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[20 Feb 2007|09:34pm] |
Guess how many calories I have eaten today! Seriously fucked up. I have had 7 pretty big b/p today. Im thinking its involved around 10,000 calories. That is a bloody shed load. I purged three times in work. I am going to get super-fat. I am so sore, inside and out. I dont have the energy to move. I also cant decide if I should go ahead and have one last to get it out my system.
I envy addictions like alcoholism and heroinism, because you can survive without booze and drugs. Try asking an alcoholic to remain recovered whilst having 2 alcoholic drinks - its just not going to happen. If I could never eat again, that would be easy and I would be free; except I cant. Im stuck with this mindless addiction which is ruling my life in every way.
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