Just a quick little update from this morning. This Friday might entail a “for real” ski trip. I put “for real” in quotations because I was supposed to go climbing a couple weeks ago but there wasn’t any snow. And than BAM! These last 2 weekends we got dumped on. So yeah! I will prolly be going cross country skiing this weekend. And Stupid Head Kyle isn’t coming because he has to work. Kevin might come though but I haven’t really talked to him in a while so I don’t know. All I know is I’m really excited about that. Plus, I got Climbing Club starting tomorrow! I am just so excited right now and I haven’t even called Frank yet to find out if he got the promotion but I’m just really, really wired right now!!! *breathe……….breathe………..just breathe…..* wow. As soon as I get off, I’m callin Frank. I miss you so much Baby.

Just a quick little update from this morning. This Friday might entail a “for real” ski trip. I put “for real” in quotations because I was supposed to go climbing a couple weeks ago but there wasn’t any snow. And than BAM! These last 2 weekends we got dumped on. So yeah! I will prolly be going cross country skiing this weekend. And Stupid Head Kyle isn’t coming because he has to work. Kevin might come though but I haven’t really talked to him in a while so I don’t know. All I know is I’m really excited about that. Plus, I got Climbing Club starting tomorrow! I am just so excited right now and I haven’t even called Frank yet to find out if he got the promotion but I’m just really, really wired right now!!! *breathe……….breathe………..just breathe…..* wow. As soon as I get off, I’m callin Frank. I miss you so much Baby.

Hey All

Sorry it's been awhile. I tried updating this thing on Sunday and it ended up getting wiped out. So I'm not sure how long I can make it this time seeing as someone else might have to use this computer in a few but I'll try to cover the most important things.

School is going great, it's the 2nd half of the year. I only ended up having to take one mid term. When it comes to getting exempt from finals and midterms I love bragging so I'll tell ya sorry in advance. I ended up getting exempt from 2 finals! Since we have 7 periods a day, when comes time for testing we split up all the classes over 2 days. The first day we have 1st, 3rd, homeroom, and 6th period. The second day we have 2nd, 4th, 5th, and 7th. I was exempt from 1st(psychology) but had to take 3rd(english/marsh). No one like to stick around for homeroom and I was exempt from my 6th(govt). As far as the second day goes I had 2 student aides back to back followed up with the most kick ass screw off senior class ever invented that we didn't do anything in. 7th was band and I was not about to sit at school for a full day and do absolutely nothing until band. That's right, I stay home that second day and did not even think about getting out of bed until 12:15pm. It was great. I was the laziest person you could have found all day. Anyways, now I'm back at school and this semester I start socialology(which sounds a whole hell of alot funner than psychology) and speed writing(which could prove to be an excellent skill to have when I go to college). Speed writing teaches you how to abbreviate words quickly for note taking in college. But that's about it right now as far as school goes.

Things with Frank are awesome. I just can't wait to pick up where we left off with our game of 20 questions. Frank came over for dinner a couple nights ago and introduced a new game to my whole family (hey Frank, this is that contribution factor that I was commenting on). This game was called "Either Or". It's really quite simple. You pick two things of comparible value and you tell which you prefer. IE: Chocolate or Vinilla, Pepsi or Coke Cola, Chinease or Japanease, Stun gun or Taser. Like I said, simple. We played this game with my whole family. SO you see, Frank has now begun to contribute to that madness that he talks about. But it was great, seriously, I hadn't laugh that hard in a long time.

Went sledding with my cousin and her b/f on Sunday at Silver Park. It was so much fun, but I'm in so much pain it's not even funny. One of these days I'm gonna take Frank sledding, something he hasn't done since he was 4 years old! Isn't that just unheard of. I was gonna take him sledding a couple days ago when he came over but I wasn't sure if the lake was too high. SO I sent Frank and my bro to go check it out and they were gone for about an hour and 15 minutes. I was starting to think that maybe that wasn't a good idea and that I'd better go make sure that Frank was ok and they walked back in the door....and Franks entire right leg was soaked. Apparently, the lake was up to high...as Frank found out. His cell phone happened to be in the pocket on his right leg and it almost bit the dust, but thanks to the quick thinkin of my dad it was saved. Don't worry, he will go sledding this winter! That's a promise.

