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Garfield116x's Blurty:
| Wednesday, March 7th, 2007 | |
| 5:49 pm | Im starting to get really frustrated with laura. Every day its the same thing. we get off, she does her thing for a while, then spends about 30 minutes with me until she passes out. I actively see about 30 minutes of her a day on personal time. the rest of it is at work or when We really dont get a chance to talk or do anything. i cant even sit down and watch a movie anymore cause she asleep like 20 minutes into it. It gets really frustrating because i wanna spend time with her, but its hard as fuck when shes always tired. |
| Monday, March 5th, 2007 | |
| 5:47 am | So yesterday was fun as hell. Laura and I went down to Whittier. Saw all the glaciers on the way down there. We tried walking to a couple of them, but she pussed out. It was fun though, got lots of pictures again. |
| Friday, March 2nd, 2007 | |
| 5:41 pm | So toda, laura and I took a trip down to South alaska. Saw the Portage Glacier. got stopped by AST. 86 in a 55. Wow was that fun. thank god he doesnt ticket Active duty people or I would be hurting right now. we turned around about 45 miles from seward. We should have kept going. But oh well. the trip was fun. Got lots of great pictures. Will post them as soon as I get them developed an can figure out how to post them on here. Tonight, we are going to dinner with some friends. That will be fun. |
| Wednesday, February 28th, 2007 | |
| 10:41 pm | well, i got back from fairbanks today. It was a long month and a half. but it was fun as all get out. Im back in anchorage. I dont wanna be. Would have rather stayed in Fairbanks. didnt have internet up there, so Thats why I havnt updated in a while. |
| Tuesday, January 30th, 2007 | |
| 5:41 pm | so here ive been, In fairbanks since I came up here the 12th. Staying here till the 15th of feb. Its been fun. Wroking, seeing and spending time with Laura. |
| Friday, January 12th, 2007 | |
| 2:02 am | So My pass got approved. I am leaving for Fairbanks tonight after work. im so psyched!!!!! SO excited. I get to see laura!!!! YAYAY |
| Wednesday, January 10th, 2007 | |
| 8:53 am | Well, life is getting pretty shitty as of now. Work sucks ass. Life is pretty assed up as well. Everything with Laura and I are going good though. We talked about what was bothering me and We worked it out. We are still having little bouts here and there, but that comes with a relationship. I was just getting insecure and a little jealous. Stupid me. But Like she said, its hard to talk about certain stuff over the phone. A friend and I are trying to go up there to visit this weekend. I hope it happens. That will make my month. I miss the hell out of her. Its getting easier though. But when she keeps reminding me of how hard it is for her, It gets harder for me. But I think that seeing her this weekend will make it all easier and better for us. |
| Saturday, January 6th, 2007 | |
| 9:47 am | So life is just dandy now. Not really. Things with Laura and I are getting crazy. And I dunno what to think about it. Theres this guy that shes been hanging with up there that I Dont know if I can trust with her because hes told me to my face many times that If I didnt fuck her, he would try. So that made me uneasy. but she insists that he is the only one that she feels comfortable talking to up there. she hardly talks to me anymore. She talks to him more than me now. I feel as though Im being slowly and surely pushed away. She insists that they are just friends, and nothing more. But I dunno. She knows that I dont think I can trust him, and when she is with him, i get nervous. But still does it. I mean, If she told me that she felt uncomfortable with me hanging with someone, I would at least try not to fuel the fire. She is fueling the fire. I dunno, maybe Im thinking too far into this whole thing, but she isnt giving me any reason to think otherwise. I got a DUI last night. It was quite stupid. He blew a .188. APD took it because he was a civilian. He was passed out on the on ramp to Fort Richardson. They decided to let him go because he did the right thing and pulled off to try and sleep it off. I probably would have done the same thing. But it was fun. |
| Wednesday, January 3rd, 2007 | |
| 5:45 am | I didnt sleep at all last night. I dunno why. But I have a PT test today. Gonna be exciting, not. Im gonna fail. I second guessed laura's feelings for me again. That was a big mistake. It just came out. shes really upset with it. Why am I so freaken stupid. And I dont know how to fix it this time |
| Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 | |
| 7:12 pm | Well, im in a pretty pissy mood now. Laura is riding along wiht one of my friends on patrol right now. She is using him to get information about what we talk about and what all I tell him about her. It really upsets me because I dont use her friends for information and she uses my friends. I dunno what to do about it. |
