5:20pm: TRUE.
There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can hear their voice echo in your head & you can hear the names that they used to call you; the words they used to tell you. You memorized their laugh, their smile & their silly ways. You can also feel their arms around you & you don't want to let go even though you know that it's just an illusion. Every time your phone rings, you smile because it's them that's calling you. Every time you hear their name, your heart beats a hundred times faster & sometimes, you can't even breathe. You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh but you never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. And all you would want is to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, to the time that you were known as nothing but strangers. But no matter what, you're in denial. You hide your feelings, so no one would know. You put on a fake smile & don't let a single tear break through. You're so used to hiding your feelings that you don't even realize the pain you're causing for yourself. Your thoughts become invisible. It's still there, but no one knows. Like a love letter you didn't show. And you're hurting no one but yourself.

2:13am: It's seems like I'm stuck between the past and the future all at the same time. So I think to myself; "Why not live in the present?"

2:11am: I'm always the first to go, but the last to forget..

2:07am: The more I know, the less I care. It's as simple as that. And clearly you're not a mystery anymore and I lost all interest, but that's not the first time and it certainly isn't the last time either.

7:30pm:
I know I might end up failing you, but that's nothing new..

11:09pm: Just because I'm leaving, doesn't mean I'm letting you go.

10:59pm: Its sad when people you know become people you knew, how you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them, its sad how time changes things

10:54pm: He's my first love, the kind that only happens once.

10:50pm: I might crumble, I might take a fall again.
But you, you're my everlasting friend.

♥

10:47pm: So true.
I hate how you'll always have that one special person you think of when you watch those sappy, lovey films.

You'll always have that one person who's name you scream in your head when you hear a really sad, heartbreaking love-song.

You'll always have that one person you wish you could spend every second with because it seems like you could never ever have enough time together.

You'll always have that one person who you love more than anyone else, more than you thought it was possible to love anyone, and you'd do absolutely anything in the world for them.

You'll always have that one special person that you think about this time of year. That you think about having a family with someday, maybe. But for now you'll just enjoy the love this time of year brings around.

And then one day you won't have that person anymore. And they're gone forever. They are never ever coming back. And all your thoughts and all your love will stay the same, but they won't be there.

- I found this on someone else's blurty, so it's not mine.

1:29pm: All i ever wanted was to be part of your heart and for us to be together, to never be apart. no one else in the world can even compare. we have so much more than i ever thought we would, i love you more than i ever thought i could. i promise to give you all i have to give, i'll do anything for you as long as i live. in your eyes i see our present, our future and past, by the way you look at me i know we will last.

3:40pm: The best album everrr is 'Futures' by Jimmy eat world, loves it! ♥
I think it's because it reminds me of someone special, well a few songs on the album than.

3:30pm: 'Love is not love, which alters when it alteration finds. When life gets hard, when things change, true love remains the same.'

8:09pm: I'm wonderin how people i grew up with
could grow up into people i wish i never ever knew-

- you bitch.

9:57am: now i've got every reason to find someone new
cause you swore up and down to me
that i've seen the last of you
but the way you loved me, it left me hopin' and holdin' on
so until this world stops turnin' round
and my heart believes that you're gone...
i breathe in, i breathe out
put one foot in front of the other
take one day at a time
until you find i'm that someone you can't live without

2:32pm:

Isn't it funny how you can think you're completely over someone but if you drive past his house, stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, or even get a glance of him on the street....just in an instant, it can change all that. And you start to remember the pain. And that hollow space is feeling more and more like the Grand Canyon with every second that goes by. But you bury these feelings deep down, so deep that you're sure no one will be able to tell. To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or will ever be. Everything's just perfect. For that split second that you've locked eyes, a tiny whisper, say 'make this last forever, only and just this moment forever and ever'. But after a second or so, you go along your own merry way, all the while home realizing how much you do miss him, how much you still love him...and it sticks with you for days, weeks, maybe months, until fate decides to hand you another one of those unexpected moments. And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is when the person you love most is standing right next to you, yet you can never have them.

Try as you may, you can't make someone love you.

2:32pm:

You know, the older I get the more things I gotta leave behind, that's life.

2:30pm:

Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day,

someone or something will find you and make it all okay

. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you

2:26pm:
"They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else;
they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like.
These are the most important people in your life...but there's still one more tier to all this;
there is always that one person you love who becomes that definition.
It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually.
This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people,
even if some of those lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable...
This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist.
The person is real, and the feelings are real-- but you create the context. And context is everything.
The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else,
and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone.
But that person still wins. They win, and you lose.
Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

2:24pm: It was nights like this that made it easier to understand why people took their lives. It made me question if they were really cowards, or if they were just smarter than those who believe life was full of happiness and joy.
I guess it really wasnt just one night, it was a cluster of days that just so happen to hit me all at once. It's when so many of your friends have died, that it longer effects you. When funerals become as routine as birthday parties, and the emotions are both stable. It's when the world falls on top of you, and you dont even bother to help pick it up. It's when you feel like crying so terribly bad... and you're unable to form one tear... Thats when you realize what hell must feel like, minus the tempature, because here... here it always feels like December.

I'm going to miss you.. :[

2:24pm: I'm lonely and depressed*

2:17pm:

I begin to hate you
for your face,
not just the things you do-

2:11pm:

A girl calls and asks,
"Does it hurt very much to die?"
"Well sweetheart," I tell her,
"yes, but it hurts a lot
more to keep living."

9:11pm:

i think we can say that we've been through the worst. and after all, i love you even more. now i know for sure that you're the one i want to spend my whole life with. i've been thinking about how perfectly we work together. and i don't want this to ever change! i really can't explain the things i felt inside today when we kissed again. it was like there was no one else in the world. it felt so right. and i'm glad things turned out well. and i really don't care what people say. i love you, and that's all that matters. ღ

9:06pm:

they say if you love something you've gotta let it go. if it comes back it is yours. that is how you know it is for keeps. you are the strength that keeps me walking. you are the hope that keeps me trusting. you are the light to my soul. you are my purpose. you are everything. you calm the storms and you give me rest. you hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall. you steal my heart and you take my breath away. how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you? would you tell me how could it be any better than this? cause you are all i want. you are all i need. you are everything!