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(1 OnlOOkeR | BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[22 May 2004|04:39pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | ::alexisonfire:: ]

Which Rocko's Modern Life Character are you?

Take The Test!


Which Salute Your Shorts Character are You?

Take The Test!

(1 OnlOOkeR | BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[22 May 2004|02:29pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | ::a static lullaby:: ]

well...today was soo boring. lol. walked around with bret and will. met up with will at 11 and we walked to brets.. really boring...we got there and waited half an hour for bret to get outside and then we walked and hung out in the tunnel...trying to light shit. after many failed attempts we left and went to the sewer..went in some spider infested tunnel... and dicked around til bret said we could go get food at his house. so we walked back and his stepmom told us to leave..so we sat on the side of the house..and then will realized the hose was on..and then we got in trouble and me n him left. on the way home we found the kewlest ball in the whole world. i gave it to will to make him look kewl..and he killed it. so he cried and comforted it the whole way home. then he went home and i ran to my house. now my feet are dead. it hurts to get up and get otter pops. o well. i think im gaining weight. theres actually a stomach when i look down. its scary. i need to do crunches. thats my plan for tonight. well..i guess im guna go..download music or something..with my boring life. i need to talk to jared..but hes at some show tonight..hopefully he'll call later.
later days.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

MY HELL [22 May 2004|08:56am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA ]

lindsay
Circle I Limbo

helenka
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

eden
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

jared
Circle IV Rolling Weights

will
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

bret
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

lindsey
Circle VII Burning Sands

eric
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

kelsey, marc
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[21 May 2004|08:52pm]
fallen2
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
images/fallen_angel.jpg


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

quiz-just random songs..doesnt apply to the questions :) [21 May 2004|06:58pm]
[[Music Preferences]] Favorite genre::: dont really have one
Favorite band out of that genre::: linkin park
Least favorite genre::: country
Most hated band::: avril lavigne/no doubt
Favorite song of all time::: my december
Least favorite song of all time::: plenty

[[Do you like..(relating to music) ]]
Your mom's music?::: the cure, nirvana, smashing pumpkins..
Your dad's music?::: the pixies, black flag,
Your grandparents' music?::: classical..haha
Dancing to music?::: mindless self indulgence/LP
Singing to music?::: i cant
Writing music?::: yup
Playing music?(instrument wise)::: learning drums..aim to learn guitar

[[Musical Letters]]
:The first thing musically that comes to mind that begins with the letter:
A::: anatomy of a ghost, adicts
B::: blink 182
C::: cursive
D::: dead kennedys, dot commies
E::: exploited, (the) evicted
F::: finch
G::: group x
H::: hooobastank
I::: incubus
J::: jimmy eat world
K::: kite eating tree, korn
L::: linkin park, lower class brats
M::: mindless self-indulgence, matchbook romance
N::: nirvana
O::: oasis
P::: poor bailey
Q::: queens of the stone age
R::: ru36, rise against
S::: sugarcult, senses fail
T::: the cure, the dragg, TRAVIS barker
U::: unseen, used
V::: vice squad
W::: transplants
X::: xzibit
Y::: yellowcard
Z::: (rob) zombie

[[Songs for thought?]]
:Match up the emotion, with a song that comes to mind: ((couldnt think so i put my playlist up..haha))
Anxious::: outside-staind
Depressed::: poetic tragedy-the used
Hopeful::: add it up-violent femmes
Remorseful::: anthem of our dying day-story of the year
Sincere::: one eight seven-senses fail
Confused::: dinner’s for suckers-none more black
Content::: tainted love-the cure
Confident::: dancing with myself-blink 182 ((cover))
Insecure::: lipgloss and letdown-a static lullaby

[[Songs to reflect your soul.. or er...life ;-) ]]
:Put that song that best describes the given part:
Your Love Life::: faint of heart-coheed and cambria
Your Family Life::: escape from hellview-cky
When your alone::: without you here-finch
With Someone::: blood on the ground-incubus
Lying in bed::: bed of roses-mindless self indulgence
Outside in the fresh air::: dilated-atreyu
At school::: gentleman caller-cursive

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

::gentleman caller::cursive:: [09 May 2004|03:25pm]
your gentleman caller,
well, he's been calling on another
he loves his forbidden fruit
and as it dribbles down his chin
he cries, "baby, I've been drinking with some friends. now how 'bout a little kiss..."
bad boy
rub his nose in it
what a mess
and he's playing dumb
doo do doo...

im not looking for a lover
all those lovers are liars...
i'd never lie to you
you say you want to get even
yeah, you want to get
your bad man good
well, are you in the mood?

you bad girl
does it feel good being bad?
and getting worse?
doo do doo...

but in the morning
on the sober dawn of Sunday
youre not sure what you have done
who told you love was fleeting
sometimes men can be so misleading
to take what they need from you
whatever you need to make you feel
like you've been the one behind the wheel
the sunrise is just over that hill
the worst is over
whatever I said to make you think
that loves the religion of the weak
this morning we love like weaklings
the worst is over.
The worst is over.

