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[30 Oct 2003|08:33pm] |
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One Look- Future Kings of Spain |
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yep, it has been a few. i havent been up to much. im not going to the dance tonight since none of my friends will be there. ive done ALOr of work on my game. i have my very own custom menu system set up but i need help on some of the coding in it and im working on some kick ass battle animations. im gona go anyway since thats all i have to say
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| meh |
[27 Oct 2003|01:06am] |
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Revelate- The Frames (first recording) |
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im not bad, not good either but who cares. i submited my game on dark-dominion.com in the projects section. http://www.dark-dominion.com/featured/index.php?id=649 if anyone is interested. i dont have much else to talk about. basslines, online games and rpg makers, thats me.
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[25 Oct 2003|01:03am] |
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kates skool had the day off so i couldent talk to her. nothign else ha[aned all day. ive played myth of soma fopr the past 3 hours. im adicted ^_^ i have next wekk off, mid term break. i have nothing to talk about so im gona go
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| the ending before the begining |
[23 Oct 2003|09:07pm] |
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One Look- Future Kings of Spain |
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today was just as i anticipated. kate sat with sinead so i couldnt sit with her. i sat 3 seats down from her, conor, sinead and shane. i could smell the burning hair so i didnt risk going back there. i had my casete player with me today so i had some tuneskis to keep me ocupied. after a while kate shouted down 'hi mark' and waved at me. then when we got off the bus shane told me that conor told kate i liked her. i asked what she said. shanes account of the incident was that conor told her and she seemed a bit odd but she said she kinda figured. she didnt say anything else about me. she changed subject. also turns out she liked shane last year =( tho for how long or when i dunno but lucky for me shane had and still has no intrest in her. she didnt say anything about me tho on the subject of last year. shane seriosuly helped me out tho today. he told me kate would only date a guy if he asked her out stright to her face and not by text mesage or by friend or anything. he also said that conor told her to set my hair on fire but she said 'no i wouldent set marks hair on fire' and shane thinks thats a good thing. conors getting a bit outta control, me and shane owe him a severe beating. hes been telling kate and sinead a whole load of shit about me and shane. he told sinead shane liked her and he said the same to kate and the same with me. i gotta tell those 2 not to beleive a word conor says about me, shane or anyone except himself. anyhoo. when i got off the bus and got to the school and me and matthew were listening to INME and when kate and sinead passed sinead just looked up at me as she passed and kate smiled a tiny bit and nodded at me as a greeting as she passed. sign? anyhoo, nothing much else hapaned all day until the evening. when me and conor were waiting for the bus (i didnt take it i had extra math) when kate passed me she looked over oonce and turned away when she saw me look. she didnt look a second time. its confusing. anyway, off i went to extra maths. it wa sfunny after wards coz i was wearing my blue jeans white longsleve and my green tshirt over it (looks awesome) and my black skool bag wa son my back and i had my casete player in the bag and the earphones in and i looked so fucking cool. preps were a bit shocked when they saw me go past. i found it funny. thats about it. i feel weird. i asked shane if i shoudl sit with kate tomoro, he thinks i should. im gona tka e the time now to give SERIOUS props to shane, helped me loads today, helped with kate and tried to stop conor runing my chances, skate on my brother \m/ im gona go now and listen to music
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| NOOOOO!!! |
[22 Oct 2003|09:08pm] |
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Iris- Goo Goo Dolls |
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ok, one of the worst possible things has hapaned. i sat with kate this morning. i dont think she beleived what conor was saying about me but she was unusualy quiet. then in the evening conor was yelling out that i liked kate again and then patrick heard and he told sarah and then they were kinda suprised and then patrick told clodah, orla and that other gosipy girl ¬_¬ luckily kate was on a difrent bus. for some reason 2 busses ran this evening. but at this rate kate will know by tomoro morning. sarah and patrick were more joking about it but sarah still said to me to wait a while cause kate already has a boyfriend. alltho i think someone will probably tell kate tomoro morning that i like her and evrything will be fucked up. gah. the rest of the day was ok. i got a B+ in a buisness studies test, which was a nice change. apart from that, its been a bad day. i hope nothiong bad hapans tomoro, altho something bad probably will hapen.
