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| 02:03pm 22/10/2003 |
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today i had my boring classes but they went alright. i actually saw rach and andrea before school this morning and talked to them.. i usually just go to art before the bell bc i only have like 5 minutes usually anyways but today i talked to them. then i went to first period and got my report card and i got a 4.0 indeed.. ouu yes i am so smart lol. i havent had that since like 5th grade for real lol. and i know ill be able to get like a 4.2 by next time since i have those honors classes.. i keep forgetting to talk to mrs. kerkela like everyday about getting moved out of psych into philosophy or something. and on friday i have a meeting for dual enrollment at cfcc for next semester. after school i went by the rag shop for andrea. now im here. matt might call me in a little i guess. today at lunch i saw this girl tracy that i havent seen in a long time and she dyed her hair and i love it so much it has like reddish highlights in it but little ones and its so cute she said she did it herself w/like herbal essence stuff and its what i wanna do.. and since i have money i wanna buy it and do it. but not exactly like her bc i dont want to copy that much but yeah. its just really cute. so anyways today i get paid yay. i need to pick that up, go tanning still, get w/kath hopefully and do our senior page and hang out maybe, or maybe hang w/leah, and call gordy sometime. hopefully this weekend will be fun. hm.. i think im going to volunteer just bc it would make me be more grateful for the things i have and be nice and stuff. like my english teacher does this stuff and some people in my class do it w/her.. id like to. i probably will. but yeah i hope i continue to feel better and unweird and stuff. well then i suppose im going to go.....byebye. |
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| 01:13pm 20/10/2003 |
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well i woke up to matts call at about 12:30 but i just got out of bed. my long weekend has consisted of.. work, work, work. and pretty much nothing else at all. its sucked bc i just wish i had something to do when i got off work but its too late for alot of people so yes ive just been working. and for like the past week the days ive seen matt its only been for like an hour at the most and i didnt at all yesterday so i was glad today that i could see him for awhile bc we both had nothing to do but it figures that for the past sundays ive had things to do and he just sat at home and did nothing but the one sunday i have nothing to do he has to go play tennis and go shopping. and i wont see him tomorrow either. but whatever. i just knew it would happen like that bc things usually turn out like that for me. but whatever. i could do my page w/kath but i dont feel like it now. last nite i did a catering for some guys 40th birthday.. it was so boring and dumb. i just sat and watched a bunch of drunk middle aged people act like retards.. id much rather be working in the restaurant. well my mom is being mean again . i swear everyone is so freakin defensive over nothing. people annoy me so much. im so fed up. i just want to see matt or something but i probably wont for like 4 hours. if i lay down anymore ill have a headache. i hate this. |
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| 10:29pm 16/10/2003 |
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all hope seems to be lost.
i too often see no point in life. |
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| 10:29pm 16/10/2003 |
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all hope seems to be lost.
i too often see no point in life. |
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| 03:48pm 15/10/2003 |
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mood: annoyed music: bright eyes
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bored as usual. today art, psychology. got dropped off. went tanning and then matt came over.. it ends up i dont have to cover for kath bc she wasnt schedualed to work tonite... thats good bc i really dont feel like going. tj is here soo cute. yeah so i have a 4.0 woo yay. lol i havent had that since like 5th grade. im so surprised i have a good grade in psych bc i seriously like dont study at all and its an ap class.
today we voted for homecoming court.. i could have been on the list if i told some people to vote for me bc you only need 3 nominations to be on the list but the 2 days that people were nominating i was in a really bummed out mood and didnt care.. but oh well. i might go to halloween horror nights on friday w/matt and some other people.. ill ask my boss about getting off work but if i cant oh well i guess i just wont go. my mom pisses me off so much i swear to god. shes so very annoying i wish she would go out of town or something.. i wish she did that for a job instead of my dad. i have nothing to do today.. i guess maybe ill return my pants to the gap or whatever and get my paycheck or something.. i dunno. oh well . maybe ill get w/kathleen and make our senior ad thing. |
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| im myself wowww |
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| 10:36pm 14/10/2003 |
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You are DESIREE!!You are one KRAZY person..You like
KRAZY music..non-stop screaming preferably..and
you are too deep to understand!!
Which one of my PEOPLEZ ARE YOU?
