Blurty? Hello?   
10:58pm 09/10/2004
  Holy shit did i forget about blurty or what?  
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I Scream You Scream We All Scream For Morphine!   
09:16pm 30/06/2004
 
mood: apathetic
music: Mr Crowley- Ozzy Osbourne
Hellooooooooooooo blurtiers. I haven't updated this in forever, have i? i figured it was about time. nothing interesting really happening, my fear of boys is starting to decrease. gots a crush right now. might get to see ricci soon, lets all cross our fingers. *pauses* i have summer school starting next week, which sucks. fuck math. fuck fuck fuck math. summer school..grrrr. at least raj will be there, which should offer some sort of entertainment. i wonder if he still thinks im a witch. well thats the end of that.
 
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Whoa   
04:37pm 11/05/2004
 
mood: uncomfortable
music: Love Her Madly-The Doors
Well, i havent updated this in a very long time. mostly because i forgot my login name. kinda like how i forgot my locker combination back in october. anyways, nothing really happening right now. i hate boys. i dont want a boyfriend for so long. i hurt people. the end.
 
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Fat fat fat fat fat fat fat.   
10:08pm 04/03/2004
 
mood: aggravated
music: Roxanne- The Police
going on a diet. fat. fat fat fat. diet. im gonna eat a jamacian patty for lunch, and something for dinner. thats it. no snacking for jessica. furthermore, im very confused, sexually. i might elaborate soon. doubtful.
 
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Advil rocks my socks   
07:45pm 01/03/2004
 
mood: bouncy
music: All Apologies- Nirvana
I love advil. no matter how shitty i feel, advil makes it all better. unlike tylonol. DOWN WITH TYLONOL! i was really out of it yesterday, dont remember much. dont remember much of anything lately. kyle and i are gonna go out next year. woohoo! eytan is coming up this weekend, i cant wait. elliot has been teaseing me to get me horny cuz he knows we wont do anything. god dammit i hate guys. fuck bisexualism, im becoming a lesbian.
 
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Spikies   
07:03pm 24/02/2004
 
mood: bouncy
music: Drain The Blood- The Distillers
Well today was another day. and a better one i suppose. jackie and i are close again. it had felt like she had forgotten me lately. i just got off the phone with eytan, i dont think his dad likes me lol. charlie has post-poned his plans for world domination until AFTER march break. he must party. ewies. im wearing speenie's sweater, and it smelled bad so i sprayed it with this body spray, but now it smells REALLY bad and makes me sneeze. bah. im wearing track pants. they are soo comfy. they were my daddies black track pants. hurrah! im in a really great mood. not a mood to mope on the internet, thats for sure. oooo pancakes time ^_^
 
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blick   
01:22pm 22/02/2004
 
mood: annoyed
music: Little Gothic- Seraphim Shock
Have you ever had one of those days where everyone and everything annoys the hell out of you? well im having one of those weeks. i cant stand people. im becoming a hermit. the end.
 
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Gloob   
11:40am 13/02/2004
 
mood: sore
music: Bauhaus- Kingdom Coming
I got my wisdom teeth out yesterday. all 4 of em. i got home at 3 and i was bleeding, and it didnt stop till 10:20. it was frustrateing. but its stopped now. so yay. im starving. i cant eat solid foods. well i probably could, but my mom isnt letting me. i ate some cupcakes last night. i dont care if i wasnt supposed to eat....im fat, i need food often. although ive been trying to lose weight. so many pictures of perfect women surround me, its hard to expect me to be happy with my bod. my tummy hurts. i have stitches in my mouth. hooray for advil!!!! i love advil. it kicks the shit out of tylonol and midol. it works so fast :D i need a shower, i smell. i havent gotten much sleep lately. i slept last night, but i woke up at 9 because my mouth ached so bad. didnt help that i went to bed after 1. im gonna paint my nails. and listen to my bauhaus.
 
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My Dog Is Stareing At My Food....   
05:15pm 11/02/2004
 
mood: creative
music: Depeche Mode- People Are People
Hmm....I havent updated in a while. i started to a while ago, but got distracted by the awful hot dogs i made. eytan came up to visit me. fucking hottie. spence's sauna has been defiled...mwahahaha. my dog has gorgeous eyes. they are blue around the pupil, then they go to white, then a ring of blue..and there is no white part when she looks directly at me. and it looks like her eyes are made of tissue paper inside. hmm. dont quite know what to write about. there is a saxophone playing rasin beside me. hes the coolest. im in the mood to paint. i have a million different ideas flooding my brain for artowrk, but my sketchbooks are at spence's. bah. every one i have here is full :(. im reading the mists of avalon by marion zimmer bradley. its really good. i cant put it down. i suppose it helps that i know the whole legend already. i just like reading it from a different perspective, other than the harsh christian tale. my lord i hate christianity. or any religon which believes in the one god. im annoyed by the catholics. they were so nasty and corrupt. now they are just corrupt. if the bible proves the existence of god, then comic books prove the existence of superman...i forget who said that. but it makes me think. Hmmmmm. well im off to paint or read. farewell.
 
