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Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
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2:36p - Virgin
Today is weird so far. I feel like being in San Antonio. I absolutely adore that city. I think I might move there. College is looming over my head like a balloon runnin out of helium...and Lord knows I hate balloons.
I feel so blah today. I think it's cuz I'm breakin out really really bad...so that makes me feel ugly...which lowers my confidence...which ruins my day...etc. Ima try to go to the dermatoligist today to get a "prom shot" or sumthin. Desperate times....or so they say.
It's crazy that I'm ready to loose my virginity. This is really really huge. But I don't know if its huge because it's truly something that matters to me, or because I come from a religion that stresses its importance. On the same hand, the generation I come from has all these different things to say about sex. People can be complete whores and make it sexy, and yet the "weapon of mass destruction" was found to be AIDS. I dunno, this is just a really big thing. And although Nathalie is suprised daily by my sexual non-shalance during conversation, nobody knows how nervous I really am. Not nervous like "Oh my God I can't do this"...nervous like "I can't believe I've found the one person I feel I can do this with".
I saw a shirt that says "CRAZY IN LOVE". I really really want that. lol. It states the obvious.
Today is weird, but my off period is on the way.
~Chris~
I love you baby.
current mood:  chipper
current music: Destiny's Child - Soldier (I love my man!!) (1 comment |comment on this)
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