: i hate this...
Ok...so yesterday-i was really upset cause STUPID me went to Flushing's high school's website and omg-this place sucks. I hate it here so much!! And yea-i had a REALLY long entry all typed out and the damn computer froze..it pissed me off. And again today-im in one of those moods where i just wanna go back to Flushing and i just remember everything....:-/. i just, i hate it here so much. I had everything i wanted in Flushing. And now, i have like...none of that. And i just kept thinking about everything and being there didn't really help all taht much. Like-we drove past my oldhouse two times...and OMG!!! Ok-my backyard is split up into like...3 sections and there are houses where i used to mow. I used to be on the tractor and pretend i was a bus driver and i drove all back inthe pine trees and stuff.....and now-there are houses there. And the woods that used to be next to our house-cut down and theres another house going up there. And wow....we drove past Seymour too....and the memories came back...especially ones from Santa's workshop-4th grade...i'll never forget that. That was when-grooossssss-andy, and yea...he bought me this hideous Santa hat and Tony bought me this keychain..and i stil lhave it. And Andy-what the hell was i thinking?!? To chose him over TONY-what is that?!? yea-that's me being REALLY stupid! And then...i liked Tony so muchand of course i remember singing My Heart Will Go On and not being able to stop looking at him. I'd always call him when i was upset and id talk to him for hours and hours and id always feel better. And we always had something to talk about too...and when i called him-i didnt even recognize his voice-it was crazy. And just wow...Then of course i had to call him when i found out i had Mr. Schlemmer for 5th grade, and he was the first person i told and i was so excited cause he was in my class. And i remember i was talking to him in the basement. And then, a couple weeks later, i had to call him and tell him i was moving-and of course i was balling my eyes out! And then to be even more stupid-i put in the cancer interview show and started crying even more and he kept telling me that it was ok. Then i remember i called him from Sam's house just after school started, and he called me a fucker and hung up on me. That was the lsat time that i talked to him for like....4 years! And then i wrote him-he's the only person that i wrote to...and i gave him my sn, and then one day he imed me and we talked for a little bit and then i didn't talk to him for like, another year and then again for another year, and now yea...! I dont know-i just.....i miss Flushing so much and everything about it. I miss swimming every day...waking up at frikkin 6:30 to ride our bikes to the pool to swim laps....we were crazy but i loved it so much! that was my life-i lived at the pool! We knew all the lifeguards and we'd always get to stay in the pool between sessions and we'd always go up in their office, we never had to pay to get in, we'd eat lunch with them-just everything. We were so close to all of them! And now..i know...3 of them-and i swam on the team with two of them. I just...wow...i still can't believe how close i was to Mallory. And like-if i were still swimming on a team now-damn. But of course-this shitass town doesn't have a team. We'd rather waste our money on heated sidewalks. What the hell is that?!?! I mean-seriously. I HATE THIS FUCKIN TOWN!!!! I wanna go back to Flushing...i love it there! That's where i wanna live when i grow up-either there or Manistee...i wanna move in with Babbo the summer before my senior year and i wanna get a job there....no-i wanna just live with her my senior year cause really, i have maybe...3 realy close friends from here that id graduate with..in Flushing, i mean sure, i haven't really talked to that many people-but still-id rather just go there. I can't take anymore of this town. It's so shitty and i just-i HATE it. And i hate where we live-i mean-i am SO sick of looking at the same damn thing every single day, of course in Flushing, it's not like the scenery changed-but at least i ccould get outta the house and go into town or to the pool...and even being at home was fine with me. Now-i just can't wait to get away. I miss that place so much and everything about it. My friends were there, my family was there, the pool was there, just everything........
Ok...so yesterday-i was really upset cause STUPID me went to Flushing's high school's website and omg-this place sucks. I hate it here so much!! And yea-i had a REALLY long entry all typed out and the damn computer froze..it pissed me off. And again today-im in one of those moods where i just wanna go back to Flushing and i just remember everything....:-/. i just, i hate it here so much. I had everything i wanted in Flushing. And now, i have like...none of that. And i just kept thinking about everything and being there didn't really help all taht much. Like-we drove past my oldhouse two times...and OMG!!! Ok-my backyard is split up into like...3 sections and there are houses where i used to mow. I used to be on the tractor and pretend i was a bus driver and i drove all back inthe pine trees and stuff.....and now-there are houses there. And the woods that used to be next to our house-cut down and theres another house going up there. And wow....we drove past Seymour too....and the memories came back...especially ones from Santa's workshop-4th grade...i'll never forget that. That was when-grooossssss-andy, and yea...he bought me this hideous Santa hat and Tony bought me this keychain..and i stil lhave it. And Andy-what the hell was i thinking?!? To chose him over TONY-what is that?!? yea-that's me being REALLY stupid! And then...i liked Tony so muchand of course i remember singing My Heart Will Go On and not being able to stop looking at him. I'd always call him when i was upset and id talk to him for hours and hours and id always feel better. And we always had something to talk about too...and when i called him-i didnt even recognize his voice-it was crazy. And just wow...Then of course i had to call him when i found out i had Mr. Schlemmer for 5th grade, and he was the first person i told and i was so excited cause he was in my class. And i remember i was talking to him in the basement. And then, a couple weeks later, i had to call him and tell him i was moving-and of course i was balling my eyes out! And then to be even more stupid-i put in the cancer interview show and started crying even more and he kept telling me that it was ok. Then i remember i called him from Sam's house just after school started, and he called me a fucker and hung up on me. That was the lsat time that i talked to him for like....4 years! And then i wrote him-he's the only person that i wrote to...and i gave him my sn, and then one day he imed me and we talked for a little bit and then i didn't talk to him for like, another year and then again for another year, and now yea...! I dont know-i just.....i miss Flushing so much and everything about it. I miss swimming every day...waking up at frikkin 6:30 to ride our bikes to the pool to swim laps....we were crazy but i loved it so much! that was my life-i lived at the pool! We knew all the lifeguards and we'd always get to stay in the pool between sessions and we'd always go up in their office, we never had to pay to get in, we'd eat lunch with them-just everything. We were so close to all of them! And now..i know...3 of them-and i swam on the team with two of them. I just...wow...i still can't believe how close i was to Mallory. And like-if i were still swimming on a team now-damn. But of course-this shitass town doesn't have a team. We'd rather waste our money on heated sidewalks. What the hell is that?!?! I mean-seriously. I HATE THIS FUCKIN TOWN!!!! I wanna go back to Flushing...i love it there! That's where i wanna live when i grow up-either there or Manistee...i wanna move in with Babbo the summer before my senior year and i wanna get a job there....no-i wanna just live with her my senior year cause really, i have maybe...3 realy close friends from here that id graduate with..in Flushing, i mean sure, i haven't really talked to that many people-but still-id rather just go there. I can't take anymore of this town. It's so shitty and i just-i HATE it. And i hate where we live-i mean-i am SO sick of looking at the same damn thing every single day, of course in Flushing, it's not like the scenery changed-but at least i ccould get outta the house and go into town or to the pool...and even being at home was fine with me. Now-i just can't wait to get away. I miss that place so much and everything about it. My friends were there, my family was there, the pool was there, just everything........
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sadCurrent Music: My Heart Will Go On-takin it back to good days in Flushing