Kelsio's Blurty

Time:

5:16 pm.

Man I'm more tired than anything in the world. I got caught online last night and yelled at, just becuase stupid dogs woke my mom up. And then I had hw to do.

So it's like 6:30 and i'm in the shower thinking and I remember I have this huge project due taht I was sposed to do on last night. I thought oooo I can fake sick, but I can't because I have lacrosse tryouts afterward so yah. So I had to go to school. I didn't do ANY of my homework so I just was a mess today. I was having a very important convo with my eekie last night that required all attention, minus homework that means. So i like did a really bad job and then I realized like how much I fucked up my grades and everything. so I was going to skip lunch and do my project on a computer in like 20 minntutes but I finally was like you know what fuck it I don't care. And then all my classes the teachers gave us extensions on our homework so thank god I still am gonna do it and not get bad grades.

Then I just had lacrosse practice and I'm more tired than ever even yesturday. We did all this crazy ass shit I've never heard of, and so far I hear they are cutting three poeple and maybe I will be cut becuase I've never played before I mean I can do the stuff and I try but i dunno....I'm not the worst though... =( And I have tkd in like an hour and half. goody not

bah man I dunno just I don't feel like doing anything anymore being with poeple. they confuse me too much I'm sick of all these poeple that just make me feel like shit all the time no matter what. i dunno at least I can talk to some poeple about it i suppose but really i just want to tell some of my friends about my problems but I can't becuse i feel like im boterhing them or something. :( i dunno erica knows though. agh i dunno man I just feel like blah hitting something all the time. too much stress :(

bah right now im talkin to chris lol he's silly. playin fighter we tied though usually i kick his ass at it. bah there i snothing to do other than my homwwork so i suppose I will get started on it.

Comments: Add Your Own.

Time:	8:52 pm.
Mood:	confused.
Music:	red hot chili peppers- love rollercoaster.

OMg I'm so tired I have been doing homework non stop since I have gotten home. I mean yeah I have been talking online but still diong homework at the same time. I feel like falling over like my head sways inside my head if that makes sense. like I dunno i feel like I'm shaking on th inside I'm so tired and my abs hurt like ouch major. Bah I was talking about something that has been bothering me these past few days when my mom made me get off and she is still online right now. Helping greg with his homework practically doing his stupid scince project.

So now I have music blasting in my ears to help keep me from passing out. yah I did tha today in math. i was so tired I just couldn't helpt it I mean I really tried and I'd hold my headup for a little while and then wham next thing I know he's right next to me yelling at me to wake up that students don't sleep in his class. Something about polynomials or something I don't know. But yah I'm really tired, but I have some good music so I should be able to get through it for a while and then tonight I'm just gonna go straight to bed.

gah I've been having trouble deciding between reality and dream lately lol I have been having thiese weird dreams were I am talking with my friends like I always do I mean it's like it's not a dream it is real life and I will wake up and think aboutit and be like hey wait when did i have that conversation? LoL i feel a little crazy but it's all good becuase after a while I figure myself out. Agh I'm being yelled at that I am not missing tkd tnoight to goof off so I have to stop writing for now. peace

okay back now it's like two or three hours later though I dunno. Well I'm just for lack of a better word, pretty damn confused. I just don't understnad myself and poeple.

I dunno I 've been doing homework and then I took a break and talked on phone for a while with chris about stuff so yah. it's easy to talk with him, he's cool. so now i'm back here doing my homework and reading and talking with poeple.

Gah right after I got off the phone some guy i don't even know that like has been bugging me every day at lunch his friends all like hey go out with him, he's a freaking 12th grader that like weird I think, well he called me. i was just like ........ugh....... i have to go *click*

I dunno man these guys just confuse the shit out of me I dunno. I like one guy you know and he confuses me enough already. And then like I dunno other guys just make it more confusing and I just wanna be like gah stop liking me. bah. oh and I saw marc today. he was unusually nice to me.... weirdly nice. I dunno maybe he's gonna kill me or something.

bah I just dunno

Comments: Add Your Own.

Time:	8:56 pm.
Mood:	distressed.
Music:	red hot chili peppers- road trippin.

I'm actually now a little worried about lacrosse too. I mean yah hell everything like they wanted like crunches and push and endurace runnign shit like that I could do great but like the drills poeple kept helping me. But they say that they won't cut new players I mean they should if we really suck I mean I can catch and run and actually do good with my left hand but like all this doging and everything confuses me like crazy. Agh I dunno. I don't even hurt much from practice just I am tired. I did get hit in the face with a lacrosse ball though. those balls hurt like worse than everything I have ever get hit with... have a bruise tomorrow prolly. ah well. I dunno what tomorrow brings ...

Comments: Add Your Own.