Heather's Journal

9:18PM - Jane Austen

one of my fav authors is Jane Austen...she wrote 'Emma', 'Pride and Prejudice', Sense and Sensibility', and "Mansford Park'-or something like that!!!! newayz, her writing is just beautiful, and I love the stories-especially the movies!!!!! I have all of them except "Mansford Park"! Pride and Prejudice, the movie, is 5 hours long!!! it usually takes me 2 sittings to watch!!!! newayz, my other fav author is Lori Wick-she writes just Christian contemporary 'romance' novels-BUT, they aren't the ones that you would find like, in Bilo or that have the half naked women/men on the front!!! newayz, some of the books that I want to read are: "The Devil Wears Prada"-i forgot the author's name!!!; "THe DiVinci Code"- by Dan Brown-something like that!!!; and "The Time Traveller's Wife"-again forgot the author's name!!!! but, i want all of these books for Christmas/B-day!!!!(if I don't get them by then!!!!) then, i could take them w/ me on the plane to Italy next spring!!! hahahah!
well, g2g!!!
heather

Current mood: content

Current music: Shaun Groves-After the music fades

8:22PM - ho-hummmmmmm

i'm so bummed..today my sisters go their ears pierced a 2nd time....and i didn't (couldn't) cuz I was working...!!!!! I sooooo wish that I could do other stuff this summer besides work all the time!!!! Also, I really want a boyfriend!!!! why is that sooooo hard to get??? huh??? i mean, come on!!!!! at school all the guys are gay...there aren't any boys that i know at church cuz we just started going to a new church...there's no one in CYS date worthy...and I see plenty of guys at the YMCA where i work/ work out...but, i wouldn't wanna just say "hey!" while they're working out!!! i'd be too embarassed...newayz,...i'm just confused why i don't have a BF...i really hope someone new comes to school...maybe...but w/ my luck i doubt it...i kinda thought David Smith from school was really cute...but now he goes out w/ Maggie...oh well...no luck there!!! hahahahah! I have no social life this summer...ok, i'm gonna stop complaining..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i haven't seen Kevin yet at the pool in a whole week!!!! i mean, i'm not in love w/ him...it's just one of my KINDA recent crushes..you know me, i always have to be liking somebody!!! hahahahaha...newayz, i hope he comes back soon...i want to get to know him better! but, there's no use, i guess...cuz i start back to school in 2.5 weeks!!! yeah! i'm actually really excited!!!!!!! newayz...g2g!!!!!!

6:06PM - hey.....

ok..it's been kinda awhile since i last updated in a personal sense....newayz, what's new in my life??? well...today at my job at the Beadies, the kids were TERRIBLE --they don't listen to me!!!!!!!!! AAAAAGGGHHHH!!!!!!! i could definitely go into it...but i don't feel like right now...Ali is getting a little better...she's talking to me more...so, that's good...but, she's not eating (STILL) like she's supposed to...so, newayz, Cat is coming over tomorrow and we're gonna play tennis and eat...YEAHHH!H!!!!!!! newayz, I have nothing else to say..oh, yeah, wait!!!! yesterday, I saw Spiderman 2...IT WAS SOOOOO GREAT!!!!! it's definitely as good as the first one, if not better!!!!!!! It was soooooo very good..i definitely recommend it. well, g2g

12:55PM - lalalalala

I'm done with my Music History exam....what's next???? ummm...i don't know!!!!!!!!! right now i don't have class, so I"m kinda wonderin' what do to.....should I read a book, go practice, study for other stuff, or just watch a movie...I don't think I should watch a movie, cuz I do alot of that, i think i'll read a book.....oh, well, I just felt like writing for a sec....g2g

1:53PM - hey......it's been awhile since I've written

newayz, I'm gonna ask myself what's UP???? well, kind of a lot, but not really anything insignificant....let's see, tomorrow (Wed.) I have a music history exam for Mr. Buck-so I need to study for that; my Spanish poem is due (technically) Thursday or Friday, but I'm personally aiming for the next MOnday!!!!; Precal's exam isn't until THursday and Fridayand I hope I do well!!!!!!!!!! I was doing great on my homework, projects, and tests for awhile, but all of a sudden, last week I got a 72% on our test!!!! AAAGGGGHHHH!!!!! so, I hope I do well...also, juries are next week; mine is TUesday at 11:15 a.m. yup, right before lunch....so, technically, after this Friday, I don't have any more responsibilities-I"m prepared for my juries, so it's no big deal!!!!!!! well, g2g talk to ya later, pals!

