Saturday 13 Sep 02:52am mood :: tired Thank you. Yea. Alot. I love you? hopelessly devoted

goodbye to you goodbye to everything that i knew Thursday 11 Sep 04:19pm mood :: melancholy music :: Goodbye To You - Michelle Branch I give up. Yea. You know that song that goes "they say if you love something let it go, if it comes back it's yours, that's how you know it's for keeps. ."? Well it's been said and done too many times and I don't think it will happen again this time. So. I hope you are happy and I sincerely mean that. You deserve to be happy. :) My mother's taking me back to Sweden. She says I've been corrupted or some shit like that I didn't really listen to her ramblin lecture about how I should have been more responsible and all that junk. Ha. My ass. But whatever, I am a fool and it's happened so I will just have to fuckin deal, no? I guess this is goodbye . . I won't deny I will fuckin miss you like crazy but nah this time I will stand back. So . . goodbye. :/ :) hopelessly devoted

i don't know what i love you for . . . love just is Wednesday 10 Sep 02:20am mood :: sick music :: Love Just Is - Hilary Duff New layout. Look. New SN. foolishxfaye. Fitting, isn't it? I am a fool, nothing more, nothing less. :/ Aaron I need to talk to you . . it's semi important and I mean yea I don't know if you wanna know but since it involves . . yea nevermind I just need to tell you something. Hi everyone else . .? hopelessly devoted

i can't stop my world from crying but i'll hold on and i'll keep on trying Sunday 07 Sep 01:12am mood :: nauseated music :: Always In My Heart - The Moffatts Ha. Fun. So my mother took me to the fuckin doctor's since well .. that seemed to be sorted out I mean I didn't tell her about it but I agreed to go get raped by needles and what do you know. Yea, I'm in deep shit. My mother hates my guts now, who can blame her. Blah. Not like it matters to anyone anyway. I will just shave my head and be a nun. Goodfuckinbye. I should stop being cranky but um no I am done not caring what people think. Why am I such a bitch . . must be the red hair, I really should shave it bald hah that would be fun, freezing my head off this winter. kdfshld okay yea fuck I don't even know how I should be reacting to this, so many things have happened over the past few days it's all kinda surreal, maybe it's all just one big bad dream and I'll wake up soon . . But no. It's not a dream. I'm alone . . no matter what he says. You really don't have to come back . . this is my demon, right? :/ I am so lost, I just wish I can find myself . . my old self, the one who doesn't give a shit about anyone . . the happy complete me? But I guess I have ruined that and I can't even begin to explain how much I regret what I did. I don't know what else to say. I miss you, I won't deny it. But I think I should just . . step back maybe. You don't deserve to be pulled down with me in this . . :/ And now I have to go throw up. Joy. {!! 1 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

Saturday 06 Sep 03:25pm mood :: blah Obviously love was never enough. Aaron and I are over. Have fun jerk. {!! 2 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

Friday 05 Sep 05:16pm mood :: crushed fuck life I ♥ YOU FRY hopelessly devoted

Thursday 04 Sep 06:33pm mood :: oops-ish :/ :x music :: You Can Count On Me - Chrissy the Cow ;) I think I am starting to like chocolate maybe a little too much and that's not good for me because I love candy and I am just fucking things up so um blah someone slap me please. I really need to stop updating every five seconds okay not really but yea I am such an update whore, I think I should just stay away from the computer before I start raping it or something equally bad. Or no fuck that, who wants a layout I feel like whoring PSP some so um yea I am going to go eat dinner or at least attempt to. edit // Mmm okay here is my hot songs list lmao hi Jade ;p 10. Holler - Spice Girls (shit up, I love them rofl) 9. M.A.S.T.E.R. - PLAY ft. Lil Fizz (my pimp song haha) 8. I Want To Save You - Something Corporate 7. Ultimate - Lindsay Lohan 6. On The Floor - No Secrets (Jadeee <33) 5. Perfect Match - A*Teens 4. Come Clean - Hilary Duff 3. First Kiss - Kaci 2. Love's Gonna Getcha - Chris Trousdale 1. Sugar - Aaron Carter (<33333 'nuff said ;p) edit 2 // I am a bad bad person. So bad I put criminals to shame. Mm yes I am a wanted criminal. Chris turned me into a salad so I turned him into a banana with chocolate syrup. I had too much fun which is probably not good but I am kinda on a natural high right now so um not really focusing on the bad which is probably gonna come bite me in the ass but whatever blah. um .. Hilary wants an orgy with seven dwarfs. mmhm we are HOT and kinky haha {!! 1 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

