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[02 Mar 2003|04:40pm] |
Sorry I havn't been updating much. I've been having fun playing with my livejournal. Blah this weekend was okay, not the best not the worst. I wish I had more time you know lol that's all. I had fun though. Did Erin's family thing it was okay it was kind of weird though I dunno. Had funs neaking aroudn the hotel at night especially hide and seek hahahaha. We got yelleda t though. Lets see right now i am doing tons and tons and tons of homework which doesn't make me happy. hahah I have had like 3 weeks to study for this long ass spanish test and I keep putting it off and I know we will have it tomorrow so hahaha you know what whatever if I fail too bad.
Hmm lest see anything new? Not really. I got a bunch of groovy music that i dl'd on my comp finally I never get new stuff. I have somewhere around 800-900 minutes of music or so. Hmm right now my mom is yelling and everything and it sucks ass but whatever. Wow I heard somethign this week that really pissed me off a lot. I won't explain really but you know I'm just sick of poeple that play these little games. It just really pisses me off and I dunno whatever if they wanna be liekt aht fine, forget them, they'll be good friends but that's it. bah whatever. I have lots of work to do so I shall be getting to that now i suppose. peace
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[26 Feb 2003|03:45pm] |
Wow I'm talking to like so many poeple and now all my windows are fucked up and I can't see anything. Damn it stupid web cams cauz my computer to get fucked up really bad and it pisses me off mucho.
Agh well today I woke up and then atround 8 I went back to bed and I woke up like around hmmm two and then yah. So far I just sat here talking to poeple and eating ice cream all day. Fun fun fun not. I really need to work on my homework becuase I have to teach class in like hmmm hour and a half or so. damn it.
bah I'm feeling okay though today at least I got some much needed sleep which is good
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[26 Feb 2003|07:01am] |
OMG I found a clone high quiz and guess what I am abe go me hahaha I wish it had a picture though
You're Abe! You may seem like a doofus, but you're
really smart. Your most daunting fear is that
you won't live up to your predecessor's
reputation (and that JFK will steal Cleo
again).
What Clone High character are you?
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[26 Feb 2003|06:44am] |
omg I'm so happy! School is closed. I'm too awake to go back to bed though, and I don't wanna waste my free day... Wow I don't know what I'm going to do. There is nothing to do other than homework though. So it's like God loves me today and sent me this day to do all of my assignments that I didn't do becuase I was too tired. So lets see I have
Heritage project
Plagerism term paper or whatever
Chapter 28 section 1,2,3 review
Two spanish worksheets
Spanish test tomorrow =) thank god no s school
A book I'm sposed to read
Lots of math
Bah everyone's like damn I'm asleep gah I wish I could sleep I can't thoughbecuase I just took a really long showerso I think I'm just gonna go eat and yell at my dumbass brother for being awake. Damn it! bah stupid child. Hmmm homework time and then I can actually sleep tonight instead of staying up late diong hw and talking and talking well I don't really talk and it's not like anyone cares so yay sleep sleep. i dunno sometimes I get so tired my head shakes on inside but I know my body is still and my vision gets all blurry and I lose my balance yah that is never a good thing yah know especially when your trying to learn in school.
Okay I'm gonna go eat now byebye
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[25 Feb 2003|08:56pm] |
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I'm actually now a little worried about lacrosse too. I mean yah hell everything like they wanted like crunches and push and endurace runnign shit like that I could do great but like the drills poeple kept helping me. But they say that they won't cut new players I mean they should if we really suck I mean I can catch and run and actually do good with my left hand but like all this doging and everything confuses me like crazy. Agh I dunno. I don't even hurt much from practice just I am tired. I did get hit in the face with a lacrosse ball though. those balls hurt like worse than everything I have ever get hit with... have a bruise tomorrow prolly. ah well. I dunno what tomorrow brings ...
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[25 Feb 2003|08:52pm] |
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OMg I'm so tired I have been doing homework non stop since I have gotten home. I mean yeah I have been talking online but still diong homework at the same time. I feel like falling over like my head sways inside my head if that makes sense. like I dunno i feel like I'm shaking on th inside I'm so tired and my abs hurt like ouch major. Bah I was talking about something that has been bothering me these past few days when my mom made me get off and she is still online right now. Helping greg with his homework practically doing his stupid scince project.
