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[23 Feb 2003|09:47am] |
ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL
MY MOM JUST FELL IN THE CIELING! HAHAHAHA
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[23 Feb 2003|02:35am] |
I like this webcam thing. Never knew about till a couple of days ago... and now it seems everyone has one.
Today I watched:
Chris
Leland
Some guy i don't know that showed his ass :(
Marcella
And some person from neopets. Yo no se. They are neato though
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[23 Feb 2003|02:30am] |
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Okay I'm happy but tired
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[23 Feb 2003|02:17am] |
i so sleepy... *yawn* but I dn't want to sleep or anything at all. My brother is awake. He told me he'd pay me ten dollars to see my ass. That bothers me... Well I have half a style done... I have to come up with the other half tomorrow so my mom will let me go to erin's. That would be super if she would let me go to erin's. I dunno. I will feel bad though becuase I'm not working so hard. Damn some days I just wish i never started tkd. But whatev I did and I can't change it I'm stuck with it. I just went to the website. So far I am ranking first in everything
GIRLS / COLOR BELT / 14, 15, & 16 FORM 1 KELSEY LEPP 39 DALE CITY, VA MR. MARK P. BROUGHTON
GIRLS / COLOR BELT / 14, 15, & 16 FORM 2 MONICA REARICK 3 VIRGINIA BEACH, VA MR. TRACY LEE THOMAS
GIRLS / COLOR BELT / 14, 15, & 16 SPARRING 1 KELSEY LEPP 27 DALE CITY, VA MR. MARK P. BROUGHTON
GIRLS / COLOR BELT / 14, 15, & 16 SPARRING 2 MONICA REARICK 3 VIRGINIA BEACH, VA MR. TRACY LEE THOMAS
GIRLS / COLOR BELT / 14, 15, & 16 WEAPONS 1 KELSEY LEPP 22 DALE CITY, VA MR. MARK P. BROUGHTON
GIRLS / COLOR BELT / 14, 15, & 16 WEAPONS 2 MONICA REARICK 3 VIRGINIA BEACH, VA MR. TRACY LEE THOMAS
okay so that works out good I'm still in the color belt division though untill my black belt gets it's decided bar. So I got against monica in 3 weeks. I remember giong against her as a weak little purple belt and her a recamended black belt and beatin her ass. I'll do it again or my name isn't kelsey. So it's all good :) I just gotta prove I can handle myself, since I ain't seen her in ... HOLY SHIT a year. Sparing I'll win Form i dunno most likely weapon, yo no se. I suck at my numchuck
man I go on and on and on somebody should just beat me with a stick
hmm tomorrow. boring. blah.
I think gavin should die his hair silver
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[23 Feb 2003|12:08am] |
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man so far this weekend has sucked ass
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[22 Feb 2003|11:09pm] |
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No it's like he thinks he understands but he has no fuckin clue. Just becuase he thinks his life is so fucked that everyone in the whole damn world has it better. His life wasn't just fucked over like mine was yah know and he knows all about this tkd shit I remember calling him like right after I competed at Worlds practically crying with happyness he knows how important it is too me and now I'm so angry. Along with that I'm already in a bad mood becuase I got fucking grounded for no reason. God I just want to fucking hit somebody right now. My best friend is mad at me. I'm grounded. My best guy friend is mad at me. My mom is mad at me. AND I was supposed to be studying tonight for a damn spanish test and I can't study now becuase I'm too angry so I'm gonna fuckin fail.
GOD IM SO ANGRY!
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[22 Feb 2003|11:05pm] |
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Dustin is making me so angry right now, becuase I know he is right. And I know lots of my friends are right but I don't listen to them
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[22 Feb 2003|10:49pm] |
man this sucks. sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. My mom was like no you can't go anyway and I finally did go anyway. And Erin called right after my mom left and was like oh well leland said he couldn't go. And then yeah and so becuase I had my mom's home I had to wait for her to get back. And some creepy guy was like hey come with me and grabbed me but luckily I'm super kelsey so I could get away. Then my mom came. And she yelled a lot. She was like kelsey, i'm not impressed with your friends, they aren't good friends. blah blah blah going on and on comparing them to marc and it was pissing me off so bad. Whatever it's her fault anyway becuase I shouldn't have left untill like 9:30 but she made me leave the hosue at like 9:15 because she had to drive somewhere so yup... Bah whatever.
No I'm fuckin bored and pissed off at the same time...
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[22 Feb 2003|07:37pm] |
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Despite the fact that I was told I am not allowed to take ricas kids anywhere, go anywhere with Erin, or anywhere else I am somehow ending up going to the movies with leland and other ppl. Weird how things work out? Hmm well hopefully tonight will not be so terrible and friday night. That would be nice if it wasn't. Well yup. Idunno. Yo no se as I say. hey that rhymes man
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[22 Feb 2003|06:40pm] |
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I made a neato icon. You like? Yes tha is me that mustache and the horns, all of it is me yupyupyup. Man I am so bored. I was supposed to take Rica's kids to see daredevil...which I've seen 1.5 times already. My mom wants me to stay home and study for a spanish quiz. God it makes me so angry. and I know I'm gonna fail it anyway.
man I'm just not feeling good.
