efgywrtywruytwtyu5tuyytiu [07 Sep 2003|03:47pm] hi i hate everything right now. alyssa has a tooth and she bit me. andy is my friend. jesse is my best friend and i miss him. and justin is a sundae. 2 think I'm hot

[01 Sep 2003|09:12am] I have nothing to say right now... Hmmm, apparently I have to talk to Aaron and Nate...? ::shrugs:: Alyssa and I haven't really been around much-- we've been spending a lot of time doing fun things, and stuff... yeah she doesn't like balloons... :-X Andy is God... ::laughs:: okay no, actually in all seriousness, he owns me-- we talk a lot, and tell eachother things and come up with evil plans to take over the world together... actually sometimes we just go and get ice cream? :-X Justin and I stole a cart full of candy from the store and then saw some scary guy at the park... we thought he was going to die, but lmfao, nevermind what happened... that was the other day, then last night... we fell asleep at the park, on the slide together... ::laughs:: we were just walking to my house because he insisted on walking me home, we stopped at the park and-- tada, there we slept... ::sighs:: I'm going to go... greg hasn't been around :\ 3 think I'm hot

[25 Aug 2003|09:09pm] I deserve nothing but fucking shit, for the rest of my life. I deserve to be miserable for eternity. I derseved to get my ass kicked by Taylor, I deserve the broken arm. I am a slut, a whore, a bitch, selfish, twofaced, a liar- and whatever else I've been called now. I am a bad mother, my daughter doesn't deserve any of this... :-\ Nate, you win father of the year, and I hate the fact that I mean that... 5 think I'm hot

yeah [22 Aug 2003|06:37pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | More to Life * Staci Orrico... [i think?lmfao] ] I've been avoiding my journal... hmm. So life can blow me, and so can all of you fucking assholes that are against me. I just want to say this: If you've got a problem with me, go fuck yourself. I don't care what anyone of you have to say about me, honestly. The only person I really care about is my daughter and her well being. And for all of you mother fuckers that think Nate can just go and raise her himslef, you're oh so very wrong. A girl needs her mom and if you had half the brain as you do opinions, you'd know that. Seriously, I can't take the fact that you assholes I-M me bitching at me when it's 1.) None of your bussiness and 2.) Not entirely my fault. Honestly, grow up and start thinking about all sides of the story, because none of you know what the fuck you're talking about anyways. And as for Alyssa, just so everyone is clear on this, I will fight Nate for custody if thats what it's going to come down to. I'm sorry, but he didn't not carry her for 9 months, or have her for that matter-- she's just as much IF NOT MORE my daughter. But hi no, I'm not going to take her away from him either im not that fucking selfish I just wanted him to know how it feels to have his heart shattered for once. Yeah, and he did deserve it, the end. So enough of that... yeah, Jesse has been the best. He's been dealing with my shit day in and day out, and I love him to pieces... also, Greg has been doing his fair share of listening to me and helping me through this, and hi, he barely knows me it's good to know that some people don't jump to conclusions about people :-) So thank you Greg and Jesse cause hi, you're both my favorite. Hmmm... what else? Nothing actually, I just think I'm going to go and spend some time with my daughter before my asshole ex decides to take her to Flordia for the weekend.... :\ which im not happy about at all...hmm, maybe ill take a vacation too- FL sounds fun anyways. So yeah, the end. 6 think I'm hot

`im one step closer to the edge, and im about to break [20 Aug 2003|09:05pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | The One * Gary Allen ] I need to update... I have so much to say. Blah, I don't even know where to begin though... it's all like, very complicated. After the accident, everything has been really fucked up. Chris is okay, and I am too... I mean, just lots of bruises and cuts, but nothing serious. My arm was a little funky for a couple of days, but everything is all good now, and the 18 stitches in my head are comming out first thing tomorrow morning, which is good. :\ I'm really torn up on the inside though... Nate got really upset with me about getting in the car with Chris to begin with... but we talked about it and quite frankly, i feel like we didn't accomplish anything because... yeah. I don't know, everything has been so fucked up. I hung out with Mika today and we took care of some serious issues... it turns out my brain is saying one thing, and my heart is responding a different way. It's hard to explain and I don't want to get into it right now, but yeah... ::eats the rest of the M&M's:: Hmm, oh yes, and how can I forget, I hung out with one of the bestest most coolest people I know ::keeps name a secret:: :-X And I also hung out with Jesse... Jesse IS the coolest most bestestestestest person I know, but yeah... Other then that, I've been with my baby allllllllllllll day :-) Her and I had so much fun, I taught her how to finger paint this morning... okay, so I didn't, I just dipped her hands and feet in paint and guided her fingers to write "I love you Daddy" on the bottom... I'm still waiting for it to dry, and then I'm going to frame is and give it to Nate because... it's adorable and it's first real art project :-) Hehe, she's getting so big, she can ALMOST hold up her head... she's trying so hard, and it's the cutest thing ever. Eep... I can't wait till I can take her shopping, and talk about girly things... :-) Yep, other than that... not too much has been going on i've actually been quite depressed and yeah, the end. 4 think I'm hot