So now I have music blasting in my ears to help keep me from passing out. yah I did tha today in math. i was so tired I just couldn't helpt it I mean I really tried and I'd hold my headup for a little while and then wham next thing I know he's right next to me yelling at me to wake up that students don't sleep in his class. Something about polynomials or something I don't know. But yah I'm really tired, but I have some good music so I should be able to get through it for a while and then tonight I'm just gonna go straight to bed.
gah I've been having trouble deciding between reality and dream lately lol I have been having thiese weird dreams were I am talking with my friends like I always do I mean it's like it's not a dream it is real life and I will wake up and think aboutit and be like hey wait when did i have that conversation? LoL i feel a little crazy but it's all good becuase after a while I figure myself out. Agh I'm being yelled at that I am not missing tkd tnoight to goof off so I have to stop writing for now. peace
okay back now it's like two or three hours later though I dunno. Well I'm just for lack of a better word, pretty damn confused. I just don't understnad myself and poeple.
I dunno I 've been doing homework and then I took a break and talked on phone for a while with chris about stuff so yah. it's easy to talk with him, he's cool. so now i'm back here doing my homework and reading and talking with poeple.
Gah right after I got off the phone some guy i don't even know that like has been bugging me every day at lunch his friends all like hey go out with him, he's a freaking 12th grader that like weird I think, well he called me. i was just like ........ugh....... i have to go *click*
I dunno man these guys just confuse the shit out of me I dunno. I like one guy you know and he confuses me enough already. And then like I dunno other guys just make it more confusing and I just wanna be like gah stop liking me. bah. oh and I saw marc today. he was unusually nice to me.... weirdly nice. I dunno maybe he's gonna kill me or something.
bah I just dunno
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[25 Feb 2003|05:16pm] |
Man I'm more tired than anything in the world. I got caught online last night and yelled at, just becuase stupid dogs woke my mom up. And then I had hw to do.
So it's like 6:30 and i'm in the shower thinking and I remember I have this huge project due taht I was sposed to do on last night. I thought oooo I can fake sick, but I can't because I have lacrosse tryouts afterward so yah. So I had to go to school. I didn't do ANY of my homework so I just was a mess today. I was having a very important convo with my eekie last night that required all attention, minus homework that means. So i like did a really bad job and then I realized like how much I fucked up my grades and everything. so I was going to skip lunch and do my project on a computer in like 20 minntutes but I finally was like you know what fuck it I don't care. And then all my classes the teachers gave us extensions on our homework so thank god I still am gonna do it and not get bad grades.
Then I just had lacrosse practice and I'm more tired than ever even yesturday. We did all this crazy ass shit I've never heard of, and so far I hear they are cutting three poeple and maybe I will be cut becuase I've never played before I mean I can do the stuff and I try but i dunno....I'm not the worst though... =( And I have tkd in like an hour and half. goody not
bah man I dunno just I don't feel like doing anything anymore being with poeple. they confuse me too much I'm sick of all these poeple that just make me feel like shit all the time no matter what. i dunno at least I can talk to some poeple about it i suppose but really i just want to tell some of my friends about my problems but I can't becuse i feel like im boterhing them or something. :( i dunno erica knows though. agh i dunno man I just feel like blah hitting something all the time. too much stress :(
bah right now im talkin to chris lol he's silly. playin fighter we tied though usually i kick his ass at it. bah there i snothing to do other than my homwwork so i suppose I will get started on it.
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[25 Feb 2003|12:20am] |
man im in a bad bad bad situation right now and it's really not good.
oh and im still not done with my hw ive been busy talking to erica and marcella :( so damn myself and damn me too for liking a guy man last thing i need right now. damn me
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[24 Feb 2003|11:53pm] |
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bad stuff always happens to kelsey but i am just not gonna say what bad stuff now
:*( but it's bad.
