Froolie

5:22pm: ugh...
I feel SO ugly today. I really do-my hair is pissing me off!! It's so damn wavy and it pisses me off-i hate it-i wanna cut if off....but i look SOOO bad with short hair-refer to 4th grade picture-Tony knows that...so i can't cut it off-but it pisses me off cause it's so damn stupid and it looks like shit! And then i just feel like a beached whale...i feel fat and ugly and i just feel really bad about myself right now. I dont know why...no one said anything to make me feel this way, i just do. And i just am in a really NOT good mood right now and im starting to cry...soemone should really just find a box for me to go in, then shut it all up and throw it into the ocean so no one would ever have to see my ugliness again! i hate myself...i hate everything about myself. i dont know what my problem is...but i really dont like it...and on top of all that...feffula has decided that she doesn't need to spend time at home anymore, and she's always gone...and she's leaving once again...even though she's leaving in a month for college...but that doesn't matter. i just wont see her anymore and everything will be shit. that's wonderful...just fuckin wonderful. im going