holler [19 Aug 2003|02:01am] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Izzling ] DiSPiTE MY SADDNESS RiGHT NOW-- I just want to say, I have a hot new layout *thanks to Libby* and everyone, I have an announcement... . . . ( Announcement ) ...and I love Nate... a lot more then anyone will ever know... "I wish there was a way to show you, my love is real... But Webster hasn't found the words to express how I feel" ::quotes Moffatts, knows Livvy and Aaron will show love for that:: And Alyssa, my baby girl... mommy loves you with everything... Now it's time to say goodbye... to all our company. M-I-C see ya next time K-E-Y why? Because I like you M-O-U-S-E... Kay, I suck, night 5 think I'm hot

[19 Aug 2003|12:53am] [ mood | giving ] [ music | "Ultamite" by Lindsay Lohan ] Um hi, I'm not Faye. GUESS WHO? Hm, you have three guesses. I'll give you a hint: My name starts with and L and ends with a ivvy ibby. Woot woot. I made Faye a layout and it's sexy and you want it. You're all jealous. Well everyone except Frank because I'm going to go put his up right now :-D. What's wrong with me? I'm in a giving mood today. Ew. -laughs- Toodles XoXo In Him~Libby think I'm hot

[17 Aug 2003|05:18pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Beautiful Soul * Jesse McCartney ] First and foremost: HAPPY EFFIN BIRTHDAY BLACKEY <333333 Kay, so... yeah last night Jesse and I went bar hopping or whatever because hi, it was fun- and yeah, the end. Nothing happened thanks, I would never and will never cheat on Nate thank you very much... hehe, but I passed out on the back of Jesse's quad and yeah, then he brought me home, weeeee... Hmm, today was interesting. I chilled with Jesse again and he let me "drive" his car... yeah, I didn't really drive, I just got to steer it- same with Trousdale, he let me drive to Chuck E. Cheese, but then we decided not to go there because yeah, I don't know why. Anyways, Aaron and I went out for ice cream, weee <3 we took the bus and I got in a fight with a senior citizen... she hit me with her cane so I kicked her, and yeah... but then Aaron called me stupid and yeah, the end. Um... Marie and I have been talking a lot and yeah, yay! ::loves Marie:: And yeah <3 Weeeee, Nate and I are going to take Alyssa to Disney Land... even though she's a little young still, she'll have fun... i know we will and yeah. Ugh, we all need to get away... yeah. Edit/: my head and arm hurt so bad... I'm never ever getting in the car with someone who's drunk ever again... ever Please God, let Chris be okay. :-( 5 think I'm hot

This is my life, it's not what it was before.. [16 Aug 2003|11:44pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | So Far * Staind ] Blah, so much has been going on... really. As mostly everyone knows, Nate and I are back together, and truthfully- I couldn't be happier... I know that this is what I need right now... I need stability and not only does Nate give me that, but everything else along with it. Not to mention it's obvious that Alyssa is at the age where she's FINALLY started to notice people, especially people she sees everyday, so... I know she knows who her parents are, and that's important in a baby's life... so yeah, it's really all good... I have a lot more to say, but I'm lazy and Jesse and I are going to go out somewhere and raise hell because that's the cool thing to do when you're bored and stuff, so yeah- bye. 3 think I'm hot