Well that's about all I have for the moment so I'll try to update more later. If anyone has left me a comment, I haven't forgot about you, I'm just procrastinating and I will get to it. If anyone talks to Frank today before 9am (it could happen) tell him good luck at his interview. Baby, you'll be fine. Like I told you, it's not me that's helping you, your just lookin at you reflection.

That's about it for right now though so I will have to update more later.

Sorry about that little interuption, but anyways, back to the daily happenings:

Wednesday
Wednesday was really funny, the whole way around. Tuesday, I decided to be cute and send Frank a text using Steph's phone. So Wednesday I sent him another one earlier in the day, like 2nd period. At lunch he had texted me back. And so went the rest of that day, just spent texting each other back and forth. It really made me want to go get a job just so I could get my own phone to text him. Frank's last day at the hotel was today so he was really happy and I talked to him over IM. At one point he got up to look out side and came back and told me that he wouldn't be surprised if I didn't have school. That's when I told him that that would make Thursday the Ultimate Best Day Ever, just to wake up and find school cancelled and know that later that day I would be seeing him. Plus, by this point it was about 3am and I get up at 6am so I went to bed hoping for at least a 2hour delay.

Thursday
My day started out in just the Best possible way ever. My dad came in and I thought for sure he was gonna tell me that I didn't hear my alarm clock (which wouldn't have surprised me at all seeing as how late, or early depending on how you look at it, I went to bed)and I was really late. But instead he told me that I didn't have school today. I couldn't have been more happier at that moment. I remember rolling over and snuggling down deeper and thinking "This is so unbelievably great, and it's only going to get greater"......I just didn't realize how much greater. So I got up around 10am and went online to tell Frank that my wish had come true but he already knew, he had sent me an e-mail tellin me that he read on some website that we were closed. So I e-mailed him back and after that I went back to sleep before my dad came home. Around 3:30 I left with Aletha and went into Alliance to pick up her flute and some candy (and for some odd reason my dad didn't believe us). When we were leaving Wal-Mart my dad called and said that Frank was already over there. So that made me want to get home real fast, but of course when your in a hurry you get behind the slowest person in the world. You just do, there's no denying it. So yeah, took an extra 5min longer to get home. And after that we had to wait for my mom to get hoe cause she wanted to say hi. After that, we finally got going. It was just so good to be with Frank, I was just so unbelievably content and happy. When we got to Frank's mom's house there were these 2 green trucks in the driveway. They were roof repairing people because a tree had fell on the house and caused a leak and they were repairing the roof and they had 2 big fans to try and take out the moisture in the walls and ceiling. So we went downstairs and watched Resident Evil:Apocalyps (I think I may have butchered that) which was really cool. I finally got to meet his mom and step-dad, which now, it's very clear to see why Frank is the wonderful, caring, person he is. After that we had to leave so I said good bye and told them that I was so glad to have gotten to meet them. Then we walked outside and stopped at the edge of the driveway and Frank looked at me and said "Ya know, I've heard your story as a friend and the more I hear the more I want to know about you. But I want to hear your story as someone more than a friend, I want to hear your story as my girlfriend.". I can not possibly describe how happy I felt right then, I just can't. Frank just has this way about him, and the way he says things that I just love. For the record, I said yes so it's official now and people can stop asking if we're together yet. lol. I don't know if any of his friends ever noticed how cute he is when he's embarassed, but he is. I love it when he gets so embarassed that he can't even look at me. It makes me laugh and want to cry because it's so adorable, hehehehe (I am so gonna get it later for this, lol) When we got back to my house, he told me a story....about this guy he knew..this 20yr old who found this girl that he really liked and was terrified to ask her to become his girlfriend but he did anyways.......(as familiar as it sounds it as familiar as it is,lol)......