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| BLAH |
[21 Oct 2003|10:54pm] |
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Crushed Like Fruit- INME |
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AAAAAAGH!!!!! CONOR IS SUCH A JERK!!! ok, me and conor were walking over to wait for the bus and he yells out straight infront of kate 'MARK LIKES KATE' i dont know what she said but i punched conor damn hard anyway. then on the bus he was talking more shit about me and kate says to me in a kind of 'haha you loser' tone of voice "sorry i already have a boyfriend" i mean for fucks sake conor! hes just after ruining any chance i had with kate. not like i had a chance anyway. hell, shes not even that fun with me. she even gave conor props for his nirvana shirt. im just stuck here with my boring old black, blue, red and green cloths. im such a worthless loser. im a total failure. yet more C grades in skool seems to be all i get. C C C C C C- C C. damn it its so anoying. on the plus side kate said her frined might be interested in me and she asked for my cell phone number. of course just my luck my cell isnt working at the moment ¬_¬ gah. im really fucked up right now. conor ruins my chances with kate, i find out shes happy with her boyfriend and evrything is going wrong. i'd say more except i have to go to bed soo and i have extra french that i gotta do
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| bah |
[20 Oct 2003|11:08pm] |
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i feel like a bag of worthless crap. johns braging about his new girlfriend and he mocked me cause i cant date kate. then he mocked me more when i got a C and he got an A in the history test. he called me a useless discrace. thats pretty much how im feeling. im a failure =(
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| moovees |
[19 Oct 2003|12:30am] |
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im back form tha moovees. me, cian and gerard saw bad boyz 2. awesome movie. nohting much hapening. i started making a new game on rpg maker, putting my previous one on hold due to lack of a plot. my new game is called The Wondering Man of Enderond. my main carachter looks sooo cool. long blue hair in a dark blue cape with black pants and a dark green shirt. so fucking cool. anyhoo, im off. i have to read the 7 billion emials joseph sent me
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[18 Oct 2003|01:13am] |
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today was kinda crappy. altho i am downloading Neptune by INME which i heard on joseph's mp3 player. i have nothign really to talk about. started a proper game on rpg maker. i didnt talk to kate today. i didnt see where she sat this morning till i has passed her and this evening i sat alone coz i felt like it. mixed signals suck so much. im so confused
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| bored with no homework |
[16 Oct 2003|09:48pm] |
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today, for the first time in at least 2 or 3 weeks, ive had all my homework done! yay! kate seemed suprised. she didnt have any of her homework done, i said that going on report might actualy be a good idea. she laughed alot. i was joking, of course. not much actually hapaned today. trying to get the positions of the carachter sprites right when i upload them to the rpg maker but no luck yet. anyhoo, im off to play online games
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| yay |
[15 Oct 2003|11:16pm] |
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Face I Know- Future Kings Of Spain |
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today was pretty good. had fun, done ssome work on my carachter sprites, aced a history test. i talked to kate some more today. im alowed go to the dance, yay! kate said she'd be a wearing black shirt, skirt and 'slut boots' hahahhaa. i asked why not just wear pants and she says theyre all worn so shes gona wear a skirt. hahaha slut boots. im gona wear black pants and a black shortsleve with a white longsleve underneath. kate aske dme to copy a cd for her but i couldent so instead i made her a cd with 22 songs i downloaded off the internet. she asked if i could make her a copy of it and i said she could keep the one i gave her since i already had all the songs on my comp. she seemed glad ^_^ her and sarah were trying to set patricks hair on fire. they singed a few hairs tho, which was funny. this morning me and kate talked about cutting ourselves and depression and suff like that. i told her about my extreme lonliness and she said: "well me and my friends will be at the dance and you never know" sign or not i dont know but either way that was a nice thing for her to say. we both seem to be pretty sad most of the time. we fought over who got to play with my compass, i won! mwahahaha! then i just made a few scratches and put it away. things between me and kate are going well tho. i was even able to tell her about my 2 suicide atempts and she understood. i dont have much else to talk about so im gona go check up some websites
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| i dont like homework |
[14 Oct 2003|09:50pm] |
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today was, boring. got a cool program last night for making carachter sprites for the rpg maker and such similar things. it works really well too! now my hours are spent making sprites, tiny little sprits. haha. today kate asked me if i was going to the haloween dance. i didnt know about it and ive forgoten what she said about it so im gona have to ask her when its on and where tomoro. she didnt ask me and i wont ask her to it, she has a boyfriend but at least she told me. im gona go anyway since this girl like john and they're both going to the disco so i said id go and see him there. if i do go kate'll be there anyway. she said they always play shitty music but i said we can start a mosh pit. which shall be fun! this morning was an odd sight on the bus. first of all Matt (bus driver) got a new bus. second of all, sinead is back and her and kate nearly alwas sit together but today she didnt sit with kate she sat behind her. makes you think why kate didnt sit with sinead and sat with me doesnt it. ^_^ im off to check up a few things now so gútbye