same old stuff- never ends... [15 Aug 2003|12:35pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Take me Away * Christina Vidal ] Yeah so... Last night, I finally decided to call Hilary... obviously we eventually had to talk about this situation, so- yeah. She came over and we talked and talked and talked and yeah... Nate... I love you, I'll always love you, you're such a huge part of me. And I know you've got it stuck in your head that us being together is important for Alyssa, and yeah, it is important... but I don't want to be with someone JUST because of Alyssa, and right now- I feel like that's the only reason you want to be with me... I'm not going to be selfish- I know Hilary loves you, and she needs you- maybe even more than I do right now... if you want to do what's best for Alyssa, I suggest you follow your heart, not your head... either way our daughter's life is going to own because we rock :-) So just, for the sake of everyones happiness, you need to do what's going to make you happy, and I know you'll do what's right, you'll see that in the end. Aaron, I want you to be happy :-\ I'm seriously going to do everything in my power to make you see that you really are the best person I know... dispite what you may think. I'm here for you always, and I hope you know that... xoxox <3 So nothing really interesting has been going on. Jesse and I hung out last night, which was nice because hi, I'm so stressed out and Jesse is my bestest friend ever, so blah... um, okay well Anna and I are taking Alyssa to her first carnival so, yeah- bye. 1 think I'm hot

OOC [15 Aug 2003|12:20am] [ mood | blah ] [ Kay, I would post in Barley OOC, but fuck it, I want everyone to see this... Faye is miserable, lmfao, and seeing how I hate playing miserable people, I've officially decided to restart her, even though I think it's stupid to do so... all well, so yeah... this is what is staying: 1.) Alyssa of course so obviously Nate and Faye still have a past... 2.) Friendships. So basically, she has no past realtionships with anyone... at all, except Nate... just because I can't deal with the guy-hopping. And yeah... if there's something you really want me to keep... I'll consider it I suppose... and I'm sorry if this fucks with anyones SL's, but I HAVE to do this-- especially because I can't handle it anymore and it's effecting my life -too rp obsessed- lmfao. So yeah, that means like- Aaron and Faye never happened, and she's not a cheater... or a liar, or anything because Jesse and Faye never were... like, together, but they're best friends still, make sense? Hi, it better lmfao. The end. ] think I'm hot

fizuckity fuck fuck [14 Aug 2003|04:43am] [ mood | worried ] [ music | Do you Remember * Aaron Carter ] I wish someone would just shoot slap me... seriously. I really miss need to talk to Aaron... maybe I'll pay him a visit tonight I'll probably give him a call tomorrow... we need to talk anyway I need to make sure he's okay... I don't want to update about anything else...i'm going to see aaron 2 think I'm hot

inside i'm slowly dyin' - but the rain will hide my cryin... [13 Aug 2003|02:32am] long ass night. alyssa has an earache. my poor baby :\ I've never been so lost in my life think I'm hot

MmmBop. [09 Aug 2003|01:59pm] Kay so I should make a long ass update... but I don't have all the time in the world, so I'll try to make this as quick as possible... Aaron and I are back together :-) We talked about everything and... ::shrugs:: I made him a lot of promises, promises that I intend to keep this time. Everything is going to be different... I don't care what anyone says... <3 Um... just so everyone knows, Jesse is still my bestest friend ever, and that's never going to change. And Mandy, thanks or sticking up for all of us, considering we're not as close anymore, it means a lot... God, I wish people weren't so fucking stupid sometimes... ugh, whatever. In response to Nate's wonderful bashing post about me... I'm not even going to get pissed about it, Nate had my heart at one point, and that's that... :-\ I'll edit this later, but for now... the end. 3 think I'm hot

werd [08 Aug 2003|01:13am] [ mood | calm ] All right, SO- I had a long, bitchy, somewhat un-true update, and yeah- some of you might have read it... but I just decided it's not worth all the drama and shit. I'm a lazy fucker and I've got too much shit to deal with, so I don't need even MORE... All I want to say is this: If you hate on me, go fuck yourself.Seriously, people like Marie- psht, way to talk shit about me you're a fucking bitch anyway. And Taylor- this can't be confirmed but NUMEROUS people said you were talking shit. Wtf? You're all supposed to be my friends... so if you're going to talk shit, and secretly hate- wtf? How about we all just openly have one big fucking "Hate Faye fest" and get it out of the way! i know i'd go to it :\ Werd, and yeah- if you're still one of the very few non-haters, <3 well duh hi you own me obviously... :-P I fucking love so much these days... I love Alyssa most of all... but I also love clothes racks, photo booths, burning things, pizza, midgit ghosts, camping, er- aaron in general?, Jesse, Libby, Frankie, Reese, Hil, mah PLAY girls... even Anais because even SHE doesn't hate on me as much as some people :\, er- yeah and more but I'm lazy, hi, so this is the end... Which Disney Princess are You?Find out! dorkerella <3 :-* 27 think I'm hot