Frank, this has truely been one of the best nights I've had in a long time. And I am so lucky to have you by my side no matter what you say. You mean the world to me and you make me so happy. I can't wait to see what happens next, all I know is that I'm with you and that right where I want to be. I miss you so much. Everytime I see you I just want to make you happy. Remember on the way home when you told me that this was all new for you and you were trying to get used to it....? It made me think of this song by Raschal Flatts and I just thought it was perfect for what you were saying, but I don't want you to worry about it. Just don't.....Your always so worried and you don't need to be,.....so stop.....and you never let me down, ever, so the song has some room for improvement....

See Me Through
Before we met I was free
I never had to worry about anyone but me
Now that boy is gone and in his place
There's a man who needs to hold you night and day
So if I stubble, if I fall
Forgive me I'm just learnin as I go along

See me through
You see me through
This aching heart has come so far to be with you
See me through
With angel eyes just look inside at all this love
I never want to lose
Y'See me through

I know sometimes
I let you down
But I'm still getting used to having you around
And if I ever meake you cry
There's nothing I won't do to make things right
I'm not perfect, that's for sure
A little time is all I'm asking for

See me through
You see me through
This aching heart has come so far to be with you
See me through
With angel eyes just look inside at all this love
I never want to lose
Y'See me through


Let's turn the page..........

Well, I'm sure you all read about the whole deer incident on New Years Eve if you read Frank's journal. If not than go read it. It's pretty accurate (the only thing I would do different would have been drag it on in more detail, lol).

Anyways, I was just completely missing Frank the whole time I was in Toledo, I just really wanted to come home and see him. I was really upset because I couldn't go with him to meet his family. I mean, c'mon, I've met my relatives plenty of times before. Hehehehehe.
Got home late Sunday.
I was really hoping to see Frank Monday but that didn't work out, .........but it was definatly worth the wait, which I'll get to in a moment.

Monday
I woke up with about 10min to be out the door and not miss the bus. I made it regretfully but forgot a ton of stuff which inevidably made my day hell from the start. I finished my culture review which I must say makes me feel absolutely no better and probably more worse than if I hadn't done it. Had it not been split up over break it might have been alot better too but I guess we'll never know. After that I got to tell Johanna about the deer and she laughed but was really concerned about me and Frank. I told her that we were fine but the car was a little banged up and I felt extremely bad about that (even though Frank keeps tellin me not to, I can't really help it because it was basically a trip for nothing and to top it all off, we couldn't even find the house). Than by 6th period I learned that James was in jail for domestic violence because he stood up to his step mom (like I had told him too*shakes head and looks down*) but he didn't even touch her. She was just being a bitch and called the copes and told them that she felt threaten and when a call is made and police come out, someone has to be removed and James was the lucky winner. That night Jame's dad called me because James he asked him too and told me what had happen and what was going to happen. I might have forgotten to add that James is 18 so he had to go to the Big House. From as shitty as it sounds I know that it will get alot better now. It's sad that it had to come down to someone going to jail for things to change but they did. So now everything just has to move forward. And before he had gotten arrested he was getting ready to go see his real mom who was in the ICU after complications for a surgery, so he wasn't about to see her until Tuesday. And let's just end today with a nice trip the dentist for a filling and to finish a root canal that was started last year around March. The dentist, he's a great guy with a really terrible occupation and I wish him the best. Than I came home and later that night I called Frank and talked to him for almost 3hours. I seriously do not know how he does it but he has this way of just making me so happy and forget about all the shit that had happened. I love that about him, I really do. Because of him I was able to go to bed with a huge smile on my face.