i make decisions and now i stick with em I can't change what i did and I wish i could but i can't
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[24 Feb 2003|10:15pm] |
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lol I know that dustin knows all of this shit and just things god what the hell happened to you kelsey you used to be the most mature person I knew know your just... fucked up hahahaha yeah but I still love you dustin
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[24 Feb 2003|10:03pm] |
Hmm wow these online rules suck. now I'm not aloud to get on untill ater 8 at night, which is kind of okay becuase I'm only home for a half an hour before than anyway. And then after that only 1/2 an dhaour every hour may I be online. Yup. I dunno. Man today was tiring. I didn't know about the delay :( I waited outside for awhile and then yah. got to school and orchestra sucked, we played like different becuase we're rushed for tiem. We were sposed to have a concert tomorrow? not that I ever pay attention. But they cancelled it. And then went to science and it sucked I mean I got to talk to Kim and I havn't seen her since like a week so that was good. Then gym spent the whole period just writing notes to poeple so it was okay. Spanish ugh thank god we didn't have the test I'm so happy we're having it on wednesday but I didn't do my homework so I got a zero, dammit. What else? Hmm oh yes lacrosse tryouts. It wasn't physically hard. But I started off on a bad foot by leaving my mouth guard and physical in the locker room and being late getting it so I had to run and catch up with everyone and do everything faster for a while. Then we had to do stuff and my and my partner were set to go last so everyone was watching us mess up becuase we've both not played much before. We had to do pushups and I was like laughing my ass off at these girls practically begging to go down on their knees I mean yah I do em on my knees when I can, but I can do them right when i need to, just as well. It was amusing. So now I am home it is 5:33 and I need to go get ready to teach a tiny tiger class at six.... gah some of the kids in this class annoy the hell out of me. I spent like fourty minutes ironing my stupid uniform so I couldn't get on to write much anyway. Hmm I have two projects I need to do tonight and 3 chapter reviews which I'm gonna be tested on. Hmm I shoulda possibly done it earlier this week but it's okay. Bah it sucks all my hard classes are on odd days. green days I think they are. it sucks :( Hmm though I was lucky and got home from try outs late enough for my brother to be forced to walk to tkd, I didn't have to walk him which is good he needs to learn how to do stuff on his own. wow it turns out like all my friends have these webcams and I just never knew becuase I never said anything about knowing what they are so now I have been told that I am gonig to go buy one so then I can talk with marcella live or whatever. neato b jeeto.
^ written at like 6
hmm now it's like 9:50. Just got home from tkd. My mom said somebody called and she wa spissed becuase they were "rude" or whatever. Bah she's stupid so she's taking it out on me. And then somebody keeps calling jessie, asking for me. her number is edcat as mine except first two digits are opposite. 09, 05 yah know? so yah I dunno I got in toruble for that too. Grrreat. Bah. I haev so much homework to do though man. All this world history crap and pictures to draw for posters. and like blah it sucks ass major. I dunno. Right now my mom is online so I'm waiting to get on. I'm so tired, I've been at lacrosse then went home for a hour and then went to tkd so yeah lots of stuff to do. Hmmm I dunno nothing else happened. My mom ungrounded my bro, well not un, but reduced it. I hope she does mine or otherwise I can't go anywhere with friends this weekendd :(
aghh damn my eyes hurt from tiredness but I have very much to do.
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[24 Feb 2003|07:30am] |
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damn those bastards who closed schoool for two damn hours! so i waited outside and some kid I hated was out there just me and him and then finally after 15 minutes he's like hey did we miss the bus. then some lady drove up and was like hey guess what 2 hour delay. i felt stupid. and now I think i will do my hoemwork. or something else.
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[23 Feb 2003|10:50pm] |
lets see stuff ive done to amuse myself.
paint more
um cut my hair two inches :) it was bothering me. it looks the same though :(
talk on yahoo wtih marcella
watch chris on webcame
watch leland on web cam
talking right now to ppl
damn boys confuse me so much now and it's not good for me. I dunno man, this is not good. not good at all. im so stupid man just somebody beat me with a damn stick already stick pins insdie a voodoo kelsey doll
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[23 Feb 2003|07:13pm] |
wow my hair smells really good i kepp sniffin it becuase that shampooo smelt really good. yum yum yum I could eat my hair but I bet it wouldn't taste good.
AND FUCK IM BORED
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[23 Feb 2003|05:57pm] |
I'm feeling so good right now despite all this crap with my mom. She bought me some shampoo at the grocery likes I asked her to and it smells so good. It makes me think of world's last year becuase it's thesame shampoo I had packed when I left. God that is all my mind is on lately, well that and a few assorted poeple. So i feel all fresh and ready to study hard for my spanish test. I'm gonna get online soon when my mom is offline hopefullly she won't notice me on.
