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Dayum, why me? :( :(
Okay, well, first of all, Alex, Savannah's boyfriend, keyed Tonya's car while we were at our football game! What a fuckin' moron! How stupid is he? He so better watch his ass, or he'll be in for it soon. I'm tired of him and Savannah's damn childish games! I give people a LOT of chances to make up for their stupidity, but they're just building on to it each chance given!
So I get home right? And for all of you old readers, you'll remember BJ. Well, he called me while I was at the game, and so I get home and I wasn't EVEN about to call him back (because after we broke up over the summer, he had sex with my rival, and then we got back together before he went to college, and I had sex with him, OMG, and he didn't tell me about my rival, so I find out, and we talk about it and fight and decided to never talk again). So, I get a call, it's Demetrius, so I talk to him for about 30 minutes, then he let me go. At 1 AM, lol, BJ called again. So, he apologized for not talking to me and said when he heard about the wreck he cried. He said that if I had died or something, he couldn't have lived with the fact that the last two weeks of my life, we would have fought. So, he tried to say he was sorry for sleeping with my rival, but I just told him not to, because it's in the past, we cannot change it, and I'm over it and don't want to deal with it anymore. So we talk for a while about our lives.
Then, he's like "Yeah, I sometimes wish I had a boyfriend though. You know that one you can just be with and chill with." Is that a clue? I think so. I responded with "Yeah, I know what you mean. I see Tonya and Aaron and it makes me want that again. To be in someone's arms, cuddling with someone, and kissing on them and stuff." He's like "Yeah..." So then we just talk about stuff. Earlier today he had sent me a Yahoo Greeting with our nicknames we had for each other when we were going out, and it was really just like "if you need me (and subtlely if you want me) I'm here". It was sweet. So we finally got off the phone after sweet dreams and g'nights were exchanged.
Well, a couple of minutes later, he calls back. I was like did you need something? He said "I do love you Justin. I just wanted you to know that. Because I do." I smiled, thinking, No, I'm being sucked in again! God, why do I love him!? It makes everything like this all the time! I said "Aww, I love you too. You know that will never change. I hate you so much I love you." Because I do! Geez, I miss him a little, but what should I do?
xxnotmystyle, lilsinsual, lost_faith, tastyrainbow, anyone??? What????!!!!!!!!!!!!
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