just wanna let you know you can't run you can't hide Thursday 04 Sep 05:31am mood :: confused music :: Love's Gonna Getcha - Chris Trousdale The uh thing I was talking about in my previous entry . . I have talked to Chris about it and he pretends to be a girl but he is just sucky at it. Ha and shut up I know you want to walk around with a boner, don't deny it. But he is now my favouritest person because HE LOVES SOGGY NACHOS djfksgfgja . . and my dancing but that's another story :x So how come I never realise that what I do is bad until after the deed is done? Yea I hate realising things djsfksdg :/ I love Jade, she owns my missing left sock I'm gonna kidnap her and hide her away in our lego castle with a moat haha. Okay no seriously, thanks for listening I heart you bebe fo sho. <33 -loves on Naisy's mini spam, rapes it back- Where is Aaron I really need to talk to that lazy fucker him dammit. {!! 5 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

it all comes down to this i'll leave you with a kiss Wednesday 03 Sep 01:10am mood :: bored music :: Have A Nice Life - Hilary Duff I miss Fry :/ withdrawals... I have been comment whoring myself someone stop me before I start spamming djfgkdsg. Hi Chris I still have your boxers ha. edit - 3:50PM // Wow .. I just realised something . . . and it worries me alot. I think I need to talk to Rosie .. or Anaïs .. or Anna .. fuck :/:( {!! 11 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

cuz i wanna feel the thunder i wanna scream Monday 01 Sep 03:51am mood :: amused music :: Come Clean - Hilary Duff I am an update whore woowoo. Okay yea but only because I just really really need to say that my meanness is rubbing off on Chris, I think cuz ya that mofo threw me into the pool. I think he just enjoys getting me wet haha oh yea he makes me wet and I want his penis. -cracks up- Um .. he is my cow and I am his cowgirl but he wouldn't let me milk him rofl. Popsicles are drooly yum and so is Faye-made cake. Closets are fun except when flying socks attack wtf is that lmao I open a closet and a sock flies out and attacks me .. only in Trousdale's house, eh? Oh yea, Chris I am keeping your shirt and boxers and selling them on eBay ..ka chinggg I'll be rolling in cash my friend and then I'm running away with the money mwahaha I am an evil genius. ROSIEEEEEE jsdhkjd yea just felt the random need to do that rofl I love my homegirl <33 Where is Aaron I miss him alot already and it's only been a day lmao I need to stop being so .. needy ha like that will ever happen. Uh .. where is Anna Banana and Naisyyy I miss them too. OH OH and JESSE lmao we need to talk yo, I got something to tell ya hee. I love Metamorphosis. Hilary is hot hahaha right Chris? Dammit it is almost 4AM I need to sleep but um I don't feel like it yea so I'm gonna go run around on the beach or something haha that would be fun yaya and everyone else who are non-updaters need to update so I can comment whore you what what. :p {!! 8 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

Saturday 30 Aug 05:59pm Haha well today has been eventful so far woo yay fun. I suck at playing games that include hitting balls with sticks rofl that sounds so wrong but yea I played pool with Aaron and I lost but that's okay the pool table more than made up for it? :x:x Oh yes, I am gonna go with him when he goes to Japan, we're gonna be sumo wrestlers and fun stuff ha I will wear a kimono in public with him just to embarass him roflmfao <3 I caught up with Chrissy rofl we were gonna drive off a cliff but he didn't think that would be fun so he drove us to the golf course and I drove us around it was crazy haha he blew an air horn at some random guy, we got chased, stole some old fart's golf clubs and attemped to hit the balls at the stupid ducks in the lake but that didn't work too well lol. I'm thinking someone needs to give Chris lessons in how to put on a grass skirt. It's official. I am the meanest confusing loser ever werd hahaha. {!! 1 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

baby it's you that i want so come a little closer Friday 29 Aug 02:25pm mood :: randomly amused music :: Baby It's You - Aaron SUMO WRESTLERS There's my intelligent update of the day. Now I have to go rest my braincells. hopelessly devoted

