and went to lowes. i dont know what it was, maybe seeing ashley, i dont know but after we left i felt a little better. or maybe it was leaving her that made me feel better. lol jk i love ya. then by the time we went to the mall, i was a hell of a lot better. i even ate a steak and cheese without feeling like blowin chunks. (hold your applause) but its all good now. i might be back on agian later and update agian, but im gonna take off agian and play my guitar. buh byes I Walk This Empty Street

well well well, what have we here. sandy claws huh? ooo im really scared! [22 Jan 2005|07:40pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | dont wanna fall in love ~ green day ~ shenangians ] alright im back again to fill you in. im updatin my burty... well thursday was really akward goin back adn seeing derek. we didnt speak to each other but i had fun hangin out with matt and flurting with a whoel unch of guys right in front of his face. i even flurted with combra during history break buy like puttin my arm aroudn him. i could tell derek was pist and im happy he was. in gym matt and i went up to teh weight room agian and i saw him pop his head out a few times to watch teh hockey game but matt said he kept doing it and he wasnt watchin the game, he was watchin me. haha. good. i want him to see what hes lost. i want him to see that hes made a mistake. a mistake that he cant fix. yesterday was teh same way but i loved each and every mineut of it. i liek being single and i like flurting. im free now to do what i please and he cant stop me.i wrote a song yesterday. ive written a whoel bunch of songs lately, but i kinda liek this one the best... i see him out of the coner of my eye looking up to the sky when i look away he looks at me what he lost is what he sees (corus) and i take back everything i said to him everything i read to him and i know that im not dead to him cause he still stares and he still cares about me i wont take back what ive done cause i was only having fun this isnt about what hes lost but about what ive won (corus) and i take back everything i said to him everything i read to him and i know that im not dead to him cause he still stares and he still cares about me (corus 2x) thast it guys. i hope u likey cu zim gonna put some music to it and then work on other things. but on a lighter note, i got my hair done today. its a little above my shoulders and the tips are red. no, not like ashley's lol. but i liek it. i also got the killers cd (so kara u dont have to burn it for me any more) i love that. lol. but other than that stuff nothing else has been goin on. im still waitn for tre to give me a call cuz im single now, but whatever ill wait forever for him lol. id rather have billie call me but hes with adrinne an dthey look happy (damnit!) lol. okay ashleys dying to read this so i guess im done. ttyl abuhbye. just waitin for his call. hehe. 2 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

westbound sign [19 Jan 2005|08:21pm] [ mood | refreshed ] [ music | westbound sign ~ greenday ~ insomniac ] o jeeze i dont update as much as i used to. alot has happend within the past couple days let alone weeks. okay here we go... the good news: -im getting my new guitar very soon. woop woop! as soon as ricks gets it in. its a matlic blue squire, fender. im so excited! -my birthdays commin up soon and i get to have a pretty good sized party i dont want anything like a "sweet sixteen" but i do want a gathering with my friends and deangelo's catered to my house! im excited for that. -danny changed my blurty layout to this georgus picture of teh sexy billie joe jerkin off. i love it. hehe. -and finally, karas birthday is this sunday. happy birthday to my love if i dont update till then. the bad news: -o boy this is a big one.... okay friday, me katie and ashley went to teh mall and i invited derek. whjen i called him before we left he said he couldnt go. then when i saw mike brouthes ther i asked him if he knew why derek couldnt come. he said it was problay cuz he was grounded. i had no idea why. so then on saturday i called him up to invite him over my house monday cuz there was no skool. and i told him what happend at teh mall and he said that he was grounded when i asked him why, he said that his parents found rolling paper in his wallet. i didnt knwo what taht was so i asked and he said he was smokin weed. WTF! if i didnt know he was smokin what else is he keepin from me? so for the past 3 days ive been really confused on what i sould do. katie nor ashley are in my classes so i havent been able to talk to them much and get their advice so i turned to my other best friend, matt. yesterday and today he has been a real help with advice and other shit. so ive been hangin out with ALOT maybe a little too much. in gym today, we were playin kick ball and derek's team was out in teh feild, while mine and matts team was up at bat. there was no more seats left on teh bench so matt slapped his knee and offered a seat. me being, his best friend and us just actin like the dumb asses we are, too teh offer and sat on his knee and it wasnt even a flurting sit i was sitting on it like a chimp lol. we were just actin like our stupid selves. i guess derek was talkion to shawn and mentioned that he was pist off at teh fact i sat with matt. and then later after math, when i gave him a hug and then leand in to kiss him, he aid "its over, okay" i said okay and then ran to matt. i havent really felt bummed of depressed. i thought i would be more upset but im not. im actually kinda relieved. i dont wanna date a pot-head. o well im single now so that means, tre im waitin heh. so tahts it thats whats been up. thats my life. and it may come off as i hate my life now and that i it sucks, but im lovin it. i dont want to waste my time on complin over some guy who apparently didnt care about me as much as i thought he did. maybe it was all that weed that got to him, idk, but i dont care anymore. i love my friends and i refuse to give one of them up for a "boy friend". this is not a depressing entry over the ending of a relationship, but a happy entry over a new begining... they're gonna help me though this 2 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