(1 OnlOOkeR | BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[08 May 2004|08:55pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | ::alexisonfire::an essay to jame:: ]

::FAGGOT::MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE:: dont sweat about the lyrics..he's bi... and this songs the shit cuz it sounds hela sick
i've been denied all the best
ultrasex
i've been denied all the best
ultrasex



i tried to consume just like a super faggot
i got some dude

how can y'all bring a muthafucka something so good he couldn't
say no
you nailed me hard
i love'em when they dont give a mutherfucking shit
i could've been someone
instead of falling flat upon my ass

dig me now and fuck me later
and sing it to the tune of faggot faggot faggot
dig me now and fuck me later
and sing it to the...

i've been denied all the best
ultra sex
i've been denied all the best
ultra sex



i could've been a star
it freaks me out when i sound just like my mom
i could've rocked the spot
instead of being just another faggot like i am
i played that shit straight
blowin' suckas on the side hopin' i get laid
now everybody knows
no way in hell i can ever live it down

dig me now and fuck me later
and sing it to the tune of faggot faggot faggot
dig me now and fuck me later
and sing it to the...

i've been denied all the best
ultra sex
i've been denied all the best
ultra sex
molest

faggot faggot faggot faggot x 4


now im guna go play the Emogame. lol. lata dayz!!

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

::DILATED::ATREYU:: [08 May 2004|02:02pm]
[ mood | INSANE ]
[ music | ::m.s.i.::cocaine and toupees:: ]

Yesterday I forgot to breathe for like the 6th time this week...
Maybe it was the pink cloud strafed sky that changed my mind, and brought me back.
Seems like every day it's kill or be killed...
With all this anger, we cannot progress.
With all this anger there is no time to inhale and progress,
And catch the smell of something that you once knew...
'Cause every day is battled alone. What price, what price would be too much?

Have you ever stopped, raised your face up to the sun and screamed?
Let it out exhale the pain that strangulates your soul.
When will I be free? When will I be free? When will I be free?

My lungs take in the fragrance of remorse.
What is the cost?
Am I living?
If you let your lungs fill up with pain then you will drown, then you will drown in your own regret.
I'm drowning in my own regret!

My arms feel so numb... my heart palpitates missing a beat.
The blood freezing in my veins... the taste of rust in my mouth!
So today I just threw it all away. I just threw it all away!


Though the light burns my eyes I will not be blind.
If you blink you could miss so much.
Please don't ever close your eyes.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

WHOOOO.... thisa band is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!!! [07 May 2004|07:55pm]
::MIDNIGHT::THE HIGHER::
cruel intentions dating back
sometimes
its better just to wait
lets cut
this tension with a knife
rewind
and listen to her say
i never wanted it to end
this way
im getting tired of waking up with the hope that youll be next to me
convinced thats all i need
even though my dream seems so far away
theres a memory that still remains
a midnight sky
your eyes as wide
its paradise
and daylight brings a smile
a smile that could chase away the night
remember back when everything was right
remember us staring at the stars up in the sky
wish this could last forever
your eyes
you promised me that you
wouldnt cry and we would last forever
a midnight sky
your eyes as wide
its paradise
and daylight brings a smile
a smile that could chase away the night
remember back when everything was right
remember us staring at the stars up in the sky
wish this could last forever
so where are we now
this peice of papers getting torn
the shadow of a doubt is getting larger
and its building like a storm
remember
when
you promised
then
dont break my heart
dont say another word





::COUPLES SKATE ONLY::THE HIGHER::
though the shades are pulled down
i still can see inside your heart
your eyes a labyrinth of darkness
still through my tears im left alone
so say
that you never had the chance to say goodbye
please stay with me
go on and stay
just one more night the sky had never been so bright
please stay with me
im left alone
so paint me a picture of the last year
and kiss me one more time
before you
and i write but you dont have to wait for me
well dont wait
well please wait
so say
that you never had the chance to say goodbye
please stay with me
go on and stay
just one more night the sky had never been so bright
please stay with me
im left alone
stay
i miss you
stay
i need you
sorry
i was wrong

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[07 May 2004|06:04pm]
[ mood | guilty ]
[ music | ::thousandfootkrutch::rawkfist:: ]

R.I.P.