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 03:36pm 14/10/2003 |
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im bored and about to go get my pictures taken for c/c... nothingtosaynothingtosay. yesterday i saw school of rock.. it was alright. kind of cute. i need to return my pants to the gap bc im a poor mofo and i need the money but i get payed tomorrow so yayy.. |
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| 07:21pm 07/10/2003 |
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wellwell today i woke up and got ready for school and on the way there since we were early i drove to bk and ran in to get meself a crosant and while in there i decided to get my brother cini-minis since he likes them and my mom was yelling at him so he felt bad so i bought him some and he was surprised and happy..aww im so nice lol. it made me feel good though. so then i went to school and walked right to art so i could eat my food there then the bell rang and i reliezed that i forgot my ebony pencil and my picture i was drawing so i decided that i really wasnt gonna work too much on my art that period.. instead i read some of the book matt bought me and some psych.. then went to the oh so boring psychology class which i really wanna get moved out of now. then i left there and went to the bank to get my check cashed, and work to get my cde thing filled out, then ciccios to meet kathy to eat and me, her, and these 2 other people ate lunch there then i went tanning, came home, talked to matt. and went to leahs and we hung out.. now im here and in a rush. my mom is gonna come home and yell at me bc shes crazy. hopefully i wont get too upset. im gonna go byee. |
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| 11:07pm 06/10/2003 |
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mood:  happy music: some classical stuff on tv
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woke up and got ready for church. found out our new pastor was going to be a lady, different and cool. then we had a potluck meal there hah not too good.. but oh well. then i came home and talked to matt and kathy and took a shower then kath picked me up and we went to gainesville to look for homecoming dresses.. ended up being there like all day but it was fun. we both found dresses.. mine was 60 dollars, more than i wanted to spend for a dress that im not totally "in love" with. but oh well. its pretty anyways and hers is cute too. then i came home and got here about 6 and called matt tons of times bc i can hardly see him tomorrows week bc he works alot and i do and i have dance and all and today was like the one day he was free so like all day i was looking forward to coming home and being w/him and he thought i was gonna be back earlier but i just couldnt make it home that early so i got home and called him alot and called david and tryed to figure out what he was doing and he finally called me and was like "yeah im on 200 i went to the mall and maui teriaki and im on my way to your house" and im like "you went out to eat by yourself" and hes like "yeah" so okay then he came here and it ended up that he didnt even go to the mall or to eat at all he just went to the bookstore and bought me a book from this author that i told him that i really wanted to get some books from. and he did it for like no occasion or anything and like i wasnt mad at him and he wasnt saying sorry for anything he just decided to go and buy me a book bc he was thinking about me and bc he knew that i wanted it. thats so sweet and nice i think. i was sad about only being able to see him for like an hour and a half bc it was so late by the time he got there but at soon as i saw him and that he was so sweet to think of me and get me something for reason and how nice he was acting i just felt totally better. he ended up staying an hour later tonite since he didnt get over till later. and we hung out for a bit here then went and picked up a pizza and came back and watched some dumb, weird, old movie here.. then he went home. i read some of the book he got me and now im here. im really happy that i can get my hair dyed and cut finally whenever i make an appointment.. i have to get muh granny to give me money for the dress.. and pay kath back for helpin.. and then muh hair and give my mom 20-30 and then get payed again on tuesday and eventully buy halloween horror tics sometime which will be lots of funn.. well im gonna go now. byebye. |
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| 04:56pm 05/10/2003 |
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mood: bored music: sparta. havent listened in 4ever makes me all nostalgic
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wellwell.. today was a very long day at work. i woke up late (at 8:20) and i still had to take a shower and be at work by 9.. which i managed to do thank god my job isnt far away.. BUT i got pulled over on the way there. my god was i nervous. it was for not totally stopping at a stop sign but i didnt get a ticket just a warning. praise god.. if i would have gotten a ticket i would have had my car taken away from me.. and i was just in a real big rush. i like started freaking out after the cop drove away just bc like i was so stressed out and rushed and like scared from being pulled over and i just like started to cry and kind of shake lol.. it was weird. but when i got there chris wasnt even there yet so i walked to bk and got breakfast since i didnt have time to before and then talked to sarah, tara, and the new girl kim. then we opened the restaurant and matt came lol.. it was funny bc he drove us all around for like 3 hours and dropped us off on corners to pass out flyers like he was our pimp or something.. in his big red van. today went by so slow but it was pretty fun. then we came back and me and sarah ate some free food then i got home and laura called me and i havent talked to her in forever. it sounds so cool in providence i wish my parents would let me fly on my own bc i could get money for a plane ticket and id love to go up there and visit her. then i called matt who was supposed to be off work at 3 but i guess not, then rach and andrea who didnt answer.. so i slept for a little then got online and kath called. so i talked to her for a bit then rach finally. then have the ladycat party tonite. and im just bored out of my mind waiting for matt for something to do.. i kind of feel like i miss him alot right now for some reason. even though today was long it was still pretty fun. im liking my job more and last nite joe said he could really see alot of improvment in me which is good. this is a long and boring entry about dumb little daily events but oh well. it sucks bc kathy worked like 11-4 then had to go back for 5-c.. sucks for her. i cant wait till halloween horror nights.. its gonna be funn....... i finally got my paycheck last nite. yay.. i heard some funny and disgusting news about some girl at work last nite and some guy.. haha that is probably gonna get them fired. this girl is totally insane its crazy. well im gonna go now i guess.. byebye.
i took a bunch of quizzes but dont feel like posting the results in here... and i also made one on quizilla woohoo! i officially have NO life!