thw words i might have ate... [02 Jan 2005|06:29pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | best thing in town ~ green day ~ kerplunk ] well i know its been a very wicked long time since ive updated but just to fill you in... my life is goin great, i have the the bestest friends anyone could ask for, a great boyfriend, and the friends seasons 1 thru 8 on dvd. today was the laast day of christams vacation and now i have to go back tomarrow but im a little excited cuz i havent seen alot of people in over a week. i hung out with my cousins most of the week, but on new year's eve derek and katie slept over. it was fun but ashley coudnt come and that was i kinda bummed cuz shes usualy the life of the party. but she did come over the next day and we had a blast. derek forgot his pillow and NO, WE DIDNT DO THE NASTY. lol. for christmas i got a new cd player, friends season 8, and a big tootsie roll pillow. plus a whole bunch of nightmare before christmas stuff. it was a good christmas. and from my friends i got kerplunk from katie cuz that was teh only green day cd i didnt have. from kara a spike wristband, from lauren a whole bunch of little things including an oogie boogie night light, and from catie i got the a patch of evil monkey from family guy. o yeah and from combra i got a green day poster<3 im in love with it now. hehe. and speakin of combra and love, he has a crush on me. damnit! i dont like him but at all. and it sucks cuz he one of friends. but he knows im goin out with derek so hes not gonna try anything. so that was wuts been gonin on. o yeah and green day was on the new years eve thing on mtv they were wearing all white and billie have a tie with black and white pokla dots. with a hankerchief with the same print hanging out his back pocket. and he was so damn fine. lol. and mike changed his hair color again woop woop cuz it looks better. he was really hot that night too. and dont even get me started on tre cuz he was one sexy beast. lol. Why does my life have to be so small? Yet death is forever... CALL THE POLICE...! 1 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

i dont like shop ne more [12 Dec 2004|10:45am] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | HALO 2 with dookie in the background ] so my life as you know it has been wonderful. i have great friends, im gettin along with the fam, and my boyfriends is amazing. but since then its all gone hazy... i had a fight with the pops a couple days ago over something so retarted. my closest friends are in a fight with my close friends so im cought in th middle, and i havent seen my boyfriend since wednesday, althugh i did talk to him on the telly like everynight this past week. but on friday when i was just kiddin around complainin that i didnt see him, everyone was like goin off on me and sayin things taht were pissin me off to no extent. i mean i love shop week but there are mostly girls and there is SOOO much drama with grils. i hate it so much. i feel like i cant be me any more and i cant say what i want to say. i almost never come in skool with a frown on my face but the one time i do and i need to let off some steam, then everyones got sumthin to say, and its not so nice. i had family issues friday morning and i didnt really wanna talk abotu that so when ppl asked i sed it was cuz i didnt see derek for 2 days and all i heard was "why dont you just call him." and "stop complanin cuz u could have called him" and i was gettin even madder cuz i did. i did talk to him that nigt (and it was good. hehe.) but i jst hate my shop lately i only like to go cuz tehres not a lot of work. and i like talkin to mr. mederiois he a cool cat lol. but i nver get to see derek on shop week and i hate the drame between everyone. its sucks. theres a fight between katie and catie right now and im just sick of it cuz its draggin everyone else in to it. but all i want to say is "STOP" cuz its stupid. i hate it. im eting sikc of hangin out with grils cuz there it SO much drama and its so anoying. im so happy for academic so i can see my guys friends all day long. i get to hang wit matt, shawn, and seve. and i love hangin wit them. excluding my best friends, my guys friends are so much more fun to hang out with. plus i get to see derek on my academic week :) hehe. okay i have to go. i have a DI meeting. buh byes! 4 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

