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its a snowy snow filled day yep, i like to look at the snow but manely i hate it, just gives assholes something els to throw at you and it seeps into your clothes and the mere tuch scorches your skin with cold, i like hot alot beter, cous when its hot outside you dont gouet "heat bight" it all toguether just stings less. im hoping though maby i dont have to go to dads this weekend though, this would be the therd weekend in a row and i wana use it with freinds. its jeneraly boring down there anyway. i meen i like my dad and step mom and step brothers and all espechialy the oldest one, but its just jeneraly boring, i have no freinds down there and its in a place where i generaly dont want to make freinds. purebred white america yuck.well thats all i have to complane about today. i hope laury can come over tomarow and see paenut (her name for my dog).cous laury needs a doggy and laurys nice to me so my doggy will be her doggy too! :]
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[01 Dec 2003|07:23pm] |
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depresed, you realy want to know why? talk to me i may tell you
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| winner! |
[30 Nov 2003|09:36pm] |
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hamsterkingIII: smite simte smite!
hamsterkingIII: bitch
hamsterkingIII: take that smiting
hamsterkingIII: i dont care haw you spell it
hamsterkingIII: do you know haw to spell it?
melissaaa e: Yes.
melissaaa e: I do.
hamsterkingIII: haw?
melissaaa e: .. smite.
melissaaa e: you spelled it right.
hamsterkingIII: oooooohhhhh!!!!!
melissaaa e: :D
hamsterkingIII: no your wrong
melissaaa e: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YOUR MOM
melissaaa e: smite..
melissaaa e: is right.
melissaaa e: NO I'M NOT!
hamsterkingIII: you spell it i-t
hamsterkingIII: dumm ass
hamsterkingIII: hahahahahahaha
melissaaa e: no you don't..
melissaaa e: haha, you reall don't.
melissaaa e: smit would be a whole different word.
melissaaa e: it would have a short i.
hamsterkingIII: i dident ask you to spell smite
melissaaa e: haha, cunt ass.
hamsterkingIII: i asked you to spell i-t
melissaaa e: ...
melissaaa e: fuck you.
hamsterkingIII: biothc
melissaaa e: that's so stupid.
melissaaa e: I said that in 3rd grade.
hamsterkingIII: HAHAHAHA
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| my black friday |
[28 Nov 2003|06:15pm] |
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pixys, bossanova, just got it today |
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today i beet alot of time spliiers 2 chalenges, my life feals furfiled!(j/k if your ignorant to sarcasem).then my grandma took me to the mall for some shoping, i got my sister somethink funny(stop reeding julie, unles you want to know your presint)a frodo action figure, i thout it was funny since she "guets wood form wood"hehe. yeah im bord still, alital depresed still, i think i forgot to say last froday i was put on some new ADD meds and it disagreed with me, i think i would pass out if i wasent sleeping in the nursses.
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[25 Nov 2003|04:22pm] |
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ive been trying to wright a comick finaly, the ferst one ive been ploting since 8th gread, but after the ferst page i think the arts crap so im gona try again probubly:sigh: well atleast i got a page, and i wroght the layout of the ferst scene. i got most of the caricters drawln atleast once, and a bio for most of them, maby thats not even enugh, i want perfection man!
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[19 Nov 2003|04:07pm] |
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i have to go to a funeral today, for some lady that ive never even talked to. my moms, freinds husbands,mom. still lonely but why bother people with it, if anyone cares thele read this, my freinds have there own problems to deal with and so far iv helped all i could for the people i actualy care about,(even though i dont usualy know haw). on yesterdays subject, im looking for a real relashionship with somone, maby thats wat i need a partner. that should make me feal les lonely right?
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[18 Nov 2003|03:49pm] |
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hrrrm i cant shake this bad fealing, i think its lonelyness, maby just bordum. I miss some people that i dont guet to talk to, and some people that i think i shouldent talk to. and am fealing distant from the people i do come in contact with, theres only a handfull of people that i actualy feal with when iv talked to them recently, laury, mira, some others,and i thank you guys for just being alive and talking to me atleast beckoius of you i dont feal completly alone, pleas never leave, espechialy not right naw, i dont think i look it but man am i down.