[04 Aug 2003|02:06am] [ mood | bitchy ] I just want to say this- For all of you piece of shit people out there spreading these fucked up rumors about me, please PLEASE stop. It's so wrong, you don't even know, and just by a few stupid little rumors, Aaron and I are taking a break. which really sucks because i really like aaron :-( Nate's taking me to court, he wants full custody of Alyssa... HA everyone tries to take away the people i love I'm not going to let it happen, hi, for the rest of my life I'm going to be all about my daughter- fuck everyone else, and if you're my true friend you know not to take these words personally, but for everyone else that's been talking shit, or whatever- FUCK YOURSELVES. Yeah, bitchy, can you tell? Wtf, I'm going to spend time with my daughter [OOC: I think this rumor thing is really shitty and that's all, the end. :-/ And just for the record- I don't hate Jill, Abby or anyone else, so yeah. And Faye never called Marie a slut so, whatever. Everyone is taking things too seriously, including myself and it's not cool.] 4 think I'm hot

::loves on owning-ness:: [31 Jul 2003|03:59am] [ mood | rejuvenated ] [ music | Take Me Back Home * Greg Raposo ] Ew okay, time for yet another babbley update deal with it. So yeah, so much has been happening, kind of, sort of... okay not really. Basically the only two people I've socialized with are Aaron and Jesse. Hmmm, don't ask why, I've just been anti-people latley. Hmph. All well, I've been having fun. <3 I went to Jesse's concert tonight and a lot of screaming girls is scary, the end. Ummmmmmmmm I love Happy Meals? ::nods:: And um... cleaning closets :-X Kay, won't go into that lalala, um, yeah so Toy Stores own too ::loves on the teddys:: :-D I don't know, I have no reason to be overly excited, but I am ::bops:: It's probably got something to do with the season. Summer owns... the end. ::sings "Summertime":: Aaron owns. :-):-):-) Blah... Jesse and I won the best friends award... and you know what? I'm glad because Jesse and I really are best friends. Seriously, Jes- I know I always do this, but I love you, and I'm going to continuously thank you for everything you've done for me. <3 Jesse fucking owns too. See? I'm loving on Aaron and Jesse because of their own-ing ness. ::gives up, loses:: lmfao I'm a fucking winner. All right then, well- now I'll go because I'm tired finished blabbing :-) ::loves on Aaron:: 2 think I'm hot

Happy daysssssssss [27 Jul 2003|01:45am] [ mood | perfect ] Such an eventful day :-) Faye is so so so so so so so so so happy. :-D <--- see? HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. photobooths own me Aaron and I went to the mall today and I humped his poster bought pretzels and soggy nachos for us to share because they are yummy. THEN we decided to get out pictures taken... and accidently hit the button a few times :-X I had so much fun :-D ::loves Aaron's porn star bed:: :-* Today was just all around great! Wow, okay and then I leave and come back and, hi, awards?! Weeeeeee, I guess I'm in the lead for update whore ::updateswhores:: weeeeeeeee :-) Except I have one itty bitty request... EVERYONE VOTE FOR FAYE AND JESSE- BEST FRIENDS... hi, it makes sense, we ARE best friends, lmfao. <3 I don't feel like updating anymore- I miss my Aaron i want to go play with fire, get some MAJOR help, then cuddle<3 :-\ ::yells:: AARON OH AARONNNNNNNNNN :-P Weeeeeeee I miss Jesse too :-\ ::is full of missing-ness:: faye is wasted- what hi?? oops. :-X ::loves on Mika:: 4 think I'm hot

