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Liz's Blurty:
| Wednesday, August 8th, 2007 | |
| 9:08 pm | It was Don Delillo, whiskey, me And a blinking midnight clock Speakers on a tv stand Just a turntable to watch And the smoke came out our mouths On all those hooded sweatshirt walks We were a stroke of luck We were a goldmine and they gutted us And from the sidelines You see me run Until I’m out of breath Living the good life I left for dead The sorrowful midwest Well, I did my best To keep my head It was grass stained jeans and incompletes And a girl from class to touch But you think about yourself too much And you ruin who you love Well, all these claims at consciousness My stray dog freedom Let’s have a nice clean cut Like a bag we buy and divvy up And from the sidelines I see you run Until you're out of breath. And all those white lines that sped us up We hurry to our death Well, I lagged behind So you got ahead number one. i think you like me again. you are the one who keeps be believing i'm an artist. no one will ever feel as i did about you. you will never feel like i did. and i will never feel like that again. thank god. this ... situation works for us. we talk. it's fine. it's enough. it's going to have to be enough. number two. the way we met is so weird. i sometimes think you aren't real. you have all the components of a hallucination. i rarely see you. nobody ever seems to want to talk about you. you live out exaggeratedly the emotions and things i hide. we are like gasoline and matches when we talk. there's so much i'll never understand about you. i hope i get inside your head. i want to be there. number three. you are unnatainable, and this is unrequited. i am merciless. i am weak in the knees. i get so mad thinking about the situation. i've never gotten more then a double take from you. you make me wonder if it's ture thast there's one person who is absolutly perfect for you out there, but what if you never meet them? ... what if we never know each other? number four. i really liked you. we had so much fun for the short time that it lasted. at that point i wasn't ready to admit that i had feelings for you. i'm sorry it never worked out, because i think something could have actually come from us. i'm glad that we are friends though. number five. never has anyone confused me so much. i asked myself what was wrong with me. i asked my friends what was wrong with me. you are so nice, and so fun, and so cute, and yet ... what did i ever do? i mean besides the obvious that we're complete opposites, you're the boy my dad wants me to marry, and i'm the girl your mother tells you to stay away from. sometimes i think all it would take for me to change is a reason to change. and you could be the reason. Current Music: bright eyes- gold mine gutted |
| Friday, March 23rd, 2007 | |
| 4:58 pm | insert it and desert it. i had an anxiety attack IN SCHOOL today and went home. i lost my virginity to a total asshole who broke up with me almost immediatly afterwords. the worst part is, i miss him terribly. the second worst part is, all my friends are saying "i told you so". it hurts. and then i hear that you said "i think i'm going to talk to her again". if that's true, i don't even know what i'd do. i have a life without you, finally. i always thought you'd be in my plans, in my journal entries where something big happened. i think that finally, i don't want you back in my life. so no thank you, please don't talk to me again. i've got plans, friends, places to be, things to do, and a million things holding me back. i learn something new every day. i learned that i will NEVER not worry, and nothing will ever come easy for me, for the rest of my life. please don't stand in my way. Current Music: feist- intuition |
| Sunday, October 29th, 2006 | |
| 11:49 am | well i think i need new aspirations. me and him always being in some way connected, forever, it's not going to happen. and i can't believe that it's not going to happen. well what do i do now? WHAT DO I DO NOW? he didn't think that everything, everything i was, rested on him. he didn't think that after him, i had nothing to hold onto. he was the only thing constant in my life, always. and i always counted on oneday getting out, and that it would be with him. everything would fall into place. but it's never going to happen now. and now i can barely write, and it's horrible. if i can't write, what am i doing? what is there left to me. s0 medicated: do you want to talk wynnesyndrome: nah not really s0 medicated: okay s0 medicated: but what are you mad about wynnesyndrome: im not mad wynnesyndrome: i just dont really like you s0 medicated: what did i do/? wynnesyndrome: i just dont like you s0 medicated: so you can't even come within a 10 foot radius of me? wynnesyndrome: that makes sense right? wynnesyndrome: because i avoid you and everything wynnesyndrome: i just dont like you s0 medicated: and i can't do anything about it s0 medicated: at all? wynnesyndrome: nah s0 medicated: thats not fair wynnesyndrome: k wynnesyndrome is away at 8:21:34 PM. wynnesyndrome returned at 9:09:52 PM. wynnesyndrome is away at 9:21:43 PM. wynnesyndrome returned at 9:21:59 PM. wynnesyndrome signed off at 10:08:19 PM. Current Music: Cursive- The Recluse |
| Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 | |
| 3:09 pm | Well it's not the same. I bet you're still a sucker for those famous faces. Downtown, looking down, down, looking over the crowd, I hope you're out there, look at me now. Well it's not the same. Just look at how we've changed. |
| Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005 | |
| 1:18 pm | nothing is good |
| Friday, June 24th, 2005 | |
