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|Monday, January 5th, 2004|
I will make it, and you will see. I will make it to Five hundred and fiftyfive, then quit, run like a little bastard. Run like an inocent child. Away from what? Five hundred and fifty six? I don't know, but that is the end point. I shall run and cry like a scolded baby, run and scream like a raped woman, run and fear, or run in fear....once again, in fear of what? Five hundred and fifty six? And once again......I don't know.....
Current Mood: Same as one fucking min. ago!
Today went by ok. I got to see the people that I have been missing.....well, Stephanie and Eleni, I guess that's about it. I found out that the note cards are due Friday......but it does feel good to have them done. I have a bunch of codes to memorize for the F. D. and their not that hard, I'm just lazy. I've been trying to find some KISS cd's, but don't have any money. I have been on a frenzy for older songs or bands lately. Like I have been listening to Led Zepplin, "Hotel California", and AC-DC a bunch lately,but not sure why. And I have been listening to allot of classical music lately. I have always listened to classical music, but more than normal lately. Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: AC-DC:"Back in Black"
|Sunday, January 4th, 2004|
I had to go to my other house again, but this time I didn't have to drive. I'm still tired though. I haven't even started on my note cards for English yet....crap...I'm talking to Ashley right now, so I'm not board. I found out that I am on call(at the Fire Depot.) from as soon as I get out of school until 6:00(because I can't drive after 6:00), for every day even Sunday. But luckily I don't have to be at every call so I can do whatever I want, as long as I make sure I get to the majority of them. It's kinda weird though, my fire suit is all black with the yellow reflective strip on it, even my helmet is black, and at 1st I thought it was cool, but then I thought....what if I fall through a roof or something?, They won't be able to see me if I get lost. I don't know.......But I have had my pager turned off all day so they can't call me<_<>_> I hope they didn't try....I might be in trouble...naaaa. But when I get my new truck I get strobe lights, and maybe even real lights on top of my truck, and a siren. I doubt it, they wouldn't trust me with lights and a siren....but I do get strobe lights, I get 6 of them:).....sweeeet. I will be able to BLIND people. Well that's about my hole day....
|Friday, January 2nd, 2004|
I went to my other house today in Jackson, so I drove for about 3 hours. Then I got home and was just ready to rest for a wile, then got a call that their was a structure fire..... so I had to drive to it, but luckily I didn't have to drive the fire truck or that would have made me even more tired. But anyway, I got there and it was just a little tinny fire, not even a building like what they said it was, but we put it out, which took all of 6 or 7 min. then I drove home and now am writing in here.....aaaah, it feels good to just sit. Sometimes being on the fire depot. can get really annoying, then others it can get scary. But it has been slow lately. I got a new game (that's like a record for me 2 in around 30 days.) I got Splinter Cell, it's real cool. Well I'm tired and out of things to wright about. Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: Rammstein-"Du Hast"
|Wednesday, December 31st, 2003|
I'm a pyromaniac so I like New Years, but for no reason other that I get to light stuff on fire, which I would do on any other day. But anyway, today was another good day, I talked to a girl on the phone that I really like and am close to that I haven't talked to since the break started(not very long ago). But I got to watch Tactical to Practical for as long as I wanted to(since they had a marathon going), and I got to watch Uranium as long as I wanted to(they also were having a best show marathon). They interviewed: 9 inch nails, Audio slave,Biohazard,Mudvayne,Rammstein,Ozzy,Zakk Wylde, and a bunch of other awesome dudes. I loved it, and the host chick is SUPER HOT. Then I went to cracker barrel, HOPING to see steph. but, she said that she doesn't work today....but I went anyway. My timing just sucks,lol. I missed Ashley 3 times then Steph. once. Man one of my friends has one MESSED UP girlfriend/ex-girlfriend. She can't ever make up her mind on weather or not to go out with him. I don't see why he puts up with her, I wouldn't. But then again, I would have NEVER gone out with her in the 1st place. But it's his life, at least he has a girlfriend....well when they are going out,lol.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Metalica-"One"
|Tuesday, December 30th, 2003|
I'm getting drug into the middle of something I DON'T want to be a part of!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What the crap is their problem!? I don't know how to get out of being in the middle of it. It's starting to f'ing worry me.... I missed Ashley again, that's the 2nd time. That sucks.(btw, sorry about your poster) I'm too aggravated to wright right now. Current Mood: confused
|Monday, December 29th, 2003|
Well I had fun playing Socom: US Navy seals on the PS2. But apparently I need to use more "teamwork." I also got to watch most of "League of Extraordinary Gentlemen" which was good. It wasn't what I expected, but it was better.
something close and dear to me taunts me
something close and dear to me I can't have
something close and dear to me I love it
something close and dear to me doesn't love back
something close and dear to me, sometimes I wish it would leave
something close and dear to me I would miss
something close and dear to me dies in side of me
something close and dear to me lives on
something close and dear to me I will kill.....