I put together some crappy routine for the tournament coming up with doubles. My left hand isn't as fast though so I need to work on it. RIght now I could pass out on the floor but I have so much else to do. Damn it! I'm so bothered.
Bah I am just so bored. Just talking to Chris right now, he amuses me so it's okay.
Hey somehow I'm ending up maybe going to the movies even though my mom just told me I'm supposed to be inside dying... yo no se
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[22 Feb 2003|03:14pm] |
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Man I'm so so so stressed. My mom like broke down crying today becuase she realized what a screwed "child hood" I had or wahtever. she apologized for making me learn how to be responsible at the age of 7 or whatever and for dumping my brother and gran on me while she was busy doing her own damn thing. I dunno the whole conversation just really made me angry.
Well it's done. I'm officialy dedicated to tkd for the next three years of my life. Starting this june I can kiss my friends good bye.
Man there's so much more, but it's too complicated to even write or think about. Right now I just want to go sleep
But I can't becuase I have to go downstairs and put together a routine for a tournament in three weeks. I'm going up against my second in state champ so i ahve to show her up.
Man I just hurt right now. I've been teaching nonstop since nine in the morning. mr.B went to the tournament today so Mrs. B had me teach all the classes. It was fun i saw, becuase I could do it my own way without mr.b watching over my shoulder. The kids had a lot of fun though. Even if it was only a one person class for a while becuase of the rain. It's all good though. See when I get to teach the way I want it makes me want to be an instructor but when I have to do the crap that Mr.B does it makes me hate shit.
I dunno man. I know how much my mom is dealing with to get me into this world championship position. I jus feel like, I'm letting everybody down somehow. I dont expect to get first first first like I always do, I just want a first place in form and get my uniform with world champ written on the back, and do it before my brother does or anyone else, or marc. I dunno man. I used to feel that I could do anything, i was kelsey man Kelsey rocks kelsey does it all. But I don't anymore. Once I gave up that one time I realized how easy it is to just not care. And now I don't want to care. But no, I'm going to work really hard now becuae I know poeple are counting on me, mr.b especially. They are really helping and I will feel so guilty if I come back not placing at all just becuase I was a lazy ass and decided to be with my friends all the damn time instead of practicing like I should.
stuff 2 do:
study for that 90 word spanish quiz on monday that i havn't even started studying for but i got the stuff for a week ago....
put together double's routing becuase i can't let monica just walk away with first place
practice form so it's better than greg's
get my music down for festival
tournament in three weeks
Bah tons more but that already is a lot to do man, bah fuck this Im tired man and I have to go work on my routine. peace
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[22 Feb 2003|01:32am] |
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Man right now I just hurt even though i shouldn't. I hate poeple sometimes they are so damn confusing i just want to pretend I'm not alive anymore or something. It makes me angry. Nothing works out way i want it to, I'm used to that. But now nothing works out, period. Damn I just feel bad right now like everything is against me.
and I have to wake up and teach tomorrow. i would stay online to talk to leland but I really don't feel like talking to anyone at all right now. just feel like shit(emotionally) ba fuck this man.
I'll be online around three though becuase I'm going to talk to my jobanana around then. I'm so glad she's gonna be online. I need her so much I think, i don't like how dependant I am on her.
I think I have relationship issus with poeple or something. Not bg gf issues, I mean like everyone in general. i don't trust anybody, believe, listen, etc. to anythign anyone says because I'm so paranoid they are doing something to hurt me, when they most likely don't even know me. I just annoy the hell out of myself.
Today just wasn't a good day. at all.
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[21 Feb 2003|11:48pm] |
tonight just sucked ass.
I had to watch that damn kid. Then i had to talk my brothe to tkd in the rain. The tkd school was closed so we had to wait next door forever. then my mom called ans said she woudlnt' get there in time to pick me and erin up. And all this shit happened. finally got to the mall. walked around and met some ppl I guess you could say. Say mah black friend :P haha then other ppl. Went to vahns. And then I got stuck between Erin and Bri and I felt stupid. I dunno. Then I met this dude named Rick, and so me and erin and bri and gavin wandered around with him. We were gonna go to a movie, but didn't. and then we went back to vans. Then rick gave us a ride to the movie theatre and then my mom picked us up. and basically that was it.
man I'm sick of guys. No, guy, sick of guy. I just don't even want to talk to him anymore. everyone is like bah you should go blah blah blah. whatever. i don't even know how he feels or anything, and I just feel stupid right now. really vulnerable. it sucks ass. i want to not like him, but i can't. so im just gonna have to put up with my damn emotions for now.
I saw dustin tonight. at the mall. it made me happy, even if it was only for lke 20 seconds, he was happy and with Cassie, so at least I know he's okay right now. For now....
Bah right now I'm talkin to Chris, watchin his webcam. I want on of those! They are so neato.
