| Nothing to Fear |
[27 Jul 2003|01:22pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 indifferent |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Ace of Spades-Motohead |
] |
Haven't written. It's been a monotony of sorts.....
Nothing new. Student Loan worries and Financial Aid Problems. If I dont get cash it's all my rent's fault. Why, you ask? Because the Grue's parents never get their taxes in on time, that's why. I filed my FASFA in late May, when March 1st is the deadline. I begged my rents to file their y\taxes on time. My mom bitchedb at me when we filed them, sayiong she hoped I was happy. Well shit, Mom, do you want me to turn out like you or go to college?
But I babble. They're paying the 435.00 if I can't get Aid, plus my books. And art Supplies.
Fuck.
I'm 19, 20 next year. And I'm waiting for the moment when I begin to feel like an adult. I still feel like I'm 5, 13 at the oldest. The Little Idiot. I mean, when I pictured myself 20 I pictured a mature adult who knew who they were and where they were going. I tyhought all adults were like that. Maybe not.....
I just...I'm so confused. Maybe I never got out of adolencense or something.
Or maybe I'm the only person on the face of the Earth who knows what the hell is going on.
Which is pretty damn scary
I just got over a rotten bout of Summer Flu.
Don't Panic.
|
|
| Pragmism not Idealism |
[27 Jul 2003|09:27pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 apathetic |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Return to Zork MP3s |
] |
Productive day. Started the exercise bike again.
Things get deeper as information, info we need, is kept from us by our own blood. Communications have been severed and the innocent are the only ones hurt. I could quit being vauge but I decide not to. It would just be better.
Poor Morphius....
He is tired and his leg bothers him. I feel like I'm holding him back from a laid back life for some reason. The simple single-guy's life. 'Life's a bitch when you're dating one'. Maybe he would be happy. I'm just his bag of dead weight.
Hmm...I was a sad a moment ago but now I can't rememeber why.....Is it because I still haven't taken my permit test?
I better do it soon....
Going to see Selene tomorrow.....
Sigh..........
|
|