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| no-homework-done-day |
[13 Oct 2003|09:33pm] |
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Comfort In Sound- Feeder |
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today wasnt bad. talked to kate on the bus in the morning, again. had fun, again ^_^ i should start paying more attention in class, i had a load of homework which i never done coz i never knew i had. thankfully i got it all done. im bored now so im gona go
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| yaaaaaaaay! |
[10 Oct 2003|10:12pm] |
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Who You Drivin' Now?- Ash |
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today was soooo cool. i got on the bus in the morning and sat with kate again and she said thanks for helping her with the history yesterday and i said no problem any time and i didnt have my homework done again and then we started talking and we talked non stop untill we had to get off the bus. it was so cool! im officialy 1 of her friends =) then in the evening the only people at the spot where we usualy wait for the bus were me and orla and when kate came along she said 'hi mark, hey orla' she said hi! yaaaaaay! we also swapped cds. i gave her steal this album by system of a down and she gave me a copy of one of rage against the machine's erlier albums. thier first one i think it is. we talked about so much in the morning tho. we both agreed that life is shit. we talked about the good, the bad, the indiferent. it was cool. ive been smiling all day ^_^ the evening was fun too. more little spitball wars between patrick and kate. b4 i got off she said that we'll swap back cds on monday and shell see me then and said bye. she said bye ^_^ haha im scary when in a good mood. only bad thing about today was the amount of homework ii have to do for the weekend but hell, its no big deal. anyhoo, i have games to play and tabs to get so ill be going
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| billy look out! *tackle* |
[09 Oct 2003|09:01pm] |
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today i felt waaaays better than i did yesterday. i sat beside kate this morning =) we didnt get to talk much as we both had homework that we didnt do but we talked a bit when she needed help with her history work. i helped her find the names of these 5 ships. yay ^_^ i didnt talk to her this evening. i had extra math after skool and shane had study and conor had study. i talked to shane, he said he doesnt like kate so yes, conor was lieing about it. i told shane i liked kate and he said cool and he wouldent say it to anyone. i didnt tell conor anything, cant be trusted he cant. p.e was sooooo fun today. lots hapaned. mr.morely asked me about guitar. miss toumey was horny. it was easily visble to all ¬_¬ anyhoo, im gona go play games
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| do you care if i dont know what to say |
[08 Oct 2003|09:28pm] |
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KATE HAS A BOYFRIEND! *cries* im not as bad as i expected my reaction to be but its still made me really sad. at least he lives in Cork which is kinda long distance so it cant last too long, hopefully. this has just messed me up. me and kate we're getting along great too. shes still nice to me and laughs alot at my jokes and stuff but it hurts so bad. my chances are gone or at least susponed for a few months. a few undoubtably horible months. at leats i can still be her ffriend and she knows my name and we get on well. its some conselation i guess. anyway, im off to play bass and look for things to do on my game
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| triple free last class yay! |
[07 Oct 2003|11:02pm] |
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There Is- Boxcar Racer |
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today was somewhat better than yesterday. i think i overreacted. im gona just be like a friend to kate and see how it hapens instead of over anylysing. today on the bus was fun. among other things 1 event stood out for me. kate was hitting patrick with a tennis racket (funny) coz he called her a slut (howd he get that idea?) and anyway, i said it looked like something out of star wars and said in an Obi-Wan-Kenobi voice "patrick, shes not related to you" (luke, im your father) and kate starts laughing and she turns around to hit me and we look at eachother and she pauses and evryhting went kinda slow mo and she smiled a bit and tapped me lightly on the head with the racket. it was cool ^_^. more fun stuff hapaned. kate doesnt agree with patricks musical taste i would say. i worked a bot on my game and thankfully go thte hang of using switches. Cian is welcomed into Sick AndTwisted Productions. hes making the website. i have all my homework done for once, hooray! anyway, im off to play games
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| *sob sob tear tear* |
[06 Oct 2003|10:06pm] |
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im so very sad =( i sat infront of kate and sinead today and i overheard kate talking about this guy who she likes. not me basically. some guy who lives near her, his name begins with G i think. anyway, this has kinda crushed me and i feel terrible and alone and worthless and like a bigger failure than ever. ack. abh i feel bad and i cant talk right now, i cant find the words to say. im gona go do something now, what exactly im not sure
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| toodaaaay |
[05 Oct 2003|08:54pm] |
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Tell All Your Friends- Feeder |
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yet anopther boring day. im oficialy adicted to Feeder. great band. i didnt do anything today. went to church in the morning, my brither was serving as an altar boy so mom made me come. i played bass alot. played around on RPG maker, im not much good at the custom graphics. maybe i can find someone to help me with them. anyway, im bored and i have things to be doing so im gona go do them
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