4:46PM - he he he
i went to this otep site n i got these awesome pic things 2 put here
YAY =]
Current mood: 
depressed
depressedCurrent music: otep "blood pigs"
i went to this otep site n i got these awesome pic things 2 put here
YAY =]
depressedi haven't wrote in here in a while... well... nothins different in my life.. erin spent the night @ my house lass night and im scannin pix 4 T night now... and well... idk im not in a great mood... i feel neglected.. it's ok caz i always am i guess... and well... i really reallly really REALLY like this guy and im not at liberty to say his name because idk whos guna read this but if ut not a dumbass u should kno who it is... but yeah... it sux caz i really like him and i kno he doesn't now and will never like me back.. it juss sux... and im hopin 2 get a present b4 break caz break is guna b a long time 2 not have a present!!!! and i juss need it... me n erin had a hell of a night lass night... my new philosophy is wake n bake... hah... but yeah... i'm getin goin now caz i have nothing else to write...
ohh yeah.. my info now says...~~~~
I've got my head, but my head is unravelling
Can't keep control, can't keep track of where it's travelling
I've got my heart, but my heart is no good
And you're the only one that's understood
I'd come along, but I don't know where you're taking me
I shouldn't go, but you're reaching, dragging, shaking me
Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky
The more I give to you, the more I die
and I want you
and I want you
you are the perfect drug…the perfect drug…the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug…the perfect drug…the perfect drug
My blood, it wants to say hello to you
My fears, they want to get inside of you
My soul, it's so afraid to realize
How very little there is left of me
and I want you
you are the perfect drug...the perfect drug... the perfect drug
NIN "The Perfect Drug"
i just wanna FUCK HIM!!!!!!!
^GREAT!!! AND TRUE!!!!^
pessimisticWHAT I DONT SEE I DONT KNOW
WHAT I DONT KNOW I DONT WANT
WHAT I DONT WANT I DONT NEED
WHAT I DONT NEED I DONT FEEL
WHAT I DONT FEEL I DONT SAY
WHAT I DONT SAY I DONT DO
WHAT I DONT DO I DONT LIKE
WHAT I DONT LIKE I WASTE
I HAVE COME TO ROCK YOUR WORLD
I HAVE COME TO SHAKE YOUR FAITH
ANATHEMATIC ANARCHIST
I HAVE COME TO TAKE MY PLACE
I AM YOUR UNCONSCIOUSNESS
I AM YOUR UNRESTRAINED EXCESS
METAMORPHIC RESTLESSNESS
I AM YOUR APOCALYPSE
I AM YOUR BELEIF UNWROUGHT
MONOLITHIC JUGGERNAUT
SHOCKWAVE
MASSIVE ATTACK
ATOMIC BLAST
SON OF A GUN IS BACK
CHAOS-PANIC
NO RESISTANCE
DETONATIONS IN A DISTANCE
APOCALYPSE NOW
WALLS OF FLAME
BILLOWING SMOKE
WHO'S TO BLAME
FORGED FROM STEEL
IRON WILL
SHIT FOR BRAINS
BORN TO KILL
ALL ARE EQUAL
NO DISCRIMINATION
SON OF A GUN
A SIMPLE EQUATION
SON OF A GUN
MASTER OF FATE
BOWS TO NO GOD, KINGDOM OR STATE
WATCH OUT
SON OF A GUN
SUPERHERO NUMBER 1
By, Eric Harris (one of the Columbine shooters)
i read this and i thought there was a lot of meaning to it and i liked it a lot... im lookin @ pix of them from that day right now... very interesting... and kinda scary... http://freaks_paradise.tripod.com/Columbine.html <~~ go there!!!! seriously!!! and read it all! it's great!
wel my great grandma died yesterday night and i'm not guna b bakk in school till wednesday... im goin shoppin 2morrow n after that my moms droppin my off @ my dads house then im stayin there ovr night n then i'm goin 2 the funeral w/alla the family... my mom asked me wut i was guna wear n i said "black pants and....." then she said "i kno u have pleanty of black shirts to wear so i won't ask" lol... my mom rules!!! well thas all for now i guess...
im feelin kinda enlightened right now 2day... i'm glad some good/positive feeling came from this depressing day.. 2day was hell 4 me..i am still depressed... this isn't all that depressed me, there is more but i couldn't go in the livin room i couldn't talk to my mom or steve.. i couldn't go in the livin room i could only be in here and my room and the potty room.. wow great and then i discovered that the ozzfest tickets aren't on sale yet and i feel like shit now and ppl fuckin hate me n i kno wut they are all thinkin when im depressed "she's always this way, she does it for attention, it's just her, it'll pass in like... 5 mins" yeah.. i know... (added from earlier~>) right now i feel so weak........ so weak....... and im guna take quizzes lol... they're all basically the same... i think... idk anything n e more.... and i don't kno anyone... there might be only one person that i really know right now... they should know who they are... thas e nuff for now huh? no its not... uhh... im feelin kinda depressed 2day but it's ok... it'll pass and it's juss me so... yeah... and by the way... this is what i have done ALL DAY i didn't do anything but juss sit here and take quizzes... that is literally all i did!! u thought u didn't have a life... i can't even dream of having a life...
you are heroin. slow and buzzing, but dark and
brooding in the end, you are usually alone. you
have a large dangerous stigma attached to your
name, and you only attract people like
yourself.
what drug are you?