Tuesday
I went to school still worried about James but relatively fine knowing that I was one of 2 people who knew the full story. Went home, went to church practice, came home and was told that James had called and he was out of jail. So I called him back and he just kept saying "I miss you so much", just over and over again, and I felt really bad. I want to tell him that I like Frank but if I were to tell him now, that would make his life so much more miserable. After I got off the phone with James I called Frank and, like the night before, talked to him for almost 3hours. I've honestly, been missing him so much it's not even funny anymore (and it's really easy to write this now seeing as the wait is over). I don't know. And everyday I learn something new about him. I love that too.

I'm gonna switch s/n's here real quick so I can finish with Wednesday and Thursday which will just end up having an entry all their own. If you ask me they are completely deserving of it anyways. SO gimme a minute or 2.

Wow.

Okay, that last entry of mine deserves a little more of an explaination. It's kind of a funny and fast pace story so hold on:

12/16
Aletha came home from England the day before and ssurprised me by coming up to the school on the 16th (scared the hell out of me, I'll be a Saint forever! lol! yeah right) She informed me that we where going to the IGA and Taco Bell. It's not till after we get in the car that she tells me the reason we're going to Taco Bell (not just for the tacos I'll tell you that). : "We're going to Taco Bell to meet a guy named Frank who I met online." Instant red flag goes up :"What do you mean you met him online???", :"He's a friend of Jamie and Justine's and I've been talkin to him for a while and we wanted to meet each other and I didn't want to go alone",little red flag goes down (*casually*):"What does he look like?", (*casually*):"Don't know"......(*Casually*):"What kind of car does he drive?",(*casually*):"Don't know"...... a couple grandmas pull in.....couple moms pull in......an old guy goes walking past the front of the car making noises to himself...little red flag goes back up(*slightly panicking this time*):"How OLD is he?!?!?! Because if he's any older than 30 your gonna have to tell him that you couldn't find him cause I'm not going in there!!!!!", (*contemplating this rational thinking I posess*)......all of the sudden, this slick jet black dodge pulls in next to Aletha's Blazer.....than this "cool guy" gets out, got his shades all on like he's some sort of a bad ass and a go-ti like he's somebody and his little Italian look like he's related to some mob boss.......:"I bet that's him",....:"I sure hope so" Go figure, Franks the bad ass. So we had lunch and so begins the story.......

Sunday
We go over to Aletha's house to watch a couple movies (Frank, Me, and Brad...........oh yeah, and Aletha,....he he he). We watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind", which was a pretty cool movie but very involving so if you watch it at home don't be surprised if every 2 minutes in the beginning you have to look around and say "Now what the hell was that all about!?!?". Than we watch "Collateral", which seemed to me to be a pretty good movie, however, not all my attention was on the movie so you might have to ask someone who was paying attention (I'm not sure Frank's full attention was on the movie either, he he he). After that I had to go home but as soon as I got into my room I realized that I had to see Frank again.

Monday
I get a call around the afternoon sometime from some Frank guy (go figure). We make plans that night for him to come over and meet my family (which, coinsedentally(or however you spell it), my mom and I had been discussing. That night when Frank comes over and fought to keep his life when he was attacked by our huge guard dog, he got to meet my family. Was I scared? I little.......alright, alot. *yeesh* We ended up watching "Signs" and to give him a little taste of what things are sort of like for us with a big family, we put in "Cheaper by the Dozen". And then he had to leave, which is my only complaint for the night. When I got back in the house I kept thinking how crazy it is to miss someone only after the 3rd time you see them

Tuesday
We make plans for Frank to come over agian. Dan calls around 3 and says he's bored and he's got a new Christmas present he wants to show me. SO me, being the nice person that I am, says that he can come over and have dinner and if he wants to can even stick around to meet Frank. Dan comes over around 5:30pm or so and shows me his present (a '98 GMC, lucky him) and he conviently brought "Blue Collar Comedy Tour" which unfortuately, we couldn't watch because of my bros and sis, but instead we picked the very child appropriate movie "Saving Private Ryan"......work with me here. And in case Frank didn't get enough popcorn from the night before the kids made another 8 bags. Like Sunday (and Monday for that matter) my attention was again slightly diverted toward another more interesting attention grabber. And again, my only complaint of the night was that Frank had to leave. I just didn't want to let him go.