| 2:29 am | Now life really sucks. I will be in WLC when mike gets his R@R from Iraq. I wont be able to see him at all now. I really hate the fucken army!!!!!! They really know how to fuck your life up and make it as depressing as possible. I havnt seen him in over 3 years. That would have been the first time. Whooo Hooo. Go army!!!!!!! |
| Monday, January 1st, 2007 | |
| 6:51 am | Whoo hoo. Last night was outstanding. HA. Nothing happened. And I mean nothing. that was the worst New years ever. No one came through the gate at all. N oDomestics. Nothing. Really boring night. I am again going to WLC. |
| Sunday, December 31st, 2006 | |
| 6:25 pm | Hmmm, Life is prety crummy at this point. I work tonight. Last night was pretty interesting. I pissed alot of people off. But Oh well. Hope tonight is interesting. |
| Saturday, December 30th, 2006 | |
| 3:33 pm | I ended up going into work last night. I culdnt take sitting in my room anymore. I went ot the main Gate. A patrol got a DUI. I got a drug Charge. It was fun for the most part. Im gonna try to go to the gate again tonight. see if I can get a DUI. I havnt gotten one in so long. Laura and i are doing Ok I guess. I miss her so much. A friend of mine is driving up there to see her husband sometime in the future. she invited me to tag along. So I may have to do that. she still doesnt know if she is staying up ther for 2 months or not. if she does, its gonna suck. I hope not, and if she does, I hope they send me up there for the second month. there schedule sucks ass up there. they have to work for 12 hours a day. They have to be there an hour and a half prior to shift start, and they get home 2 hours after shift. That gives them no time for any personal time. Only sleep. And if thye want personal time, thye have to Sacrifice there slep. It really sucks. the Company up there is really dicking them around. We are supposed to be up there supporting them, but our guys are doing all the work, while they sit back and watch. and the high ranking guy thats up there for us isnt saying anything. That really pisses me off. |
| Friday, December 29th, 2006 | |
| 7:17 pm | Hello again. Im bored as fuck. theres nothing to do. for the past 2 days, i havnt done anything. None of my friends are here anymore, so I have nothing ot do. Really sucks. Im seriously debating on whether or not to go into work or not. I will probably end up doing it. This really sucks. I bought Laura a Locket for Xmas. I didnt give it to her though. I decided to wait till After Fairbanks. The Picture is Laser printed into it, so its permanent. Its pretty cool. Cost a pretty penny, but its worth it. I hope that we are actually together so I can actually give it to her. Shes been texting me off and on all day. Its kind of sad when you can interpret emotions through text messages. Shes been grumpy and taking it out on me. and I feel its only gonna get worse. |
| Thursday, December 28th, 2006 | |
| 5:02 pm | Hmmmm, I dunno. its getting easier to be away from her. I still miss the hell out of her though. Cant wait to see her again. Im not going to WLC anymore. they cancelled it. Thank god. I didnt want to go anyways. Maybe while Laura's gone, Ill get all big and buff! I feel like crap. I dunno why. I think I may lay down for a little while. Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: A Static Lulliby |
| Wednesday, December 27th, 2006 | |
| 2:05 pm | Well, laura left this morning. It was hard as fuck to say bye. Got really emotional. I miss the hell out of her already. Maybe Ill take a 4 day and go up there for a little while. She was talking about doing the same. That would be awesome. would make me incredibly happy. |
| Tuesday, December 26th, 2006 | |
| 8:13 pm | Well, I got dicked into working mids tonight. I had the whole night planned out. Spend as much of it as possible with Laura. And at 1300 this afternoon, I was told That I had to replace someone for mids. so I got no sleep, and barely got to see laura cause she was busy getting ready for the trip. Im gonna try and see her tomorrow morning when I get off work and before she leaves. Hopefully it works. |
| 8:44 am | SO Laura leaves tomorrow. It sucks. Im gonna miss the hell out of her. Its sad cause I dont even miss my parents as much as Im going to miss her. |
| Monday, December 25th, 2006 | |
| 8:47 am | Well, Today is Christmas. Merry Christmas. Laura leaves in 2 days for Fairbanks. im staying here because I have to go to WLC. Shes starting to get worried about whats gonna happen to us while we are apart. Which in turn makes me kind of worried because she is obviously having some sort of doubt about if its going to work out or not. And I dunno what to tell her. Ive been away from the people I care about for a year at a time, So I know that I can do it, but with her, i dunno. this is the first time that shes been away from people she cares about. |