[05 Dec 2004|08:47pm] Hope dangles on a string Like slow spinning redemption Winding in and winding out The shine of it has caught my eye And roped me in So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing I am captivated [Chorus] I am Vindicated I am selfish I am wrong I am right I swear I'm right I swear I knew it all along And I am flawed But I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself So clear Like the diamond in your ring Cut to mirror your intentions Oversized and overwhelmed The shine of which has caught my eye And rendered me so isolated, so motivated I am certain now that [Chorus] So turn Up the corners of your lips Part them and feel my finger tips Trace the moment, fall forever Defense is paper thin Just one touch and I'd be in Too deep now to ever swim against the current So let me slip away [3x] So let me slip against the current So let me slip away [4x] [Chorus] Slight hope It dangles on a string Like slow spinning redemption... its been stuck in my head http://www.justcelebs.host.sk/Billie_Joe_Armstrong.html I Walk This Empty Street

[02 Dec 2004|08:53pm] Which Green Day Member Should You Sleep With? by angstypunk Username Guitar, Bass or Drums? GuitarBassDrums You Should Sleep With This Many Times 15,284,454,809 Quiz created with MemeGen! 1 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

radio [27 Nov 2004|06:57pm] [ mood | rejected ] [ music | reject ~ green day ~ nimrod ] well sucky thanksgiving was terrible jut as i expceted. isnt it about being thankful for what you have? and i didnt even get to spend it with the ppl im most thankful for... i didnt get to be with derek<3, the one person im so happy to have in my life right now. the one person i think about day in and day out. i didnt get to spend it with my best friends katie and ahsley. and since kara was in florida that didnt help either. there was no catie, lauren, or matt. no shawn, danny, or michelle. i didnt get to spend thanksgiving with the people im really thankful for. the real people who understand me and actualy take teh time to know me, talk to me, and care about me. the only people im proud of. im not sayin i hate my family, but form my mom's side, i get teh feeling they hate me. everyone but auntie joanne, uncle wes, brian and jason. im really happy to see them year round. but my grammy will act proud until another grandchild, or my sister comes into play. then its "lets critisize jessy" and with auntie diane, (thoes of you select few know her as "this is a great room" the moment that scard me for life) the only things that come out of her mouth are comments on how i dress, how im not good enough to have my art work hung in a studio, or how i exclued myself from teh family, but how can i include myself when every time i do im picked on for being different. rick and liz ame over with lucas. and they didnt even say hi. wtf. i said it and they only smiled, frowned, and the talked to my other family. so i did what i suspected, i went upsairs and pyaled guitar, listened to musc, and watched friends. mom called me down ocasionlay cuz she wanted me to be involved. and thats understandable but i really didnt want to. i didnt feel love. only rejection. i taught myself radio by alkaline trio. and im excited now cuz i love that song. katie and ashley might sleep over monday nite cuz thers no skool tuesday. katies bring her bass and were gonan teach ashley a few songs. if she wants. i read kara and laurens blurty. karas home!! yay wooop wooop! i miss her alot. lauren got a job at hot topic. sadly, steve wasnt workin. but its okay, i have derek<3 now. speaking of... tomarrows his birthday. im gonna give him a call and wish him a happy one. i miss him. i dont like being away from him this long. and i still have to go through tomarrow, monday, and tuesday. i wont see him till wednesday. :( o well. i want to go to teh movies next weekend. but i want it to be double date. so if ne of my friends want to go see a movie and have a date, give me a jingle or just tell me. okay im gonna go play some guitar. so long suckers... Well,Destiny is dead In the hands of bad luck Before it might have made some sense But now it's all fucked up I Walk This Empty Street

1/2 a day... [24 Nov 2004|08:20pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | i <3 derek ] today was a half a day at skool and it was okay i guess. its still skool so it sucks. but i got to hangout with derek. i had a talk with matt today. i was tellin him how good of a friend he is. and how close i am to him and that if dereks mad at him for hangin out with me too much then thats too bad. matt is closer to me than most ppl who think theyre my best frineds. i tell him almost as much as i tell katie and ashley. (i tell them EVERYTHING)but dereks not even mad at him. matts just paranoid. but if it ever does come to that. i just wanted matt to know that i do care about him and he means alot to me. he the one person who can ALWAYS make me laugh. and i dont wanna lose that. but one the lighter note... me and derek are doin great. woop woop! lol. sunday is his birthday and i want to get him something else too other than just teh atticus shirt. i feel stupid just giving my boyfriend a tee-shirt. shawn says i should give him a hand-job. lol. yeah right. katie says give him a kiss, cuz he still hasnt kissed me yet. but idk... i want to get him something that hell realyl like. and the problem isnt not knowig what to get him, its finding somethign to get him with only 6 bucks to spend. this sucks. im gonna feel so stupid cuz hes expectin something great from me, being his girlfriend. but all i ahve to give is a shitty shirt. but its atticus and he looks DAMN good in atticus. lol. o well. i figure somethign out soon. tomarrows thanksgiving and im gonna probaly sit in my room all day long watchin friends, listenin to music and playin the guitar. maybe some halo2, idk. o well. but ne ways the whole family will be here laughing, and having a good time while me, the outcast, will be left alone in my room. noone will say, "wheres jessy" or "why dont you get jessy down here" or even "jeeze jessy those are really nice pictures, you did a good job" nothing. noone will care and no one will want to care. and ya knwo what I DONT EITHER! o well... p.s. ashley... i support you in everything you do and im here for you if you need anything at all. i love you and remember that. remember that... call me or im me when ur on. twidle my thumbs just for a bit... im sick of all teh same old shit 4 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

