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| 10:42pm 08/11/2003 | ||||
i have been through so much shit these passed months i hate it i just wann end my life right now..i love someone that doesnt love me i lost someone i did love damn wat else could happen..halloween sucked ass really bad...i dont know watz up with me i guess i do stuff wrong to make them pissed at me.. maybe i should run away and go be a crack whore no maybe just sell drugs...i dont know ..i just wanna die theres nothing to live for..well any wayz i am up in g-ville visiting my mom waiting to go back home to see my homiez.. well iam going because i dont want to type anymore peace out home dawgz MMFCL..................kelz............. I was just a child but you seemed like so much more The way you would avenge me and drift across the floor I'd see you in the hall, and you'd kiss me with a smile I never understood it, was I even worth your while? The others kids at school, they would hate me and they'd spit Cause I was just a no one, to them I wasn't shit But you would always help me and stand there by my side We were only seventeen, we'd be together till we died But then it all happened on the ever dreadful day Somebody tried to rape you, and now I'll make him pay You pointed him out to me, my thoughts began to race I took my daddy's forty-five and shot him in the fucking face!!! I did it all for you, and though I'm facing years I would do the time just to equal all your tears The last thing that you told me when I left the courtroom Is that we'd always be together, cause we're both under the moon I'll forever love you, even if you're doomed We'll always be together cause we're both under the moon I sit here in my cell and the walls are made of stone I justified your pain, but now I sit alone I write another letter, I write one every day I never got a letter back, I write them anyway I try to call collect, your number has been changed I'm staring at the lightbulb, and I start to feel deranged You never came to visit me, I sit facing the glass No one's on the other side, now it's in the past My head is always spinning, I'm pounding at the wall I feel like I'm forgotten, no sign of you at all You're probably getting married, you're probably getting fucked I'll break out of this cage and try to cut that motherfucker up I curl up in the corner, my body will corrode My teeth are turning into dust, skin is growing mold I'm staring at the window of my eternal doom I know that you are out there, somewhere underneath the moon I'll forever love you, even if you're doomed We'll always be together cause we're both under the moon Many, many years, many more to go Does she still remember? God, he only know I know become a savage, they chain me to a wall I still can see your body, I still can hear your call I'm nothing but a maggot, I'm locked away and lost The world it doesn't want me, my dignity is tossed And to the girl for whom I feel this doom Look here, fuck you and the moon Hey! Fuck you and the moon Hey! Fuck you and the moon Hey! Fuck you and the moon Hey! Fuck you and the moon Hey! Fuck you and the moon Hey! Fuck you and the moon |
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| 06:07pm 22/10/2003 | ||||
well me and megz talked over things and we r kool...i am over megz second house...i am just sitting here typeing in here..well over the past weeks we have been haveing fun but not fun times...(on the way from the mall about 3 weeks ago..bad time rite there)well anywayz ..brad has a girlfriend..thats who i wanna hump..and rocky has a girlfriend and thats who megz like and also josh but josh is very mean to megz..but anywayz ..we will find some sexy ass juggalos..not..well i gtg ...love ya guyz i love ya megz... i love brad.... MMFCL |
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| 09:32pm 08/10/2003 | ||||
,,,,,,,,,................. megan dont be ma i aneed to tell u this... I feel like ever scenc you met josh our friendship grew apart i could tell i feel like josh istaking u away from me and how u say hes ur bestfriend..i feel like u replaed him for ur new bestfriend..thishas been bothering me for long time..and u wonder why iam alwayz quit sometimes thats because i feel like we arnt best friends...i want to say ur mybest friend but i cant becausei lost u and.i dont know wat happen to the megz i use to know..i dont know u nomore and i can see u arnt ever gonna be yurself befor u met josh. and ,the only person i guess knows u now is josh, and i hope everthing works out between u two becaue i gues when ur not happy iam not happy ..but iam never appy anymorew becausei miss my old megz.u r never happy when iam around only when josh and jessie and all them around..i dont want to use the word best friend nmore because have mybestfrind anymore and they one person i really called my bestfriend and sister was u megz..and u will alwayz be but right now i dnt know were ur at..we arnt on the same page n-mre try to be but i cant..and even though we dontlistin to Gc anymore ..i still think this is true and might be us..Some say that time changes, best friends can become strangers. .r u happy now i hope so just tell me when we can be bestfriends again.........I love u megz... n matte wat we go through we will stick together..i promis.. MMFCL:*:*:*:*kellylynn:*:*:*:*MMFCL I Love my homiez Much love breezy point |