10:10PM - hey...

howdy! tonight my youth pastor came over w/ his family and brought us dinner (pizza/icecream/salad/yummm!) and just visited w/ us and to talk to Ali...I wasn't involved in the talk, though, I was helping take care of the little guys and their little sis (JOhn, Lucas, Mary Lyles)...I just think this was soooo sweet and nice of them to come and bring us dinner and talk to us...it's very helpful for my parents I think, especially, b/c my mom rarely gets to talk to adults or socialize w/ anyone, really, anymore cuz she's always taking care of Ali, she's also ALWAYS stressed out, too! I luv her soooo much, she's always taking care of us and helping us w/ stuff...
newayz, I've brought up my Pre-cal grade from a 75 to a 77 - woohoo! hopefully w/ this luck, I'll pass the class! I've worked soo hard in this stupid class! g2g

3:16PM - You're toxic...

hahaha! the only Britney Spears song I have/will ever like is the "Toxic" song-and I kinda actually like her music video for that song!!! woohoo! newayz, I just took the APTEST6 multiple choice part, and I got a 52.5%-which isn't that bad, b/c ALOT of people said that this test was REALLY hard!-Olivia got a 54%, so we're basically the same! newayz!!! I actually am quite proud of myself, b/c I rarely do really well, or even exceptionally well on his tests, and so, for this test I studied like crazy! also, I just realized while taking the M/C part, that I wrote in the DBQ essay my opinion of one of the hard-core FACTS, and not the actual truth about-according to the pageant book and MR. GOdfrey! (it was about Social Security, and how it was kind-of not totally important during the Great depression-could've been dealt w/ later-saved more money for later!!!)-newayz, not that anyone really cares about that little history lesson!!! does anyone know what laissez-faire means? Mr. Godfrey keeps using this expression or word(s) in his tests, and I've yet to figure out what it means!!!! AGGH! it's prolly cost me points, too! oh well!
I totally feel better about that whole issue about BFs, b/c I was about to start my period, (I have), so I was just extra emotional a couple of days ago! sorry-Stina,Megan! I do still kinda like Daniel-but not really-also, I really wish he would stop hanging out w/ that Stephanie girl! it makes me soooooo mad! well, g2g-I have pre-cal in a couple of minutes!
oh, by the way, I emailed Thomas Godwin, and James Robbins from my church like, last week, and they have yet to email me back and all I said was "Hi!" just to be sweet/nice/friendly!!! what losers!
bye!!!!~~~~~~~*

8:42PM - yo!

hey, umm...well, I'm at home on Spring break, and i think it's too early for it! oh well! newayz, I've just been hangin' out at home...today I woke up @ 9:30 a.m. and watched the movie Anne of Avonlea, then I went to
A.C. Moore (a arts/craft store)-I got some paints and a really cute silk scarf/belt!, also, after that, we went to Wal-mart-I'm not crazy about Wally world, but my mom had to get some stuff! I FINALLy got some burgandy highlights stuff! I can't wait 'til school starts, cuz I'm gonna get MEgan and/or Kristina to help me next Sun. night! yeah! newayz, then, after I got home, I did some sketches and stuff, finished watching the movie I had started earlier that day, hung out w/ Natalie (whoopie! -j/k!) , and then ate supper! ok...newayz, I'm gonna go practice later! tomorrow my grandma is gonna pick me up to go prom dress shopping! I'm soo excited! newayz, last Wed. nite, I went to the John Mayer concert!!!! it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo much FUN!
I LOVE JOHN MAYER! he's so talented and such a great musician! he was fabulous! newayz, word can't express my exhuberant heart!
I've been trying to talk to Ali alot lately, and already I think she's warming up to me, slowly!!!! but, it's sooo encouraging....I love her soooo much and am so sorry for how I use to treaty her, I'm soooo willing to do anything for her! i think i'm starting to learn the real meaning of love, not just romance love, which I've never personally experienced, but REAL genuine love. I'm not talking about the kind of love that you say to a friend, "oh, man, I love you!" (jokingly!) I mean, I really would do ANYTHING to help Ali, my sister! and I"m serious....it's strange knowing this kind of love, it really makes me wonder about the kind of love that Jesus Christ has for me, especially when He died for me, ok, I didn't mean for this to sound like a sermon, or anything! newayz, I really hope she gets better, like soon, and i know she eventually will, but, she just has to!
g2g

11:23PM - hey ya'll!

so, how is everybody? Kristina? Megan? newayz, yeah, I finally did it!!! I finally asked a boy (Napolean) a huge question! i asked him to go to prom with me! yeah..but just as a friend, which is cool. newayz, yeah, it took me a LONG time to finally ask him..at first, I was just kinda pondering if I should ask him or not, I mean, I would LOVE to get to know more, but yeah, so I think I got on SOnya's nerve's b/c I took forever, but she still loves me! hehe...newayz, then after just "pondering" the question I told alot of my friends, and asked them for their advice, and they all said I should go for it, and then that's when I got scared and really nervous, cuz I then realized hey, what if he says NO!!!! AAAAAGGGHH j/k! newayz, g2g seee ya!

