GaBbEr x WhOrE's Journal

Sunday, May 11, 2003

9:27PM - none

been quite some time since ive updated this...i know you all missed it so much. lol
anywho...nothing is really new, i dyed my hair pink....it went fuschia ass. ummm...i dunno what else is new. the new manson cd totally kicks ass. ummm...todays mothers day. i printed off one of my photographs and put it in a frame for my mom (the one of the house i took downtown) and she loved it. she thought it was professional until i told her i took it. that made me feel special. yay
and yah....i guess thats all.
(((ssshhh im hoping to get my septum done. DONT TELL MY DAD)))

latah!

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Monday, April 28, 2003

3:46PM - being cool

wow. i never knew that there were so many things to keep up with

1) if you're a girl, you have to be bisexual. because everyones doing it.
2) once one person starts a new trend, you so have to follow.
3) dont forget the ties, like, who doesnt want to be like avril lavigne.
4) remember, in order to be hardcore punk, its cool to yell "OI"
5) you have to get your friends to sign your pants, so people know you're not a loser.
6) wearing the same clothes everyday is so AWESOME!!
7) in order to be gothic, all you have to do is wear black.
8) being a vampire and liking blood, like OMG HOW COOL IS THAT!!!!???
9) being a prosti-tot/prosti-punk is by far cooler than anything else
10) and not inhaling when you smoke, because......YOU"RE AN IDIOT!

Current mood: awake
Current music: undone (((caught like fire)))
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Monday, April 14, 2003

9:40PM - been awhile, once again

well...me and mike broke up on saturday. its killing me. but i guess it was for the best. i dont really know what happened, but he didnt seem to give the slightest fuck. its weird, considering hes the one who wanted to be together forever, and get married, and have children. but he has no problem throwing a years realtionship down the fucking drain. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck
i have no one anymore. kayleighs mad at me for using her hair dye. wtf!
i have josh...and i barely ever see him.
ah fuck. fuck it all. i can go on alone, i did it for most of my life. and for those of you who are reading this..and are like "emo kid", "goth", "holy depression". let me save you the time of writing it...by telling you I DONT GIVE TWO FUCKS. DONT FUCKING LABEL ME. FUCK! FUCK YOU!

Current mood: cranky
Current music: i killed the prom queen (((Apon a rivers sky)))
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Wednesday, April 2, 2003

9:28PM - none

havent written in here for a bit....ive got this fucking song in my head and it wont leave...

THIS IS A 44. CALIBER LOVE LETTER STRAIGHT FROM MY HEART

sifting through weathered photo albums looking for gloriously aged polaroids of places you have never been. A place to accept that you don't really exist. "Smile for the camera sweet heart, I really want to immortalize this moment" but just remember the first step in forgetting is destroying all the evidence. with friends like you who needs subtext. THIS IS A 44. CALIBER LOVE LETTER STRAIGHT FROM MY HEART. Straight from my heart (deal with it)


and yeah...

Current mood: okay
Current music: 44. CALIBER ... (((alexisonfire)))
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Thursday, March 27, 2003

4:20PM - ew

some guy just came to the door to sell some house alarm bullshit and started hitting me. hes was like...a 45 yr old paki. what the fuck. how the hell do --->I<--- turn on a 45 yr old paki man. i just dont get it. ew.
he was all like...you are looking very nice today. i like how you look. very sexy.
ew ew ew.

Current mood: nauseated
Current music: Dj Gabber God (((So Hardcore It Hurts)))
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Thursday, March 20, 2003

4:25PM - !#U%!$@#*!^*&%*&%#

AAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why are people SOOOOO stupid!!!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this idiot fucking guy tells me im "goth" and im so "depresses" blah blah blah!!!! fuck that. then he wont shut the fuck up about my goddamn eyebrows. its not the fact that he talks about them, its the fact that he wont shut the fuck up about them. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Current mood: annoyed
Current music: the juliana theory (((closest thing)))
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Wednesday, March 19, 2003

9:33PM - xRandom Thoughts

i really couldnt give 2 shits about this war nonsence. everyone is making such a big deal. why dont these two fighting fucks bomb eachother and get it over with. because honestly, its taking up good posts on FTJ, and im getting tired of reading the same thing over and over again.

Current mood: restless
Current music: murderdolls (((lets go to war)))
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8:48PM - My Paper Heart

Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseach you
Simple things, that make you run a-way
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is, easiest when I am around you.

