: Mmmk...
So i guess that things are better now. And that's good cause i dont deal with sadness very well...or anything like that. I dunno...things just still dont feel right though. But i love Jade and Brandy!!! They're awesome, and so that's cool. But..i dunno about anything else....im just...confused maybe. Yea, i guess that oculd be a word for it. I just feel SoOoOoO lost and lonely. Dont get me wrong, i love all my friends to death cause they're the best, just, yea...i dunno. I just feel really lonely and like i dont have anyone to talk to that would understand things...and im just so lost. Its not cool and i dont like this feeling, but i suppose i should get used to it cause that's the way its been and that's the way it'll probably be for a while. I dont like feeling this way, i really dont. But i dunno what i can do about it...so i try and keep myself busy with other things...but those other things dont seem to exist. Then i try and think about other things...but somehow, my thoughts AlWaYs come back to the same thing...and i dont like thinking about it. but its like its inevitable...and so tomorrow should be fun-a whole 3 miles of me thinking about it and not concentrating on my race like i should be...but that wont happen. And just yea....i dont like this. --and id give up forever to touch you, or to know that you feel the same way, you're the closest to heaven that ive ever been and i dont wanna go home right now-and all i can taste is this moment and all i can breathe is your life, and sooner or later its over, i just dont wanna miss you right now...--i really like that song. But its sad and it makes me think, and that i dont like. I just..i dont even feel like myself anymore and thats something i really dont like.
Enough of the sad stuff though because i really dont even wanna think about any of that anymore. So...last night, Feffula, Gina and me went to see Ron White-hilarious. And it was really good to see them. And so then Aunt Emily called me after school today and i was getting off the phone with her and Feffula and Mal walked in and they're staying here this weekend. So thats exciting, but i probably wont get to see her all that much or talk to her...so that sucks too and thats another sadness....so im done with that
Other than that..theres nothing else really to say thats not a sadness...so i guess thats it..
-steph
So i guess that things are better now. And that's good cause i dont deal with sadness very well...or anything like that. I dunno...things just still dont feel right though. But i love Jade and Brandy!!! They're awesome, and so that's cool. But..i dunno about anything else....im just...confused maybe. Yea, i guess that oculd be a word for it. I just feel SoOoOoO lost and lonely. Dont get me wrong, i love all my friends to death cause they're the best, just, yea...i dunno. I just feel really lonely and like i dont have anyone to talk to that would understand things...and im just so lost. Its not cool and i dont like this feeling, but i suppose i should get used to it cause that's the way its been and that's the way it'll probably be for a while. I dont like feeling this way, i really dont. But i dunno what i can do about it...so i try and keep myself busy with other things...but those other things dont seem to exist. Then i try and think about other things...but somehow, my thoughts AlWaYs come back to the same thing...and i dont like thinking about it. but its like its inevitable...and so tomorrow should be fun-a whole 3 miles of me thinking about it and not concentrating on my race like i should be...but that wont happen. And just yea....i dont like this. --and id give up forever to touch you, or to know that you feel the same way, you're the closest to heaven that ive ever been and i dont wanna go home right now-and all i can taste is this moment and all i can breathe is your life, and sooner or later its over, i just dont wanna miss you right now...--i really like that song. But its sad and it makes me think, and that i dont like. I just..i dont even feel like myself anymore and thats something i really dont like.
Enough of the sad stuff though because i really dont even wanna think about any of that anymore. So...last night, Feffula, Gina and me went to see Ron White-hilarious. And it was really good to see them. And so then Aunt Emily called me after school today and i was getting off the phone with her and Feffula and Mal walked in and they're staying here this weekend. So thats exciting, but i probably wont get to see her all that much or talk to her...so that sucks too and thats another sadness....so im done with that
Other than that..theres nothing else really to say thats not a sadness...so i guess thats it..
-steph
Current Mood: 
lonely
lonelyCurrent Music: Over and Over-Nelly and Tim McGraw