9:11PM - hey...

ok...I've had a pretty rough past couple of weeks...first of all, my sister was put in the hospital last week, and just got out last night (THurs. nite), I'm failing Pre-Cal, and well, I've just had some really trying, and emotional times recently...it seems like alot more, but oh, well....! mY SISTER is so depressed...she doesn't talk to anybody, except my mom...I try SOOOOOOOO hard to talk to her, care for her, ask her if she needs anything, but she barely even looks @ me...I don't know what to do...Kristina, you've told me before that you have felt depressed before, what, as a sister, can I do for her? what would you've wanted your older sister to do(if you had an older sis...)??? I feel totally helpless around her...I talked to my mom about her, and she said that she's acting this way b/c she's always felt that she was bigger in every way (height, and weight) and she doesn't feel like she gets enough attention and that we didn't love her, and now that she's sick (emotionally, physically), she's like, well, now I'm getting attention and care and love, so what's the point? but, I've always loved her...ok, it is true that I teased her when we were younger and both very immature, but, whenever I teased her, it was b/c she provoked me by teasing me about my size! I've always been either the same size, or a little bigger than her...I know that doesn't make it right, but at the time, I was just as upset as her, I just haven't let the teasing and ridiculing get to me enough to make me hurt myself so badly. oh, well...I just had to "vent"...g2g
-H.C.

12:47PM

12:19PM - it's been a long time since I"ve last done this....

hey....ummmm..it's Friday and it's freezing cold outside and it's raining....what a great day!!!! j/k...newayz, here's just some recent news that's happened to me lately...I made it into All-state band, and it was my first time ever even trying out!!! Margaret F. made 6th chair, Maggie made 11th, and I made 12th!!!! I even beat out Katie C. AND Lauren K.-I can't believe it! Last Sunday I had CYS chair auditions...I REALLY hope I beat out Katie and Lauren (cuz I beat them in all state!) so, Maggie and I are crossing our fingers! I'm pretty sure it will stay the same, though, or I will prolly move down a chair, cuz I know Lauren has been practicing alot lately to "prove" herself, even though she claims she doesn't care nemore....but, this year, my only goal for CYS is to stay 4th chair...I'm never gonna be able to beat Laurie Morton!!!!!! but, you never know...next yr. she, Lauren, and I will be "the Big SR.s, and hopefully I'll be atleast 2nd!!!! newayz, I"m really bummed b/c I got a 31% on my 1st Pre-cal test, and it was just a REVIEW test!!!!!!! I can't believe I did that bad, well, actually i can, cuz, I don't remember nething from 9th grade which is when I had Algebra II. Today (fri.) I have another test, but w/ the calculator! I've been studying alot for the past couple of days, so hopefully I'll make at least a B...I DON"T LIKE BARRET newmore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!-that's for Kristina, who doesn't believe me nemore! oh, also, I saw the movie Moulin ROuge a couple of weeks ago (for the first time) and it was SOOOOOO GOOD!I want to buy it, soon...also, the music is GREAT, and Ewan McGregor can SING!!!!
I've also seen alot of other good movies, including...Bring IT On-I've never seen it before and it's really good! I loved it!, also, I saw (for the first time) Dirty Dancing- that movie I wanna buy, also! it was soooo sweet- omg- Patrick Swayze (spelling?) is sooooooo sexy!!!!!!!!!!!!! hothothothot!!!!!!!newayz, I also saw 16 Candles and the Breakfast CLub, those movies are great, too, and Molly RIngwald is a great actress, and sooo "cute". newayz, g2g
I"ll write back later!

6:56PM - I'm feeling bummed right now....

I'm feeling really bummed right now....ok...Monday I had a big Music history test, that I studied hard for, except for the listening part, which was practically impossible, and then, Tuesday, I had a Wind Ensemble dress rehearsal and concert....and THAT took all day/night, so I didn't get to do hardly anything....and then Wed. I was studying for AP US History test(M/C section)...and working on my ENglish, and Chemistry stuff, which I had a quiz on...on Thurs. I had the big AP U.S. History test(M/C section) , and I got a 38.78%, but, Godfrey said as long as we get at least half of the M/C and at least a 5 (out of 10) on the essay portion that we'd get an 80%...well, I prolly got a high 70%, so that's good for me....but, man, I was sooooooooooo happy about my grade in that class earlier today (THursday Nov. 6) b/c I checked my grades on mygradebook.com and I had raised my grade from a 79% (on my report card...) to an 84.73% for the semester this year....then for this 2nd quarter, my grade was a freakin' 90%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of course all that will change once he grades my test....AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! why me? luv ya....

9:20PM - what I want to be when I "grow up!"

I want to go into fashion design, specifically costume design...I figured...hey, I LOVE movies, and I love designing clothes, so why not put them together? so, designing costumes/clothes for movies/play/so on, is what I came up w/! smart, huh? j/k! actually, I think it would be soo awesome to do that as a career.
will write more on this lata!
g2g
-heather