something close and dear to me is love
I'm getting tired of reading"My Antonia"......It is easy to read, but it's dumb.. I hate reading books for school...I want to get a new movie or DVD, if you know of a good one please tell me..... Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: Static-X:"Cold"
|Sunday, December 21st, 2003|
I got back from Tennessee yesterday. I rode for 6 friggin hours. I went to Clemson, then to Georgia, then to Tennessee, then home. I am still tired of riding. I am real board right now, I have nothing to do....errrrr. I have this problem a lot.I hope it rains like 2 days before we go camping, because I want there to be mud back there. Mud makes everything more fun. We still haven't set a date for that. I can't wait until then....I have a brick of shotgun shells......ra ha ha ha ha haaaaaa... Well I better start calling people to see what time they are free...... Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: Godsmack-"whatever"
|Wednesday, December 17th, 2003|
I just got back from one of my friend's house(cameron). We went to one of his grandfather's fields and looked at this huge dirt pile. It is literally taller than a 2 story house. He wants to try and climb it with his truck, but he decided not to. We had to go through a good bit of mud to get to it. We got the trucks COVERED in mud. It covered the windows, we got it on top of the trucks, in the bed of the trucks. Mud was everywhere. We decided to go camping on top of it sometime this X-Mas break. We have PLENTY of tents, I have one 2 to 3 man tent and one 1 to 2 man tent, and Cameron has one 6 man tent. We are planning on it being me, cam., daniel, and jay, But I kinda doubt Daniel will be able to come. I washed off my truck and everything already. I can't think of anything else to say......
|Friday, December 12th, 2003|
Today I made a total ass of myself. I feel like a compleate moron. I will go and break my broken habbit now...........Adios....
Dude right now I'm probably the happiest that I have been in a wile. I just got back from o'burg, me and my Dad went to Mark's Music to look at guitars. We walked in, and they had a guitar that I had been wanting. It was a Warlock with white graphics, widow head, and a rosewood fret board. Oh my gosh...you talkin' about a bad looking guitar. Well then we asked how much it is. That guitar is sold in a package deal, but Mark said that he would sell just the guitar and the gig bag for $169. My dad got it for me, even though he said it was too much, so now I have a warlock, but can't play it..... Now I really can't wait until Christmas. At school me and some of the members of "The Spot" are righting a story, so far it's pretty cool. It's my turn to wright a part of it. I also met a really cool person last night. She is so much like me that it is scary. But it's cool to have someone else to relate to in so many ways.
Here is one of the poems I have written......
Fuck it all for now I'm dead.
This, the last place were I shall lay my head.
A gun by my side,
the smell of whiskey on my breath.
What's that sensation?
Oh yea it's called death.
I used to laugh, I used to cry,
but here right now is were I die.
A deep breath in, a deep breath out,
one last look,I don't even shout.
This is my casket,and my last bead.
This is the last place were my blood will be red.
My heart so calm, a gun in my palm.
I pull the trigger, it sounds like a bomb.
I look down from Heaven hoping to see my life is missed.
It's all my fault because of the brief moment that I was pissed.
|Wednesday, December 10th, 2003|
Well today was ok also.......except I found out that one of my favorite singers might not be able to sing anymore.That's right, the incredible Ozzy's singing career might be done. He had a 4-weeler accident and broke some ribs, and they had to do a tracheotomy on him. At this point they aren't sure, but they said that the chance of him being able to sing again are not looking good. Sniff sniff....so sad, Ozzy rocks! I don't have much to say.....I wrote another stupid poem, but right now I don't feel like typing it. maybe tomorrow.....I have something that is weighing on my mind, so if you're a Christian, please pray for me...I would really appreciate it. I know that "Only through the power of God, it is possible". well any way, I have to go check traps now. Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: Mudveyne-"World So Cold"
|Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003|
"Fond Thoughts of a past friend"
Fond memories of you are racing through my head
Then I pause a second...wait you are dead.
People now are telling me I belong in a bed.
They are saying the last thing I need is for my insanity to be fed.
They say with one look at me my mind can easily be read.
I thought that I had gotten over you,
but lately my days have seemed so blue.
When I think about it, How can it be true?
Yet in my mind you seem so bright and new.
It reminded me of past days when we went to the zoo.
But then you leave my thoughts and things go back to normal.
Everything seems just fine and my mind returns to being informal.
I wrote this new poem....Today went buy ok.....but I still didn't get to talk to Sarah.:( I saw her online 2 times, but my stupid AOL IM kept messing up, I HATE AOL!!!!!!!!!!!errrrrrrrrrr AND AOL IM!!!!!!! Well I don't have anything else to say so..... Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Fuel-"Falls On Me"
|Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003|
I don't really have that much to say, om......today went buy ok, I didn't talk to sarah today though(or atleast not on the phone)....sadness......but I did talk to her online. Well I don't really have that much to say so....I love ya,bye.