Monday 25 Aug 02:34am mood :: tired I have been hiding alot. I have withdrawals still. I am going to be a mechanic. Only Aaron will know why. :x I like being curious. I think Aaron likes it too? :x:x I was going to beat up someone's ass. I almost died laughing instead. I miss everyone. I'm going to sleep, tell yo mama I said Sup bish!@#$ rofl hopelessly devoted

we can make a story of our own Thursday 14 Aug 02:01pm mood :: blank music :: I Just Wanna Take You Home - Nick Carter POKE SEX . . . is not as good as good ol' sex. Why the randomness? Blame Greg rofl. We robbed some dead old guy's creepy house .. had freak encounters with moving molds in fridges and viagra in striped bedrooms and mysterious smells coming from the basement and living lawn gnomes. But we escaped so it's all good. Plus, we got away with the dead guy's bling bling and now we be representin' yo. Haha, Greg said I could be a ghetto dragon cuz my hair is red enough to pass of as fireballs. roflrofl Aaron oh Aaron .. where are you? I am starting to have withdrawals again :x I miss you and I love you and all that good sappy stuff lmao hey baby hopelessly devoted

Sunday 10 Aug 07:04am mood :: in love I like turning sandboxes into mudboxes and mud-wrestling and getting clean .. with Aaron involved :x Have I mentioned how much I love him? It's scary that I can see myself married to him .. well not now of course but sometime in the future. Yea. Scary . . yet exciting. If this is love then my life is complete. hopelessly devoted

now i'm believing all the words you say Tuesday 05 Aug 06:25am mood :: creative music :: Fall - Something Corporate Staying up all night made me all creative-ish. Ha. So um, I wrote a song, this one's for you Aaron. <3 ( Spin ) [si si I really did write that and um yea Corey that was the song I was talking about :) Hope you like it? heh.] {!! 4 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

Thursday 31 Jul 02:21am mood :: loved Sometimes .. life can be so unpredictable. But what can I say .. I'm happy now. -nods, goes camping out in the woods alone with aaron and glowy- {!! 1 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

please tell me it's only a nightmare... Wednesday 30 Jul 10:59pm mood :: heartbroken "I don't think we're meant to be together." No .. just no .. it can't be all over. This is a nightmare someone please wake me up from it because it cannot be true. How can it be? Just this morning everything was okay, everything was fine. I loved him .. and he loved me. And now it's all changed. He doesn't even want to be friends with me. -tear slips down, replaying what happened- "I love you too and I just want things to go back to normal." I have never been so hurt and confused in my whole life. When just hours ago all he wanted was a promise I'll never leave him ... now he doesn't? I just don't understand how it can all change so quickly over a stupid stupid stupid fight. I know this has all been said before .. but Aaron, no matter what you choose to believe you know somewhere in your heart that I do still love you. More than I should, even. And unlike you, I can't just drop all the feelings I have about you that's been building up over the past year, after a stupid fight. I'm sorry I was ever mean to you, I'm sorry I ever doubted you, I'm sorry that you don't trust me ... I just want to know how in one day you could bring me up so high I felt like I was flying then crush me down so hard that it's getting harder and harder to even breathe.. -starts crying, quickly wipes her tears away as her vision starts to blur- "Maybe we just need a break." I should just .. give up on this. I can't believe that I've lost him twice .. and this time it wasn't his fault. How could I be so stupid? God, this update is getting to be so pointless. But .. maybe he was right? Maybe we're not meant to be .. I don't know. I'm finding that too hard to believe. Then again .. I don't even know what to believe in anymore.. "I don't even care I guess." ( are you happy now.. ) -clicks update, crawls back into her bed, hugging her pillow as her tears start falling more rapidly- {!! 2 !!} . . hopelessly devoted

Wednesday 30 Jul 04:45pm mood :: frustrated wkegtflskjtrfgwsfljgwshfwwwsdjlgtfsdjlfsdgkfas :/ :( >:O edit // why..? hopelessly devoted

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