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Saturday, September 27th, 2003
3:24 pm

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1:21 pm
Chelsea said this:
God, I wish I could go back to then. I wish I hadn't given myself the scars. I wish I could eat normally without counting calories or feeling guilty. I wish I wasn't the cruel, hateful person I've become. I wish I was someone else.

And it got me thinking...If you want the details go to: http://www.caleida.com/users/facethetruth513

And please, nobody comments, if anyone ever actually does read this, please comment, I love comments.

Oh and by the way, I'm not going to Great Adventure, it was cancelled.

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Thursday, September 25th, 2003
6:03 pm - It's been a while...
It's been kind of a while since I really updated...

Ok so here goes...

Alex is my boyfriend, he has another girlfriend(doesn't bother me, I actually told him to). I'm going to Great Adventure this weekend with guess who....You give up? Rachel and Alex. Chelsea got a call back for Emma in J&H. Ms. Yardeni called today to send me to a fucking psychiatrist...I thought she was cool too. Alex still has not fucking called me, that dick(Just Kidding...). Andrew and me keep making fun of that CAGNA. Like we started this thing "JAMIE HAS A PENIS" and so today he comes up and yells in my ear "JAMIE" and I look, but he moved to fast, then he yells in the other one "HAS" so then I say "A" and he goes "PENIIIS." Then the rest of the lunch period one of us would say "JAMIE" and the other would go "HAS" and so-on, we even decided to steal some cheerleader's pom-pom thingys and make up a cheer, and we are going to strap on dildos and make fun of her. We had fun at lunch, the two of us have that PMS...wait no...ESP thing going on there. I didn't get to poke Josh or Ted today....I wanted to cry. I look forward to my pokes everyday! I guess I'll have to poke them extra tomorrow. And I didn't get my hugs from them either...GRR. I'll update again later.

The journals that I have been focusing on lately are my Xanga http://www.xanga.com/mizzmorbid513
and my Caleida http://www.caleida.com/~facethetruth513

current mood: chipper
current music: "Basket Case"--Greenday

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Saturday, September 13th, 2003
3:18 pm
Rikki Rockett
You're Rikki Rockett! Cool Poison drummer with a
love of animals and music alike. Riding the
wind or surfing the net, everyone's your
friend. But your good time attitude never
stops you from voicing your opinion. You
always stand for what you believe.

Which member of POISON are you?
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current mood: jolly
current music: "Turn the Page"--Metallica

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3:00 pm
I hate you so bad
you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your
not ashamed of it.

which happy bunny are you?
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current mood: amused
current music: "Every Rose Has it's Thorn"--Poison

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2:21 pm
Nightmare Before Christmas!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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current mood: chipper
current music: "Unforgiven"--Metallica

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2:07 pm
My inner child is six years old today

My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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current mood: awake
current music: "Enter Sandman"--Metallica

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1:41 pm

You are The Trick is to Keep Breathing. You're very
depressed. Your thoughts linger to death. You
just want someone to understand you.

Which Garbage Song Are You?
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current mood: bored
current music: "Only Happy When it Rains"--Garbage

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Wednesday, September 10th, 2003
5:46 pm - thingy
1. Who did you last get angry with? (please help me) alex...and i really really regret it
2. What is your weapon of choice? machete(sp)
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? yes.
4. How about of the same sex? That bitch would bleed.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? alex g for smoking
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? ill have a grudge but if its my friends i guarentee ill forget about it by tomorrow, with the exception of some things

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? excercise
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? well it depends if youre counting my nocturnal-ness
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: umm...alex? ive tried....
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? i dont know, im a loser?
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? hell yea! i love them!!!!
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? monday...
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? don' got one

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Lemon Iced Tea Snapple, and if i had my choice...Alex..
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? im veg...
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? i dont know, i was too drunk to count...
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? does slimfast count?
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? i hate myself, i hate my body, someone help me
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? sweets... I prefer sweet boys though ;)
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? OF COURSE!!(oooh erica..) doesnt everyone?im just kidding