Jordan Kenney
Mandy Bugner
Britney Sanchez
Joel Hansen
Alex McConnell

and
Dallas Milat


you are ALL heavily missed. i cant believe all those people have died since december..shit.

(9 OnlOOkeRs | BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

stole from amanda's bluuuuuuuuurtyyy...lol [07 May 2004|05:23pm]
APRIL:
*Active and dynamic. <----if thats why im hyper..then SURE!
*Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. <----- true dat homes. especially with what i say. i have a tendency to "speak without feeling"... or say things without realizing the effect.
*Attractive and affectionate to oneself. <------HAHA yah right
*Strong mentality. <---umm..according to the definition((i have to look these up)) i have a strong way of thinking. im not sure what that means/if its true..so0 yah
*Loves attention. <---i have to admit sometimes i do. but we all do at times. i mean cmon. we're all fuckign human! lol
*Diplomatic. <----not sure what that means...they only have diplomacy in the dic...tionary. lol.
*Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. <---i might cause problems... not sure if im very consoling..friendly..SHURE!
*Brave and fearless. <---O YAH! haha i deno..i wish i was...
*Adventurous. <----- not shure...am i??
*Loving and caring. <----- highly depends on who u are to meee
*Suave and generous. <---im not..smoothly pleasant, courteous, or generous...so no
*Emotional. <-------- unfortunately...yes
*Aggressive. <------- roar? meow? lol. nope not mee
*Hasty. <----this was already in a question..right?
*Good memory. <------ yup
*Moving Motivates oneself and others. <----- not sure what that means...the moving throws me offfff
*Sickness usually of the head and chest. <------ yes
*Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.<----- im not sexy to anyone.. anbd i have no lover. so0o nope.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[02 May 2004|08:16pm]
[ mood | pleased ]
[ music | ::bret giggles:: ]

BRETS HOUSE OF PANCAKES... HOW MAY I HELP YOU?


the best thing bret could come up with when he picked up the phone.... HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

R.I.P. DALLAS..... YOU ARE HEAVILY MISSED BY US ALL! [30 Apr 2004|10:34pm]
[ mood | shitty ]
[ music | ::lip gloss and black::atreyu:: ]

Pine Valley eighth-grader dies in bike crash

SAN RAMON - A 14-year-old Pine Valley eighth-grader died in a bicycle accident Monday night while riding down the hill on Bollinger Canyon Road, police said.

Dallas Milat of San Ramon was riding on the south sidewalk of Bollinger heading toward Alcosta Boulevard when he veered into a concrete support fence bordering a golf course and hit a concrete pillar, said Cpl. David Heinbaugh, a San Ramon police traffic investigator.

The accident occurred about 8:30 p.m. The unconscious boy was airlifted to John Muir Medical Center in Walnut Creek, where he was pronounced dead from a blunt-force head injury, said Contra Costa County Sheriff's spokesman Jimmy Lee.

The accident is under investigation, Heinbaugh said.

Dallas was not wearing a bike helmet, police said. By law, bicyclists under 18 must wear a helmet. Police would not speculate if the boy might have survived had he worn a helmet.

Dallas' sister Jordan, a senior at California High School, said her parents, Valerie and Gary Milat, began to worry when their son did not return promptly from his bike ride, something he often did with friends after school.

"Dad went out looking for him, because he knows where Dallas rides," Jordan Milat said.

Gary Milat learned at the accident scene that his son was being airlifted to the hospital.

The boy's tearful sister said her only sibling was her best friend and an experienced bicyclist who had just got a new bike.

"We just don't know what happened," she said.

Students at Pine Valley Middle School were shocked and saddened Tuesday, Principal Gayle Hurd said. A Tuesday evening prayer vigil was organized at the school. Teachers and counselors talked with students about the accident during the day.

"This hit the school extremely hard," Hurd said. "Dallas was one of the most popular kids at school, a thoughtful young man who got along with everybody."

Dallas was in the school leadership program and was a youth educator, teaching tobacco education at elementary schools, Hurd said. He loved to play every kind of sport, his sister said.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[24 Apr 2004|10:37am]
BRENTWOOD - Through brave and selfless gestures, Liberty High students are remembering a classmate who died in a high-speed crash last weekend.