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
Now a year has past
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseach you
Simple things, that make you run a-way
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips, are sealed for her
My tongue is,
Tied to, a dream of being with you
To settle for less, is not what I prefer

Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I into
the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me



<3 the all american rejects

Current mood: refreshed
Current music: the all-american rejects (((my paper heart)))
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6:53PM - Stupidity

just makes me angry...look at this convo: im nitro bad and mike a (murderdolls) is the other.
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x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
lol
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
i never loved you
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
i tell everyone i love them
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
in a friendly way
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
thats all it was
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
you just took it the wrong way
"Son if you masterbate to much you will go blind" "Uh dad I'm over here" - I have been given Devine powers says:
then how come u were all obsessed over me and saying "when i was drunk all i was saying was your name" and all this shit
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
what are you talking about
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
lol
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
that never happened
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
stop trying to make shit up
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
lol
"Son if you masterbate to much you will go blind" "Uh dad I'm over here" - I have been given Devine powers says:
your fucking stupid if u dont remember, u told me this like a few weeks after we started talking
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
no i didnt
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
your making bullshit up
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
just to make yourself feel better
"Son if you masterbate to much you will go blind" "Uh dad I'm over here" - I have been given Devine powers says:
what the fuck, your fucking stupid as shit, your dumber then a fucking bucket of hair, i remember u telling me this, your so fucking stupid if u dont remember that
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
lol
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
dumber than a bucket of hair. lol
"Son if you masterbate to much you will go blind" "Uh dad I'm over here" - I have been given Devine powers says:
ya u r, i could carry on a better conversation with it then i can with u
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
you do understand tho. the things you say have NO effect on me what-so-ever
x].NiTrO-BaD.[x --------- x]HaRdCoRe.cOoL.[x says:
lol
"Son if you masterbate to much you will go blind" "Uh dad I'm over here" - I have been given Devine powers says:
u fucked me over, and for that you can go fuck yourself you fucking bitch




the funniest thing
"your dumber than i a fucking bucket of hair"
i will never ever get over that. that is THE funniest thing...ive ever heard. LOL
ROFLMAO

Current mood: cheerful
Current music: manson (((dont prey)))
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10:58AM - wo0t

http://facethejury.com/images/photos/pr/prettyxhate3.jpg

<3 bryans such a cool guy ^.^

Current mood: touched
Current music: Wumpscut (((kill a raver)))
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10:53AM - sick.... >.< AGAIN >.

i hate this...blah
im sick again. and it sucks major giant donkey balls. theres nothing to do. im so bored. i just hope i feel better by friday. because i really want to go to the reverb. and saturday kayleigh wants me to go to some punk show with her. i said yah. but only because i love her so much....ill just forget about that fact that i LOATHE punk music. grrrrr. but yeah, im too good of a friend. lol. i just dont chill with kayleigh that often. so this'll probably be pretty cool i guess. and yeah...my head hurts, and my throat, and WAH WAH WAH, all i do is complain. bah. ill go complain to my dad.
later

Current mood: blah
Current music: Bauhaus (((stigmata martyr)))
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Tuesday, March 18, 2003

7:55PM - March Break

was shit.
i did nothing...nothing exciting anyways. started going back out with mike T a week ago today. wo0t wo0t. and yeah. i was sposed to go see mike A (the one i met at muderdolls) but ended up not being able to. and he got all pissed off and called me a fucking bitch. and now we're not friends. >.< i dont even know why i give two shits considering i talk to him....never.
and yeah, me krista and mike went and saw bringing down the house. fucking hilarious movie. but there were so many stupid annoying kids on both sides of us. kristas side were crunching stuff and krista and i yelled at them. and the girls on my side were giggling and being stupid. so when they got up to get food we took one of their jackets. but threw it back because im a pussy. lol. and yeah. thats pretty much my marchbreak. cant get any cooler then that.

Current mood: blank
Current music: my sixth shadow (((shadows of my love)))
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6:56PM - New Journal

I got a new journal. i kinda got bored of the old one. and yeah. so here i am. sick as a dog. i dont know what that line is supposed to mean, because arent dogs one of the most hygenic/healthy animals?? meh. who cares. anywho...im going to the reverb this friday (hopefully *crosses fingers*)
theres never any good industrial dances around here. and im happy this one has decided to come around. im doing homework, stupid stupid english shit. >.< i cant find anything on this bullshit.
but yeah....im gonna go and work some more
byebyez

Current mood: sick
Current music: Dj Gabber God (((Gangsta Speedcore)))
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