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| 10:52pm 03/10/2003 |
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mood:  apathetic music: clinic
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was okay...... school, tanning, matt. then he left for band practice and i went and picked up andrea and kath came over to get us and we went to the college and career expo at cfcc for extra credit for english.. it was interesting. then kath dropped me and andrea back at my house bc she had dance so me and andreas went to ciccios to eat and kathleen came in and had decided not to go to dance so we all ate together. it was fun and a nice thing to do for a change. i wish i was better at art i seriously like try pretty hard and like practice and stuff.. oh well. so yeah then andrea went home and im home again where i took a shower finally which was good bc i felt gross.. sometimes i miss the past. i dread work tomorrow. i have an interview monday downtown for graphic and web page design type stuff.. ill see how that goes. i hope i dont feel weird tonite. byebye. |
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| 07:51pm 01/10/2003 |
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mood: okay music: spongbob
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today school wasnt too bad. i went to art and that class is always nice then psych where for the first 30 min before lunch it was just me and 4 other people in there and we all just talked about whatever and did no work. then after lunch we had discussions about the articles on sleep and drugs that people brought in. then after that i went straight home and i talked to matt and he came over for a bit and we watched the video we made from the wedding then i rode w/him to pick his mom up and take her to work. then we came back to my house for about an hour then i had to go to jervy gant for c/c. it was a nice day today and my time was 30:11 i think. my best time is 29:26 or something. which i got the time before last.. last time i got like 30:38 so i did better than last time but not as good as my best. but oh well.. then i went to winn dixie w/my mom and teej to get some groceries then to tan.. i was so tired from being busy all day that i kept falling asleep in the bed.. lol. then i went by my work and talked to my manager for a bit about things.. i need to be more confident in myself or something. i think he thinks i have only one parent for some reason which makes me feel bad.. i need to talk to him about it. so yeah after talking for awhile i came home and ate pizza and cajun bread sticks mm. today at lunch me and rach talked w/dallas.. i havent talked to her in forever and it was interesting to her whats been going on w/her and all. i cant wait to go get my pics taken again.. im such a camera whore lol. still havent talked to leah in forever.. weird,weird, weird. well im off.
i wish that i could make something for art that could be in FAFO i would be so proud! i dont know if im good enough though but ill talk to mr. y about it tomorrow.. byee. |
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| 04:31pm 30/09/2003 |
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mood: content music: thursday
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tj is "talking" soo muCH!! its absolutely adorable i have to hurry up and write in this so i can film him. i ran 2 1/2 miles today for c/c and had so much energy the whole time and could breath well and was even talking to kath like the whole time. i guess it was bc of the weather.. it was perfect nice and cool breezes and a nice overcast w/no bright sunshine.. lol yay.. matts on his way to work i cant see him today.. ohh well im off now.
i also got a 5th place ribbon for my meet last thursday todAY! |
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| 02:21pm 29/09/2003 |
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hello all. tis sunday.. i am bored. i woke up and felt so confused for some reason lol. like a minute after i woke up my dad walked in to put some gum he bought me on my dresser and i looked him and said "omg im so confused!" and he looked at me really worried and i was like "im so confused!! ahh its ok dont worry about it." and he left and i had like no idea like what was going on i dunno.. maybe its bc i slept like 12 and a half hours and its been forever since i slept that long. i dunno. yesterday i went to work early and stood out by the road waving to cars and holding up signs w/sarah lol.. it was raining some and we felt like dumbasses but it was okay. i had some mozerella sticks w/red sauce from work for the second time mmm they are SO good!! i want some now.. lol. then after than i went tanning then home and slept till it was time for me to get ready to go to a wedding. matts mom came and got me and we went by staples then there and matt had just gotten there. it was like their family friend and also matts old guitar teacher and guy he plays tennis w/ wedding. his names dave. it was in his backyard but it was still really pretty and nice. they had a bunch of sushi and stuff bc the girl, miki, is from japan. lol it was fun. then me and matt left and he went by his house to change then back to my house where we ate blah. today is our 1 year anniversay woww..
thats crazyyyy. ive never gone out w/someone this long before and wow how things have changed. everything has from the things we do together, the people we hang out w/, and we are alot more comfortable around each other now. i wonder what we'll be like in another year, how different we'll be if we are still together. its weird.
but yesyes back to the present day..