In a touching tribute to 15-year-old Alex McConnell, friends wore red ribbons and improvised tattoos -- spelling the teen's name on their knuckles and wrists. They coordinated matching outfits on different days, Raiders gear and later, white shirts and blue pants, one of Alex's favorite ensembles.

Friends described Alex as a funny and friendly teen.

"There wasn't a sad moment with him," 14-year-old Amber Streiff said.

Alex died early Sunday following a high-speed crash on Balfour Road, just west of Byron Highway, CHP spokesman Cliff Kroeger said.

Alex is the third student Liberty has lost within months. Last month, 15-year old Matt Kirkpatrick died in Whitney Lake, Texas, while practicing for a national motocross competition. Joel Hanson, 16, was fatally shot Dec. 27 in Brentwood.

"It's kind of freaking us out. It's kind of a domino effect," Amelia Reininger said about the deaths of her friends.

"There's a lot of grieving," Liberty principal Andy Parsons said, referring to the spate of student deaths. "My goal is to see the students through these times."

Counselors and volunteer chaplains have met with some students, he said.

Parsons said he is proud of how his students are caring for each other, and respectfully honoring Alex and the other lost students. "When tragedies happen, people come together. It would be my hope that they come together every day," Parsons said.

Amelia, Alex's girlfriend of two years, said she is still in shock. She was at his side at Children's Hospital in Oakland. "He was a fun-loving spirit," Amelia said. "He was the best boyfriend I ever had. He was my first love and my last love," the 14-year-old girl said.

Liberty student Tim Plumber, who was in the car with Alex, is in a Stockton hospital, students said.

Five teens, ages 14 to 17, were in the car, Kroeger said. In addition to one fatality, one suffered major injuries, two suffered minor injuries, and a fifth teen was not hurt.

Alcohol was not involved, Kroeger said. The 2004 Ford Mustang was traveling 80 to 85 mph when it collided with a construction sign, followed by a utility pole and a tree. The utility pole was uprooted, Kroeger said.

The California Highway Patrol will have an initial report on the crash in at least three weeks, Kroeger said, noting that the driver could face manslaughter charges.

Alex's friends are planning a candlelight vigil at 7 p.m. Saturday in Brentwood's City Park. The teens are buying T-shirts bearing Alex's image, and are also collecting memorial gifts for his family.

Student Kate Creamer paid tribute to Alex through a poem. "To us you meant the world, To some you meant the universe, We never stopped to think, That we'd have to say good-bye."







Boy in car accident declared brain-dead

A 15-year-old boy injured in a weekend crash near Brentwood has been declared brain-dead, and his family has decided to donate his organs, authorities said.

Alex McConnell of Brentwood was taken to Children's Hospital in Oakland after injuries he suffered in a high-speed crash Saturday night on Balfour Road, west of Byron Highway, the California Highway Patrol reported.

Alex was one of four passengers in a Mustang that spun out after the 17-year-old driver lost control. The car sped across the road and hit a power pole that was severed from its base by the impact.

Alex was sitting in the back seat, and his head struck the side of the vehicle. A helicopter took him to Children's Hospital, where he was declared brain-dead Sunday, according to the CHP. He was being kept on life support until his organs could be donated.

Another passenger, Richard Plummer, 16, had a concussion and was taken by helicopter to San Joaquin General Hospital. He was expected to recover. The other two passengers and driver had only minor injuries.

The driver was not under the influence of any alcohol or drugs, the CHP said.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

COHEED AND CAMBRIA SONGS [18 Apr 2004|08:46pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU YOU MUTHAFUCKIN PEAICE OF SHIIIT ]

::IN KEEPING SECRETS OF SILENT EARTH 3::COHEED AND CAMBRIA::
A broad incision sits across the evening
The victim to our fathers' lost war
The restless children sit and mourn the graves
Of those they've never seen before
Will they be buried here among the dead
In the silent secret?

