| Here We Go (Again!). Day -1. |
[05 Jul 2008|03:31pm] |
Guess what!?! I think I may have stopped wallowing in self-pity!!!! For now, at least.
Today is the last day I am going to either binge or vomit. Tomorrow starts a new day, a new frame of mind and a new life. My last chance - because all my energy has to go into this.
This is still about losing weight, but I just need to do it, rather than just thinking about it and being eating disordered. I am never going to not be eating disordered - but I dont need it to rule my every waking moment.
I am going to try a variation on the slimfast diet. I have bought a cheaper alternative to the slimfast shakes - 215 cals per carton. I plan on having one for breakfast and lunch, and, for evening meal will have a weight watchers meal - at around 350cals. Snacks will include coffee with milk (in work we only have semi skimmed milk - so that is quite a lot of calories with the amount of coffee I drink) and a mushroom soup - 82cals.
So, that totals 862 plus the calories in milk - which in fairness should bring me to about 1,200.
I need to do exercise too. I plan on doing 2 outdoor runs per week and a couple of indoor sessions.
Under no circumstances am I allowed to b/p or c/s.
Goals. 3rd Aug (1 month from tomorrow) 60kgs. Overall goal weight 53kgs.
This is going to be horrendously difficult to begin with - I have been so lazy with myself and eating habits for ages now. I need this routine. I need to be better.
Wish me luck.
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