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[31 Jan 2008|03:06am] |
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The pierces - secret |
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I can't sleep.
I can never sleep.
It's 3 am, at 11 I was exhausted, ready to drop off.
I can't sleep, because the sooner i go off to sleep, the sooner I have to wake up and face tommorow.
Not tommorow Jan 31st specifically,
But tommorows in general.
It's this life.
Each day weighs on me,
heavier than the last.
Until I feel as though I am drowning
Until I don't know which way is up.
I can't breathe.
This life is choking me.
I can't face it for much longer.
I can't do this.
So what am I going to do?
Follow my pattern, and run away.
Run away from the inescapable, all the while destroying the few things that I do treasure?
It's a lose lose situation.
Stay, and die a little more everyday. Become a shell of my self.
Or leave, to go nowheres,
And have nothing, for I will have to give any chance of coming back.
I am so lost.
So I have stayed.
Here I know and all.
But I can't sleep,
and I know exactly why.
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