Bah I dunno I'm sad depressed right now. I'll go. peace
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[21 Feb 2003|02:01pm] |
My brother is being unusually nice and watching the kid for me, so I could sleep. I think he just likes having somebody to boss around. But I'm gonna pay him half, becuase greg is watching him in the morning and I am watching him in the afternoon.
Hmm I'm gona go to the mall later wif Erin and Bri. Hopefully it'll be cool, yo no se. Gonna see final destination 2 whatever that is. I dunno.
I still hav paitn all over my hands from my keyboard. Now that I think abotu it, I wish I didn't apint it. Even though it is mine, I know my mom will be angry. It looks nice though.I still have quite a bit left to paint though. But it's all good.
Man I want to chop off my hair for some reason... I dunno. I just have the urge to take some scissors and CHOP like 6 inches off. But I'm not going to.
Man I hve one week left to decide my "fate" for the next two years. I dunno, I need to talk with poeple about it. But honestly nobody understands. Everyone I know is biased. My tkd ppl of course say go for world champion, my frinds out of it though say to not do it and have a normal life for a while instead of going everywhere diong everything. There is nobody I know that I can talk to about thi, that isn't a friend and isn't in tkd. I need like a mentor or something man. I wish Denise was here... I wonder if she ever got her green card or whatever. They probably shipped her back off to Boivia. Man though. She was teh coolest. Or maurice, or Lauren. Natalie, they were all tight.
Yup those poeple were cool, and they wouldn't have given me stupid opinions.
I dont know why I just had to write explanation about each of them
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[21 Feb 2003|12:14am] |
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man I like this friends only entry option thing. It rocks.
I look back on my entires and think about how much i freakin have to describe every little last detail. It annoys me. Bah.
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[20 Feb 2003|06:29pm] |
Bah this sucks ass. I was gona go to the mall tonight but I don't have anyone that can give me a ride dammit! I can get there but I can't get home. Erin can't go and I thought maybe I could get a ride home with bri but no. Cauz maybe me and carla were gonna go and I was gonna give her a ride to and somehow get a ride back. bah "No good" yes no good damn it. Agh well I can go tomorrow with Erin so that's good.
Might spend nighta t erin's tonight but I would have to be home by like hmmm 7:30 in the morning cauz I have to watch that damn child again. Damnnnnnn
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bah I'm bored man. I'm so bored. There is absolutely nothing to do either. I think I'm gonna go to catcha movie at the mall w/Erin later. That'd be cool. After tkd.... god what an asshole. Gah if your gonna say one thing stick with it, don't change it. So I have to go instructor class tonight. lucky me. So I get out around eight, and after that I'm gonna rush to the mall like a speeding bullet so I can see Erin. And then do whatever, yo no se.
That's my new favorite phrase.
Agh man I am so tired. I went to bed around 4 or 5 I guess and I woke up again at 5:30 cauz of my alarm. Then I fell asleep and I got a call from David saying he was gonna drop Nathan off. So I'm asleep and I'm thinking god who the hell rings the doorbell and 7:30 in the morning but then I remembered. SO I sat on the couch to watch t.v. with Nathan and next thing I know I'm asleep and then I wake up around two and the house looks like a bunch of stampeding elephants had a party there. And I had to clean it all up. So now I'm semi awake. Gah I feel ikcy I havn't done anything at all this whole week except go to the mall a couple of times. And eat junk food all week. Teach last night. So I'm more bored than a monkey locked in a box. At least I'm somewhat comprehending today.
I just am not in the mood to go take tkd tonight. Ugh and marc is gonna be there too. I havn't talked to him since sunday, so yah. Oh well.
Bah I hope my mom lets me go to the mall tonight.
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[20 Feb 2003|02:26am] |
Man movie was fun with eekie and carler.
if my writing sucks right now, sorry it's the weird sleep.
yah we saw daredevil. The one that I srota saw with Erin and Bri but then we didn't like it and left. It actually turned out okay. Of course the girl had to die... but then did she die...? O.o
yo no se. Agh I'm bored right now and I can't think well. I'm fighting theurge to fall to the ground. I don't know why i am so damn tired. I didn't even know I was on the ground....! I wake up and it's like two and I'm wondeing what the hell I"m doing on the floor. And Is ee this shoe next to me. And first I try to put it on my hand then my head. And I realize what the hell I'm doing and I'm like damn.... I'm stupid. More stupid than wheN i just woke up the other night and was talking to leland like all stupidfied.
bah hmm tkd sucked ass. No I taught well tonight. They listened to me better than him and so that got me compliments I believe. Taught form and all kids actually remembered what tehy were doing. I think they were all really bored and practiced at home or something before they came. Then went to get eekie chan and all.
man I am confused about someone right now. Eh whatever I'm too tired to be thinking right now
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[20 Feb 2003|02:07am] |
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Man. I sign on. Put my head down and wake up every other hour and sign back on becuase it kicks me off. Wierd sleeping pattern I guess you coulds ay.
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