Froolie

4:14pm: -i can't pretend i don't know you...
So...yea...i'm really pised cause last night, i had this long entry all typed out...and it was the way i feel and everything..then it was gone-i was SO angry....so yea, i don't feel so bad today as i did last night. I don't know what was wrong with me, i was just so upset, mostly with myself for all this crap that's happening. I was trying on stuff for dinner theatre, and i was showing one of Roxi's friends the dress i'm gonna wear for West Side Story...and Zach was like, you're gonna have to do a lot more running to fit into that dress, and then Feffula was making fun of me and she was like, look at that fat, and stuff...and that just shot my self-esteem. I wanted to put myself in a paper bag and never come out...that's how bad i felt about myself last night, it was really not good. And i just wanted to cry last night...and of course, i did. But then i dunno, i played some Mancala with Feffula and i was SO overtired and i oculdn't stop laughing, like absolutely nothing was funny...but i was laughing about it anyways. Then i went to bed, and i woke up today, and i was like blah, then i ran, and i was thinking about this crap like the whole time, and yea...like, i seriuosly just want all of us to be really good friends, like Victor and me. Cause with him, like, i'm just myself and yea. There are few people that i can be myself around, but he's one of them, and like, even my laugh-now that is hanous and you wanna talk about puttin somethin in a bag and never letting it come out-that's it right there. And i don't know, it's kinda just like yea...i dunno really. And YaY-i found out Aunt Nini's coming to the Saturday matinee show!!!! And i'm SO excited cause i' haven't seen her in like forever....at least 4 years, but i wish she was bringing Josh and Ben, cause yea...i haven't seen them in a LONG time, and they've gotta be pretty hott...lol...wow...i have issues. But yea, so i don't know what i'm gonna do about anything. I guess, i'll just see how things go, and i won't worry too much about it. Tonight...i'm goin over to Carlot and Rachie's house, and i'm just gonna have fun! We're gonna dance and sing, and yea, it's just gonna be fun cause it always is with them! And just yay!!!!!!!!!!! And Curtis is gonna be there...haha, yay for Feffula...she should have fun with that. And Chris is gonna be there too, so i guess that's cool. And GINA!!!!! Yay, that makes me happy, i love Gina, she's so nice, and she always makes me feel better about myself. And just yay...if things were good, i'd invite some people...but no! But it is gonna be awesome! Yayness!*!*!*! I'm really in the mood to dance right now. I don't know why, but i just wanna dance, so i think i might have to go do that....wow...i'm a freak!
Love-steph

11:58pm: lmao-good night!!!
Wow...tonight was SO much fun! I really needed it. Carlot and me had fun!!! Especially when we were playing our nice game of pool with the Fischer Price pool table...i really suck at that game, but it was still fun! And yea...we go back to yodale(?!?!) to Feffula and Rachie cause they were in the woods, so we went to the feild and yodeled (?!?!) And all the sudden, we hear a guy do it back, so we though it was the Dave-the neighbor....nope, it wasn't....so Carlot and me are freaking out, and we start running, and we think that the tree was a guy and we were freaking out...and yea, it was just Randy cause they just got back...so yea, then him and Trina came over, and omg-Randy is HILARIOUS!!!! "What the hell is she doing?" As i dance around like an idiot, doing all of my --sexy-not-so sexy-dancing-- and we can't forget as i do the --unnamed-- "I can think of a couple names for that one." Then Gina was like, i can see you doing those with a straight jacket on...so i did the unnamed without the arm movements, she's like, it looks like you're humping the damn air. It was just great. I liked how like...5 guys were there too...yea that was great. And then Boots sitting on me, that was a just a little strange, but whatever. But yea, i guess they were pretty cool. Feffula and Curtis-ow ow!!!! Enough of that other hector. She's WAY to good for him...especially if he's willing to sink that low, which obviously he is. And then Ty...i felt bad cause they were all making fun of him.... haha but he did have a cute accent...and then Chris was there of course, good thing he didn't try anything this time...then of course...when we got the fire started it started to be all scary-like so we put it out and sat in the garage adn talked. And OMFG-Rachie-"Did he grind his penis into your ass?" Wow...she really cracks me up. Then Gina and me went to go get some weiners, cause we needed them. I love Gina, she's so awesome. Her and Rachie are both like my sisters. I'm gonna miss them SO much next year....anyways... we were listenin to Get Low, and she's like, do you dance to this song too?! And then my hector was ALL wet cause something spilled on her seat, so i walked into Kroger with this big wet spot across my hector, and of course, my sweatshirt didn't cover it....that's ok, it's not like the time where i made it look like i pissed myself at school just to make Ashley laugh...and she didn't even. Now that was sad. But yea, it was just a lot of fun, and i definitely needed it, and i was actually able to take my mind off of stupid things!!!!!!!!!! And wow...today is the first day that i haven't talked to Victor in like a LONG time. It's crazy, and last night, when i was tlaking to him, he just didn't seem to be himself...puzzling...so i dunno about that...i guess i'll just have to talk to him when he gets back. I think i annoy him and that he hates me now and that he never wants to see me again...and he's avoiding me. But then again...can i really blame him?!?! But yea, i really had a lot of fun tonight...and i'm really glad that i went...i definitely needed it. Well, i'm gonna go do something else now...
buhbye-steph