Wednesday
Frank and I finally had some time alone as he took me out to Rocknes for dinner. Never been there before and I found out I love it. lol. It was great to just sit there and listen to him and get to know him. We just spent the next 3 hours telling stories and trying to find out why we were just so drawn to each other. Than we went back to my house and had a whole 5min to ourselves before my family came back from the YMCA. Why couldn't it have been longer. Than once again, the worst part of the evening came and Frank had to leave:'(. It's like I had just hit the tip of the ice berg and he had to leave. There were just so many questions that I wanted to ask about so many things and so many more stories and he had to go.

So now I sit here, missing him. Wanting to have another chance to find out more, just anything, anything at all. Find out why I miss him so much and why I think about him constantly. Before this I couldn't get Arin off my mind. And I'm just not used to having anybody else on my mind as much as Frank is. There's just so much more I want to know. It's just so weird because I know almost nothing about him (with the acception of the last few days) but I miss him. And that's the hardest thing for me. If I knew when I would see him next I would be okay but not knowing when I get to see him next drives me insane. I just want to know him. This is crazy to miss someone this much but I do. He just does that to me everytime I see him. Everytime. I wanna know what happens next!

As far as Arin goes, we'll see when I get back to school. I'm kinda curious as to what he'll say. I already told Ed who wasn't to happy at all. Not sure if I'll talk to him anytime soon. SO if I go missing......

Who knows, all I know is right now I want to see how everything plays out. I want to know more about Frank, as I'm sure he does about me.

I'll try to keep this a little better updated but no promises. Talk to everyone later

Frank I miss you terribly right now as I've no doubt told you several times but it's true. I just want to see you. By tomorrow you could even call it a need.

~Dawn~

ummmm.................whoa

lol........lmao. Never had things happen so fast. Frank, I miss you. This is so crazy. lol. I've just been laughing and missing you ever since Sunday. And I can't wait to see what happens next. Like I've told you, I've never missed someone so much so fast after meeting them. I would love to undate this more but I'm getting a really bad headache typing this in the dark and all. Maybe Frank will just update his journal and explain this whole rocket of events. lol!

talk to everyone later

ummmm.................whoa

lol........lmao. Never had things happen so fast. Frank, I miss you. This is so crazy. lol. I've just been laughing and missing you ever since Sunday. And I can't wait to see what happens next. Like I've told you, I've never missed someone so much so fast after meeting them. I would love to undate this more but I'm getting a really bad headache typing this in the dark and all. Maybe Frank will just update his journal and explain this whole rocket of events. lol!

talk to everyone later

ummmm.................whoa

lol........lmao. Never had things happen so fast. Frank, I miss you. This is so crazy. lol. I've just been laughing and missing you ever since Sunday. And I can't wait to see what happens next. Like I've told you, I've never missed someone so much so fast after meeting them. I would love to undate this more but I'm getting a really bad headache typing this in the dark and all. Maybe Frank will just update his journal and explain this whole rocket of events. lol!

