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Monday, January 10th, 2005
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11:40p - I AM THE AMERICAN DREAM
So everything in my life is so great. Well, except for my grades...those ain't too hot. But like, everything around me is good. So good that Ruben's constant tries at getting me away from Jon ain't gonna work. So good that me about to be grounded on Wednesday doesn't matter. So good that the DaVinci Code has taken a backseat. So good that....wow.
I am now an official member of the Jazz Band. And it feels sooooo good to be back in band. I hadn't been in that atmosphere in years. And when we all went to San Antonio, it felt, right. It was my first love, and I click with these people. The concert was AMAZING. I was soooo nervous, but right when I got on stage it was like second nature. I grabbed that mic and sang my heart out! I danced and walked around and everything. It came so natural. The applause was amazing. I got compliments from strangers the whole night. Mom was there with Joe. Jon and his parents were there too. Jon came and sat riiiiight in the front. And I would always tell him that the song reminded me of him, cuz it was a really good love song. Right before I started to sing, I mouthed "I love you" and pointed right at him. He smiled the whole song through. I love this man sooo much that my mind would fry were I to try and explain it. It's like...AH! I was just staring at him today in complete and total disbelief. The last speech I had to give in speech class was where I had to answer a question. Mine was "Who changed your life the most this year?". My answer was Jon. I said how after Steven (who was a big topic in a lot of my previous speeches) I thought my life was over. It was just years and years of utter bullshit. And things like that hurt for a long time. And you compare everybody to him. Those experiences cut deep and you are scared to death of ever being with anybody else. You question peoples reasons and intentions. And with Jon, even though I knew from the beginning he was different, I still had to doubt. I didn't know how to automatically trust anymore. I was so scared of being hurt. The way Jon changed my life this year was that he showed me that unconditional love does exist. He showed me that I deserve a lot more than what I was getting. *sigh*. You guys, you know the one thing I have been waiting to say...that I could never say about Steve or anybody else? I'm going to say it now about Jon. You guys....I think he's the one.
I took the car to school today and locked my keys in it. lol. I know...a very Christine-like thing to do. So after countless attempts with a hanger...we decided to call Pop-a-lock. It was going to cost $30. !!!. Jon was amazing enough to pay for it. So there we were, sitting on the hood of my car, waiting and waiting. It took well over 2 hours for them to get there. Bobby and Perla came to ridicule, and witnessed the miraculous opening of my car door with something that look a hell of a lot like....A HANGER! Bobby says Jon gets a free screw up. Which is true. Jon always seems to be there to get me out of a pickle. He gets a TON of free screw ups. Man, I can't believe I locked myself out of my car. That is like...the stupidest thing ever. LMAO. Bobby just laughed and laughed, and I supposed that was all you could do. I sat on my hood and stared at my keys, sitting on the seat. It was crazy knowing that the only thing keeping me from the keys was a sheet of plexiglass. lol. Funny. Sometimes the silly things I do just make me that much cuter! YAY! I sware I'm gonna make a zillion copies of my car keys and pass them out to everyone....juuuuuust in case. POP-A-LOCK HASN'T SEEN THE LAST OF ME!!!
Today was our little choir performance thing. It was like, so random. I dunno why, but after we were done, I just kept thinking about how fuckin random it was. Just, showing up, singing one song. lol. OH MY GOSH, we had this little run-through before we left, and it was HILARIOUS! OMG! Sarah kept doing the nazi part from Euro-trip behind Mr. Bryce. It was the funniest thing I had ever seen. We all started doing in at Bryce just stared. We tried explaining it, but it was no use. OMG. Everybody had the giggles or sumthin. It was just one of those days where you can't help but laugh at everything. Everything is HILARIOUS!
Damn, today was a really good day. Tomorrow will be way cooler.
I never thought I would agree with Karl Marx, but he said "...the rich get richer...". Well baby, right now I'm Paris Hilton...and I just won the lotto.
~Chris~
current mood:  happy (comment on this)
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