Froolie

9:54pm: omg...
So...tonight's gonna be one of those nights where i just cry myself to sleep...i went to flushing today. We went to have dinner at Babbo's and then we went to the Nightshades concert-but before that we went to the cemetery. And i dont know, but i just got REALLY sad...and i was hoping that Tony would be able to come, but he couldn't, so i didn't get to see him which really kinda sucked like a whole lot. But on the way home, Feffula and me were talking about mom and i just got REALLY upset and i came home and i just cried...and i went for a walk outside, and cried. And i tried to call Ricco to talk to him, cause i figured he'd make me feel better...but i got the answering machine, so i didn't get to talk to him. And so i feel still like shit. And tomorrow-i have to go to Roxi's family reunion, and i really don't wanna go. I dont talk to anybody up there and i always feel SOO outta place, and Feffula has to work all weekend, so she won't be going up there with me...so i get to be by myself, and im really not looking forward to it, and im just in such a bad mood right now, and i just can't stop crying-i can't pull it together for even like...5 minutes-it really sucks. And i just omg...i dont wanna go and i miss mom so much! And here i go again....crying-isn't that just wonderful....yea-no, definitely NOT! just omg....i just i wanna go lay in the rain...yes, i am weird, i do realize this but what the hell ever. it would make me happy...and really, i dont have too many sources of happiness anymore...thinking about it-i have maybe.....2?!? I just ugh! seriously...i dont even know, but i just feel like complete and total SHIT right now...and just forget everything-seriously.