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sad| i can't belive if.. | ||||
| 06:21pm 29/09/2003 | ||||
love ya MeGz......BrAd...JoHn...JoSh...RiCkY..Je |
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| 10:33pm 21/09/2003 | ||||
love all my homiez ________________________________________ southern friends just to let u know i miss u guyz and skool will never be the same with out u i miss all of u and exspedcillay making fun of the kids and pushing all the boyz around and telling them wat to do... ________________________________________ NO MATTER WHAT I DO...IAM NOTHING TO U..GOTTA HOLD MY TEARS FROM MY EYES AND SAY GOODBYE... ________________________________________ ............../´¯/) ............,/¯../ / .........../..../ / ...../´¯/'...'/´¯¯.`•¸ ../'/.../..../.....:^.¨¯\ ('(...´...´.... ¯_/'...'/ .\.................'...../ ..'\'...\.......... _.•´ ....\..............( .…..\............ ________________________________________ plz dont worrie about me.. iam just a worthless lil bitch to u that hurt u ..i just wish u will talk to me and we could settle this once and for all ________________________________________ Would u b my rose 2 cherish more than gold I luv u so much I wish u were mine but all I can do is wait till that time!!!!! ________________________________________ WELL THERE I GTG KELLYLYNN................MMFCL |
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| 10:22pm 21/09/2003 | ||||
love all my homiez ________________________________________ southern friends just to let u know i miss u guyz and skool will never be the same with out u i miss all of u and exspedcillay making fun of the kids and pushing all the boyz around and telling them wat to do... ________________________________________ NO MATTER WHAT I DO...IAM NOTHING TO U..GOTTA HOLD MY TEARS FROM MY EYES AND SAY GOODBYE... ________________________________________ ............../´¯/) ............,/¯../ / .........../..../ / ...../´¯/'...'/´¯¯.`•¸ ../'/.../..../.....:^.¨¯\ ('(...´...´.... ¯_/'...'/ .\.................'...../ ..'\'...\.......... _.•´ ....\..............( .…..\............ ________________________________________ plz dont worrie about me.. iam just a worthless lil bitch to u that hurt u ..i just wish u will talk to me and we could settle this once and for all ________________________________________ Would u b my rose 2 cherish more than gold I luv u so much I wish u were mine but all I can do is wait till that time!!!!! ________________________________________ WELL THERE I GTG KELLYLYNN |
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| 07:40pm 21/09/2003 | ||||
i hope noting gets between our friendship because i dont know wat i would do with out u i look up to u as a sister and i hoping it will stay that way..but u keep it kool and i know there is someone out there for u..love ya alwayz and forever:*:*:*:**:**oxoxox :*JoSh:* -i know we havent been getting along that good anymore and i hope that we can get along againIhate when u r mad at me because i dont want to lose i friend like u .....and if i piss u off or anything like that i want to know..ok..well i wish u lots of luck in skool and hope u have a fun year in ur last year of skool..love ya lots oxoxox... !*JoHn*!- john i am glad we became friends..even thoug we fight half the time we r around eachother..i wish we can stop it..but n wayz..... not much to say except i wish u luck in anything u do and if u need a smoking buddy come to me..hehehe..love u xoxoxox!*!*!*!*ps be nice to my megz.. BrAd-well not much to say ..beside thank u for being the only one nice to megz...and i am glad we r friends... lots of my fat kid love...OxOxOxOx... RoCky-u r very strang hun...but i am glad i met u and u r a very kool person and 1 day u will get megan..lol...love ya..and good luck on wat u plan... |
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| 08:53pm 17/09/2003 | ||||