talk to everyone later

Just got back from my aunt's house. The time is correct. While we were there I found out alot of things and very few (if any) made me happy. First off, I know I told a couple people that I was planning on going to PTI for college and I was planning on getting an apartment up there with my cousin, Jen. I had suggested to her mom that maybe over break Jen and I should go up there and look for an apartment for next year when I'll be up there. Well, that's when I was informed that since Jen had a job at a Jeep store (that she loves to pieces) she was going to stay at home. And the only way that I was going to live in PA was in an apartment with her. Well since she ain't going that kinda knocks that idea out of the clear blue sky for me. Extremely disappointing. Than my aunt (trying to be helpful) suggests that I could live there with them. Now, God knows that I love my aunt dearly, but I simply don't have enough patience to live with her and visa versa (but she'll deny it openly till it happens) and that's not anybodys fault, that's just a fact. Besides, they are only abotu 30min closer than we are (it takes 50min to get there from their house). What's getting worse is that my dad is saying that it might be my only choice if I want to go there. I have yet to resort to that plan. I believe that there is another way and I'll find it. Even if I have to drive back and forth everyday. If I'm living that close to home, there is no reason why I can't just live at home. That would just drive the hell out of me (which wouldn't be bad if it wern't so painful). Than Jen has a b/f and I'm really happy for her, really I am, I just feeling like he's getting all her attention. We used to do so much stuff together and now we haven't done anything in like forever. I think the last time we did something was at least 6 months ago. I'm just upset because she's my favorite cousin. He's takin her on a cruise in April. I was really excited for her and he's very nice. I just feel like the time we spend together is slowly lessening. Damn, I hate growing up! The only reason that I would consider staying at her house would be because of her. I don't mind spending the night there every once in a while but when I have to come home everynight and.....just......live there.........I feel like I'm intruding. I mean, with all the work I could have and have to go online and tie up their phone lines and eat their food and use their utilities when I could drive a half hour to my home.........I just can't. And then every now and then I'll do something wrong and my uncle will come in and yell at me. I want to be able to walk into my own kitchen and get something to eat and not feel guilty about it. I want to be able to be at my house and spend 45min in the shower (no, I don't let the water run the whole time, like less than 1/2) and not get yelled at for being in there too long (or get yelled at by my own dad). I mean if they lived closer to the college, maybe, but with me living only 30min away? Either I live in an apartment with Jen or I live at home. I don't want and can't take anything else. Anyways

Ed is supposed to come over sometime this week, he has a Christmas present for me and I'm a little worried. He asked my mom for my head size...that's right, my head size. That really worries me alot for a number of reasons. One, I don't like people other than my mom asking for a certain size of clothing I wear. Second, I'm really not a big hat person (assuming, of course, that it is a hat). Third, because I don't have time nor money to get anything for him (I think I'll just make him buckeyes and fudge, or maybe just buckeyes because I'm lazy). And forth, because it's coming from Ed. He is truely one of my closest friends, but I honestly don't feel anymore than that. And I know that he desperately wants me to and I feel horrible. I'm just scared of getting something from him because of the hidden meaning that could be behind it (i.e.: work with me for a moment and assume it's a teddy bear, but he's giving it to me to signify that he wants me to keep this bear always and each time I see it, just know that he loves me). I feel bad because he is one of my friends but I just don't feel the same. And I've told him that but I don't know if he get's it. I don't know.

I've just been thinking about Arin alot lately too. About what happened before we went on break ("Hypnotise the Moon") and everything else. Like he won't pay that much attention to me in school but when I went out to his tree farm he was so happy to see me. Sometime I wonder if it's worth me holding out any hope that this will change when I graduate. I really want to but I'm scared to find out. I just want him to be happy but he's to damn lazy to do anything about his situation and that hurts me so bad. I hate seeing him as sad as he is and nto motivated to get out of it or at least try something different to improve it. I could see us together. I want to see us together come true. But I don't know if he sees the same thing or if he even wants to. Maybe everything I've thought I've just been wrong. That would hurt like no other. I just wish I knew what to do, what to say to make him feel better, to get him motivated and see that it doesn't have to be this way. God, why can't he see that? Every time I think about it I almost want to cry. I hate seeing anyone I care about in so much pain and know that I can't do anything to help it.

I didn't get to finish my culture review(a psychology project that involves talking about a situation in our lives that greatly impacted us, basically a story about why we are the way we are) so now I sit and wait with this dark cloud hanging over me till school resumes. Kinda sucks.