Wow I was getting my laundry and I just noticed how many white tank tops I have that are exactly the same. I mean my friends that spend the night notice but I never really payed attntion. I have 21 white tank tops. That is sad. They are like all I wear around house lol I have so many becuase underneath tkd uniform you should wear a shirt and t shirts get hot and all. But I have a lot. AND my brother got katsup all over my shirt from world last yer and that was my second shirt so now I'm really angry becuase I don't have a world shirt I can wear anymore. grrreat.
Bah I'm so damn bored now waiting to get online. I'm in a happy mood though. I didn't get in trouble for my key board either, I still shouldn't have painted it out of boredom though lol. Or glued that quarter on my desk... or lots of the other stuff I do when I am bored.
See that is the great thing about bein a girl is everythign smlls nice. Body wahs smells nice. shampoo conditioner deodorant body lotion everything for girls smells nice. And a bonus is lipgloss usually smells and tastes nice. I dunno I was just thinking about that in the shower becuase my shampoo smelt so good.
bah I watched marcella on webcam today. i so need to get one of those and then me and her can have little secret conversations.
I never wrote down what courses I'm taking so hmm maybe I shall do that now
Spanish 3
adv. humanities english
adv. humanities world geography
geometry
biology
journalism 1
sympohnic orchestra(senior level)
and I'm taking p.e. over the summer soo it should all work out nice and good. yupyupyup.
So i sit. and wait. and wait adn wait and wait for my mom to get offline.
I love my rdcp cd. I listen to it all the time now =) like right now. It's great with headphones on then I can't hear my mom. God she's annoying e so much now I want my dad back NOW and she says he's coming back but I doubt it becuase I sure as hell wouldn't come back if I were him. but I dunno it's been like a month now so he shouldnt' be gone that long. Eh yo no se. i don't really care too much.
still waiting
man I need a hair cut. I havn't had a hair cut since I burned my hair like hmm in septemeber. bah. I want badly to just cut it off becuase it gets in my way. and my glasses are annoying me now too becuase I'm supposed to wear them when I am on the computer but I've broken them so many times that the nose piece is all retarded so I have to wear them down low and then i can only see half of what I'm reading and it pisses me off! Dammit. And when I painted the keyboard I painted over the letters and for the most part I have everything down but like letters zxcwb and such I have to think and look really hard to remember where they go and type and if I mess up oh darn. So I'm annoyed at that now also. I like the noise of my typing though I can type pretty fast so it just soudns do dag on ne
still waiting.
damn I AM BORED
man even though my mom just went to grovery store there is no food in the house. Just healthy stuff which is okay when your starving. I am so i'm gonna go get some healthy stuff.
But we need stuff like oreos and doritos and chips ahoy cheetos fritos, cake, ice cream, pop sickles, hmm what else. chocolate bars and chips yum yum yum more coffee more frappuccinos oo yes yes yes.
Now I want subway for some reason. And they say subway is healthy but I really think it's the devil in disquise or somethign.
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[23 Feb 2003|04:14pm] |
Man I hate my mom right now. I just want to beat her to death with one of those things you hit meat with, that has pointy edges. But no I won't becuase i am a nice person/loving daughter... sike
I am so bored. At least i'm talking to 09809375-923841 poeple right now so i won't be extremely bored becuase all the windows flash and it amuses me. =) but yup. bah man I'm stressin right now too much with all of this tkd shit and my mom going crazy. I just wanna hit someone! 0.o
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[23 Feb 2003|12:34pm] |
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Hmm my mom just left for the grocery store so I can talk. bah marc just called. I thought he finally got over me but no it turns out he was at a wrestling and couldn't call so he called me in teh car on the way home. I feel so loved... SIKE god he's getting on my nerves so much right now I just want to hit him. But it's okay becuase he was actually smart for once and we talked about tkd and how strange Mrs.b is acting. Yeah. I can't wait to spar Marc in class man I want to hit him so hard sometimes :(
ERICA I LOVE YOU!