now its wendays and i am hanging with my friend abbey that i havent spent time with in alongtime..and i am glad we r doing this because i we have so much to talk about..and u never know wat willl happen aftr tonite we might not be friends,, well i gtg becasue i wanna talk to my friends.... peace out my dawgzz megz i love u josh i love u 2 and stevie i am sry that i fucked up and not te one for u... |
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confused| life | ||||
| 01:12am 14/09/2003 | ||||
good nite to my friendzzzzzzzzzzzz |
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depressed| i didnt do shit | ||||
| 11:48am 07/09/2003 | ||||
josh i swer i didnt do anything ..i wouldnt have because i like stevie alot and i wouldnt fuck up between him and i but i geuss now we Aarnt going out.. i really liked stevie but everyone thinks i fucked up |
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| 05:23pm 06/09/2003 | ||||
once upon a time there has a young BOYZ named JOSH. He was KILLING DIEING in the OLD forest when he met APPLE STEVIE, a run-away KILLING from the SEXY Queen KELLYLYNN. JOSH could see that APPLE STEVIE was hungry so he reached into his SHINNING and give him his SILVER PIZZA. APPLE STEVIE was thankful for JOSH's PIZZA, so he told JOSH a very WHITE story about Queen KELLYLYNN's daughter LILWHORE MEGAN. How her mother, the SEXY Queen KELLYLYNN, kept her locked away in a HOUSE protected by a gigantic CAT, because LILWHORE MEGAN was so BLACK. JOSH DIED. He vowed to APPLE STEVIE the KILLING that he would save the BLACK LILWHORE MEGAN. He would URMOM the CAT, and take LILWHORE MEGAN far away from her eveil mother, the SEXY Queen KELLYLYNN, and NEVER her. Then, all of the sudden, there was a NEW BITING and APPLE STEVIE the KILLING began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic CAT from his story. SEXY Queen KELLYLYNN KILLED out from behind a HATCHET and struck JOSH dead. In the far off HOUSE you could hear a FIGHTING. |
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| 04:24pm 06/09/2003 | ||||
Current Clothes:twiztid shirt and black pantz Current Mood:high Current Music:hydro by twiztid Current Hair: straight Current Annoyance:mouse Current Smell: burnt hair Current Desktop Picture: ur mom Current Favorite Artist: shaggy 2 dope Current Favorite Group:icp Current Book: none Current CD in CD Player:twiztid the green book Current DVD In Player: nothing Current Color Of Toenails: white Current Refreshment: none Current Worry: not messing around with a boy while haveing a boyfriend Current Crush:stevie Current Favorite Celebrity: LAST PERSON... You Touched: no1 You Talked to: my mom You Hugged: megan You Instant messaged: megan You Yelled At: josh You Had A Crush On:john Who Broke Your Heart: ARE YOU... Understanding: sometimes Open-minded: yea Arrogant: no Insecure: yea Interesting: Hungry: never Friendly: depends Smart: hell no Moody: yea Childish: always Independent: occasionally Hard working: nope Organized: sometimes Healthy: ?? no Emotionally Stable: no Shy:never i think Difficult: no comments Attractive: megan saids i am Bored Easily: yes Messy: yes Thirsty: yep Responsible: sometimes Obsessed: at times Angry: mostly at one person(john) Sad: always Happy: yess Trusting: no Talkative: yea Legal: no Original: yeah Different: yep Unique: yep Ignored: always Reliable: if ur my friend Content: sometimes Optimistic: sure Deep thinker: yess Self-disciplined: Sleepy: always Lonely: all the time WHO DO YOU WANT TO... Kill: a lot of people Slap: john Get Really Wasted With: depend Tickle: chris Be Like: no1 Talk To:megan ------ 9 things you wear daily . shoe my star necklace . my m ring sox pants/ skirts shirts 8 movies you'd watch over and over not watch movies 6 objects you touch every day 1. my nose 2. newport 3.blanky 4.john jr stuffed animal john gave me 5. key board 6. food 5 things you do every day 1. eat 2. sleep 3. shower 4. brush my teeth 5. skool 4 foods that you couldn't live without 1. McChickens with extra mayo 2. soda 3. pizza 3 of your favorite songs at this moment 1. Twiztid: the green book: serial killa 2. ICP: THE wairth: homies 2 people that have influenced your life the most 1megan 2. my mom What time is it?: 4:24 What is the date?: sep.10 Why are you filling this out?: board You Full name: kellylynn emmell Do you like it?: yes Nicknames: kellylynn If you could change your first name, what would it be?:nothing (same as above) middle name?: i like my middle name Height: 5'5 Hair colour:blondish right now with red at end Eye colour: blue Where do you live?: breezy Do you like it there?: hell yea its the best place in the world Why/Why not: megan lives here Where were you born?: have no clue Astrological sign:leo Shoe Size8 School: plum point Family Parents names: carol Do you have any siblings?: 2 If so, what are their names and ages?: megan ,amber Are your