But yeah,
"....I could go on and on and on,
but that's another song..."

Talk to everyone later!

After only getting 2 hours of sleep, I bring a gift bag full of presents for my friends and half of them decided to skip school and not tell me. Sometimes I hate being a senior. The previous day, Arin (aka if you know who that is) had been yelling at me asking me why I hadn't made him buckeyes this year. Since I was going to I didn't wanna say it so when I left the room Johanna yelled at him and called him an ass hole and told him that I was planning on making him fudge and buckeyes. And all he could say was "She was?". Then when I came back, after he knew, he still acted like a jerk! I was mad, so I left the room again and Johanna was like "you are so mean, you'd better get her something!". So I came into the room and called him by his first name in front of alot of people who didn't even know that it was his first name and gave him his stupid bag of fudge and buckeyes and told him just how lucky he was that he was there. And, no, he didn't get me anything. I was so mad. Extremely, mad, and tired and barely able to stay awake, I couldn't even eat lunch without feeling sick so Johanna went and got his keys and we went and slept in his room. Then when he came back from lunch ha had figured out how to play cds on his new computer so he was playing all this country music (I love country music) and then he put on this one Travis Tritt (I think) cd and he was like "Dawn listen to this", and it was the song "Hypnotise the Moon". I almost wanted to cry, I hadn't heard that song in like forever and I love it. I just can't figure out why he wanted to make sure that I was listening. I mean I know why I would want him to say that but I don't know why he said that. I'm not sure what to think when it comes to him anymore. All I can do is hope that the 2 are the same.

Oh well, that's about it for right now. Keep kewl and I'll talk to ya later.

Yeah, I know, I was having a little computer trouble............it also helps if you're sober when you're putting up a new entry. Oh well, no harm done.

At the moment I'm working tirlessly through the night to make buckeyes and fudge for all my friends who think that I do nothing for them. Well, someone has to love them I guess. I know it's kinda sad but that's all I got for right now. Maybe if I had gotten to talk to Frank I might have had more (;

See everyone later

I'm starting to feel a little better about Sunday. After talking with Johanna and all. It's so funny and it really makes me laugh. I'm just so not used to leaning on anybody and so it's a shock to actually hear something from someone else that I can use and take away. Like I said, this whole having someone that knows exactly what to say exactly when I need to hear it is weird. That's basically what's been on my mind so I might have something later. Maybe not. Oh well.

I'm starting to feel a little better about Sunday. After talking with Johanna and all. It's so funny and it really makes me laugh. I'm just so not used to leaning on anybody and so it's a shock to actually hear something from someone else that I can use and take away. Like I said, this whole having someone that knows exactly what to say exactly when I need to hear it is weird. That's basically what's been on my mind so I might have something later. Maybe not. Oh well.

I'm starting to feel a little better about Sunday. After talking with Johanna and all. It's so funny and it really makes me laugh. I'm just so not used to leaning on anybody and so it's a shock to actually hear something from someone else that I can use and take away. Like I said, this whole having someone that knows exactly what to say exactly when I need to hear it is weird. That's basically what's been on my mind so I might have something later. Maybe not. Oh well.

I'm starting to feel a little better about Sunday. After talking with Johanna and all. It's so funny and it really makes me laugh. I'm just so not used to leaning on anybody and so it's a shock to actually hear something from someone else that I can use and take away. Like I said, this whole having someone that knows exactly what to say exactly when I need to hear it is weird. That's basically what's been on my mind so I might have something later. Maybe not. Oh well.

I'm starting to feel a little better about Sunday. After talking with Johanna and all. It's so funny and it really makes me laugh. I'm just so not used to leaning on anybody and so it's a shock to actually hear something from someone else that I can use and take away. Like I said, this whole having someone that knows exactly what to say exactly when I need to hear it is weird. That's basically what's been on my mind so I might have something later. Maybe not. Oh well.