Your a super person Erica and I know you could kick that girl's ass anyway so don't you worry about hurting her =) Your really a great person and they are jus bringing you down and hey babe you know I'll always be your punching bag anytime you need me! Or you can just come over to my house and beat the wave with my kamas! lol I dunno babe, but don't feel bad! Your loved! By lots of poeple!
^ that is for Erica, super girl
Anyway back to today.. bah I'm bored. And I havn't started studying yet becuase I've been busy with chores and shit. Bah I think I will get off soon
MAN I had to scrape all the paint off of my desk. I don't get waht the big deal is. It's my desk =( she's just going to throw it away when i'm gone anyway so it shouldn't matter. Trying to ruin my artisticness she is! Stupid lady... I should smack her with a fish
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[23 Feb 2003|11:00am] |
Wow I just managed to sneak on and post my entries so Erin would know what's up. I just managed to post em before my mom came in. See it doesn't make sense I can write in my lil blurty but I can't get onlline to talk.
Hmm okay it's like 10:50 and so far I have vacuumed and shampoed carpets scraped paint off of stuff that I splattered everywhere... damn myself... lets see wash dog and do lots of laundry. I think i dislocated my thunmb also or something becuase it really hurts now just moving it and that is not good. Well the whooshing noive of a vacuem in my ear combined with my rhcp cd was enough to block out my mom so i had to to think. About stuff in general I guess. Thought about tkd. Damn i have to teach tomorrow :( And I have lacrosse try outs also. Kind of nerve wracking I should say :( I don't know if I will make it. Only good thing about not making it is that I will have more time to do whatever I want instead of running sprints and laps all day. I mean it will help me with world's training and all but I heard the coach was a bitch major.
man my eyes hurt when I blink I'm so tired. I don't know what time i finally went to bed, maybe around 5 becuase I had to clean up my brothers mess. And of course i was woken up at 7:30 or so by my mother . I can't believe I'm up at eleven. As erin would know, I'm normally not functioning untill one or two on teh weekends. OMG two days in a row getting up this early! Gah
But gee i have done a lot already it seems to save time. Yo no se. see i wish it worked that humans didn't need sleep. I like sleeping, when I'm asleep. But I don't like going to sleep becuase usually there is stuf fi could be doing other than sleeping. I no make sense. Well I must get off now, i enjoyed my very brief conversation with marcella though.
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Man I hate this. It's 7:30 am. I'm only awake becuase my mom came and yelled about thie freakin broke stick weapon that broke a couple of days ago. The house wasn't clean blah blah blah she couldn't get to work blah blah blah. And my brother didn't help when she said to him to tell her what happened to the stick. He said kelsey broke it, and hse came up here to hide it. When ACTUALLY I gllueing the end back on and putting the thing down no it's side where nobody would play with it. whatever. My brohter was up till like i . damn oh shit. im dead worse now.
she just saw the keyboard. she's really pissed now
bah now it's 9:30. My mom is over my head in the attick and it bothers me beucause she might fall through and land on top of me and then I die.
Man I'm stuck doing chores. All day. and homework. And she'll be home till she goes to work and I don't like that one damn bit. I hate it when she is home. I wish she was never home. And as for rides places I could walk to most places and then farther places just hitch hike lol. but no man this sucks.
and now gronded from internet...sort of. She's only letting me on for 15 minutes at a time right now becuse I'm online too much. And my brother is pissing me off. god i hate him I wish he were dead or something he makes me so angry. Today I still ahve tons to do liek hw and weapon routine etc. So I'll prolly be online tonight later like atound 8 or 9
ERIN ERIN ERIN: I know sometimes you read my blurty so here. I'm really sorry I can't do anything today I thought I could but then my mom got really pissed. Once again it's all greg's fault he stayed up an entire night and made a huge mess and everything so that put her in a mood even though I came up with an ending for my routine already :( I have bunches of stuff I have to do and I'm sorry :( Maybe we can do something on Friday this coming weekend?
OH and by the way Erin I told my mom about greg listening in on the phone and what he said and my brother blatantly sat and told her that I was lying about him being watched becuase she wasn't going into the office. My mom was like greg you don't tell me what I will or won't do and blah blah so they fought and got angry and now he's grounded. Even though she's not in the office today like she said she would be becuase there is supposedly too much to do.
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