up on the roof top, listenin to punk rock... [21 Nov 2004|08:19pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | paper lanterns ~ green day ~ 1039 smoothed out slappy hours ] so people i havent updated since monday so heres whats been goin on... .:tuesday:. since its shop week i was obviously in shop. but this morning, derek came and hung out with in the calf. o that was nice. we were given a project for an ad for a new cranberry cola drink. i was paired with nichole which sucked cuz she didnt do anything. katie was stuck with andrew which was even worse. i felt sry for her. but other than that it was good. .:wednesday:. there was a test in drivers ed today. it was our semi final. at first i failed and then jess passed me. but the day was the same as everyother day. .:thursday:. today i hung out with lisa for like an hour in her shop. i think some ppl are gettin mad at me for haning out with her too much. but shes one of my friends and one of the only ones who knows what really goes on at home and teh only friend i have at skool who knows my other friends, like joshs friends. i can talk to her about be thing or ne one. i mean, i know i can o the same with katie and ashley, but they dont really know mario, tebbs, chip, of mark. lisa does so i can talk to her bout that. plus shes older to she understands alot of problems i come to her with. but i dont really care what other ppl think at this point. my life is goin great and i dont want it to change. i mean, this moring derek walked all the way from his shop to teh calf just to give me a hug. i thought it was sweet. i really like him. .:friday:. today was a dance so taht was good i got paid! woot woot. lol. lisa gave us a ride home. but katie and ashley came and helped me. i like when they help me cuz ashley know excatly what songs to play. and i dont think i can bring ne one else. i shouldnt either cuz i might get introuble. but its okay cz katie and ashley are my best friends anyways so i have as much fun as i possibly could. thanks guys ;) .:saturday:. on this day, me katie and ashley went early chirstmas shoppin. i had to get derek's birthday present. i ended up gettin him an atticus shirt and a halo 2 clendar for my brother's christmas present. im not even close to done. i still have to get mom, dad, becky, finish josh, katie, ashley, lisa, matt, derek's christmas present, and a whole bunch of other ppl. i hope i have enough moneys. i hate christmas cuz i cant afford great presents for ne one. i usualy spend most of my money on josh. so i hope this year my money will go far. later that nite chip came over. i was sooooo excited cuz he hasn been over in so long. i miss him so wicked much. so it was me, josh, chip, lisa, tebbs, mario, and chip's girlfriend, cleo. we all played halo 2 for like 3 hours. then lisa had to go. and not long after chip and cleo left. and mario brought tebbs home so me and josh just kinda hung out and played guitar and halo till like 2 am. then i finally went to bed. .:sunday:. today was boring, all i did was clean for next week and go on the compy. mom and dad took us to a movie and supper thou. we saw national treasure. it was okay the only good part was a guy named riley. we was funny and cute but other than that it was kinda cheesey. o well. supper was good. we went to ground round. and now im sittign here typin this. so thats everything. i have to go finish my hw for tomarrow. so ill ttyl. buh byes.... remember, whatever, it seems like forever ago... 1 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