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[17 Nov 2003|05:04pm] |
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arg i have the fealing that theres something rong with my sleeping pattern concidering i cant fully function without 12 hours of sleep, eh oh well, ill live, yesterday i went to laurens b day party, it was fun. got some screen names. i realy need to be mor sochial , besides paul i see people outside of school like twice a month, by the way have you looked at the scy today? its completly gray, its kinda spooky and depresing in a cool way
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[02 Nov 2003|05:34pm] |
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i feal so weard right naw, well not realy weard but depresed, the od thing is i dont know why. maby alot of things hiting me at once. a few things i dont care to talk about, but a few things is today i was venimusly honest to a formerly great freind of mine that needs to be her old lovable self and stop trying to outgrow herself beckous shes making a fool of herself. come to think about it thats the oly thing i can talk about, its probubly making an entry when im depresed, im not usualy like this. well i did have fun for must of the weekend, laury your party was the greatist.
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| realy dead right naw |
[02 Oct 2003|08:30pm] |
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well not realy dead cous im fealing pain, alot of it, i cant emajin haw it would feal if i dident take the motren, i dident go to school today and i thinkits only gueting wurce i only pray that ill be able to go to moore.
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[24 Sep 2003|11:49pm] |
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i desided since i have spare time i should update my jurnal. im board, the only thing i want the werld to see in my blurty is the fact that i want to beet jer up within an inch of his life if he wants to start shit with me. just to prove that beckous everyone els pittys him for being a les than avrige person (looser) dusent meen he can start crap and not guet his ass beat. plus the kid is super anoying and it would give me great satisfaction to smack him one, or ten. so jer i ask you, no beg you to talk shit to me again, you live like les then a quarter mile away frum my houce and al i have to do is step outside and take 20 steps and im usualy within punching distance of you.
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[08 Sep 2003|08:40pm] |
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today after school i saw becky for the ferst time in a long time, we got reaquanted. fun time was had by all, but i dont care about all that right naw. im fucking gona take ken-do classes!!!!!!! like jappanese fencing!!!!! like samuri sword fighting!!!!!!! like the swish swish slash chop cut. not the poke poke poke! im so happy
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[07 Sep 2003|08:04pm] |
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i went to the tralor park this weekend, its the last time this summer ill see daniel. :[. hopefuly ill be able to see them this year though, laurles got a car and lives a few minutes away, and we mingt hang out, the three of us. ofcors my mom might not let me go, she dusent even want me to guet a car or a job. my dad gives me so much more credit and responsibility. i find myself wishing thees days that maby i sould live with him but i think it might just be beter to try to guet thrugh to my mom. im not shure
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[06 Sep 2003|08:51am] |
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to paul. i see that your upset about drama with people, but thats just the way your freinds are including me. you cant change there lives if they dont want you to. what you see as a bad desision is a great opertunity to uthers, humans make mistakes, and a few years at new deminion isent going to change that. you can hawever give people your insight and what you see as good advice. and at times comfort or scoorn even, but if people chuse not to hear it theres nothing you can do, and nothing you should do. after all it is there life. thanks for your "help" though. i know all you want is for us to be beter people. but me atleast, would rather just have as much fun as posible befor i die, and maby help people have fun with me along the way. if that means im a bad person, or make wrong desisions im ok with that. im not saying you shouldent try to help us, just dont guet pissed if it dusent werk.
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| im gambit! yes! im bad ass! |
[05 Sep 2003|10:38pm] |
You are Gambit from the X-men!
Your style and suave is a real hit with the ladies!
devoted you may not be, but you know what you
want and when you want it. But.. there is
anlways rom for change!
Which of the X-men do you resemble most?
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[05 Sep 2003|10:05pm] |
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giong to the tralor park this weekend. it might be my last trip wich sucks since people down there are fun. dads desided to sell the tralor again. :[.wich realy sucks beckous ::wisper:: i have a crush on somone ::wisper::.
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| fun fun fun at andres' |
[04 Sep 2003|07:58pm] |
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today i went to andres's and jamed. i cant play anything but i was "singing" (more like screeming). iver come to realized that my singing vouice is alot like cid vishius' frum sex pistols. cool! i drew a cool picture of a wulverene man, and some gancster kid looked at my pictures and liked them. art brings everyone together!
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[03 Sep 2003|07:05pm] |
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today was my ferst day at school, it was ok, it felt like i never left. as i look back i think this might of been my favorit summer. (although there was some drama). sorry alex for not updating more i know you hate that
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[23 Aug 2003|01:55am] |
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im not shore why im righting this, just kinda thout i should update my jurnal.......bye!
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[07 Aug 2003|08:37pm] |
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i seem to be havign realy good braine storms for pictures, go me! i think its beckous of being inspired by this one artist, i dont know his name but heas pitty good, maby one of my favorits. ive actualy panted for the ferst time in a long time and the ferst one ive done by mind that ill finish, i hope.
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