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[07 Jan 2008|05:51pm] |
Hello ladies and gentlemen. Still going ok. Still no binges or purges. Occasionally eating a little too much - but not too much. It kinda pisses me off how it has just stopped so relatively easily - I mean I have been trying so damn hard forever to do this - and its just happened without too much strength. I know there is always a right time for doing things and this must have been the right time for me - but its just annoying. Im still very cautious about the whole thing though. I mean bulimia is my baseline - its what I have done for most of my life (literally, sad eh?). I am going to carry on the way I am doing for the next couple of weeks. I need to be comfortable and confident I can live a normal life. Then I am going to maybe give the up day down day diet a go. Sounds interesting and something I havent done before. I know I can only carry on doing well psychologically if I know I am going to eventually lose the weight. I have 11kg to lose then I will be content. The maximum I should lose is 15kg, and I am not going to aim to get below that, lol - I am actually talking like this is possible, jeez. Anyway, I have to have it in my plan. Wish me luck.
I really need to thank those who support me in my 'shitty' posts - I truly am so grateful. It helps everything make sense at a time when thinking is so disordered. You lot put me back on the right track, I couldnt do this without you all! Hugs!
xxx
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