GC show... [15 Nov 2004|08:10am] last nite was amazing. i mean ive seen sum41 b4 but i had more fun at this show than i ever did. GC was great but i didnt really go the nuts for them. until the end... well i went crazy for sum41 i had so much fun. but there was this girl who you could tell has neevr been to a show cuz she was 1st of all wearin a GC shirt. 2nd of all she had no idea who teh fuck sum41 was. and 3rd of all she go pist off whe the crowd was moving. so she kept givin me dirty looks and pushin her butt at me. so i push so hard the she would like smack her head on eth ppl in front of her. then she looked at me agian and i yelled "YOU THINK I CAN FUCKIN HELP IT?!" every one around was laughin. and i screamed in her ear "poser!" and then for the rest of teh time sum was playin i was beltin the lyrics in the back of her head. it was so funny. then while GC was settin up i was talkin to some 6th grader. she was so cute. she was liek "im only here to see billy" finally! a little kid who isnt obsessed with benji or joel! lol. there was some other chick there who had a digital camera and she was takin some pretty good pictures. u could tell she was crazy over gc. while gd was playin i was tryin to keep ppl from mobbin lauren. but i got sucked back more. i still had a good time thou. paul sang to me and i was goin nuts for him. he could tell i was watchin him the whole time. then at teh end chris threw his stick in teh crowd and it landed in teh mob of girls where i was. i was pushed to teh ground and was sittin there for a good 5 mineiuts. lol. lauren and ashley tried helpin me up but ppl were standing on me. i finally got sick of it and sad "ya know ive liked gc longer than anyone in standing." lol. i may not like them more than the girls around me but i know ive liked them longer. so i stuck my hands up and pulled down, struggling. and i ripped it out of all of these tinney boppers hands. i shoved it down my shirt and ran. so i ahve the stick now and i coudlnt be happier. later the girl who had the digital camera was beggin me to break it in half. thers no way you could. unless u had a saw or something. but there was like padding so i ripped that off for her. and she looked so happy. lol. and i knwo i dont like GC as much as her but i wasnt about to give it up. so basically teh show was amazing and i had madd fun. i dont mean to sound loserish and stupid, but the stick is now my most prized possession. i love it so much. 2 On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [x] I Walk This Empty Street

fillin you in... [12 Nov 2004|08:50pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | the world is black ~ GC ~ the cronicles of life and death ] okay so today was greatbut first i have to fill u all in on yesterday... katie sleptover wed. nite cuz there was no skool on tursday. then we went to her house i brought my guitar and my skateboard. we ate, then went upstairs and it was her on bass and me on guitar. we played a few song together then just kinda play our own stuff. then we went skating across teh street to a parking lot to a church. my back truck broke. and it cant be fixedso i need to either buy a new truck or a new skateboard. matt says i should buy a new board altogether, but i cant afford taht right now. o well. things arent goin so well for katie and phil. if ur taht curious, then read her bluty once she updates it. today was great, i guess. i was with derek<3 so it was good 4 me. english was a drag but i got through it. there was a quiz in math and i totally failed! i was so confused. but i already have an A in tha class so i wont effect it too much. science was fun as usual cuz mrs.t is awesome. 4 lunch i had COOKIES!!! hehe. and then it was off to gym. (after falling on my ass lol.) sam was on my kick ball team agian. hes a good kid. lol. and i sucked so bad. i only caught i ball and guess what? i was derek's! lol. the only person i got out was my own bf! lol. but its okay he didnt care lol. he walkedme to class but i was still bummed about goin. not only wa that a calss without him, it was history. with mrs. bitch-ass-motherfucker-deware. i ahet her so0o0o0o0o0o much. and now so even more. get this... she gave me a fukkin c+ on y report card! and it makes no sense about teh project grading. i hate her fukkin guts. and i cnt wait till she leaves. the only good ign baout taht class is not being in teh class. break with derek<3. and caties i it lol. so sundays teh GC concert. i keep forgetin the sum41 part but idk their new songs. so i hope they play alot of old ones. no matter waht it wont be nearly as good as teh GREEN DAY NFG concert. nothing can beat that one. not even my wedding day. lol. im listenin to gc rite now. and im gonna go do my english hw so i dont have to next week. bye byes. . . . . i put a pic of gc on account of me seeing them on sunday... sry ill put GD soon!!! I Walk This Empty Street

did she ever marry whatshisface... [09 Nov 2004|08:19pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | F.O.D ~ green day ~ dookie ] okay so its been like 3 or 4 days since the whole me and derek thing and honestly, ive never been happier with my life adn know i am. i mean, this is the frist kid taht ive actually like ALOT and have gone out with. well brian was too but he cheated on me the 2nd day we were goin out. and pat was a BIG MISTAKE. but actually he was my only real bf before high school. and steve i thought i was 'in love with" steve... we dont even know if he exsits! lol. but derek, hes the real deal. wink wink. hehe. well i just got home from catie's house. i had mddd fun. thanks catie mouse! hehe. me and katie went over there. katies sleepin over tomarrow cuz theres no skool thursday. that means a day without my derek :( o well. ill see him friday. and then ill be havin ana affair on sunday with GOOD CHARLOTTE! lol. i owuld never. but really im goin to teh GC show with lauren. yeah woop woop! its me, ashley, lauren, phil (hes hughe! lol) and muz muz. but i cant wait until tomarrow to see derek. idk what it , but i just cant stop thinkin bout him. :D lol. tell me to shut the hell up when ive said enough... You're just... a fuck, I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck. I take pride in telling you to fuck off and die. I Walk This Empty Street

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