The pioneers
In dealing with it they march for dawn
Of will and worthy
The truth be told, the child was born

Man your own jackhammer
Man your battle station
We'll have you dead pretty soon
Sincerely written from my brother's blood machine
Man your own battle station
We'll have you home pretty soon

Awake through motion
With curiosity to curtain your first move
Over arm's length they'll break protocol
Jealous envy for the youngest one
To be the hero is all I'll ask
Can I be buried here among the dead
With room to honor me here in the end?
You'll be better off too soon
You'll be better off when you get home

For you
I'd do anything just to make you happy
Hear you tell me that you're proud of me
For them
I'd kill anything, cut the throats of babies for them
Break their hearts for they were them
Waiting for you to say
I love you too

The navigator
The pilot
Her favorite
The one they call the vision that bares the gift

Will
Do the children really understand
The things you did to them?
And why, oh why
Should they conjure up the will?
For you, my love, I would kill him

In the seventh turning hour
Should the victims shadow fall
Would the irony go hungry?
With victory and all they sought for
We were one among the fence
One among the fence

::DELIRIUM TRIGGER::COHEED AND CAMBRIA::
we're now up here alone terror on the intercom can someone save us
systems malfunction blast it this damn machine over and out captain
something lurks creeps on the counter top somewhere behind you
parasitic cyst i can't stand to watch it's coming up and out of your chest

remember when we were young
sit up right on the table a photograph of earth feeding me a way back
frightened i tear alone or maybe not the the only one there
hello... hello when it rings will you answer?
there corner tall short stance
it's you come on kill me!!
you made a good friend to me but while you were outnumbered
and torn they made us do things...

dear god, i don't feel alive when you're cut short of misery
will you pray it be the end? give a look surprise wide eyed to me
then you'll know just what i am the scare that triggers your fear
come know me in a different light come know me as god

run sand hourglass in my time will i be worth?
spin 'round carousel when your horse isn't screwed in

oh dear god, i don't feel alive when you're cut short of misery (raise forth lost cause)
will you pray it be the end? give a look surprise wide eyed to me (raise forth lost cause)
then you'll know just what i am (subtle demise the legitimate cry)
the scare that triggers your fear come know me in a different light
come know me as god (raise forth lost cause)

(1 OnlOOkeR | BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA [18 Apr 2004|07:55pm]
Suicide isn't so bad, give it a chance.

Thinking about suicide but you're not sure if it's the right thing to do? Here are some tips to help you decide whether or not killing yourself is a good choice:

1. Do you live at home but your parents are always making you clean your room and do your homework? It's a sure sign that they don't love you and that they want you to kill yourself. Why else would they make you clean your room? What are they going to do next, ground you? Make you wear braces? Don't kid yourself, the message is clear.

2. If you just got out of a bad relationship and you feel like things are never going to get better; you're right. Everyone knows that suicide is the only option, stop procrastinating. Look on the bright side, at least your ex will feel guilty for a couple of minutes--but don't count on it.

3. Depressed? Don't have any friends? I guess nobody told you, but being depressed and feeling lonely isn't normal. Everyone else is happy, and has lots of friends so there must be something wrong with you. Put the prozac away, what you need is rat poison.

4. Spill a drink at a party? Drop a plate of food in a restaurant? Nobody else has to live with that kind of embarrassment; you know what you have to do.

5. Flunked out of college? Don't know algebra? Here's a question you should know the answer to: Flunked out of college + Don't know algebra = Time for _____. Chances are you still don't know the answer, so here's a hint: it starts with an 's' and ends in 'uicide'.

6. Traffic jam? Sometimes bad luck isn't a coincidence. Do you really want to sit in traffic for another half hour? Look on the bright side, if you're a viking you'll be going to Valhalla. Then again, you're probably not, but eternal damnation in hell is probably the next best thing.

7. Telemarketers keep calling? It's easier to hang yourself than to get rid of a telemarketer, am I wrong? If you're lucky, Home Depot might be having a sale on rope. After all, you don't want to die letting people think you weren't frugal.

8. Flu? You realize that there's no cure for the flu, right? Well, no cure that doesn't involve painting the wall with your brains.

9. Flat tire? Do I have to spell it out for you?

10. College application get rejected? Take the hint.

Hope you found this guide helpful, mention it in your suicide note. On second thought, why bother? Nobody will read it.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[18 Apr 2004|07:36pm]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | ::delirium trigger::coheed and cambria:: ]

R.I.P. ALEX



damn...im really getting sick of people dying. this is like..the 6th person this year that ive known. shit. today sucked anyways and it just got worse. wow. i dont even know what to say. i wasnt good friends with him and all..but i know him..and i know amelia is guna like..kill herself over this. shit. tomorrows just guna be so fucking fun. bye.