parents divorced/remarried/single?: divorced Pets: 2 cat Names: rockyz and benji favorite relative: jessica Favorites Food: McChicken Drink: dr pepper, faygo Color: black Album: the green book Candy: i dunno Animal: turtles TV Show: home movies,family guy Movie: none Dance: freek Song: hydro Fruit: hate fruit Number: 10 Season: winter Holiday: halloween Month: october Day of the week: friday Grade so far: 8 Sport: baton Class:none Veggie:hate veggie Dessert: Radio station: 99.1 Actor: ... Actress: ? Word: ? Phrase: ur mom Animal: turtle Flower: rose Clothing store: hottopic Article of clothing: ? underwear:thongs State (that you've been to): hawaii,florida,nc.sc,pen Ice cream flavor: chocolate Breakfast food: none Way to have fun: be with josh, kellylynn, john, brad and rocky.john This or that? this Me/You: youu AOL/AIM: both CD/Cassette: CDs DVD/VCR: vcr Radio/CD: cd Slow dance/Freak dance: freek Jacket/Coat: hoodie Leather/Pleather: neither Sparkles/Bronze: sparkles Sexy/Hot: sexy Car/Truck: car Civic/Acura: civic Corvette/Camero: neither Strong/Weak: either Upset/Pissed: pissed Tall/Short: tall and short Lunch/Dinner: dinner Abercrombie/Hollister: neither Gap/Old Navy: same as before Nsync/BSB: gross Britney/Christina: yuck Love/Lust: lust Gone In 60 Seconds/The Fast and the Furious: Outside/Inside: depends Lipstick/Lipgloss: chapstick Silver/Gold: none Piercings/Tattoos: piercings Football/Basketball: neither Thunder/Lightning: both Friends Who is your best girl friend?: megan Guy friend: shit i cant answer that Do you get along with people easily?: depends Why/Why not: because i eaiter hate them or like them Who have you known the longest?: megan Who do you dislike the most?: ex friends? stephanie Was your crush/bf/gf a close friend before you liked them?: no Craziest: rocky Loudest: john Funniest: josh Quietest: brad Sweetest: megan Most caring: ^ Most understanding: megan If you could date one guy friend, who would you date and why? all Who is the most like you?:megan Love & Relationships Do you have a bf/gf?: yes If so, who?:stevie |
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| 04:09pm 06/09/2003 | ||||
megan just wanna say thanks for hooing me and stevie u r my lil whore.. well i gtg gonna party tonite.....kellylynn.......... I LoVe StEvIe.... I lOvE MeGaN.... I lOvE JoSh .... |
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bitchy| 10:59am 25/08/2003 | ||||
Smiled?: Yesterday Laughed?:firday Cried?: firday Bought something?: i dunno Were sarcastic?: firday Kissed someone?:firday Talked to an ex?: yesterday Had a nightmare?: saterday A last time for everything... Last book you read: have no clue Last movie you saw: fredy vs jason Last song you heard: twiztid (darkness) Last thing you had to drink:faygo..moon mist Last time you showered: Last night Last thing you ate:ur mom Do you... Do drugs?: yes Sleep with stuffed animals? Yeah Live in the moment?: ??? Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no Have a dream that keeps coming back?:yes Play an instrument?: No Remember your first love?: No Read the newspaper?:no Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Yes Believe in miracles?: Yes Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: no Consider yourself tolerant of others?: uh.... Consider love a mistake?: yes Like the taste of alcohol?: yess Have a favorite candy?:gummy bears Believe in astrology?: What's Astrology? Believe in magic?: yes Have any secrets?: Yes Have any pets: a dog 2 cats.turtle Do well in school?: No Go to or plan to go to college?: yes Have a major?: No Talk to strangers who instant message you?: i dunno Wear hats?: Sometimes Have any piercings?: ears Have any tattoos?: No Hate yourself?: yes Have a crush?: no Do they know yet?: i said i didnt have a crush Collect anything?: No Have a best friend?: Yes(megan the whore) Wish on stars?: sometimes Like your handwriting?: hell no Care about looks?: No Boy/girlfriend's looks?: i dont really care Believe in witches? yes Believe in Satan?: a lil Believe in ghosts?: YES |
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bored| bay fest | ||||
| 07:00pm 24/08/2003 | ||||
forgot wat is called but nwayz..so i walked with them and we talked and walked a john saw the cp that arrested him and yelled fuck u ..or smmthin like that.then we walked a lil more and josh saw his li sister sh was so cute...then they left and i walked a lil more and saw ricky and we both walked to gether for just a bit then i left andsaw my friends from southern ..i try to forget them..and rite now iam drawing these gimp ass picturs..but all togther today was pretty boring..but nwayz i am out..megan u better come up like usid u were after u get back from joshes house alrite iam out..peace..... love kellylynn |