| 12:59 pm | JESSE KURVINK Hellogoodbye THE SOUNDTRACK TO THE SUMMER. so i guess this is the soundtrack to the summer? you've been sick since april which is about how long i've known you. lately you've been staying over because you can't bring yourself to go home and you say you don't remember what it's like to be more or less content with your life. well, here's a little jogger for your memory if you can't quite recall the countless nights we stayed awake trying to forget about the fall: we were sitting in my room, not getting tired after two a.m. we were listening to "the wild, the innocent, and the e street shuffle". we were sitting up in bed and i was playing with your hair and you said "the summer isn't over yet but i feel like the trees are already dead" and i said "maybe that's just something inside of you that's been blooming and dying for years", and you left with my sweatshirt like you always did, loudly out my front door and quietly into your side one. and when i finally convinced you to come back out i took you for walk and we talked about all the things i'd been afraid to say for the last six months. do you remember now? well, do you? |
| Saturday, June 18th, 2005 | |
| 1:38 pm | AHHHHHH THIS MONTH AND LAST MONTH HAVE BEEN AMAZING AND WEIRD AND HECTIC AND JUST UNDESCRIBABLE AND LIFECHANGING. "It happens too fast too make sense of it.." Things are happening too fast... I always forget to update this thing. All I have time to do is check myspace for messages and go on AOL. I've been going places and seein people, I have even met people. Which is weird because honestly I thought I met everyone there is in our school. But when he sits in the corner and doesn't talk, you don't really think about that he could be the awesomest person ever, do you? Even when he's been there all year. "Well you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it..." Sometimes things, people, gosh, everything surprises me. With my sister graduating, I realize that highschool is only 4 years. And then you're done! It's so short, it's incredible. Having the ormal last night and everyone feeling this closure and sadness when we still have another week of school makes me realize how precious these people are to me. How I can feel so good around them then go home and feel like complete crap. I need these people badly. "so give it up, throw your hats in the air and change just as they land you're saying "we'll get out of here" but something tells me that youre too scared to go" And I wish my friends were better, more courageous, different, anything sometimes. Then I realize their all I have and I can't really do anything about it, as uch as I want to. It's stupid and greedy, And I hate myslef sometimes. This is life though and it would be stupid if it was as easy as changing whatever you wanted. Everythings ending in a sad&&& beautiful kind of way. "In with the outro and out with the old, over start over it's time to start over.." ♥ Current Mood:  nostalgic |
| Wednesday, May 25th, 2005 | |
| 5:47 pm | NEW SCREEN NAME [s0 medicated] Eating all the stars Dig to find Why the light left Rocks and stones Skulls and bone Whispered stories Tales of glory Current Mood:  depressed |
| Friday, April 22nd, 2005 | |
| 7:22 pm | okay i am really HAPPY that i finally these color codes.!&@$#?% |
| 7:13 pm | Just tie the rope and kick the chair. Just leave me hanging there, gasping for air yeah, dont mind me three feet from the ceiling. And i think i know why you never get to close. It's cause youre too scared to. When im with you theres no point in breathing |
| 7:08 pm | Just tie the rope and kick the chair. Just leave me hanging there, gasping for air yeah, dont mind me three feet from the ceiling. And i think i know why you never get to close. It's cause youre too scared to. When im with you theres no point in breathing |
| Saturday, April 16th, 2005 | |
| 6:10 pm | i wanna fall in love tonight. 4.14 i fell in love. |
| Monday, April 11th, 2005 | |
| 9:57 pm | you are beautiful in the way you ignore me because your afraid of what your best friend will say and tell my friends the truth. you are beautiful in so many more ways than that. |
| Saturday, April 9th, 2005 | |
| 6:43 pm | i think... i'm in love. &it scares crap out of me. \ So pick up for me all the pieces I dropped off at your door Sorry for making a mess on the floor You tell me to stand up Don't let things get in the way of destiny I say okay I said okay It's not that easy It's not that easy It's not that easy && It's not that easy It's not that easy It's not that That easy Current Mood:  content |
| Tuesday, March 29th, 2005 | |
| 6:10 pm | ew all the people on emolyrics are pretty &&& blonde. the kind of people you learn to hate as you grow up because they can do things you can't. so you sit &&& cry &&& write lyrics &&& submit them to emolyrics. which sounds extremely emo, i know. but why are all these girls on emolyrics? why aren't there more people like me? dark and ugly and quiet and from a crap-ass town in new york or conneticut? why are there happy blonde in a relationship southern belle smiling prom queen girls here? what are they writing about?! how tough it is to wake up to the sun shining and a message (or 50) from their boyfriend on their cell phones? i don't even know. |
| Monday, March 28th, 2005 | |
| 7:05 pm | ...listening to Straylight Run &&& waiting for my fever to go down... and i try but i'm not convincing your lips, they pout and twist and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you. you take in everything with a certainty i envy it's somehow all i need just keep me guessing please ...reminds me of how i feel when i'm next to him. i write songs, but somehow i couldn't put it in words... Current Mood: sick |
| Friday, March 25th, 2005 | |
| 2:43 pm | Current Mood:  crankyCurrent Music: I Can Make a Mess- Untitled Track 8 |
| Monday, March 14th, 2005 | |
| 9:06 pm | iwannafallinlovetonight<3 |
| 9:05 pm | iwannafallinlovetonight |
| 9:04 pm | iwannafallinlovetonight |