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Tuesday, June 19th, 2007

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    1:04p
    so, since coming back to town i don't really have many friends. one that I've stayed close with is M. she's a night manager at my work. And today she told me that she and I aren't going to be working together anymore. when I asked her why she said it was because no one else listens to her because i don't. the funny thing about that is I'm the only one that stands up for her and explains why she tells us to go over all our aisles to make sure they are properly cleaned, I'm the one that stops them when they're bad-mouthing her. And now she's hinted at the fact that "my attitude" toward her means I might not get the promotion that my boss talked to me about already. I'm really hurt about this. she said that when she asks me to do things, i say no, but neither of us could remember a single time when that's happened. And she can't point out one time when I didn't get all of my work done. I guess what makes me the most upset is that she didn't try to talk with me about any of this, she just waited until I wasn't around and talked to our boss. so now my boss thinks I'm a slacker and rude and undeserving, and I'm not really sure what my friend thinks. But, you know what? I'm just going to have to work harder. I'll workharder and be better and be perfect and then no one will want to complain about me and no one will think anything badly about me and eventually I'll be happy again? I guess it doesn't really matter if i'm happy; I've made it this far right? and besides, I'm so good at faking it these days that my mom even thinks that I'm fine.I just really have to be perfect and then things will be okay. I wish I didn't always screw things up, and I don't even know what I did. I thought I was being a good worker and a good friend and now apparently, I haven't been either. So I'll just have to try harder.

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