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PhAtPaT0507: happy birthday!!
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ZooGooLoo: Happy Birthday Too U!
Sprkid3: Happy birthday
gotta love birthdays
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[11 May 2004|09:00pm] |
Got a picture of you I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me when the nights get cold
If you asked me how I'm doin' I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by
I still wait for the phone in the middle of the night
Thinkin' you might call me if your dreams don't turn out right
And it still amazes me that I lie here in the dark
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Wishin' you were next to me, your head against my heart
If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by
Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days
Seems it's been forever that I've felt this way
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by
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[03 Apr 2004|09:26pm] |
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As you grow up you learn that even the one person that isn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.. you will have your heart broken, probably more than once & it's harder everytime... you'll break hearts too so remember how it felt when yours was broken... you'll fight with your best friend... you'll blame a new love for things an old one did... you'll cry because time is passing by so fast.. you'll eventually lose someone you love.. so take 2 many pictures laugh to hard love like you've never been hurt because every second you spend mad or upset is a moment of happiness that you'll never get back
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| Every beautiful day |
[27 Mar 2004|11:02pm] |
Something's gotta change again
I'm losing, my inspirations gone, oh no oh no
Seeing through some different eyes
I can't find, my medications failed, again again
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause i'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause i hate every beautiful day
Faces in the crowd
Fake smiles for miles
My imitations wrong of them again
Trapped inside this cheap hotel
Bored as hell turing the channels 'round
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause i'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause i hate every beautiful day
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
I'm not the same, not the same lost my feeling
All i know i'll never know
All i know i'll never know
Cause i'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause i hate every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
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| Our Dying day |
[14 Mar 2004|08:20pm] |
The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
Here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
Thats exactly,
Exactly what I need...
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day...
For a second I wish the tide will swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here
Cause then I wont miss a beat cause I never,
Never have before...
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day...
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying...
For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasped for air tonight...
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day...
Our dying day
Of our dying...
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[10 Mar 2004|08:54pm] |
As i stand here
Lighter in hand
pictures on the ground
I set the flame
and watch it burn
the flame grows closer and closer
to devouring your face
it's like voodoo
Im wishing you were dead
As we stand around watchin these photos
Burn to ash
This amusment is tragic
just like the day I left you.
i ripped your heart out
and held it in hand.
I had no worries
YOu ment nothing to me anyways
All this trouble you caused me
I locked up and stored away
Time went by and the box over filled
anger broke free and exploded in your face.
This Is how much I will miss you.
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[10 Mar 2004|08:52pm] |
In My brightest hours
In my darkest nights
I find it hard to dream
I kept falling into
Horrifying nightmares
Until you came to rescue me
You came and made everything fine again
So as I sleep with this blank expression on my face
Tell me that you?re dreaming of me also
Tell me these dreams will be forever embedded in your mind
Dreams are what make us unique
Dreams are what pushed us
Thrived for us to be
If no one had dreams where would we be today?
What would anything be without someone dreaming of it?
When I wake up
I just want to fall back asleep
Cause the dreams in which I?m holding you
Are the best I ever had
If I only had the power
To create a window to your mind
And peak inside
To see what your dreams are
See what makes you hurt
See what makes you happy
Just to know I could help you
In any way possible
To know you?re every wish
I could fulfill your fantasies.
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I live for the nights i wont remember.
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| It's to late. |
[08 Mar 2004|09:14pm] |
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Your Gone. |
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Taking steps back through the words
I should have said to you
they all got lost
you went away
well i feel sick and
you just don't care anymore
anymore
I wish to be with you
minutes of me and you
and i can't feel this happening
so tie my hands back
and make me feel you coming down
coming down
and you don't care
your face is on a billboard
and your everywhere
you don't care much for interviews
your gone your gone
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[07 Mar 2004|03:29pm] |
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Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you are next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a wave
Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of, they have filled me up with doubt
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a wave
I can feel you breathing
It's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating.
Sinking like a wave
How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you, things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew, I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a wave
I can feel you breathing
It's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating.
Sinking like a wave
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[06 Mar 2004|04:41pm] |
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If you feelin like a pimp nigga, go and brush your shoulders off
Ladies is pimps too, go and brush your shoulders off
Niggaz is crazy baby, don't forget that boy told you
Get, that, dirt off your shoulder
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I haven't written in so long, b/c my internet isn't working at home. So let's see..Thursday I met Brad by his locker..afterschool but we took to long so I missed my bus..even though he didn't miss his. lol So I walked with Erica Romans for awhile..then I saw Kendall, Cathy and Allie so Allie said she could drive me home then we saw Dave and he needed a ride to. Yah. then Friday. I spent the night at Jenna's dads. and we went to 7 eleven and got slushies!. Then Phillip drove Jenna to dance and me home, then my dad picked me up at 12 and we went shopping. I got a some shorts and a tommy hil. t-shirt and some incents..and my father spend over $650. on clothes for himself. I wish I wouldn't of been so tired I didn't even wanna shopping which was like a first. lol I'm gonna go..
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[28 Feb 2004|10:53am] |
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WINTERFEST
I'm so excited today is winterfest. Last night I went to the game, but we lost even though we were winning by like 16 points at one time, oh well we lost last year to. But the game was awesome. We finally get to see Bruce!. haha which is gay. Anyways. Drew is so funny. He's sitting behind me yelling the funniest things I've ever heard!. like:
"Hey number 33 I slept with your mom twice. in the same night"
" Hey number 5 your needle fell out."
hahah then when he leaves Kevin takes over
"Hey ref. you look like Whinnie the pooh!"