You make me blushhhhhhhh you are my sugar rushhhhhhh [25 Jul 2003|03:22am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | The Hokey Pokey * MEEEEE ] Lately I've been really update happy :-) soo forgive all of the cool posts, or just read and try to amuse yourself with my semi-amusing life :-) Anyways, tonight was actually really confusing... just... blah. I really didn't even mean to forget that I was going on tour in like, hi, 2 days-- ahhh yeah, and as wicked as it is- because touring owns... it fucks with the fact that I'm supposed to go to Sweden with Nate, Alyssa and Taylor :-\ Ugh. I don't know, I'll figure that all out when I talk to Nate, we can work something out, I'm sure... Even besides that, the whole night has been all funky. Jesse and I hung out, again, obviously :-) Jesse makes me laugh- and that's good. <33 And now he can finally eat again, so everything is all okey-dokey... AND SPEAKING OF OKEY-DOKEY- Aaron and I were going to do the hokey-pokey, but he wussed out, so I ended up doing it alone! >:| Pfft, it's okay though because he can just call up Stan and forget about me :-P Weeeee, so many fun times already! <3 And now I'm going to go count the stars and get some help ;-) EDIT/: ::wants help:: I neglected to say that I hate on someone... ::hates on Stan:: :-P I'm a hater because he makes Aaron lie about his monkey. :-Pand i'm jealous because stan sucks the end 2 think I'm hot

I hate camping... and rolling logs lmfao [24 Jul 2003|06:08pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Crazy Little Party Girl * Aaron Carter ] Weeeeeee I went camping for the first time ever :-\ It was really really really scary- and really really really fun. See yeah- this is the story: Me, Aaron, Libby, Frankie, Clay, Jade, Justin, Erin, Angel, and... um... I think that's it (I'm really tired, forgive me) decided to go camping last night :-) it was pretty cool, there was a big lake right there and everything, we had a fire... yeah it was just awesome. Well Aaron wanted to tell Ghost stories because he thinks it's funny to see me when I'm all scared cept I like when he protects me anyways :-P and stuff-- the stories worked. I got so scared, I decided to leave BUT ANGEL thought it would be funnier to tie me to a log so I couldn't leave, pfft. Naurally,I screamed, a lot... and instead of helping me, JUSTIN stuffed marshmellows in my mouth! >:o At that point, it was only me, Angel, Aaron, Justin and I elieve Jade was out hiding in the woods or something... so yeah, I wiggled around to try to break free and all of a sudden, THE LOG STARTED ROLLING DOWN THE HILL TOWARDS THE LAKE! I screamed and stuff, and Aaron tried to save me *<3* and Angel jumped on me and-- it was so so scary... but then I hit a tree and scratched my face- hinofunkthnx. I was bleeding, but once again, Aaron took care of me :-) Yeah, a lot more happened but I'm lazy man... so yeah, then Justin was teasing me and Aaron saying we were going to do it in the tent PDAing and yeah. Psht, how rude :-P But he got pecked by the cool owl, so it was all good :-) I think Aaron's pet monkey hates me :-X rofl. He says it doesn't, but I'm pretty sure it does :-\ at least willy isn't wrinkled hahahahahahahhahahaha. Okay yeah, inside joke people... woot. <3 Anyways, yeah so then it was time to go to sleep and yeah. :-) Aaron kept me warm all night :-D yeah hi, we shared a sleeping bag kthnx... but nothing happened he just helped me a little <3 the end. So yeah... um... I forgot to update about the zoo... hmmm, we freed the monkeys and then we rode a camel... cept he wouldn't let me take the camel home cause it smelled... Aaron hates on animals, the end. And today I'm hanging out with Jesse :-) Alyssa was with Nate last night, and then today she stayed with him and Hil... :-\ I miss her- SO tonight, she's all mine :-) Yay! I think I'll ask Libby if she wants to go baby clothes shopping with me... :-) Yeah and I think that's all... or maybe not, but yeah I don't know, I've been busy <3 K, well the end :-) [Yeah, the mod post... I should comment on it just because I'm one of the statistics... I don't want to get rid of my storyline with Nate because it's not worth it, so Alyssa stays, but yeah... I talked to you sexy bitch mods already :-* lmfao, um- but how bout I erase the all prior reletionship details, like the Dhani thing... the engagment I mean-- and yeah, hi, she wasn't engaged twice Ash, I erased that, I told you :-P dork, hi, anyways... so yeah, just the baby thing... but admit it, you're all attached to these non-existent children i know i am :-\ lmfao all well, hi I love you all anyways so, the end. <3333333333333333333333 ::is sorry for having those *points to all the things it says to NOT do in the new post* things in my storyline :-/:: Blah okay the end <3 WAIT- ::has mad mod love:: ;-)] 6 think I'm hot

 

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