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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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2:39p - boys to men
The future comes fast you know. It's like a train that doesn't stop for anybody. You either jump on or you don't. This whole high school thing will end soon, and I am prepping myself for the jump.
I feel so stupid for being upset with Jon over his ACTs. He never signed up for them, and now it's too late. He can take the one in June, but by then he should have already applied to one college. He can still take the SATs, but he doesn't want to. And I was online trying to register for him, but there were all these questions I didn't know and all that. I got so frustrated that I gave up. Jon is a really smart guy. He has so much talent and potential. I know he does. I've seen it. He can go so far in life if he applies himself. That's all it takes. I want him to do good and I desperately want him to take this seriously.
I, in all honesty, am tired of dating little boys. And Jon is the closest I have come to a man. He takes care of me, and he looks out for my family and he is reliable and responsible. But this whole situation makes me worry. I want him to be the man I can rely on for the rest of my life...but that requires a man who applies himself. Who does something.
I overreact a lot, and this could be one of those occasions.
I just don't want him to sell himself short. He is capable of so much. I can see it in him.
I love this boy, this guy. This dude. This man.
Friggin love. And I want the best for him. The very very best that life has to offer. But he has to go out there and get it. He's gotta want it. I can't do it for him. I worry more about him then I do about me.
~Chris~
current mood:  worried
current music: Mike Jones - Still Tippin (comment on this)
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