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[10 Apr 2004|09:23pm]
[ mood | shitty ]

::DIAMONDS AND GUNS::THE TRANSPLANTS::
Taken more shots than Carl Malone
Battle looms, your doom, injustice entombed
Who got the diamonds? Who gonna find them?
Who gonna find them when the time comes?
Diamonds and Guns, Diamonds and Guns

[chorus:]
it's a wicked world that we live in it's cruel
and unforgiving
it's a wicked world that we live in it's cruel
and unforgiving

Knock, knock, knock, who's that? It's Momma, son
Lookin' for the bitch who took the money and run
Now the daylight's gone and there's no more fun
And who's the fuckin' bitch who stole all the heroin?
Heroin, heroin, it's all gone
Smoked it all up, and now you got none
And now you look around and that's not the plan
This is not what you had in mind

I shot in heaven, now I cry
No one lives forever, in fact we all die
From those who bust shots to those who stuff cops
To those who serve rocks on all the hard blocks
Every last soul must pay the last toll
In the dice game of life, who gets the last roll?
Is it the one with the suit? The one with the sack?
The one who hides behind his fuckin' gun and his badge?
Negative outlook? Well that's how I'm livin'
And like he said, it's a wicked world we live in
It's a wicked world we live in

I'm wiggin out, flippin' out, heart is what I'm rippin' out
I'm slippin' out, I'm dippin' out, killin's what I'm livin' out
Pick 'em, let me pick 'em out, spin and let me whip it out
Gat to your face with the fuckin' bullets stickin' out
Missin' out, diss and bout, blood's what you're pissin' out
84 I'm crazy Crazy Horse, shootin' up, I'm illin' out
Rippin' out, I'm trippin' out, different now, I'm pimpin' out
any color at my belt and ouch while theyre clippin out
Criminal I'm hittin' out, in L.A. no gettin' out
2 1 3, pack your P, fly wicked style
Listen now, I'm sinnin' out, a 6-pack I'm sippin' out
[chorus]

::WONDERWALL::OASIS::
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you shoulda somehow realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
Back beat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is
out
I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day but they'll never throw it back to you
By now you shoulda somehow realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

::BLISTER IN THE SUN::VIOLENT FEMMES::
When i'm out walking i strut my stuff yeah i'm so strung out
I'm high as a kite i just might stop to check you out
Let me go on like i blister in the sun
Let me go on big hands i know your the one
Body and beats i stain my sheets i don't even know why
My girlfriend she's at the end she is starting to cry
Let me go on like i blister in the sun
Let me go on big hands i know your the one...

::THE MAN WHO SOLD THE WORLD::DAVID BOWIE::
We passed upon the stair, we spoke of was and when
Although i wasn't there, he said i was his friend
Which came as some surprise i spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone, a long long time ago
Oh no, not me
I never lost control
You're face to face
With the man who sold the world
I laughed and shook his hand, and made my way back home
I searched for form and land, for years and years i roamed
I gazed a gazely stare at all the millions here
We must have died along, a long long time ago
Who knows? not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the man who sold the world
Who knows? not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the man who sold the world

::JESUS DOESNT WANT ME FOR A SUNBEAM::THE VASELINES::
Jesus, don't want me for a sunbeam
Sunbeams are not made like me
Don't expect me to cry,
For wrong reasons, you have to die
Don't ever ask it out of me.
Don't expect me to lie
Don't expect me to lie
Don't expect me to die, for me.

::YOU KNOW YOU'RE RIGHT::NIRVANA::
I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good
I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put in to this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain 3x
You Know your Right 3x
I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let’s talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew to come like this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain 5x
You know Your Right 17x
Pain 1x

(BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

[08 Apr 2004|02:17pm]
[ mood | ...miserable... ]
[ music | ::cursive::the ugly organist:: ]

hold me not
let me go
with nothing there
it cannot flow
giving up
we'll never know
so hold me not
then let me go

....dont know why i wrote this but yahhhhj


::::shakespeare quote::::
when someone was asking how his days were he said
"not having that which having makes them short"
translation:i am miserable because i do not have that thing which would make my time go by so very quickly"
((dont know how they got a 20 word translation out of 8 words..but SO BE IT!!!))

(1 OnlOOkeR | BreAKinG ThE HabIt bY mYseLF)

::FOR YOU::SMILE EMPTY SOUL:: holy shit i LOVE these lyrics!!!! [04 Apr 2004|07:41pm]
i waited for you
i died inside my own head
and i'd die again for you

i'm faded and tired
completely uninspired
and i'd die again for you

so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed


i'm searching for reasons
to keep away the demons
and i'd die again for you

i wish you were near me
could feel it when you hear me say
i'd die again for you

so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed

you wanted me to crawl so now i'm on my knees

why's it always have to be me
that's always left out to burn and
i'll never learn

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