i ate weird food today i woke up and got some cookie dough and when i was looking at the coke cans in my fridge i thought of leah bc she always has so many cans of coke in her fridge and i remembered that i had a dream of her last nite and i started to miss hanging out w/her alot (its been over 2 months) so i went in my room and called her and she wasnt home and then my mom told me that she called last nite which is weird bc she hasnt in forever and i was just thinking of her and i didnt even know that. but yeah and i also ate pumpkin seeds and sweettarts which im not too crazy of and havent had in forever today. and i want to make a salad and eat some more food but im not going to bc i dont even feel hungry although i wish i did bc a salad sounds really good.. mm.
im in a really talkative mood i guess bc this is pretty long.
im glad i started to tan again yay. tan bodies look so much nicer.
i need to take a shower then maybe ill feel hungry. matt was so happy last nite bc steve morris played at the wedding and matt didnt even know he was gonna be there. lol. well im gonna go hopefully my day will go up. |
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| 10:42pm 26/09/2003 |
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yo bitchezz.
im in a good mood.
not sure why.
today went to school. tanned, dollar store, washed car, cooked, played w/tj, matt came over, ate, saw cold creek manor (soo stupid), mcdonalds, home, eat, shower, here.
-fin.
byebye kiddiess... |
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| 03:04pm 22/09/2003 |
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well lets see.. what have i been up to lately.. yesterday i woke up early and went to work at 9. it was easy me and sarah just had to put fliers on everyones car at these soccer games and deliver pizzas to the consession stand there and do the same at another sports complex place.. then we went back to ciccios ate some free lunch and left. then i came home and rested for awhile then matt came over we hung out and then went and saw 'underworld' w/david which was alright.. not as good as it could have been though. then me and matt drove downtown to check out this show but we walked in and were there for like not long at all then left. we went by walmart to pick up some stuff for his mom and some food bc i was soo hungry then back to my house once again. and today i just went to church and then to eat w/my grandma, nick, teresa, melissa, terrel, and t.j. at scrambles or scramblers..? whatever its called. it was good. then i came home and went swimming and layed out for a bit then started to run but i only got like down my rode then my dad wanted to go in bc it was starting to rain. so here i am now and i was gonna get online to do my hw but i felt like doing this first. yay its almost tuesday and i get paid... i hope i continue to like my job and feel better. well im off byebye. |
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| 02:36pm 20/09/2003 |
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i just played w/tj for about an hour and hes soo cute now.. i love when he smiles and gets all excited and trys to talkkk mmm yay. babys like that from 3-months and up make me feel so happy. its like medicine for muh soul lol. im drinkin that tazo tea i love mm w/some vegan banana nut bread. soo good. aw hes crying now. its so sad when babies cry i cant imagine what it would be like to see someone like abuse a baby.. thats absolutely horrible my god i would get so upset. well im off now. looks like i cant go to the cross country 'party' today bc i have no ride.. howsadhowsaddd.. byebye now and i hope i dont have to workkkk!! |
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| 10:47pm 19/09/2003 |
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wellll welll.. today i went to school art then psych test. home and rested yayy felt soso nicee... then i woke up to meet at jurvy gant for my c/c meet at 3:30 it was against lake weir.. i dont know if we won yet. BUT i increased my time by 6 minutes!! thats soo mucH! yayay.. it was 3.2 miles or 5k ya know.. last time i ran that it was like cool and nice and windy outside and i got like 34 or something and this time it was like the afternoon and soo hot and i still did that much better! i got 29:26 i believe thats it.. around there give or take a second. so i did really good i was surprised and really proud of myself bc ive also like not practiced all week or hardly at all and i did as good as some of the people that have been taking since they were like freshmens.. just imagine what i could do if i practiced more.. so then i came home and matt came over for like um an hour or so then kath picked me up and we went to her hip hop class which was SO much fuN!! i wanna join it... its so laid back, easy going, and funny w/all the ghetto booty dancing stuff.. lol. then afterwards kath, skyler, matt, and me went to wendys. then matt dropped me off and im here now.. today was okay but i felt bad when matt dropped me off for some reason. i so hope that work doesnt call me in tomorrow bc im really looking forward to not having to work. i want to see underworld and do other stuff lol... well im off. |
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yo. dont know what to write. i need to study psych. test tomorrow. i swear every week its stuffstuffstuff~ monday- cross country, tuesday- work, wednesday- dance, thursday- cross country, friday- work, sat- work. when im bored im sad about having nothing to do and when im busy i wish i had time off. this somewhat busy schedual i have now is better than having nothing to do i guess but where is that happy medium? i need some more good times. i see so many cute clothes and wonder where people buy them from. i wish i could make cute clothes on my own. i have so many ideas. art class is the one thing i look forward to. im not that great but i still enjoy it.. its a calming thing to just sit and draw. i need more friends.
i like these::
*Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers and laid
entwined together on a bed of clover and left there to sleep,
left there to dream of their happiness.
*Soon all the joy that pours from everything makes fountains of your eyes because you
finally understand the movement of a hand waving you goodbye.
gnite.
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