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? alot
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? alot
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? of course...
4. Have you "done it"? you mean, am I a human being? ok then YES
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? wouldnt you like to know?
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? OH OF COUSE, IT HAPPENS EVERYDAY! like that would happen, im ugly
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? hehe...chelsea can answer this

1. How many credit cards do you own? 0
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? hot topic or utopia or fredricks of hollywood or coconuts or sam goody or tower records
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? pay off my best friends judge so that she end up with her dad again....
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? whichever as long as im happy, i dont really care about the rich part, but
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Damn straight!!!!!!
6. Have you ever stolen anything? i'll never teeelllll
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? lots?

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? nothing..yet?
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? nothing...
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? i dont want to say it, cause then people will start to tell me that im obsessed
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Depends on the situation
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? No but I would if I had a skill
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? HELL YES.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? absolutely nothing...

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? her brother as darling boyfriend...hehe
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? ME!!!
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? anyone, just not me...
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? honestly? hasnt everyone?
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? the power to do/be better, and make it through a hardship without fucking wanting to kill yourself for it...rachel i envy you...
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? nah, but whoever did is the FUCKIN SHIT!!!!!!
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Lust

current mood: anxious
current music: "Enter Sandman" -- Metallica

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Tuesday, September 9th, 2003
4:58 pm - Friends Only
Well, I assume that you understand the title, unless of course you are a pathetic unknowing peasant(sorry), but anywhoo...

Well, yes it is true that I am making my page FRIENDS ONLY therefore if you are a friend of mine and I do not know this then please by all means respond to to this message.

1. I am always right
2. If I (rarely) happen to be wrong, see rule number 1.
3. Thou must never question my oppinions
4. Thou must never question my beliefs
5. ThOu Mus' NeVa TaLk LiKe DiS
6. Thou must never tell me that I am too young/not ready for something; I.E. Anorexia, I have been for two years, so silence fool!

I will edit these rules sometime soon...
Thank You
Mizz Morbid

current mood: bouncy
current music: "Face the Truth" - Rufio

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Sunday, September 7th, 2003
12:45 am
love me
hate me
kiss me
kill me

the world hates me and i hate the world, the world turned its back on me long ago and i shall do the same, kill myself with noone to blame, but myself, and this stupid game, a game of life or death, i lost the match, im on my knees, kill me please, i want to die, dont ask why

eww, thats not like my other stuff, its too...jolly?

anyway, smokey joes was great!
my darling Hungry ushered and i was so happy to see him...oh i love him... and my obsession that is alex goldberg just happened to be there tonight

aside from my night at CAP being so great, im not feeling so jolly right now, i had two bagels today and 4 mozzarella sticks, and for some reason i couldnt throw up the bagels, i feel so guilty...grrr. starting tomorrow, im going on a fast, therefore i can strive my goal


eww, im disgusting

current mood: disappointed

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Saturday, September 6th, 2003
6:05 pm
eww, i feel all gross
well i had two bagels and tried...key word TRIED to get rid of it, it didnt work, and i feel really giulty and ugly and fat and somebody kill me

current mood: depressed
current music: Garbage- "I'm only happy when it rains"

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6:05 pm
eww, i feel all gross
well i had two bagels and tried...key word TRIED to get rid of it, it didnt work, and i feel really giulty and ugly and fat and somebody kill me

current mood: depressed
current music: Garbage- "I'm only happy when it rains"

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2:50 pm
i know i just wrote in this but it gives me something to do, and i just discovered some shit so let me be...

current mood: bitchy
current music: Cindy Lauper "Time After Time"

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2:45 pm
its saturday, and of course i have nothing to do all day until later on tonight, rachaeals hanging out with a friend from lv, and im stuck in syosset miserable and friendless...tonight im gonna see HUNGRY when i go to see smokey joe's cafe at CAP. i cant wait to see him, havent seen him in a while.....wish me luck

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