| YOUR A FAT UGLY BASTARD |
[17 Nov 2004|04:47pm] |
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YOU ANNOY AND EMBARESS EVERYONE WITH YOUR FAT. YOU REALLY ARE THE MOST OBESE UGLY THING I HAVE EVER HAD THEM MISFORTUNE TO LOOK AT. I HATE YOU AND I HOPE YOU DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| ARGHHH I Hate myself so much! |
[17 Nov 2004|04:38pm] |
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I can't get over how I feel about myself at the minute. Why do I always fail? I set myself a target and the automatically mess it up. I am in complete dire straits weight wise. I am 8 stone heavier than I want to be and I am desperatly unhappy. If I don't stop gaining weight soon I am going to die. This week I am going to get drastic. Everytime I want to eat I will remind myself what a fat ugly pig I have become. I can't even stand to look at myself!!!
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[17 Nov 2004|01:51pm] |
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Ok. My diet started at 12.00pm and since then I have had a tin of soup and a bottle of water. The plan for tonight is peppermint tea and water and maybe a bottle of diet coke or pepsi while watching the tv. Then if I manage that tomorrow I will have an apple and a mullerlite yoghurt tomorrow before 12pm. That will take my 24 hour calorie total to around 300.
This is the plan, it may not work out like this but I need to keep it low whatever happens.
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| First Day of Diet |
[17 Nov 2004|10:56am] |
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My diet is starting from Saturday 13.11.2004, I have decided that from today I am going to keep my journal here, including goals and acheivements. I am aiming to loose 3 pounds this week. I think that I am on target to acheive that goal.
My Current weight is 269 pounds and my goal weight is 150 pounds. That is obviously a long way to go. My first goal is 196 pounds which is a little more acheivable in the short term. I am looking forward to my first weigh in as I am sure I have lost this week
Love Jamie
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