I'm starting to feel a little better about Sunday. After talking with Johanna and all. It's so funny and it really makes me laugh. I'm just so not used to leaning on anybody and so it's a shock to actually hear something from someone else that I can use and take away. Like I said, this whole having someone that knows exactly what to say exactly when I need to hear it is weird. That's basically what's been on my mind so I might have something later. Maybe not. Oh well.

Yeah finally got one of these bad boys going. So now to keep is going....

I haven't decided if I wanna try to explain or give any type of background on me or just jump right in. I tell ya what I'll do a little of both and if you have any questions about anything just leave 'em on the message board.

I don't really have a b/f to say anything about. Friends are kinda on the minimal side but high in quality. They basically will include Johanna, Aletha, most likely Frank (he's a newbee) and sometimes JD.
The people that I'll prolly complain about the most are Arin("It's 5 o-clock somewhere" for those of you who may not have understood who that was at first)Katie, Dave, Dan and prolly some other people too occationally.
And people who I'll always be in contemplation about are Ed and James.

It'll prolly take a while for me to give each of those people a proper introduction but it'll eventually happen.

That's just a short little intro to the beginning of your typical high school soap opera. But hey, what high school doesn't have one?

Anyways, I kinda got hit with something I never really thought would happen before. This morning when we were getting ready for church my dad is trying to get my brother, Dustin, to get going. He told him to go comb his hair and Dustin screamed back "I already did!" and so my dad went to go smack his face for being so disrespectful. Dustin happened to be standing in just the right place and when my dad hit him, his head hit the corner of the door right on his temple and it busted open.
Now, anyone who knows me or knows my family knows that none of us were ever abused. My parents believe in strictly discipline. That's why I am the person that I am today. I have the utmost respect for any authority figure and I have my dad to thank for that. And now I'm just really worried that his reputation might be put in jepardy because of my stupid brother.
In my life my dad is my rock and I can't stand the idea that something as stupid like this might cause more trouble than there ever should have been. In my opinon, Dustin had what was coming to him but that's not the way it's gonna look to anybody that sees it (my mom was contemplating taking him into the ER to get stitches and she's a nurse). Right now all I guess I I can do is wait and see what happens tomorrow.
After talking with Johanna about this she really helped me to realize that I just have to and need to put this in God's hands. But because I'm human, I worry. And especially since it's my dad I'm really infuriated with Dustin. He's someone in my opinion that doesn't realize the effect that this could have on dad. He doesn't realize that there's a chance that something might get started that can't be stopped.
I do feel a little bit better since I talked to Johanna though. It's kinda funny, I'm not really used to leaning on anybody since I lost Katie but that's a whole other story.

That's about it for me right now. I gotta go get ready for school tomorrow(hopefully we'll get a snowday and I won't need to worry about anything). But yeah. Well, hope I didn't bore anybody too much, leave a message and I'll get back with you.

Thanks so much for being there Johanna. You are really one of my closest friends if not the closest.

Yeah finally got one of these bad boys going. So now to keep is going....

I haven't decided if I wanna try to explain or give any type of background on me or just jump right in. I tell ya what I'll do a little of both and if you have any questions about anything just leave 'em on the message board.

I don't really have a b/f to say anything about. Friends are kinda on the minimal side but high in quality. They basically will include Johanna, Aletha, most likely Frank (he's a newbee) and sometimes JD.
The people that I'll prolly complain about the most are Arin("It's 5 o-clock somewhere" for those of you who may not have understood who that was at first)Katie, Dave, Dan and prolly some other people too occationally.
And people who I'll always be in contemplation about are Ed and James.

It'll prolly take a while for me to give each of those people a proper introduction but it'll eventually happen.

That's just a short little intro to the beginning of your typical high school soap opera. But hey, what high school doesn't have one?