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| 07:05pm 23/08/2003 | ||||
but ..i think megan will see eachother more because we live in breezy point together.and also if we can scenc megan told me that we have been friends for 7 years then and how i was moving everywhere she still kept in touch with me. no matter wat..and she did that shows shes a true friend.so i think we can still be friends for another 7 years and more.... well i got to say the partys over the summer and haveing fun with eachother and growing closer to eachother.she retty cool.. i am so glad we meet josh and john and brad and rocky because if we didnt know them we wouldnt have this much fun ...bbut in wayz.last nite was the last firday of the summer and we had soo much fun..i meet rocky he so cool he so funny when he drunk .but yesterday i kept hitting him with my shoe i guess it was a twich i dont know but. we waited for john to get here he got here around lets say 9:30..then we waited for josh to get here he didnt get here till about 11:30 i dont know.. but rocky and brad they were alreadyed fucked up so thats was kool.. we danced for them ..and then john spilled smirnoff(raspberry twizt and kool aid on me.. i got mad.. then after that me john rocky brad .jt matt josh and megan went to the living room..and then johna nd me had a long talk..it was sad i had tears in my eyes because i was so confused and pissed i didnt know if i wanted to be his friend n more because we alwayz fight but then i was like if u fuck up anymore i dont ever wanna talk to u again..he said ok..then after that i went to the living room and sat next to rocky and talked to him..then i was saying who i had gonarea ..and now everyone has because they drank out of the same bottle as me..so that went on and then i said i also had herbeiz and aids all that shit.. after that i tryed to hump sexy ass brad in his sleep but he caugt me ..thats sucked hes sexy ass mutha fucker..thehehe..then we all just sat up talking for like and hour.. then i finally went to sleep and everyone else did to..then today this moring i woke up josh was awake and they were getting ready to leave to go to joshes house to get the durango and then pick up rocky to take him home..then they came back here and megan and josh faught for like and hour but they were just playing around and josh thinks he gangasta but he isnt...then we were talking about how we were all white trash and all that shit how our lifes been gay..but thats okay because i am pround to be whitetrash and so is megan to..after that we came inside wacht tv and then john went home.then it was just brad josh me and megz here then josh had to lleave at 4:30 to go drop brad off and he had to goto work..so then they left me and megz were just getting ready to go down to the getto ass ship store.and then we went to there came back up strighten up here and now megan is updating here journal on jts computer and i am updateing my journal on our computer isnt that cool..ok not really but its pimp..lol..so that all i gtg to say is that i had a really kool summer and that i am glad i meet brad rocky and john.. and josh brad and john u aarnt gangsta the only gangasta ppl here r me and megan so beat that.............lol...we r pimps.hehe.so this will be last day i hang with megan because she will be with josh till skool starts..so. i guess this is about it.. |
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| 12:43am 22/08/2003 | ||||
**************************************** Never take neone 4 granted, U never kno when u mite lose um.Would u rather have good memorize with a good friends or bad memorize that kept u holdin on? Anwser that one...why do ppl talk shit then ,when u say u talk about me there like no who said that........................some ppl got issuses..theehe ________________________________________ why can life be so fucking depressing,sad, i think it just needs to be happy but not to happy ________________________________________ hopefully i dont lose my closess friends i dont know wat i could ever do without them my life would be so i dunno bt very unhappy..and megan if lost u i dont know wat i do with out u and josh u to and john..u guyz r my closes friends even thoug we fight half the time we r together no matter wat uguyz will alwayz be my homiezzz no matter wat.... @@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@ @@@@@ @@ @ :*:*:*:*:*:*:*:**:*:*:*:*:*:*:**kellylyn ______________ __________ _____ |
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| 07:01pm 21/08/2003 | ||||
I LOVE MEGAN..JOSH... I AM OUT PEACE HOME DAWGZZ KELLYLYNN |
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