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Lonely   
02:50pm 28/01/2004
 
mood: lonely
music: Acid Bath-Fading Away
welll....havent updated in a while. im so lonely lol. all my friends are at exams today, and i finished yesterday. hmm well i have a boyfriend now. eytannnn <3 hes so sexyful. Acid Bath is a fucking amazing band. i cant belive i didnt appreciate them this much before. i love the song bleed me an ocean. wheeeeeeeeeeeee. i learnt some new songs on guitar. journey to the end by rancid and the beginning of tangerine by zeppelin. yahoo. go jessica. our compliments cola kind of sucks. kind of really sucks. i tried to dread my hair today. then i took them out because it looked gay. now my hair just feels gross but im too lazy to wash it out. my mother has a constant headache. a 15 year headache lol. my dog has black all over her face. you'd think she'd learn from the first time she stuck her head in the fireplace. sigh. alright well time to play some guitar. or wash out all the fucking hair products.
 
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Sigh   
03:08pm 17/01/2004
 
mood: cheerful
music: The Number Of The Beast- Iron Maiden
Well it seems im all alone today. woohoo!! im finished all my laundry and my room is clean. maybe i'll do some painting. im in a good mood today. i think cassie is in nobleton, but as it stands no one has called to get me to go to spence's or jackie's, so i can only assume that they dont want me there. shit i need to take back my library books, i owe them a fortune by now...
 
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Orange Juice   
10:44pm 14/01/2004
 
mood: devious
Such a fucking good mood. I have no idea why. Might because i was just watching porn and listening to sabbath, and now im talking to chris and listening to the monkees. i love chris, he makes me so happy....Im in a playful mood. i dont think they have a little bobbing dude for that emotion though. im so sick. i keep coughing and my throat is killing me. but at the moment, i dont care. too happy. i need sleep though. and i need to clean my room...maybe this weekend i'll do it when im not at jackie's. that is if jackie even wants me over. i hope so, jackie is the best fuck ever......^_^
 
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Blah   
07:30pm 13/01/2004
 
mood: sick
music: Mother - Danzig
soooo fucking sick man. i think i have the plague or something. my mom is still mad at me from yesterday. shes giving me the silent treatment lol. and she calls me a child. ah well. i couldnt care less right now. i just want to feel better. i feel like im gonna sneeze/cough/hurl. that would suck. i need a nap. another nap. maybe i'll watch beatlegeuse. lydia rox my sox. i want her hats. blah i cant write any more in this thingy, not enough mind power right now to think of anything else thats happened to me other than SICK. maybe i'll die of the plague.. then they can wrap me up and throw me in a big pile of other victims and i can help spread the disease even after my death, mwahahahaha!!!
 
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ARGH   
05:00pm 12/01/2004
 
mood: drained
music: Clumsy-Our Lady peace
i just had a huge fight with my mom. lecureing me about how horrible of a person i am. thats it essentially anyway. didnt help my "everyone hates me" attitude. im in such a horrible mood now. even worse than before. i cried when i was yelling at my mom. i was so fucking frustrated. thats the only time i really cry...when im frustrated with someone. she doesnt understand anything about me. she doesnt care. yet she claims she loves me, what a load of horse shit. venting needed...or crying. i cant decide. which is weird cuz i never cry. im just so tired and so sick of everything. i want to hit something or totally break down crying. i wish i could live under my bed. its so nice there. quiet. and...nice. so now im grounded. which is pretty pointless because i wasnt allowed to go anywhere tonight anyway, and for the rest of the week i have homework. i dont understand why im grounded. for standing up for myself? apparantly thats wrong now. maybe i'll just stop standing up for myself all together. nah, no one else stand up for me. besides, its just not in my personality to sit there mopeing while someone tries to make me cry. instead i confuse them and then try to make them cry. doesnt usually work though. im not nessesarily an agressive person, not by any means. im more defensive. i dont attack people, i just stand up for myself when im forced to be a victim. i have no idea why im telling this to the world, i think its mostly because im too fucking lazy to get up and walk my big ass over to my bag to get my journal. i just want to sleep...i want to what i told andy i should have done. run till im exhausted, then fall in a ditch and wait to die. wouldnt that be nice.
 
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Blah   
03:35pm 12/01/2004
 
mood: distressed
music: Stop Children Whats That Sound?- Jefferson Airplane
Today was a bad day. i cant find my sex pistols hoodie anywhere. although i got my sabbath one back. yahoo. people keep telling me that emma took my hoodie. i'd like to think she didnt. im in such an awful mood. tonight is probably going to turn out to be the only night this week that i dont have homework, and my mom is making me stay home and clean. ugh. i want to crawl into a hole and die. everyone hates me. ive said that before, and people yelled at me, and im saying it again, and i know people will yell at me again. i dont learn. but i really do think that people are getting fed up with me. i really need ricci to talk to right now. shes the best for advice. im thinking about way too much shit. nothing that i'd like to make public, however...i feel so tired and blah and...blah. i need someone to talk to. no one is on, and im starting to resent the phone. but maybe i'll call dane....
 