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You are Wavy Daisy, the pothead M&M. Look at you
with your big fat mouth suckin in all that
reefer. Right on!!!
Which M&M on drugs are you?
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MARY JANE.
Some people call you immature.
They dont understand the principles of like,
uh...
*gurgle*
What drug are you fucked on in Northumberland County?
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Be excited, you're Harry Goldfarb! Though your
heart's in the right place, those drugs really
mess you up. You steal from your mother, feed
your girlfriend's habits, and don't have the
sense to shoot up in another arm before you
lose the one you're using! You need to realize
that chasing the American Dream will get you
nowhere but in a prison hospital.
Which Sexy Movie Drug Addict Are You?
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You are Bunny on Pot! You're so cute! OOOH I want
to squish you! ::Squish:: Hey, I told you I'd
always be honest, right? Well... you're getting
kinda fat from all that bingeing. Better lay
off the pot, hun.
Which creature on drugs are you?
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You are Requiem For A Dream, one of the most
disturbing drug movies ever made. You feature a
mother, Sara Goldfarb, who is addicted to diet
pills; her son Harry and his girlfriend Marion,
and their friend Tyrone, all of whom are
junkies. You are extremely depressing, and all
who watch will never want to try drugs ever
again.
Which drug movie are you?
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2nd-degree Druggie:
"Umm...why am I here again?" You love
your weed, and maybe even shrooms and heroin.
You love to do drugs to feel alive and to have
fun, which is alright, but put a limit on it.
Next Step: Experiment with ecstacy if you haven't
already- and you're brave enough.
*What Degree of Druggie Are You?*
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You are a fucking Pot Head!
What Kind Of Drug Addict Are You?
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Maestro. You love all things music. You would
prefer to sit alone and listen to music than be
around people. You don't have any goals but you
have ambition.
Which Drugged Unicorn are you?
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You're a stoner!!
You love to load a bowl of that wacky tobaccy and
just kick it. You're an advocate for all
things natural and love to show your pro-hemp
pride! Legalize it!!
**What's Your Drug Stereotype?**
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depressed drug user- you will only make your
problems worse by perpetuating your demise.
what kind of drug user are you?
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Stephanie, you're the sullen, synical, depressed,
druggie, you hate the world and are jealous of
the people in it, you want to die, and soon,
you quit from time to time and do EVERYTHING!
Which druggie friend are you?
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You can't live without drugs. You're the
government's reason for arresting people on
trumped-up minor possession charges while
rapists and murderers either run free or get
reduced sentences!
How do you feel about drugs?
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Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel.
which song describes you the best?
slinkstercool community.
depressedwell... 2day wasn't so bad... im feelin kinda apprehensive 2 ppl and i think ppl r bein the same way 2 me... well 1 person @ least... idk maybe it's all in my mind but i kno wuts not in my mind and that's ERIN'S COMIN OVR 2MORROW!!!! WE ALL KNOW THAT!!! and it should b pretty interesting... lol... erin knos why!!!!!!!!!!! "i'm not a slut, i just don't wanna miss something i might regret later in life" lmao!!! erin ur awesome!!! can't wait till 2morrow!!!!!
blahwell... 2day wasn't so bad... im feelin kinda apprehensive 2 ppl and i think ppl r bein the same way 2 me... well 1 person @ least... idk maybe it's all in my mind but i kno wuts not in my mind and that's ERIN'S COMIN OVR 2MORROW!!!! WE ALL KNOW THAT!!! and it should b pretty interesting... lol... erin knos why!!!!!!!!!!! "i'm not a slut, i just don't wanna miss something i might regret later in life" lmao!!! erin ur awesome!!! can't wait till 2morrow!!!!!
blahim hyper right now and im juss testin this out again... he he he... ahhh im feelin kinda michevous n anxious 4 2morrow i really need sum GREEN DAMN IT!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh i wish i had an ounce in my pocket right now!!!! ahhhhh ohh ahhhhh oh ahhh oh ahhhhh
erin~ i love u he he he he he he he he he he he this journal thinger is fun (im so sorry for copyin yah!!!!!)
crazyhmmmm... i got this ider from erin... i love you erin... other than this... my day was boring and uneventful... i stayed home from school n went 2 spencers w/MMOOMMMMYY it was fun.. i got a drug, sex, or beer poster and a xXx poster and a marijuana blacklight poster... yes that is correct i smoke pot and if u have a problem with it u can juss keep ur comments 2 urself un like some 1 2day who was tryin 2 play God on my life... o well.. sux 4 them... uhhhh i think i'm guna go see my mommy then go 2 bed... yeah.. nighty night