Froolie

10:25pm: FUCK
i just wanna scream at the top of my lungs right now. i feel like SHIT! OMG!!!!! I just....ugh! I dont even know how to describe how im feeling right now...cause there are too many things. I talked to Victor and found some stuff out. It was good but bad. And just knowing that...just fucking SUCKS!!!! And of course,i just had to start thinking about it all and get all blah...and then i came down here again and i started talking to Victor. And then he sent me this picture of this girl...kayli...i am DAMN ugly!! Then he decides to send me this picture of these two girls from mp that he hangs out with. Yea....even uglier now. And i just feel like complete and total shit about myself right now. and everything right now is just shit. i wanna get outta here and go somewhere that i actually feel wanted cause i sure as hell dont here. I dont know whats wrong with me-i just feel like shit. Like im not good enough and just FUCK! i just wanna scream at the top of my lungs............but at the same time, i just feel like breaking down. i dont even know what to do anymore...what to think...what to feel. i feel like i could die rright now and it wouldnt even matter. i dont know whats wrong with me, i really dont. i was fine earlier...i guess i just saw those girls...and then theres me.....and thats a BIG difference right there. You hvae them, who are extremely pretty, and then theres me...needing to be put away me. And just OMG! what the hell is wrong with me?! what the hell is my problem? i guess its just a mix of everything. but seriously-i just feel like a nothing and a nobody and like a peice of shit. I guess that sums it up right there. so just FUCK IT ALL