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Whee   
10:15pm 11/01/2004
 
mood: restless
music: Jessica's Suicide-> Bad Astronaut
Well, Im in a really good mood. i wasnt but now i am. cept when this semester is over im gonna miss kyle so much. i only ever talk to him in class. outside of class im like scared to talk to him cuz i dont want to embarass him. oh well. andy and i are gonna rob a bank. hes gonna wear a suit and im gonna wear a 30's style dress, and were gonna be like bonnie and clyde. ^_^ were also gonna be ghost hunters. yay. i saw my ghost last night. he made me laugh when he was trying to hide from me. he realized i was laughing and started like, exaggerateing his walking and it made it even funnier. i love my ghost. i'd be sleepy but i ate half a bag of chocolate chips. wheeee. hmm well im gonna end this now before i start rambleing even more pointlessly. i need to do something productive...
 
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sigh   
01:15pm 11/01/2004
 
mood: mischievous
music: Stabbing Westward-Haunting Me
Well. This weekend was pretty fun i guess. i played dress up like usual. i'd make a kick ass pirate. i watched the league of extrodinary gentlemen (which wasnt very good and would suck even more if i didnt know all the stories to go with it) and practical magic, an old favourite. i love that movie lol. its inspired my next haircut. ^_^
Mikeypoo is gonna come over and im gonna ass rape him with my strap-on. yay. that movie always inspires me to try harder with my clothes...then within an hour im wearing a big hoodie and pj pants again. sigh. im in an artistic mood. then again, im always in an artistic mood. i want to paint but....blah. i didnt get as much sleep this weekend as i hoped i'd get. i need high heel boots so bad. lace up ones. with pointy toes hehe. some height would be nice. i also need a jacket. i need too many things. so much for being a minimalist. im actually pretty awake for having no sleep. i wanna go somewhere and annoy someone lol. or maybe just dance. or maybe just walk to the library and return my library books which are about 3 weeks overdue...nah, time to sketch ^.^
 
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sigh   
01:05pm 11/01/2004
 
mood: mischievous
music: Stabbing Westward-Haunting Me
Well. This weekend was pretty fun i guess. i played dress up like usual. i'd make a kick ass pirate. i watched the league of extrodinary gentlemen (which wasnt very good and would suck even more if i didnt know all the stories to go with it) and practical magic, an old favourite. i love that movie lol. its inspired my next haircut. ^_^
Mikeypoo is gonna come over and im gonna ass rape him with my strap-on. yay. that movie always inspires me to try harder with my clothes...then within an hour im wearing a big hoodie and pj pants again. sigh. im in an artistic mood. then again, im always in an artistic mood. i want to paint but....blah. i didnt get as much sleep this weekend as i hoped i'd get. i need high heel boots so bad. lace up ones. with pointy toes hehe. some height would be nice. i also need a jacket. i need too many things. so much for being a minimalist. im actually pretty awake for having no sleep. i wanna go somewhere and annoy someone lol. or maybe just dance. or maybe just walk to the library and return my library books which are about 3 weeks overdue...nah, time to sketch ^.^
 
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Prophet   
09:05pm 08/01/2004
 
mood: contemplative
music: Wonderful-Everclear
well. im back from my tutors. sad thing happened. 2 students from king died in a car crash. weird thing is, we predicted it...me, jackie, elisha and erin were reading the plaque in our school at the beginning of the year which showed all the deaths since the construction. we found a pattern and realized that someone would die at our school this year, if the pattern was right. and low and behold. the curse of king city secondary school lives on. so sad though, even though i have no idea who they were. i'll probably realize it if there is an assembly tomorrow and they show pictures or something. sigh. this is another reason bad drivers shouldnt be on the road, espically arrogant SUV drivers who cut off teeage girls. RIP Christine and Patricia...
 
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so my business teacher called me a conformist the other day...   
03:59pm 08/01/2004
 
mood: cranky
music: Rebel Yell-HIM
My science teacher called yesterday to inform my parents i was "slipping". and my business teacher told my class that we were conformists. i found that pretty interesting. espically considering i was dressed as a faerie. makes me wonder what i was conforming to. aidan's shirt made me happy today. DAMN YOU CHARLIE BROWN! with a picture of pregnant lucy on it. and it was pink so it matched her hair. hehe. im lonely. and grumpy. and hungry. wha wha whaa. I have to get tutored twice a week now. because im getting 51 in science. blah. lol im getting 51 and im slipping, and josh is getting 50 and he has no hope of passing. my teacher hates him. sigh. ah well, im sure i'll pass the course. i understand physics, it was just chemistry that was a bitch. i dont wanna get tutored tonight. i want to sleep. if jessica doesnt have her nap she gets cranky....
 
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