Then Jake has to add..
"Number 3, your fucking worthless!"
Then peter trys to start chanting "inbreeders". but he's the only one. so some kid next to him gets up and turns around poitns down at Peter and is like " look at this look guys cheering by himself"
haha There's a ton more but I don't remember. Back to winterfest. It's umm..11 o'clock and I'm supposed to go over to Jenna's at uhm. 1:15. But after that we don't know what we're doing, well I don't know until after I talk to Jenna cause she has to talk to Jenn w. But I'm so excited, b/c we're going with a bunch of guys from a "certain private school". haha Plus I love my new dress. it's so awesome. I just hope they don't play Michael Jackson like at homecomming!. haha Anyways I gotta go pack. and finish cleaning
Steph. I hope your foot feels better!.. lyl
xo Ashley.
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| She's nothing but a sluutt |
[26 Feb 2004|08:19pm] |
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So. I'm sitting in 4th hour and Steph. turns around and shes like have you read jacqui's journal, and I'm like uhm. no why?.. then she tells me there's this retarded song about me..so I'm like cool. So I get online and yah it's there and yah it's retarded. Very uncreative right steph?. hah So I came up with my own song..
I've never met a bigger slut until I met Jacqui best Jacqui best She'd let you do her up the butt if you wanted. Anything and everything that's her motto. And if your ever in the hot-tub get ready for a night of fun. Don't worry about protection because she doesn't, she believes your only a fool if your wrap your tool. But if she does get pregant she'll just throw herself down the stairs she doesnt care. But that's okay because the world is bad enough with people like her, we don't need her making babies.
There's my song. yah I guess I'm immature to for making a song to. But who cares. She needs to get over this thing Boo fucking woo I called you a whore. You were acting like it. But whatever
Well I gotta go finish my cookies for 3rd hour. later
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| Friends till the end. |
[23 Feb 2004|08:22pm] |
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-I'll be there-
*When no one is there for you*
*And you think no one cares*
*When the whole world walks out on you*
*And you think you're alone*
*I'll be there*
*When the one you care about the most*
*Could care less about you*
*When the one you gave your heart to*
*Throws it in your face*
*I'll be there*
*When the person you trusted*
*Betrays you*
*When the person you share all your memories with*
*Cant even remember your birthday*
*I'll be there*
*When all you need is a friend*
*To listen to you whine*
*When all you need is someone*
*To catch your tears*
*I'll be there*
* When your heart hurts so bad*
* You cant even breathe*
* When you just want to crawl up and die*
*I'll be there*
*When you start to cry*
*After hearing that sad song*
*When the tears just won't*
*Stop falling down*
*I'll be there*
*So you see I'll be there until the end*
*This is a promise I can make*
*If you ever need me*
*Just give me a call and...*
*I'll be there...*
Today was awesome. haha not really. but oh well. First hour was grreat as usual. Business computers is so retarded no one does anything. 2nd hour kinda sucked b/c I forgot to study but it was fun watching Jake get in trouble and as usual, it's always wonderful to listen to Nate. ramble on cause he smoked himself stupid. haha I finally got my jacket back. man i miss it. lol not that I ever wore it when I had it. But I'm sure jacqui said something because when i walked out in the hallway I saw her sister before I saw her, so her sister just took it. So i'm sure she thinks I'm " to chicken to give it to her"..haha yah oh well anyways. 4th hour was so funny cause Alin had a fart machine. Which steph. missed!. lol 5th hour was so funny cause greg was like watch this..and he starts scribbling like the crazy kid in the ring. lol in the middle of our teachers speech on something. lol and then he just falls outta his seat. haha it was funny. anyways. I'm gonna go take a shower.I spell from tanning.. haha
-rae
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| Highschool |
[22 Feb 2004|08:10pm] |
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Here's to High school .
To every laugh and smile and tear. To friendships and hardships and trust. To the fighting and lying and backstabbing. To discovering yourself and your flaws and every positive attribute you have. To first and old and new loves. To having your heart borken and never forgiving or forgetting. To the little things that make or break everyday. To growing-up when you think you can't grow-up anymore. To fitting in and not caring. To the partying and drinking and hook-ups. To changing and becoming who you really are. So, here's to high school
...the best years of our lives.
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:x:DeTrOiT FuRy:x:
Woo hoo..I'm going to watch some high quality arena football!. With my daddie I love football its so awesome.
And lets see $89.00 later..I have two tickets.
Section: 113
Row: A
Seats: 9-10
April 10, 2004 7:30 pm.
Oh man.. I'm so fucking pumped..haha
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| A lot like loving you. |
[21 Feb 2004|03:05pm] |
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I drank till i stumbled.. I drank till i fell.. When the drunk part was over it hurt me like hell.. Now i know about drinkin so i know one things true.. Bein drunks
*a lot like lovin you..*
Cause I loved till i stumbled.. I loved till i fell.. When the lovin was over it hurt me like hell... I know what a taste of the wrong love can do.. Bein drunks
*a lot like lovin you...*
I've drank till i stumbled... I love till i fell.. When the drunk part was over love hurt me like hell.. Now i know baout drinkin so i know one things true.. Being drunks
*a lot like lovin you...*
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